Previously-

As he slowly looked at his side, he couldn't believe his eyes....

There stood the one he have longed for, the one he lost, the one he determined himself to forget tonight.

"J-jungkook?"

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"Hi tae...." Jungkook said after a few minutes of pause, eyes wide in shock, confusion and.... guilt.

"Wha- " before I could ask him anything a voice interrupted me.

"Hey kook, where were you? Don't just disappear like that!" The man said loudly to speak over the music standing behind Jungkook, sneaking his hand around jungkook's waist.

I poked my tongue into my inner cheek, jaw tightened as I observed their body language.

"Uhh who's this?" The guy asked Jungkook.

"Hi! I'm kim taehyung, jungkook's college friend. Nice to meet you..."

"I'm Jongsuk, Lee Jongsuk" the man said the name feeling oddly familiar to me.

"Sukie, why don't you go and sit, I'll catch up with him yeah?" Jungkook said making the other guy furrow his brows before lean in to jungkook's ear to whisper something which made Jungkook whisper something back with a reassuring smile, before the guy nod and walked away, leaving us alone.

"So? You and him...."

"Yeah, me and him" my chest tightened for some reason but I didn't say anything. I mean what was I expecting? he told me to forget him so obviously he would do it too.

"How have you been hyung...?" Jungkook asked slowly.

"I can't say it's great but yeah things are fine...what about you?" I asked him to which he smiled a gentle smile, which made me feel butterflies in my stomach.

'God he's gotten more beautiful or is it just me?' I thought before clearing my throat, standing straight.

"Hyung... have you...M-moved on yet?"

I don't know why I did it but I felt like I need to do it so-

"Yeah I did" I lied....

Don't blame me I was just upset with him for actually being with someone else which is totally unreasonable but I couldn't help myself.

"Oh..." Jungkook said looking down. I must be imagining things cause for a moment I saw tears in his eyes in the dim light. But why would he be upset he already moved on no?

"Tha-That's great hyung....I'm happy for you!" Jungkook chimed with a wide smile which looked very forced to me.

"Um...It's very crowded here, let's go somewhere quiet." I yelled to speak above the music as a very loud song started playing.

Jungkook nodded and we slipped out of the clubbing area, and ran towards the beach.

"So who's the lucky one..?" Jungkook suddenly asked as we walked near the shore in the beautiful night. The sky was not fully dark, it was lit up by the big full moon in all it's glory. Stars scattered across the the horizon. Faint sounds of music was hear from behind us from the place we escaped from.

"Well why don't you start first..?" I replied as I panicked, and started to think of a fake name.

"Me? Well I only started dating Jongsuk last month after two years of him chasing after me. Mom said he's a good guy, so I thought why not..?" Jungkook said, sadness evident in his which I hate to admit but made me feel a little happy knowing he doesn't love that so-called Boyfriend of his.

"So...you don't love him?" I asked cursing myself for sounding enthusiastic about it. Lucky Jungkook was to mesmerized by the night view to notice.

"Hyung, I told you it's been less then a month in our relationship. How can I be in love?" That made my subtle smile drop.

"So...what about me..?"I asked carefully, fearing the answer I would receive.

"You were different Hyung....I did love you...but I don't know how.....but it's not the same way with Jongsuk." Jungkook said softly as if hurt for being questioned for his love.

It made my heart clench.

As if my body had a mind of it's own, my arms circled his not so small figure anymore, pulling in an innocent embrace. Which Jungkook gladly excepted.

"I'm sorry kookie..... for not being there for you..." I said my nose buried in his smooth silky hair.

'God he still smells like lavender' I thought nuzzling more into to the still fluffy fur of my human bunny.

"It's ok...it was not your fault hyung" Jungkook said which got muffled as his face was squashed in my chest, which made me feel these butterflies again.

"So what have you been up to?"

"Just started working as a fashion photographer" he replied pulling away as we started walking by the beach in the moonlight.

"That's nice. Do you enjoy it? Cause I remember you wanted to do nature photography."

"I did but I like this job, it's fun really also fashion can be fascinating too" he said looking at me with a cute smile.

I chuckled and ruffled his hair, which made a beautiful crimson spread across his cheeks which was looking more beautiful under the moon.

"So...why are you here hyung...?" Jungkook asked slowly.

"Work. And please stop calling me hyung." I said pouting unconsciously.

"Why? What should I call you then...?"

"Tae... like you use to..." I asked, sadness evident in my voice remembering the old times.

"Ah.. I thought it would be awkward since we're- we are no- not like...before..." Jungkook said fiddling with the hem of his shirt.

"Hmm. But I like it when you do that.." I asked hoping to clear the tension in the air.

"Well I guess I'll.. call you that....tae" Jungkook said smiling softly.

"So...how's your mom?" I asked watching as he walked looking at his bare feet burying in the sand by his weight as he walked.

"She's fine. Have been doing better actually..." Jungkook said giving a tight lip smile.

"Ah. I almost forgot. What happened... to chanyeol..? Di-did you catch him?" Jungkook asked looking hesitant.

I signed and looked ahead. I had to be honest.

"He...disappeared. We tried to find him but he disappeared and no one knows where he is. He's on the country's wanted list so he can't dare to come back either. " I said actually I heard that the park mafia opposed him and dethroned him of the title of their leader, a month later Jungkook left Korea. We tried to corner him but he disappeared. Either he's died or alive, he can't do anything cause he has no one by his side so there is no need to worry. But ofcourse Jungkook doesn't need to know that so I told him in the most safest way to not cause him any panic.

"Well that's good." Was all he said.

It was silent, a peaceful yet awkward silence which reminded me of our first date we were so close in so less time and now after 5 years we feel awkward like we met for the first time. It's funny if you think about it as if our relationship is developing backwards. And sad cause if that's the case will we become like complete strangers in the future?.

"I really wish things would have ended differently." I heard Jungkook whisper. And by the look of his big panicking eyes after he said the sentence, it was obvious he didn't mean to say it out loud.

"What do you mean?" I asked curious to know if I still have a chance. I mean I'm sorry ok?? He's the first and last person I fell for. So my future life depends on this!!!.

"Nothing..I-I was just blabbering....Don't mind me tae."Jungkook said smiling softly. Which made me pout.

"Anyways hyung. What is the work you came here for? As long as I remember kim co. Doesn't have any branches here in America?" Jungkook said

"Ah, actually we're planning to open one and for that we collaborated with the lee's to get a little recognition in the market first that's why we came here."

Jungkook nodded.

I was silence once again before we got interrupted by a gasp.

"OMG!!! JEON JUNGKOOK!!!! YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!!" We turned around to see a wide eyed Jimin running towards us or more like towards Jungkook with open arms. Before tackling him to the sand.

"YOU BITCH! WHERE WERE YOU?! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU!!!!"

"I'm sorry Hyung I couldn't meet you before leaving.." Jungkook said with a cheeky smile.

I chuckled watching them rolling on the sand like kids while talking about anything and everything, well more like Jimin babbling and Jungkook nodding along, giggling every now and then.

"And do you know Jin hyung and Namjoon hyung are getting married??!!!"

"Wait taehyung's brother?" Jungkook asked surprised looking up at me from the sand.

"You have to come!!! We'll be the gay bride's maids!!!" Jimin said squealing.

"But I don't know Jin hyung very well.." Jungkook said shyly.

"So what? I'm sure he's going to love you the moment he see you!! You're to adorable to not love." Jimin said as a matter of fact and I unconsciously nodded in agreement.

"Uh....I guess I'll ask mom.." Jungkook said finally giving in.

After a while we returned back to the club to see our friends/colleagues sitting in our reserved booth and somehow that so called boyfriend of Jungkook was there too.

"Oh hey boss!! Look we met this awesome guy here!!" Lia said pointing at Jongsuk who's smile falters a bit when he saw me but he quickly puts on a fake one to look natural, making roll my eyes internally.

"He has a fucking yacht...!!!" Beomgyu whisper screamed at me but everyone heard him loud and clear.

I looked at Jungkook who looked like he was trying very hard not to laugh so I nudge him, silently asking him what happened. When he leaned into my ear. My heart was beating fast and I could feel myself blushing but what he whispered made me burst out laughing.

"He begged his dad to buy him the yacht but turned out he has sea sickness, so he never used it. That poor ship never sailed."

That's what he whispered and we laughed unwantedly, causing everyone's attention to shift to us.

But we didn't care,

We were happy

I was happy.

After so long I was with my first love.

The went on and after some drinks we all parted to go our ways.

It would be a lie if I say it didn't hurt watching as my love walk away from me with another mans hands around him.

I hurt like a bitch.

But I didn't have a right to be jealous, not like we were together.

"It's obvious you know." Jimin said from the passenger seat. He was better at holding his alcohol then the ones on the back seat, passed out.

"What's obvious?"

"Your pain and jealousy"

I snorted. "Yeah well what do you expect?" I said in a rather bitter tone, just like my mood.

"You should do it too you know... he moved on, you should too.." Jimin said gently.

Tears welled up in my eyes at words, he moved on....

He really moved on.....

What was I even expecting?

That he'd wait for me?

Stupid!

Why would he? It not like I'm worth it....

Third person's pov

"So are you gonna tell me who that was or...?"

"What do you mean?" Jungkook asked raising a eyebrow at the male in beside him.

"I mean you seemed quite close." Jongsuk said sulkingly.

"They were my hyungs from korea" Jungkook said nonchalantly.

"Yeah but that other guy with the greek god looks, who is he? You kept calling him tae. Is he your ex or something?" Jongsuk said giving Jungkook a suspicious look.

Taehyung's my ex? We never even dated so what ex?

The thought was bitter but it was true. Taehyung and him never dated. They were just two boys who were interested in each other, went on a few dates and had sex.

That doesn't make you boyfriends.

It's a shame that he never got to call the older his boyfriend yet they had such an intimate relationship but the guy he calls his boyfriend now doesn't even get a proper kiss.

It wasn't fair Jungkook knew that. He was using Jongsuk to get over his feelings for taehyung, which was hurting not just him but also Jongsuk and maybe in someway today it hurt taehyung too.

But what was he supposed to do? He didn't think taehyung will appear out of nowhere today. It was surprising for him too. But it was too late taehyung probably moved on too. Why would he wait when he himself told him too.

"He's not my ex"

When Jongsuk didn't say anything Jungkook looked at him, to see him looking at him with a blank face as if examining him for any lie.

Jungkook rolled his eyes and looked out the window his house door was closed but the porch light was on. They were parked right outside the Jeon residence, inside Jongsuk's expensive ass car.

Sighing Jongsuk replied a small 'whatever'.

Jungkook was too tried to deal with his frien- boyfriend and it was late so when Jongsuk said nothing and keep looking the other side, he got out of the car, slamming the door shut he ran up to his door and inside without a word. Leaving a Insecure, jealous Jongsuk behind who drove out of the place in full speed.

Jungkook watched him leave in the distance from his window.

Tears welled up as he thought of his own behavior. He has never been like this to his frien-boyfriend before. He thought he could do this but taehyung's appearance seemed to have changed everything.

The feelings he hide so well for years are now hard to contain. Which made him cry cause he knew what it meant for him and his boyfriend.

But was he really strong enough to break another heart?

Or does he have to let go of the past....

Once and for all...

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