That night I stayed over at Jackson's, learning some things I would have never known.

Don't get the wrong idea, it was nothing sexual. He was just telling me some things about the LGBTQ community.

Although I was having a hard time believing it, it was confirmed that I was bi-sexual.

I liked girls but I guess I liked guys too.

Thinking back to all the times I had thought about Jin in a way friends hadn't, did that mean I liked him? No. 

I didn't want to like Jin. It would be weird for me and definitely embarrassing to admit to him I was bi after denying this for so long. 

I just thought it was in my best interest to keep this a secret.

"Namjoon should be coming back any minute now, lets head to the party!" Hoseok said, smiling widely as he threw his arm around Yoongi's shoulders.

"I'll wait back. I need to shower real quick." I say and Yoongi nods before dragging everyone out. 

I didn't really need to shower, I just wanted to wait till Namjoon got back. There was something I wanted to tell him.

Tell him that I knew something he wanted to keep hidden. I knew his secret.

So I waited. I waited until the very moment he walked through the door.

"What are you doing here? The guys said they were going to drink." Namjoon says as soon as he sees me.

"I need to talk to you. I know what you've been trying to hide, Namjoon." I say, feeling angry.

Namjoon's eyes widened slightly. "H-how did you find out?" He asked, his voice nervous.

"How would I not? It was so obvious." I say and Namjoon waves his hands in front of his face.

"Please Jin, don't tell anyone." He says, his voice desperate. "Uh, okay? Why are you getting so worked up? I thought you'd want people to know..." I say. 

"Uh, what are we talking about here?" Namjoon asked, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

"We're talking about the fact that you slept with Sana! I told you she was the devil, why didn't you listen. She's gonna make your life a living hell now." I say.

Namjoon stared at me before he let out a sigh of relief. "Oh, that's all? It really isn't a big deal." Namjoon says and my eyebrows narrow.

"What else is there? Are you hiding something, Namjoon?" I ask, a grin surfacing on my face as I stepped closer to Namjoon.

"Of course not, don't be ridiculous." He says as he watches me get closer.

"I can tell you're lying. Why else would you have gotten so worked up. What are you hiding?" I ask, stepping into Namjoon's personal bubble.

"N-nothing." Namjoon says, his eyes watching my every move. I looked at him, my eyes searching his face.

"Are you sure?" I asked, moving closer, my face close to his. "I'm sure." Namjoon says but I see him gulp.

My eyes trail down to his lips and I feel my stomach turn. His lips were so...perfect. I wanted to...

I felt myself leaning in and for some reason, Namjoon wasn't moving away.

As I moved just a bit closer, the sound of a phone ringing caused both of us to jump back.

Namjoon rushed to pull his phone out, moving away from me as quickly as he could.

"Yoongi? Yeah, I'm back. I'll be there in a minute." Namjoon says as he hangs up and turns to me.

"I'm going to the party. Yoongi wants you to come so do what you want." He says before heading out.

I leaned against the wall and let out a breath. Namjoon and I had almost kissed and he didn't move away...why?

Shaking the thought, I head to the party. 

At the beginning of the party Namjoon was avoiding me like the plague but the fact that his friends were my friends made that pretty difficult for him. 

Eventually, he was stuck. He was now taking shots with Jungkook and I.

"How was back home? What did you do?" Jungkook asked, slightly yelling over the music.

"It was fine. I just hung with Jackson." Is all Namjoon says as he takes another shot.

He was planning to get drunk, you could tell by just watching him down 6 shots in a row.

"What was so important that you needed to go there?" Jungkook asked. 

"I just needed to talk to him, that's all." Namjoon says as he looks my way then says, "Go drink with Jin, I need to find someone." He says as he stumbles away.

I watched as he left, leaving me alone with Jungkook who was downing shots left and right.

He was out here living his best life and I thought for once, maybe I should join him.

...

By the time the party was getting too crazy and we were all smashed, it was going on 4am.

I was a little less drunk then everyone else but I was still wasted. That meant, I was responsible for getting Namjoon home, again.

"Come on, Namjoon, lets go." I say and to my surprise, he actually listened and didn't fight me on it.

On the way home Namjoon clung to my side, making sure he didn't fall as both of us wobbled home.

I was grateful once we got home because I was seeing two of everything at the moment.

As we got into the dorm I set Namjoon down on the first bed I saw, mine.

"Why am I on your bed? I can't..." Namjoon trails off, his face distressed.

"Go to bed." I mumble as I fall back into my bed, my face turned to the side where I could see Namjoon looking over at me. 

"How did you know my secret?" Namjoon asked, his words slurred as he moved, falling into the spot beside me.

"What secret? You told me there was nothing else." I say, raising my eyebrows.

"There is. The reason I went home was because I-" But Namjoon hiccuped, cutting off his words.

"You're gay." Namjoon says, his train of thought going out the window as he looked up at me.

"Yeah yeah. Just go to sleep." I say, not wanting to deal with him while I was in this state.

"I'm gay too, kinda." Namjoon says, laughing as he hiccuped again.

I swear I sobered up in that moment. "What?" I ask, sitting up and looking down at him.

"I like guys and girls." Namjoon says as he looks up at me, his eyes half closed.

"Namjoon..." I trail off as he starts to reach for my shirt, pulling me down, pressing his lips to my ear. 

"I thought about you while I had sex with Sana." He says, his words sending a shiver up my spine.

Before I can say anything, he speaks again. "I can't stop thinking about you." He says, his words slurred and hot against my ear.

I pull back, my eyes wide. "Don't say things like this, Namjoon, I know you don't meant them." I say, staring down at him.

Namjoon doesn't say anything as he stares up at me, his eyes half shut.

I couldn't hold back any longer as I leaned down, pressing my lips to Namjoon's.

To my surprise, Namjoon began kissing me back, his lips moving perfectly with mine.

This was the first time we had kissed. Namjoon didn't dare kiss me the night at summer camp.

As we kissed I felt Namjoon tugging at my shirt, his arms pulling me towards him.

I break the kiss and look down at him. "If you don't stop now I won't hesitate to keep going." I say but Namjoon only looks up at me, his eyes glazed.

That's all I needed as I crashed my lips back into Namjoon's, his body arching up into mine.

I was tugging at his clothes, he was tugging at mine. There was a lot of pent up sexual tension between us but that was all about to disappear. 

My eyes wandered over Namjoon's body, his skin smooth as I ran my fingers gently over his chest.

I ripped my shirt off, pushing Namjoon's away too. I was impatient. I needed this.

Once we were both naked I guided myself towards Namjoon's hole, easing into him as he hissed in pain. 

"Ah!" Namjoon cried out, clinging to my body, his nails digging into my skin. 

I groaned as I began to move my hips, thrusting into Namjoon. The sounds of his moans mixed with mine began to fill the room. 

"Namjoon, ah-" I groaned, snapping my hips in a way that made him cry out.

"F-faster." Namjoon moans, his face scrunched up as he clung to me.

I thrusted faster and harder, sending Namjoon upwards, clearly hitting the bundle of nerves that had him moaning out, cumming all over his bare chest.

The sight was enough to push me over the edge as he clenched around me, making the pleasure that much better.

"Namjoon-ah fuck." I moaned, cumming too as Namjoon whimpered, my hot liquids filling him.

I collapsed on the bed beside Namjoon, feeling high as the adrenaline and alcohol coursed through my veins.

As I looked over I saw Namjoon dead asleep, his mouth hung open and his body a mess.

Although I was drunk and I felt exhausted, I didn't want to leave Namjoon like this.

I stood up and made my way to the bathroom, grabbing a cloth to clean his chest. 

Afterwards I lay down, feeling beyond drained. I was definitely going to sleep all day tomorrow.

Waking up the next morning, I groan as a pain erupts in not only my head but my ass too.

My eyes widened as my head turned, noticing that I was in Jin's bed. I was smart enough to know what this meant...

"Seokjin!" I yell, my voice angry as I shook him awake, my anger level on 100.

"What? Go away." Jin groaned, trying to cover his head with the blankets. 

That's when I noticed, I was naked too. "Get the fuck up!" I yelled, ripping the blankets off of his head. 

"What are you-" But Jin's words came to a halt as he looked over at me then down at himself. 

"Holy shit." He said but he didn't look surprised. "What the fuck did you do to me? Who told you you could just violate me like this!" I whisper yell. 

"You did, Namjoon. Do you not remember what you said to me last night? I was drunk but this is what I do remember." He says as he motions between us.

"You're crazy! I would never give you permission to do that to me! I'll kill you." I say, my teeth gritted. 

Before anyone else could say anything, I heard voices getting closer to the door,

Jin and I looked at each other, our eyes wide. 

Someone was coming,

And it wasn't us.