My longest chapter so far.

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"Just a friend of the family. Funny fact, my mother set us up." she responded.

When I saw her drive off with another guy, I felt weird. Am I seriously falling for this girl? I can get every other girl I want, but why am I so jealous? And by the way, I already have a girlfriend. I sat down on a bench in front of the school to clear my head.

How can I be in love with a Muslim girl? I mean, I respect the religion and all but I could never see myself being with one. I'm with a hot girl who gave me every satisfaction I needed, but I still craved for Safia. What's wrong with me? The worst thing of all was that I couldn't share this with anyone else. My friends would think I'm crazy. They thought I was crazy as soon as I hung out with the 'muslim girl'. What would everyone say if I was dating one? I needed to get rid of the feelings I have towards Safia, I always annoyed her.. But maybe there was a reason for why I did that. My hands were sweating even thinking about her.

I stood up and walked towards my car, dropped all my stuff in the backseat and drove off.

When I arrived home, I saw everyone sitting in the kitchen. My dad, mother and sister. I can't lie that I have dreamed of this moment, the only nightmare in my dream was that my father had cancer.

Even though I was happy to see them together, something inside me was depressed. I greeted them and made my way to my room. I wasn't in a talky mood.

I let myself fall on my bed and began thinking again. Everytime I was alone my mind was giving me a headache. I took my phone out and started texting Nat if she wanted to come over, maybe she can change my mood. She was actually pretty good in doing that.

As soon as I wanted to send the message, someone knocked on my door. I stood up and opened the door only to see my dad standing in the hallway.

"Hey, can I come in?" he asked.

I gave him a sign to come in and he closed the door behind him. He looked around and eventually sat down next to me.

"So tell me, what's wrong?" he asked.

"Nothing dad."

"Don't lie Brody, you have that frown." he pointed at it and waited for an explanation.

"It's like when you were little, you always had that frown whenever mom gave Britt more attention than she gave you." he added.

I knew that I had that frown everytime I was jealous, but I didn't know he actually remembered that.

"So? Are you going to tell me or are you letting me guess?"

I shrugged and said nothing. I hardly believed that he would guess what was going through my mind.

"Fine.. Okay euhm."

"Is it about school?" he guessed.

I shook my head.

"About your girlfriend?"

I shook my head again. Although it was a little bit.

"Oh I know, that girl you couldn't keep your eyes off!"

I was surprised that he guessed that, I shrugged again and didn't say or do anything further.

"Okay so, I'm right? What's her name?" my dad asked.

"Safia." I said looking at him.

"Okay, Safia. Beautiful name, so what's the deal with her?" he asked.

"It's nothing really", I was getting mad just thinking about it. I hated myself that I cared too much about her.

"Brody you don't ha-"

"You have no idea what's going through my mind, so don't think you can play my father again just because you're dying!" I interrupted him roughly. I didn't mean it, I noticed that he was hurt by my words.

"Dad I didn't mea-"

"No it's okay, it's the truth." he said smiling it away.

"But Brody," he continued.

"Look at me and listen and then I'll leave." I looked into his blue eyes, which were the same as mine.

"Don't think that the outside is everything, I know you like this girl. I've known since the day I picked you up from that trip. When you look at her, your eyes light up.. Something I haven't seen when you look at your own girlfriend. Even though she's Muslim, don't let that stop you.."

I was actually shocked by what he said, it was like he was reading the question I was asking myself but he gave me the answers.

"Brody before I go, promise me 1 thing, just 1 thing." he was looking at me with his eyes widened.

I nodded.

"When I'm dead-"

"No dad stop." I stood up and felt my eyes watering and my vision went blurry.

My dad also stood up and tried facing me.

"Look at me Brody." he said turning my face with his fingers.

I looked into his bright blue eyes.

"Promise me that you'll be happy, even if that's with that Safia girl.. I want you to be happy when I'm gone." I opened my arms and hugged him while my tears were dropping on his shoulders.

We stood there for what felt like hours, I felt safe in his arms.. And I don't wanna miss that feeling.

*2 weeks later*

"BRODY WAKE UP! Dad's in hospital!" Britt yelled when she stormed into my room.

I woke up and panicked immediately, I washed my face, brushed my teeth, put some clothes on and made my way as fast as I could downstairs. I didn't have time to take a shower. I needed to be with my dad. We all jumped in the car and drove off to the hospital which was a 40 minute drive.

We finally arrived at the hospital, it felt like the longest ride I've ever had. We asked for my dad's room number at the reception and took the elevator to the 5th floor. We entered the room and saw dad lying there with a bunch of wires attached to him.

I was emotional prepared but when I saw him lying there something inside me broke. Britt cried but I tried to keep it dry.

Next to him sat a woman, someone I didn't know. As soon as we walked in, she said she was going for a drink and left the room. Probably to leave us alone with dad, which was nice of her.

"Dad?" I said with a shaky voice.

"Hey Brody hey Britt hey Karen." he responded. You could hear that he was weak.

"How are you dad?" Britt asked.

"Not good honey, I'm happy that you guys are here now." he said.

"Are you in any pain?" Britt also asked.

"It's fine Britt, I'll soon be painless forever." he said while a tear was sliding over his cheek.

"I love you dad." I said with tears in my eyes.

"I love you too son, don't forget what you promised me and of course I love all of you." he looked at us and smiled.

My phone went off and I had a text from Nat, Zac and Safia. I only opened Safia's text and it said: "where are you?", I decided to respond: "dad's in hospital, I'm with him now". I didn't bother to open the other messages, it wasn't important now. Safia asked me for my dad's room number and which hospital he was in. I gave her everything and put my phone back in my pocket.

I didn't want her to come, I didn't want her to see me like this but she was determined.

My dad looked at me, nodded and closed his eyes. The machine next to him started making a loud sound and the nurses and docter came running into the room. Also the woman that was earlier with him was back.

"Time of death: 09:03"

I couldn't believe what was happening, I looked over at Britt and mom and they were both crying. The nurses turned the machines off and that's when reality hit me right in the face.

"No no it can be true, turn it back on!" I yelled.

"Honey honey." my mom tried to comfort me but I didn't believe what was happening.

I left the room as fast as I could, I needed fresh air. I didn't want people to see me so I walked around the corner of the hospital and kneeled down.

"Brody?" I heard a soft voice say behind me.

I turned around and saw that it was Safia. I walked towards her and gave her a hug. She didn't push me away, she let me hug her and I cried on her shoulders.

After a few minutes we stopped and I looked at her, why was this girl there for me whenever I needed someone the most. That feeling I had in the forest was back, I entwined my fingers with hers. She didn't push my hand away, she let me do it. I looked back and forward from her lips to her eyes. She just stood there looking at my motions. I grabbed her waist with my hand pulling her closer to me, until our bodies were touching. I wanted to do something which I thought about a lot.

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Okay so it's the 18 of October 2018 and I'm literally dying. The comments on this last paragraph have me dead. I love you all but shut the fuck up if you think this isn't happening in real life 😂 Either you're waaaayyy too young or y'all just live in a strict country. So take a break, breath and then continue reading.

That will be all, thanks for coming to my ted talk. Bye

(I know the cringe is real btw, I'm dying myself while editing this. What was I thinking😭 anyways, bye again)

~Edited by R3Hijabi ~