As soon as Namjoon realized what he had said his eyes widened, his face turning into pure fear.

"Well?" Yoongi asked, taking a step into his room. Namjoon instinctively took a step back.

Right now was a side of Namjoon I had never saw. He looked petrified, nervous, ashamed, every horrible feeling mixed into one.

Not being able to watch this further, I took a step in front of Namjoon. "Whatever is about to happen, just rethink this. Don't blame Namjoon, it's my fault. It's my fault that Namjoon is like this so if you're gonna hate anyone, hate me." I say.

The room is silent for a moment before Yoongi breaks out in laughter. "Hate him? Hate you? Why would I do that?" Yoongi asks.

Namjoon moved out from behind me. "Why would you not? You heard everything I said, aren't you weirded out?" Namjoon asked.

"Why would I be? Like I said, I'm not homophobic. If you're into guys then you're into guys." Yoongi says.

"You're really gay?" Hoseok asked, smiling as he looked over at Namjoon. "Not gay, just bisexual. I still like girls. I just like guys too, I guess." Namjoon says, his eyes not fully meeting his friends.

"Then about what you said, is Jin the guy you're having sex with?" Namjoon seemed flustered by Jungkook's question.

"Because if he is then that's fine. Whatever makes you happy, hyung. I'll support you all the way." Jungkook says.

Namjoon let out a breath, as if he was letting go of this secret he had been keeping from his friends for way too long.

"He is." Namjoon finally says. I press my lips together as Namjoon looks over at me, his eyes holding too many emotions.

"So then are you two dating or?" Yoongi asked, looking between the two of us. Namjoon swallowed as he shook his head, still looking at me.

"No, we're not." He says but he doesn't say it like he's glad we're not, his voice is actually quite, sad.

"Well regardless, we support you. Whatever happens just know that we're still your best friends and we always will be." Yoongi says as he walks over to Namjoon and pulls him into a hug.

Namjoon hugged back, his grip on Yoongi tight. I could tell Namjoon was still shaken up from having to come out so suddenly.

When they pulled back, Namjoon turned to me. Without saying a word, he fell into my arms.

"I'm so sorry." He says, wrapping his arms around me. "It's okay." I say but he apologizes again.

"I shouldn't have said what I did. Jimin is right, you deserve someone better than me and I understand if you want nothing to do with me now." Namjoon says as he pulls back.

I give Namjoon a sad smile as I shake my head. "I guess I have nothing holding me back now so I'll just tell you." I say, not really caring that everyone was watching us.

Namjoon's eyebrows rose. "What is it?" He asked.

"I do care about you, Namjoon. I care about you a lot and when I said I didn't I said it out of spite. I was upset and I wanted to hurt you. It was a lie because the truth is, I like you, Namjoon. I shouldn't but I do. It's okay if you don't like me back but I just wanted you to know." I say, feeling a weight lift off of my shoulders.

Namjoon stared at me, his eyes glazed. I couldn't tell what he was thinking at all.

"Well, how will you respond, Joonie?" Jimin asked, grinning slightly as he leaned his head against Tae's shoulder.

Namjoon's jaw flexed as his eyes flickered from my eyes to the floor.

Finally, he spoke.

"For you, I'll try." He said as he leaned into me. "I'll learn to like you as you like me."

I smiled as I wrapped my arms around Namjoon, hugging him tightly.

When we pulled back I saw Tae and Jimin staring at us with heart eyes and happy smiles. The others looked just as happy.

"What do you say, how about we all go bowling to celebrate this little moment?" Yoongi said, smiling widely.

I looked over at Namjoon who was close by my side.

"I'd love that."

We all ended up going bowling and as excited as I was, there was no way I could reach Jungkook's level of excitement right now.

He was kicking everyone's ass. He was also quite cocky when he won but who wouldn't be.

"It's your turn, beat that." Jungkook says, grinning in my direction. I walk over and grab my ball, bending to pick it up.

When I stand back up I notice a presence behind me then I feel arms wrap around me from behind.

"Get a strike and maybe you'll win tonight too." I hear and the voice sends a shiver up my spine.

I looked back to see Namjoon standing behind me, grinning.

"I suck at bowling." I say and Namjoon chuckles as he moves his head in my neck, his lips near my ear.

"Even If you get a gutter I'll still fuck you."

His words excited me in more ways then one. Either way it was a win win and I was excited.

After many rounds of bowling, we finally decided on going back to our university since we all had classes tomorrow.

When Namjoon and I got back to our dorm Namjoon first sat down on his bed and laid back.

"Just as comfy as I remember." He said as if he hadn't been here in years. I laughed and shook my head.

Namjoon looked over at me then motioned me with his finger. "Come here." He said, his eyes on mine.

I didn't question it, I didn't need to. I already knew damn well what was about to happen.

As soon as I got to Namjoon he yanked me down, causing me to fall right on top of him.

"I can't believe you let Chanyeol fuck you." Namjoon says, his voice in a slight growl.

"So it does make you mad..." I say, my eyebrows raised. Namjoon looked up at me, his eyes dark.

"Furious."

"Then maybe you should show me who's better." I say and Namjoon grins, pulling my waist in closer to his body.

I looked down at Namjoon, taking in everything. This was actually happening. I had confessed and Namjoon was trying to make this work.

"Can we kiss?" I ask, trying to push my limits here. I just couldn't help this urge to want to kiss Namjoon. It was killing me.

Namjoon looked hesitant but covered it up with a, "Let's use that pretty mouth of yours for something else."

Of course I felt sad he dodged my request but I was still happy with what I had accomplished thus far.

I bit my lip as I moved down until my face was right in front of Namjoon Jr.

I glanced up to see Namjoon looking at me eagerly. He and I had actually never done this, believe it or not.

It had always been just straight away sex. There was never any oral or anything which might be a bit shocking if you think about it.

I looked back down in front of me and slowly took off Namjoon's pants until he was in his boxers.

I could see that he wasn't hard yet but of course I could change that. I reached my hand into his boxers and pulled him out.

This was obviously very different since I had never given a blowjob before and I was hoping my inexperienced ass could actually manage.

Gathering up the courage I seemed to lack right now, I slowly moved my mouth down on Namjoon's shaft.

Instantly I hear Namjoon let out a soft hiss noise and I looked up to see him watching me, his eyes glazed.

I could feel him growing in my mouth and it was getting harder and harder to keep all of him in, not without choking anyway.

I did what I had always naturally figured I was supposed to do, lucky that it was actually working.

As I sucked Namjoon I heard him groaning, his hips bucking and nearly choking me.

"Fuck." Namjoon would moan out. At one point he grabbed the back of my head and pushed me down a bit.

"Your mouth feels so good." Namjoon moans, his chest rising and falling quickly.

He was getting close and I was determined to make this good.

I looked up as I moved faster, bopping my head until my jaw hurt. Damn was this a lot of work.

As my eyes locked with Namjoon's I watched him coming undone. His chest was rising and falling alarmingly fast, his body wiggling around as he held my hair, gagging me.

"Wait wait." Namjoon said, his breathing quick as he pushed me back, clearly stoping his own high.

"What? Was it that bad?" I frown and Namjoon shakes his head. "No, I just need to fuck you." Namjoon says, his eyes filled with lust.

I felt myself twitch at his words. It had been a while since we had sex and I was craving this. I needed him.

I wasted no time in stripping from my clothes as I positioned myself for easy excess.

Namjoon was behind me in an Instant, eager to do this as he slid in without the slightest bit of prep.

I nearly cried out as he pulled out then thrusted back in. "Fuck I missed your body." Namjoon groans, his already hardened member seeming to twitch inside of me.

I knew he was already close to a release but I was just getting started. I needed more.

"Let's speed this up, Hm?" Namjoon asked as his hand came around my waist, grabbing ahold of my member.

I moaned out as he jerked me off while pounding into me from behind. It was definitely helping bring me closer faster.

"Ah!" I moaned, pushing myself back against Namjoon as he gripped my hip tightly with his free hand.

I was getting close to my release as Namjoon slammed into my prostate repeatedly, his moans sending a shiver through me.

"Fuck, Jin, I'm gonna cum." Namjoon groaned as he twitched inside of me, his hot liquid filling me completely.

I moaned out, that pushing me over the edge as I came too, shaking against Namjoon.

Namjoon collapsed onto the bed beside me as both of us came down from our high.

Just as I went to speak, Namjoon did too, both of us speaking at the same time.

"I fucked you better."

"You fucked me better."