It was game day....

I was really excited for Ranboo and I really wanted to be there to support him, but-

He doesn't need me there...I can just stay home where I'm sa- er- comfortable. But in all honesty, I'd rather be at home where it's safe. I'm-....scared.

Which is why...I'm not going.

I wanted to talk to Ranboo about this, but it just hasn't popped up in our make o- I mean conversations lately.

So right about now I would call or text him to let him know, since I'd just got to my locker- but....I don't have my boyfriends number for some reason- which is wierd cause he flirted with me a ton before we dated. Anyways, I'm sure he'd understand just this once.

I grabbed my things from my locker, then locked it back up. Then I headed to the bus stop- the one that would take me home.

It was pre game warm ups and I kept looking at the stands to see Tommy. I would've called or texted him, but I still don't have his number- which is seriously wierd and I should probably get it later today. Anyways, I was really motivated to win today's game so that I could gain just a little more confidence before I go ask Tommy to prom.

We'd just done the coin flip and I still hadn't spotted Tommy. Not to mention- the other team had won the coin flip. I didn't let it bother me though, he'd walk over to me during half time, I'm sure.

We were only down by a field goal, so I knew we had a chance to come back and win. Right now I was looking for Tommy- however I didn't really see him anywhere.

"Hey Ranboo?" I heard my friend Purpled ask.

I turned round to face him, "Yeah?"

He chuckled, "Uh- did you get asked out or something? I don't see Tommy anywhere and there's like- gifts n stuff at your locker-"

"No! I didn't get asked out- actually I'm doing the asking." I laughed then continued, "I'm actually looking for Tommy, but I dunno where he is. Its fine though, cause I'm gonna do it after the game."

Purpled smiled, "Thats great man! Everyone can watch you do it! It'll be awesome!"

I blushed embarrassed, "Oh, uhm- that's not necessary-"

"Nah dude- I'm gonna go tell the guys!" Purpled cheered then ran off.

I sighed, "Great."

Tommy hadn't come to say hello or anything, but that's okay. He probably got hungry and went to get some food or something instead. It's all good, but right now I had to focus on the game.

If we were gonna come back and win, I needed to seriously focus.

I lay down in my bed at home watching TV. I really would have loved to call Ranboo and hear his voice to ask how the game was going and everything- but I didn't have his fricking number!

Honestly, it's kinda annoying.

I sighed and just averted my attention back to the television.

We lost and I wasn't feeling that confidence boost that I needed. In fact I sorta needed a hug. And I really wanted one from m- uh- Tommy.

But still- I'm ready to ask him out. It may be kind if early, but I don't want to go through next week having to hear a bunch of dumb girls try asking my boyfriend out.

Anyways, I grabbed the flowers I had and then the box of chocolates.

This is sorta cheesy.

...maybe this is too much?

No it's fine.

He'll like it.

I walked out of the locker room and looked around for Tommy. My teammates were all standing aroumd waiting to see me ask Tommy out. But- I didn't see him around anywhere, and it was wierd.

Purpled tapped my shoulder, "Hey man. Bus is gonna leave in a bit. You don't wanna miss it...Me and the guys are gonna go now- sorry Tommy didn't show..."

I sighed, "I didn't see him during half time either...it's strange."

"He's probably on the bus waiting for you. So let's not miss it okay?" Purpled smiled.

I nodded, "Yeah...your right."

I walked with Purpled to the bus stop. I gathered up confidence before I got on and when I did...I took a quick look around to- not see Tommy?

"Purpled, I've gotta go! Tommy isn't here!" I exclaimed and ran off.

Purpled tried stopping me, but I had ready ran off.

He shook his head and sighed, "Ranboo- I don't think he came...."

I shook my head, "Ofcourse he did."

I walked off and the bus drove away. I went around looking for Tommy.

He....didn't come.

This whole stupid plan to ask him out and- he didn't even show up.

Maybe it's not his fault...perhaps I should've been more clear, but- still.

I think he should've come to his boyfriend's football game.

I sighed and sniffled, then I tossed the flowers away into a trash can. I began walking home and ate the chocolate as I drown in my sadness.

As I finished the box of chocolates I huffed and turned a little- mad instead of sad...why didn't he come?

I took a shaky breath.....Why are relationships so difficult and confusing?

I yawned and turned the TV off.

I can't wait to see Ranboo on Monday- er- hopefully I can see him tomorrow.

He is my boyfriend, so it makes sense to hang out with him on weekends.

I closed my eyes and cuddled up to my pillow, "I miss you Ranboo...."

I dozed off and couldn't wait to see Ranboo. I was also very excited for the upcoming school week. I was looking forward to being asked out by Ranboo to the prom.

I love you Ranboo.

I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your game.

I really wanted to be there, but I was afraid.

You understand though- you always do.