"I HATE YOU, YOU BAD BITCH!"

A hard slap stung on your back when Eun Ha hit you aggressively. You winced and trying to avoid her second hit by standing up from the chair.

"It's hurt, you know! Ya! Hajima!" You looked at her red face. She was angry but in the same time tears ran down her cheeks and making you even guiltier.

"Hurt isn't? Well, I'm way more hurting than you do right now! How could you did this to me?!" She shouted at you and keep crying over and over again. Looking her in sorrow, you took a step closer to her and hug her in a hope could calming her down.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to zone you out from this problem..." you said in a soft voice.

"Don't touch me like we're close!" she pushed you away before rolling her eyes. You know she's just hurt and disappointed on your selfish action. You heard her loud mouth that you missed complained about you again.

"I don't know whether to call you my best friend anymore. How could you not telling me that you're pregnant, huh? What am I to you? A damn stranger?" she nagged with her disgust look plastered on her face. Well, you also can't be mad on her because this is your fault. You began it.

Eun Ha walked to her work desk before took a sit. Her face was hardened and her eyes glared at you, waiting for you to speak. For the one who know what kind of person Eun Ha looks like, they well aware of her extreme fury and rude behavior. Beside her funny and crazy character, Eun Ha is a friend who cares the most about you. Like everything had happened to you, she wants to know it too.

"I'm really sorry, Eun Ha. I didn't mean to hide my pregnancy from you. It's just something happened..." you convinced her one more time.

Went back to your country without telling her is really upsetting your best friend. And the pregnancy? That's another story. You promised to her that you would tell her about your pregnancy result test on the day you got yourself checked. She's the one who guessed it right but how could you ever thinking about her when you just had a fight with Jungkook?

Knowing that you're pregnant and not even an hour passed, you broken up with your boyfriend, your mind was in a complete mess. Like you don't know what to do anymore, how you're gonna live in Korea with a heavy pain burdening in your chest and you're just thought you would gonna die if you ever see Jungkook again.

There ain't no way you can hold onto something that wants to go, you understand? You can only love what you got while you got it. He didn't need any weapons to hurt you; just a word, and you were crying on his feet, begging him to stay. The simple thought that he could leave was enough to make you pray him. And he knew it. He knew he made you an addict to his painful words, to his hits and sweet words right after.

He was your torturer, your pain disguised as an angel. And even when you were crying on the floor, wondering why and praying the pain to stop, you still fucking loved him.

Your soul is a pure spark of love but your rages are more than my heart can bare. You drew me in with a sweetness I'd never found before, something so strong I could feel it even when we were apart. But those times you came back so angry, yet unable to know the real cause, you broke me in ways I had never imagined possible. You turned my safe haven into my hell, my mind into its own prison, you broke my heart and now I must recoil to protect the shattered pieces that remain.

"Fine! But you're not forgiven until you told me everything. From A to Z!" she said, crossing her arms and studied your face for a moment. You release a relief sigh. You know Eun Ha will forgive you no matter what. You already know her for five years and she's not gonna stay mad for long without a strong reason.

"I couldn't reach you since the day you went to the clinic. The medical check-up, it proven you're pregnant right?! Why you ran away without telling me?" She started to ask you. You know she just been curious about what happened to you three months ago.

"I don't know what I was thinking on that day. What I know is I need to hide my pregnancy from other people before it getting bigger." You answered, utterly nervous. How can you answer her while you still couldn't find the exact reason why you left. It's just showing that you totally lose to Jungkook. Everyone says that. Mostly, on the media.

Getting tag by a lot of Jungkook's fans on both Instagram and Twitter at his pictures with Jennie really stressing you out. The comments given by them contained negative and positive opinion about your break-up and how Jungkook could moving on so quick by exposing his new girlfriend. Some of them also became your supporters and bashing Jungkook about his bad behavior on your behalf. You never asked for it though but you felt thankful to see other people also already know his dark side. So that they could know what kind of person a man that they adore so damn much before.

"And why the hell you need to hide it?" her voice was very strict, you could see her tight lips, trying to endure her anger from bursting out. She then closed her eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. "I saw the news about Jungkook apologizing to you. Is he crazy telling the whole world about what he had done to you before and the pregnancy thing? Now tell me what he had done besides cheating on you with that slut? Was it worse than that?"

"I saw him sleeping with that girl..." you hesitated to tell Eun Ha about it. Because you knew she will be flipping mad and told you that she had already warned you to leave Jungkook from the first.

She raised an eyebrow. "And you can't take it anymore? He used to sleep with other women too when you're still dating him. Why you chose that moment? Why you decided to leave him on that day? I told you like so many times to leave him but you're stubborn as hell and keep defending that asshole!"

Told you! Getting nag by your own best friend was like a common thing every time we meet each other. Since she always act like a genius in love matters but never dated anyone. Yeah...

"Fine, you saw him sleeping with Jennie and next? You guys fought, am I right? And which one of you asking for a break-up first?" she asked you again. Her eyes keep steady on you, waiting for your answer.

"Him..." you answered her before lowering your eyes cowardly.

"Not a surprise at all. It's not like you're wanted to break up with him anyways." She sneered at you while rolling her eyes again.

"Stop making fun of me. I know it's my own fault." You mad at her when she bringing up about your weakness for couldn't leaving Jungkook where you had a chance to. Eun Ha brought her body closer to you and looked at you seriously.

"So tell me, Y/N. Why you wanted to hide your pregnancy from him? I have been deadly curious about this problem. You could only told him about this child and for sure he will back to you again. If he doesn't, oh boy, it's like asking for his own death. The President of JK Group, ex-member of BTS does not responsible for his own child. Wow, I would love to see that kind of news on paper and all over the media. You know what! You better tell the media another different story and destroy his reputation. A revenge so that he would get the same price for hurting you."

You narrowed your eyes once Eun Ha gave you her stupid idea to wreak vengeance on Jungkook. Have she lost her mind? You ain't dare playing this kind of games because it involve a lot of people and the media of course won't let this thing off easily since Jungkook is a well-known person. You had enough with what Jungkook had done in his sudden press conference on the other day, that one was really humiliating you.

Now everyone in Korea already know about your pregnancy and Jungkook left you for another woman but then he realized that was his biggest mistake which you found it so obviously lying and you couldn't be frustrated more when he keeps disturbing you by apologizing and endless begging for you to get back to him again.

You shouted at her. "KIM EUN HA! Have you lost your mind?! Do you want his mother die because of heart attack?"

You looked at her who became surprised. "Ya, I totally forgot about Mrs. Jeon. You might be true as well. You told me before isn't about him being a mommy's boy. Sure his mother will be breaking more after knowing what he had done to you. Did you try to talk to her about Jungkook? Who knows she could convince him to forget you and leaving you alone?"

Suddenly you remembered what happened last night in Mark's hotel. Jungkook's mother came to see you which you're really didn't expect at all. How she ended up there you also got no clue but you more worrying looking at her condition. When she told you that she was sick, it's making your heart more breaking. She must be in a complete shock after knowing you and Jungkook had broken up and the pregnancy news recently, you're afraid that she might be disappointed because you didn't tell her about her grandchild.

She came with a will. Unexpected will and a kind of will that make you cry once you heard from her. Knowing her will be dying soon, she make a wish for you to fulfill it. She asked you to forgive Jungkook and marrying him.

Can you grant my last wish, Y/N? By marrying Jungkook?

Coming back here is so wrong! Stepping into Korea again is the worst mistake you had done! You always have a soft spot for his mother. But this kind of request is really a mind-blowing. Like seriously, marrying Jungkook? And living in the same house with him once again and handling his sick attitude for one more time. No, you're won't let the same thing happened to you and this child again.

He put you through hell and the dumb you called it love. You will remember and promise yourself to recover, not forgive and forget. But how can you recover if you ever married to the person you hated now. How? Against her will is too impossible to you by seeing how determined she was wanting you as her daughter-in-law.

You quickly grabbed Eun Ha's hand and looking at her pitifully. "Eun Ha... You're a lawyer, right. Can you help me?"

Eun Ha who was in a complete surprise on your action raised both of her hands, surrender. "Woo, what have come to your mind, huh? If you wanna do a good thing, I will help you but if it doesn't, NOPE!"

"Listen to me first!" forced you in determination. You're in desperation in seeking help from Eun Ha and you know Eun Ha's career gonna be useful for you in the future.

"Fine! Spill it now."

You took a deep breath before going to tell the things that have been running on your mind for the past three months. This plan is crazy actually and you know Eun Ha will never ever going to help you once she heard it from you. You have been thinking a lot last night about this matter, his mother's wish and your child's future. You're in dilemma to be honest. Your hands were shaking and you couldn't even breathing well and all the curses you spat inside were killing you. And how many times you tried to gather yourself for the strength, it just too frightening to see the serious Eun Ha who was waiting for your words.

You bite your lower lip, hesitated to tell her. "If I ever get married to Jungkook later... Can you help me win my child's custody?"

And you know by marrying him making you back into that toxic relationship again. To give him another chance to treat you as trash. Everyone will be asking you, 'have you lost your mind?' and yes you didn't hesitant to nod whatever their question is-

Are you crazy? - Yes, I am crazy for choosing this way.

Are you stupid? - Everyone will say that I'm stupid and I know I am so stupid for taking Jungkook again. But no, I won't make the dark history between us came twice. I won't let myself to be fool once again by that man.

Why you wanted to marry Jungkook? - What I know is I wanted to marry him not because of love. I stop loving him and I shall continue to stop loving him because I know he ain't good to me and for my child.

Eun Ha yelled at you aloud. You could see she was surprised with your stupid decision. "WHAT?! Are you crazy? Why you need to marry that asshole?!"

It was so hard to explain why you wanted to marry him even he had thrown you away. He's a useless bastard and you know it well. A marriage without love, what force you to be Jungkook's wife? His ill mother's last wish? No, there's a reason stronger than that- the one you couldn't provide it, not after both Jungkook and the whole worldwide had known about your pregnancy.

"I just don't want my child to be born without a legal certificate..." you finally told her, deeply sighing while looking at Eun Ha pitifully. You could see the changes of Eun Ha's expression, maybe she also didn't expect about this matter will occur. Well, it will and no matter how you tried to find other solution, none is coming.

"Ya, Y/N..." she said softly. "There's must be other way for this problem. I don't want you to be breaking one more time..." Eun Ha seemed so surprised after hearing the real reason why you have to marry Jungkook.

"For the past three months I have been thinking about this, Eun Ha. A lot. If I become selfish and thinking about myself only, maybe I could live happily alone with my child. Without Jungkook. But it won't last long... How I'm going to send my child to school if she doesn't have a legal certificate to prove her right to live? Have you ever thinking when she already grown-ups and been criticized for taking mother's last name, not her father? I'm afraid she won't survive living in this cruel world..." you told her, breathless.

One by one, drops fell from your eyes like they were on an assembly line - gather, fall, slide...gather, fall, and slide...each one commemorating something you had lost. Hope. Faith. Confidence. Pride. Security. Trust. Independence. Joy. Beauty. Freedom. Innocence.

"Y/N..." Eun Ha became speechless on your words.

You took a deep breath and wiping away your tears. "I think I have to marry Jungkook whether I like it or not. I admit that I hate him a lot, I couldn't even see his face but this is for my child's future. She should be born in a legal way so that she could live freely in a way she wanted..."

No matter how far you try to run away, no matter how you can pretend everything will be alright, and no matter how scared you are, you gotta be strong and face the reality and the fact that by married to Jungkook is the only answer, so that nothing could stop your innocent child from enjoying her life soon.

"You wanted to marry Jungkook for that birth certificate?"

You nodded with determination. You're already make up your mind that you're going to marry Jungkook in order to save your child and her future that waiting for her ahead.

"Are you planning to live with him forever?" Eun Ha asked you more with her worried face.

You widens your eyes, didn't expect Eun Ha will ask you this kind of question. "Of course no!"

You had known what it's like to have a broken heart. You had known what it's like to feel pain. No, you will not let yourself to experience this worst feeling you ever had. This unhappy marriage is not going to last long, you promise to yourself. As soon as the baby is born, the divorcement paper already prepared on Jungkook's desk.

"But I'm sure he won't divorce you once you already in his hands. Looks how possessive he is now."

"That's the thing I'm worried about." You slowly replied.

Looking how was Jungkook coming to your house a few days ago, it terrified you more on what he could do if something comes on his way. He's sure gonna destroy it as long as he could get what he wants. That is Jungkook's personality. He will make sure that everything he thinks he own will be in his hand at last.

You know by marrying Jungkook means you are his wife. He owns you and you have no idea what he's going to do with you once you're already in his world. With his influence and power, you're afraid that he's going to do anything just to keep your child with him if you told him about the divorcement later.

"But he's helpless right now isn't he? I think he would do anything for you to be by his side again." She smirked, making you more wondering.

You raised an eyebrow. "Anything?"

You looked at Eun Ha when she suddenly screaming and snapping her finger.

"Just marry him for one year, Y/N."

You quickly narrowed your eyes when Eun Ha suggested her idea which you found it was too irrelevant. "ONE YEAR?! Ya, Eun Ha! I put my life on it, remember?! I was planning shorter than that,"

"Less than one year seems too impossible." She answered with her serious voice.

"Bitch! The certificate already legal once this child born. Just three months away. Why need to wait for one year?" you mad at her for giving a stupid plan. One year facing Jungkook? You even couldn't see his face for a second and how you gonna live with him for a fucking one year?! You planned to marry him until your child finally born and get the legal birth certificate you wanted so bad.

Eun Ha shook her head while laughing at you. "And bitch, do you remember who you will going to marry? Jungkook! It's Jeon Jungkook! The President of JK Group! You think no one will keep their eye on your marriage? With the awaited baby, I'm sure as hell everyone in Korea wanna know everything about your relationship with him." She said making you almost speechless.

Well, you didn't consider this one when you're planning to marry him. You almost forgot who he is exactly. A famous former singer who running his career as a businessman, the bastard who received a lot of love from his fans and everyone knows about him. Well what they didn't know is how ignorant and fucked up he is now.

"So are you saying that one year is enough to show everyone that I'm not marrying Jungkook just to make sure my child is born legally?" you asked her dumbly.

"Well I think one year doesn't seem too suspicious. Just make a new rumor for your divorcement later. Jungkook cheated on you once again maybe or both of you don't love each other anymore for keeping this marriage or he turned out to be gay, unexpectedly. I don't know as long as it could be a rational reason for you to separate with him and enough making him lose the child custody."

You looked at her while considering about her idea. One year seems tough for you, but if it's the price for getting that certificate, what choice do you have now? You have to accept this bitter truth and need to focus more on how to get a divorce from him soon and also the custody of your child. Marrying Jungkook also making him as a legal father for your child and it means he has every right as this child's parent and you're afraid that you couldn't win against him later on.