"I love....... Oikawa" you said letting the name escape from your lips.

"There you go....WAIT WHAT?" The guys said in horrified unison.

"I don't know, I just did what you said and thats who came to mind" you were even confused my your choice and sat there biting your lip reconsidering.

"It just didn't work, try it again" Noya suggested frantically.

"Ugh fine" you closed your eyes again but his face was the only thing you could see. His fluffy brown hair and soft eyes, his Cheshire cat like smile that you knew meant trouble.

"Is it working?" Tanaka asked hesitantly.

"Nope, it's still Oikawa" you said opening your eyes and shaking your head.

"But why?" Tanaka asked his tone harsh.

"I wish that I could explain it to you, trust me. Maybe it's the way he constantly pushed to get me to like him, he is so used to having girls bow at his feet that I don't think he knew how to handle me. But that night when he asked me to give him a chance it really felt sincere and it warmed my heart. He behaved himself so well when he stayed with all of you guys and he really tried to be good. I know you don't like him because of his arrogance but if you really knew how hard he worked you wouldn't feel that way." You tried explaining.

"So now what?" Noya asked in a softer tone.

"Now I have to tell him how I feel, and tell everyone else also...." You hesitated after saying those words realizing even further what you had to do.

"Do you think you can do that?" Tanaka said his anger subsiding as he saw the fear cross your face.

"Nope, I'm just going to move and change my number, that will be a lot easier" you said changing your mind.

"I'd rather you be with freaking Oikawa than leave and never speak to you again!" He exclaimed the anger coming back in his tone.

"But how do I do this???" You asked the fear in your voice evident.

"One step at a time, just figure out how you want to tell Oikawa first" Noya suggested.

"I'm just gonna call him" you pulled your phone from the nightstand and dialed his number.

"WAIT! It's 2am should you really be-" Noya started but was cut off by a sleepy Oikawa answering the phone.

"Hey Lil-cutie, is everything okay?" He asked through a yawn.

"Yes sorry I didn't realize what time it was, I just wanted to see if you wanted to go to dinner with me tomorrow?" You offered.

"Of course!" He said in a much more perky voice.

"Great dress nice and pick me up tomorrow at 7" you instructed before hanging up.

"There done" you said refocusing on the guys.

"Good we can worry about the rest later, let's go to sleep now" Noya said yawning after every few words.

You got out of bed and quickly changed, and got back in bed under the covers. The guys filled in on each side of you, Tanaka resting his head on your shoulder and Noya resting on your chest. The three of you were asleep withing minutes and it was almost peaceful other than the lingering anxiety.

The boys had to leave early the next morning for practice and you heavily debated on going but knew that people would have questions that you just weren't ready to answer.

Sitting down you decided to finally reply to several of the missed calls and texts you had received. Reading through them you found that Tsukki was pissed that you hadn't shown up to practice or told anyone where you had been. Daichi was more concerned than anything and texted a few times a day asking if you were okay. Kuroo was almost as mad as Tsukki and had tried to face-time 5-6 times. Bokuto texted several sad selfies not understanding why you weren't replying. Ushijima had texted a few times even and tried calling but then explained he talked to your mom and knew you were out of town and to call when you got back. Oikawa had also texted his usual compliments and glamor selfies but then just texted to complain when you didn't respond.

Looking at each set of messages the guilt you felt began to grow becoming almost all consuming. You shook your body and decided to get dressed and go to practice anyway hoping that helping the guys would distract you.

After throwing on some oversized unflattering clothes you grabbed your board and hurried to the school. School was out for a few day break but the guys still needed to practice due to Nationals being only a week away.

You slipped into the gym relatively unnoticed you sat your board against the wall and sat down next to it. Ukai was spiking balls down at the guys for receiving drills, he noticed you enter but chose not to call attention to it. After a few minutes he had them switch to serves so he could come off the court to you. He walked up in front of you blocking the view from the other guys.

"You look tired Princess" he said squatting down in front of you, he brushed the hair out of your face.

"Yea I was ambushed when I got home and then spent a good chunk of the night talking" you said flicking your eyes to the court.

"Is that why Noya yawned when he yelled rolling thunder? " He asked with a chuckle.

"Yep that's my bad" you said awkwardly.

"Did you at least get what you needed from the talk?" He asked.

"Yes unfortunately" you muttered, you didn't want to hide the truth but also weren't ready to confront it straight on.

"If it's making you this upset you could always put it off you know" he offered, his thumb swept over the stress lines forming between your eyebrows.

"That will only make it harder" you said shaking your head.

"You are probably right, well I need to go make them run or something" he said standing back up.

"I think I'm actually gonna head home if that's okay?" You said also standing.

"That's fine, just doing drills today so no big deal" he said reassuringly.

"Okay thanks, I'll see you tomorrow " you said turning to leave.

"L/N" he called as you walked away. You stopped and turned towards him "Don't forget your promise" his words hit hard and you knew that he understood your choice wasn't him. Giving him a quick nod you walked out of the gym.

The air outside was brisk but you felt you couldn't breathe enough in. You hurried back home and got on your bike. You didn't take the time to grab your helmet just left. You drove to your favorite bookstore and only relaxed when the smell of new books filled your nostrils.

You spent hours looking through books, grabbing more than you could handle on the bike. The owner agreed to mail them to you for an extra charge which you gladly accepted. Looking at your phone you were surprised that your date was in an hour and rushed home. Taking a quick shower and doing a simple makeup look you finished only a minute before Oikawa knocked at the door.

Excitement and anxiety made your hands shake but you hurried to open the door. He stood there with a big smile on his face and a single red rose.

"Wow you look Beautiful!" he enthused looking you up and down.

"Thank you, you look very handsome as well!" you said taking in his outfit.

"You told me to dress nice but didn't really say how nice so I was hoping this would be good." He looked down at his outfit unsure.

"This is perfect! Lets get going, don't want to be late for our reservations" You said grabbing your keys and jacket before following him to his car.

He hurried in front of you to open the door and held your hand as you sat down. Gently shutting your door he hurried around and got in and started the car. You gave him directions to the restaurant and he took off in that direction.

"I've got to admit I was a little surprised at your call last night, I hadn't heard from you for days and all the sudden you call me in the middle of the night." He said lightly teasing you.

"Yes sorry about that, I had been on vacation for the last few days and away from my phone." You said trying to avoid too many questions.

"So you missed me so much you had to call me and invite me on a date huh?" he said with his regular cocky tone.

"I'm starting to regret that idea" You teased.

"Well then I wont tease you anymore because I'm very happy to see you" he took your hand in his and kissed it. He rested his hand and yours back on your lap, interlocking your fingers.

"Me too, I surprisingly missed you" you said smiling up at him. Your words caught him by surprise and he turned to look at you, the way you were looking up at him through your thick eyelashes made his heart beat nearly out of his chest. He swerved the car slightly and then over corrected, his cheeks taking on a heavy blush from embarrassment.

"Sorry about that, forgot where I was for a second" he said clearing his throat.

He finished the drive to the restaurant and rushed around to open your door again, giving you his hand to get out. Your heart started racing again knowing you were about to admit feelings that you didn't plan on having, and you were now worried about being rejected. He could sense you were tense so he wrapped his arm around your waist and led you inside.

Once seated you both quickly placed your orders and then sat there in awkward silence. He seemed as nervous as you but you didn't know why.

"So...... how was your vacation?" he asked.

"It was good, I went to a couple of amusement parks in America and did some shopping and sightseeing. Speaking of which I got you something" you quickly dug in your purse and pulled out a small bag. Inside was a small box with cufflinks featuring your favorite Disney character.

"Oh these are awesome" he said smiling and picking one up.

"I know you don't usually wear shirts that would require them but you can always just wear them on special occasions" you offered feeling a little worried about the gift.

"I love them thank you!" he said looking you in the eyes and giving you a big smile. He put the box back in the bag and sat it aside, he started to take a drink when you blurted your confession.

"I love you" you said in a rush, he spit the water out in shock and then freaked out for a second.

"Im so sorry!" he said in a higher pitched voice as he tried to dry up the water with his napkin.

"That's okay I should've expected something like that would happen" you looked away feeling slightly rejected.

"Let me start over because that's not the way I wanted to react." He reached over taking your hand in his. "I love you too" he said with sincerity "I'm a little surprised to hear you say something like that though" he explained.

"Yea me too..... I don't honestly understand why I feel the way I do. Everything has been weighing on me so heavily lately and I talked it out with my friends last night and you were the one I decided I wanted." You said with a shrug.

"That makes me very happy to hear but are you sure? I just don't want to get my hopes up if you might change your mind" you could see he was hesitant.

"I'm sure" you said smiling at him trying to ease his worry.

"So what does this make us then?" he asked.

"Official?" you offered.

"Just you and I right?" he asked to be sure.

"Unless you want Iwa to be a third? Cant say id be against that" you winked at him making him laugh.

"I'd rather have you just to myself if that's okay" he laughed.

"Damn, cant blame a girl for trying" you joked.

The rest of the night was filled with fun conversation, talking about each others pasts and getting to know each other better. When the night was over you paid even though he protested and he drove you back home. He again hurried around to open your door for you and walked you to the door.

"Thank you for a wonderful evening" he said tucking your hair behind your ear.

"It doesn't have to end here if you want to stay the night" you offered.

"I'd better not, I'm trying to be a gentleman since its our first date" he said with a playful shrug.

"Well be a gentleman and stay with me so I don't have to sleep alone" you said trying to convince him.

"I wish I could, I'd love to have you all to myself for an evening but I just cant tonight. Maybe tomorrow" he offered.

"Sounds good to me" you said slightly disappointed.

"I do have a question for you though" he said stepping closer.

"And what's that?"

"Can I kiss you anytime I want now?" he asked with a devious smile.

"Within reason" you said pointing your finger at him in warning.

"How about now?" he asked moving closer. He brought his mouth inches form your throat making your heartbeat faster.

"Y-yes" you stuttered out.

"Mmm do I make you nervous Lil-cutie?" he teased letting his lips lightly brush your chin as he moved towards your mouth.

"Shut it Shittykawa" you scolded.

"Now I can't possibly kiss you, you've hurt my feelings" he said pretending to pout and pull away.

"Come here" you said reaching out and grabbing his shirt. You pulled him hard forward and pressed your lips to his. He smiled at the kiss at first and then wrapped his arms around you deepening it. Your bodies melded together and the heat of his body made your skin tingle with excitement. He pulled away and kissed your nose before walking away towards his car.

"Goodbye girlfriend" he said goofily.

"Goodbye boyfriend" You called after him waving as he started his car and drove away.

*Time skip of three years.

Things had changed a lot over the last few years, when you graduated you and Oikawa both moved to Argentina where Oikawa was set to play professional volleyball. It took both of you awhile to get used to the food and the new language but you both quickly adapted. The weather there was always so warm and that reflected on your now bronzed skin.

You had kept up with streaming online and now did it as a full time job, always creating and enjoying every moment. The world had felt like it was in the palm of your hands, both doing what you love and going through it together.

It had been hard to leave your home and friends but they stayed in touch. Most days you played games online with Kenma and occasionally Kuroo would steal his headphones to talk to you. He had been distant for a few months after you had chosen Oikawa but had slowly come around enough that now you could have fun conversations.

The biggest change happened one year after you had moved to Argentina, you had a few days where you weren't feeling well. After a trip to the Dr you were informed that you were pregnant. At first you were upset and scared, both of your careers were just taking off and you were still so young and didn't know if you were ready.

When Oikawa got home though and you told him, the smile that took over his face was so huge that your worries disappeared. He was an amazing dad now, even when he had a hard practice he would come home and play with his daughter. The even better part was when he would have a game in another country you would all travel together and see the sights allowing your daughter to grow up having explored the world.

In the end you couldn't have been happier with your choice and lived happily ever after!