«my heartbeating so fast»

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"Why'd you say we're on a date?"

Suho looked at me and smiled before answering my question, "it's fun to tease Seojun," he said. I could only nod and take a bite of the chicken I was holding onto.

Suho had his eyes fixated on me and I tried my best not to react to his obvious staring, "you look pretty," he said out of nowhere. He smiled and looked away while I nearly choked on my chicken and began coughing. My head bobbed towards to the table as Suho handed me my cup of water, "drink it," he softly told me.

I awkwardly nodded my head and took a sip as my cheeks turned red because of his comment. I remained speechless as he continued staring at me.

"This place is really good," shifting the conversation to a topic other than me, "I always come here," I felt a sense of relief when Suho decided to follow up on my comment instead of focusing on me.

Suho shook his head in agreement, "this is my second time trying the food," taking a bite of his chicken before speaking once again, "we should come again."

"Sure," was all I could manage to say as we spent the next twenty minutes feasting on our meal.

Instead of going home, I dragged Suho to the nearest clothing store. My eyes spotted a grey blazer that would fit perfectly on Suho. I grabbed the blazer and placed it on his chest, "you would look good in this."

I yanked his arm and inserted it in the long sleeve, he lowered himself so it would be much easier for me to style it on him but once I looked up, our faces were way too close. Extremely close. Uncomfortably close.

I immediately released the grip I had on his blazer when I saw his smile and turned my head to the side, "you should get this," I spoke lowly.

Suho pulled the price tag and checked how much it cost, sighing to himself as he carefully slipped the blazer off. I shrugged him off and began looking at some of the women's clothing.

"Look at this," I heard Suho say. I spun around and saw him holding a ruffled, white mini dress. My eyes widened at its beauty and I immediately snatched the piece of fabric out of his hands.

I looked at the dress in awe, "it's so pretty," but my fascination disappeared once I checked the price tag.

$54. For a dress I can find for $10 online.

"I'll get it another day," I muttered as I began hanging the dress back onto the rack it belonged too but Suho quickly grabbed the dress out of my hands and walked towards the cashier.

I stood bewildered at Suho's random actions and watched him from afar. He took out a credit card as the cashier carefully placed the dress into a bag. A wave of guilt overtook me once I realized what he was doing.

Did I make it too obvious I had no money? I should've just bought it instead of making a sad face.

"Here," Suho handed me the bag before exiting the store. I held onto it tightly and looked down, feeling somewhat ashamed that he spent his own money on a dress I should've just bought myself.

I hurriedly walked outside to him, where he was patiently waiting for me. My voice tried to thank Suho but the only thing I could do was anxiously bow my head to him.

I felt him gently pat my head before he slowly wandered off into the darkness. My feet quickly paced themselves over to him and I joined him on his stroll.

"I'll pay you back," I assured him but he instantly shook his head in rejection, "no," Suho sternly said, "don't," glancing at me as he denied my offer.

I just nodded in agreement and didn't even attempt to convince Suho to let me repay him for his kind gesture. We both walked in silence, occasionally eyeing each other while on our way to my house.

"Yeeun," I heard Suho call out after I unlocked my front door. He looked down at the ground before glancing back up at me, appearing to be nervous, "you should wear that dress the next time we hang out," he blurted.

I gave a flat smile and shook my head in approval, "I will," turning my back to him as I entered the dark and silent house, "thank you for the dress," my voice quickly spoke before closing the front door on him.

I rested my back on the living room wall and exhaled deeply. I felt like a horrible person. Why would I willingly go on dates with someone I have no feelings for?

Everything about Suho reminded me of . I couldn't help but imagine it was Seojun I was spending time with. From the way he looked at me to when he bought that dress, it was only

Seojun I thought of.

The next morning I still had that feeling of guilt. I hoped not to run into Suho because the sight of face would've made me uneasy. Not because he's ugly or anything, but I just don't want to see him.

My walk to class came to a halt when an arm wrapped themselves around my shoulder. I looked for who it belonged to and met eyes with a smug faced Seojun.

"I bet your date with Suho was the romantic thing ever," he squeezed my shoulder while releasing a chuckle.

I groaned, "here you go again."

Seojun looked around before speaking, "is your boyfriend coming to school?" he said teasingly as I could only respond in an eye roll.

"Jukyung will never like you back," I said with a sneer in my voice and almost immediately regretted it when Seojun just stared at me instead of responding teasingly like he usually does.

I elbowed him gently on his stomach, giggling nervously, "I was just kidd-"

"Do you want me to be single forever?" he hissed back.

Yes. The only person I want him to be with is . I can't imagine him with another girl, but he doesn't feel the same way back. I have to learn to accept that.

"She will never like you," I repeated in a joking manner, "loser."

Seojun's eyes widened after hearing my insult and wheezed in disbelief, "a loser? Me? Han Seojun a loser?" he closed the distance between our bodies which caused me to take a few steps back, "you are the last person to be calling others a loser."

My mouth dropped, and I whacked him on his chest straight away, "what do you mean by that?" striking him once more as he shoved his finger in my face, "because a loser."

I scowled at him and Seojun's expression rapidly switched to regretful. He faked a smile and shot his hands up in a prayer position, "it's a joke because you know friends joke around," his eyes awkwardly glancing at the ground then back up to me.

"You asshole!" I raised my voice at him as I lifted my hand to once again slap him but he promptly seized hold of my hand, "why are you always hitting me?" he questioned me loudly.

I defended myself, "because you're an asshole." I carefully raised my free hand and attempted to give him another beating but he swiftly noticed and once again clasped onto me.

He gently tugged me closer to him and began to scold me, "you should never act violent towards other people..." suddenly lowering the volume of his voice as our eyes were stuck on each other.

Seojun chewed on the inside of his cheek while scanning my face and froze once he reached the bottom half. I looked away in confusion and waited for him to release me from his grip.

"What?" I broke the silence with my question. He glanced back up at my eyes and squeezed my wrists, "your makeup looks bad," he wheezed.

I gasped, "are you being serious?"

Seojun let go of my hands and nodded with a smirk on his facc, "you barely applied any lipstick." poking my lips as he released another laugh.

Panicked, I began unzipping my book bag while speeding over to the women's restroom. I heard a loud laugh as I threw myself inside the restroom and calmed myself down once I reached the mirror.

My makeup was perfectly fine. I leaned into the rectangle shaped mirror and closely analyzed my face for any imperfections but I couldn't find any. Thinking back to what Seojun said, I took out my red lipstick and applied it onto my lips despite it already being fully covered.

I ignored the sound of the door slamming open but I instantly paused what I was doing when I heard voice, "hey. Bae Yeeun," I heard Sohye say in a mocking tone.

My head shot to the sink, quickly shoving my lipstick into my bag as my hands trembled with each and every step she took towards me.

Sohye patted my back and got close to my face, "you moved on so fast. I hope the breakup didn't affect you," obviously pretending to soothe me, which caused me to slightly scoot away from her.

She got close to me once again and continued her antics, "will it bother you if Seojun and I get together? I mean... we became friends and you know one day he might ask me out," she smiled, "I've always liked him and was so heartbroken when you got in the way," whispering into my ear harshly.

Since when were Sohye and Seojun friends? It's obvious to anyone that she's bluffing but I can't help but believe they actually did get closer. I wanted to wipe that smug look off her face so badly but I held myself back.

"Well now you have a chance," I muttered to her as my face flushed red in rage. She continued to giggle and kept looking back at her group of friends, who treat her as if she was some type of God.

Sohye patted my back once again, "Suho is your boyfriend now so you don't care who Seojun dates, right?"

I turned my head towards her and felt my jaw becoming tense, "Suho and I aren't dating," my voice raised itself. Sohye was taken aback and tilted her head in confusion, "watch your tone when you're speaking to m-"

"I'll speak to you however I want," I hissed at her.

Sohye pushed me barbarically because of my words and screeched, "who do you think you are? You dated Seojun and now you think you're some hot shot?"

My eyes began to get watery as she continued to act violently towards me. I yelped once I felt her dig her sharp nails into my shoulders while shaking me aggressively, "you're still a nobody and will always be a nobody!"

I felt my throat closing up and it became hard to control my sniffles. Sohye found pleasure in my reaction and continued to torment me, "I promise you nobody is going to be upset the day you die," her voice shaking as she spoke lowly, as if she wanted nobody to hear.

I managed to free myself from her grip and ran past her to avoid being grabbed again. I escaped the restroom with a face covered in hot tears and a trembling body. I wandered to where ever my feet took me and hurried my steps once I heard her screaming my name.

"Bae Yeeun!"