I've got a long chapter for you as a thank you!

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2 weeks ago Brody confessed that he 'loved me', now, he acts like I don't even exist anymore. He ignores me, hangs out with his old friends and is around every girl again. It's like he never met me and never changed, like he time travelled to before we met. The past few weeks were hard, I've told Amina and my mother everything and they supported me but they didn't understood what I was going through. I've cried myself to sleep the first few days after Brody 'kidnapped' me.

*Flashback*

Amina and I were walking towards our lockers, I needed to put my books away but as soon as we arrived at my locker, 'he' was there. Brody was there, not alone. He was pushing a girl against the lockers and was kissing her intensively, my locker, a coincidence? Brody was touching her everywhere, like everywhere.. he didn't miss any spot on her body. 3 days ago, he told me that he 'loved me' and now he was out here kissing some random girl? If he loved me, he would've fought for me, not kiss any girl he'd see. He was doing it on purpose, and ignored me as soon as he saw me. He couldn't care less.

"Huhuum, I need to get to my locker." I huffed, annoyed.

They both looked at me and the girl smirked, and Brody, he just looked at me and continued with what he was doing. Which was eating that girl alive, and no I'm not exaggerating.

"Get a room!" and with that I left and pulled Amina away with me. I'll take my books home this time, he better not be there tomorrow or I will book the room for them myself. Jerk!

*End of flashback*

What did you wanna hear? That I loved him too? I liked him a lot, I maybe even loved him. But I can't be with a non-Muslim, it would make everything more difficult and Amin and mom would kill me. But why was he doing this to me, he knows I care about him but he still was rubbing everything in my face. It was as if he was trying to let me see what I'm missing out on. I just hope it was worth it not saying anything to him, I chose my religion above him.. it was the right decision, right?

I walked to the back of the class and sat down, Amina and Malik weren't here so I was alone. I hated being alone, my brain would replay every detail from the past 2 weeks. Normally I had Brody, but he dumped me. Speaking about him, he just walked in the classroom taking the seat infront of me. Great, dejavu!

He looked at me with his icy blue eyes, smirked at me and sat down. To be honest, I missed his smirk, I missed his eyes, his smile and his touch. I even missed his touch yes, the times he wrapped his arms around my waist or the time he would touch my face. But this smirk was different, it was a sad one but also with a bit of anger in it. Like he was planning something, something I wouldn't like. I shook that thought away and opened my book.

Class was finally over, at least I thought it was..

"Brody and Safia, can you guys stay for a few minutes longer?" our teacher asked.

Brody looked at me and nodded at the teacher's question.

"Of course miss", I said in response.

"Your grades aren't that great Brody, so Safia, I want you to tutor Brody." She said what?! Me tutoring Brody? He wish!

"Miss I don't need a-"

"Yes you do Brody, If Safia is okay with it than you'll have a new tutor from now on." our teacher said.

"I'm not tutoring anybody miss." I said politely

"why not? You're a good student and you guys hang out a-"

"With all due respect miss, but if I don't want to tutor somebody, then you'll have to accept my decision." I know that it sounded harsh, but it wasn't.

"Okay Safia and Brody you need to study more then." she said pointing towards the door, indicating that we could leave.

I left and Brody was walking behind me.

"You should be honoured to be my tutor." Brody whispered close to my ear.

"Maybe you shouldn't be that stupid then." I said harshly. That was low of me I know, I shouldn't have said that but he needed to stop the attitude.

He grabbed my wrist and made me stop. The hallway was empty, that was our last period for today and everybody already left the school.

"Don't you ever say something like that again!" He threatened, making me look at him.

"What happened to you?" I asked with teared eyes, "You changed." I said letting a tear fall.

He pushed me against the lockers, holding my hands up next to my head.

"You made me like this again!", he said being too close to my face.

"Brody, you're hurting me." I said whilst I was trying to free myself from his grip, but he was too strong.

He loosened his grip and backed away, "I-I'm so-sorry".

And with that being said he left, what was wrong with him?

What was I doing? I was hurting her, me! The guy that would kill every other guy that touched her, does that mean I have to kill myself? The past few weeks were hard, I tried to move on. I hung out with my old friends again and started dating girls. Little does anybody know, that I only did it to forget about Safia. But that wasn't working at all. Every girl I took home, with the intension to sleep with, eventually ended up with me forcing them to leave.

*Flashback*

(A/N: You don't have to read this part if you're not comfortable with. Long story short: he almost slept with a girl, pulling himself away from her before anything more happened)

I've met Lania a few hours ago, I know I know, but she was hot. I took her to my place as my mom and sister weren't home. We got to my room and we started kissing eachother like crazy. I grabbed her by her waist up whilst still kissing her. She wrapped her legs around my waist and I carried her to my bed. I placed her down on my bed and lied on top of her. My eyes were closed on every move I made, as I saw Safia's face in front of me the whole time. After a few minutes she started to undress me, pulling my shirt over my head and opening my belt. When she asked me to the same to her, I opened my eyes. When I saw her looking at me, it hit me like a truck. What was I doing? It wasn't Safia, it was a random girl I've met a few hours ago. I stood up and looked at her before saying anything.

"What's up babe?" Lania asked.

"Get out!" I ordered as I felt my eyes tearing up.

"Why? We aren't done yet handsome, hell we haven't started yet." she said seductively.

"I SAID GET OUT!" I shouted this time.

"Fine, do what you want." she said annoyed and got out. I shut the door behind her and kneeled on the ground.

What is wrong with me?

*End of flashback*

I can get any girl in this damn city, but I still wanted her for some reason.. And I hated her for doing that to me.

He regretted every move he made on me, I could see it in his eyes. He still cares about me, he would never hurt me, would he? Of course not, even though he changed, his feelings don't change overnight.

*The next day*

It was Friday, more like FriYAY! I loved Fridays.. but who doesn't? I was walking in the hallways looking for the classroom for my first period. The teacher mailed us this morning telling us that our first period would be given in the new computer classroom. Which I, of course, didn't know where it was. I was going up the stairs with my head in my papers that explained were the classroom was. And if I hadn't have enough problems yet, I bumped into Nathan, well done Safia! Look at where you're going for God's sake. I literally bumped with my head onto his butt, stupid I know. He stopped and looked behind him and smiled evilly when he saw it was me.

"I thought that you weren't allowed to touch any opposite gender, excluding Brody." he smirked. I'm having a dejavu again..

"Oh shut up." I said walking past him, I need to get to class now.. not waste my time talking to a selfish guy. I arrived at the floor where I needed to be and wanted to open the door to exit the stairway, but Nathan closed the door and held it close with his hand.

"You have a big mouth do you know that, but I like that." he said taking a few steps forward. With every step he took, I backed up until I bumped into the wall. Typical.

Nathan grabbed my waist as I was pinned against the wall.

"LET GO!" I shouted. What does he think he's doing?!

"You know, Brody dumped you.. but I'm still single." he pushed my body against the wall and pushed his body against mine. I couldn't do anything, he was too strong.

"Let's see who is going to hear you now." he pressed his lips against mine and started kissing me.

I was punching, kicking and pushing him away, at least I was trying to, but he was too strong.

I started crying and I counted every tear I dropped, after a few seconds I lost count. He was raping me, why was he doing this to me?

"Please stop PLEASE." I begged a few times between the breaks he was taking. I felt his hand sliding down and with his other hand he was holding me tightly against his body.

"Ya Allah help me please." I was whispering. I was making dua the whole time while he was disgustedly enjoying what he was doing.

That was until I felt myself fall on the ground, he wasn't pushing me against the wall anymore.. he let go of me. My vision was blurry due to the tears, but my ears were working perfectly.

"YOU SON OF A BITCH, I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU! DID YOU HEAR ME?" I heard 'the person' punching him, I heard every punch. I was counting them in my head until I lost count. 'the person' was killing him, why didn't I care at that moment. I wanted Nathan dead, I wanted him to suffer!

"YOUR FUCKING LIFE IS OVER!" I heard 'the voice' say and that's when I recognized who's voice it was.

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My longest chapter so far, I hope you like it.

If I have any readers that were raped or sexually assaulted, without pressing charges, please don't let the person get away with it. You don't want any other girl going through what you're going through, do you? Be strong and let the guy get punished (by the police) for what he has done.

And don't ever lose hope in Allah Subhana'Wa Tahala, as He tests the one he loves!

If anybody needs someone to talk to, private message me and I will listen!

~Edited by R3Hijabi ~