"We miss you, Y/N." Your team member said in a calm, unhurried voice from across the phone. You couldn't help but to smile since your colleague you used to work with in Communication Korea contacted you today.

"Which part of mine did you miss? A last-minute task, gibberish talks or how bossy I used to be?" you started to joke around. One second later, you heard she was cackling with laughter which making your mind instantly reflected those old days when you still actively working as a Public Relation.

Y/F/N. That's your name and yes, the whole community in Communication Korea especially PR Department, know who is Y/F/N. Not to brag but this was a part of you and it always is. Working as a PR is all about managing reputation. Your career involves gaining understanding and support for your clients, as well as trying to influence opinion and behavior. The best part is you capable of using all forms of media and communication to build, maintain and manage the reputation of your clients.

Three years in this industry, you could say that you're at the level of professional. Graduated from Dongguk University with a first class Honours of degree, receive a job offer from Communication Korea straight away, there's nothing you could ask for in your humble life. Get chances to manage several distinguished Korean companies and knowing with a lot of businessmen and local notables, this is the biggest spotlight you ever received.

And no, dating Jungkook was never related with this spotlight. You admit after a year being Jungkook's girlfriend, our relationship that we keep trying to hide it had been exposed by some paparazzi. A none celebrity, a university student, chang-nyeo (slut, hoe, whore) foreigner, the luckiest girl, oppa stealer or whatever his fans called you, the one who keeps you strong until today is your own self.

What does it feel like to date a famous people? Horrible.

It can be a little awkward when people recognize your partner in public, and you're not looking for the attention. Somehow, for Jungkook it's another story. He is the type of celebrity who really loves his fans - ARMY - or whatever his old group called. You admit you tried to treat his fans nicely too but there's a time you in a condition you are completely worn out.

"This is what I miss the most! Your jokes are always the best!" Your friend responded. She sounded so happy and it making you miss her more.

You rubbed your stomach softly when you felt a little kick your baby make inside. A motherly smile appears without you even realizing it every time this amazing connection came approaching you. Being pregnant is really a miracle and this the best moment ever happened to you in your life.

"Anyways, have you heard news about Jung..." She paused immediately and you know who she almost bursting out the name. A guy who you tried to get over with so badly. "... No, I mean your ex-boyfriend." Even though you didn't see her in front of you now, you know she must be guilty as hell after unintentionally utter his name from her mouth when speaking to you. "I'm so sorry, Y/N..."

"Nah, it's fine." And yet, even as you spoke, you knew that you did not wish to talk or think about him even a glance in your mind. You felt another kicking in your stomach as if this child knows about that person too.

No, don't ever think about him, dear. He is not your dad and he will never be one for the rest of your life. You will not be going to see him ever and it's better to live this way. I am your mother and I am your father. Head up my child and be courageous. You could live without that person!

You walked out. You left. This baby had taught you how. You did not want to leave him, but this was it, this is what life is, you have to pay for everything that has happened to you. Whether good or bad you have to pay for it, it would be anything, or something or someone you love.

It's hard to leave that toxic relationship at first because you had become dependent on the action of how he treated you. You depend on manipulation because the emotionally abused no longer comprehend self-worth. You understand it, but your mind tells you otherwise and become afraid to leave the situation. You don't think you're worthy which makes you question leaving it.

In the end, you did leave. Maybe you leave because you long to know. Maybe you leave not because of longing but because you must. Or maybe you leave simply to find the answers you've held inside of you all along.

You heard your friend voiced out again, utterly nervous. "You know, that girl... Ugh, I can't even say her name but anyways I know you know who I tried to say. The one your ex-boyfriend cheated with..."

The pain you tried to forget for the past three months somehow it came back again when you heard about those two. People who make you suffered and making you believe, there's no such a true love again.

"Jennie?" You keep your voice low no matter how bad it's shaking to let out her name out of your mouth. Jennie Kim. No wonder you felt she was so familiar when you saw her sleeping with your ex-boyfriend on that day. Because she is a well-known person. A public figure and dumbly you used to work with her when she was the main face for a luxury make-up product your client owned.

"Yes! Yes! That gold-digger!" your friend hurriedly replied, a little bit of shouting.

Seeing her over excited to tell you, you responded to her, not wanting her to smell your discomfort. "What's the matter about her?"

Not sparing a second, your friend quickly told you. "She left Jungkook too! Can you believe it?! Their breakup is all over the media since yesterday and everyone keeps talking about it! I know Jennie will leave him sooner or later because she never sticks with one man. Ah, I wonder how much Jungkook's wealth had gone to her account."

After you heard what she just said, you couldn't react properly. You don't know how deep your mind has fallen into when you thought about him. Should you to be happy heard this kind of news? But happy for what, Y/N? Happy that Jungkook gets the same price for leaving you before? Or are you happy to see him miserable again, get left behind by the one he loves?

But no, it was not the happy feeling you felt right now. Why did you not feel happy at all by knowing this news? Why is that? Why couldn't you be happy? Why you feel only worried every time you thinking about him? This is not what you wanted. You don't want to worry about his condition or how heartbroken he is now.

No, Y/N. Don't worry about him! Stop giving him your attention!

"Y/N? Y/N? Are you there? Oh my god, why I'm telling you this. I'm sorry again, Y/N." The panic voice you heard from across the phone quickly dragging you back from your lost thought.

You responded awkwardly. "No, it's fine. I'm not surprised at all because I already know about it too." You do not intend to lie, but this way is better rather than you look pathetic in front of your friend.

"Really? It's such a relief you know about it too. Well, I hope you won't get back to that bastard again after knowing that he's single now." Your friend warned you.

"Nah, I have someone else..." you told her, lowering your eyes to your stomach. Why you need to get back to him again anyway. Get back to him or finding yourself a new partner will not ever come across your mind since you had this baby. You're gonna put your focus on your child- your main priority in life. You didn't mind if everyone hated you as long as this baby will be by your side forever.

"Girl! You move on too fast! I thought you're gonna be in pain for a while... You know... I mean five years is a quite long period. You guys must have a lot of memories together..." she said, slowing down her voice. You know she was just too afraid every time she mentioned about your relationship with him.

You gathered all your breath, trying to be strong so that you will look more confident. So that she will be seeing you really already moving on with that guy. "Well, I just keep one rule, Hani. If you want to be happy, do not dwell in the past..."

Why must you lie when you admit you still can't get over with what he had done to you? To comfort your own feelings? For making you look strong on the outside? But what matters are on the inside. This baby shouldn't get affected by your mental and depression pain. The mother's emotion is very important when the pregnancy happened for the baby health. You tried to fight this bad feeling anyway so that your child could be started to grow healthily.

"Yeah, you're right. Don't waste your time in anger, regrets, worries, and grudges. Life is too short to be unhappy. I'm so happy that you could finally get over him. Just remember one thing, Y/N..."

Seeing your best friend at work keep encouraging you, a pure smile formed on your face. The comfort words you need the most. Back to your hometown with a child in you, there is so much torment you received from your own family member. Having a baby out of wedlock, it seems really a nightmare for them even though everyone in your generation had found it just a common thing. But to them, it doesn't. It's a sin. And it could bring shame to the family.

"What it is?" You asked.

"If Jungkook ever comes to see you, just give him what he deserves!" she told you straightforwardly. You're quite surprised with Hani's warning to you. Well, you never give a thought about seeing him again. He seems like he really hated you on that day and it's just too impossible for you to face him after what had happened between us.

"He won't. I don't want to see him either." You said, sadly sighing.

There are times when the actual experience of leaving someone makes you wish desperately that you could stay, and then there are times when the leaving reminds you a hundred times over why exactly you had to leave in the first place.

You had left him. He had thrown you. So is there any possible reason why you and he should see each other again? This baby? No! This is your child, your only child, not him and never be his! He definitely has no right on this child in the first place.

"I'm afraid he will. He looked so messed up coming to our office last week." What Hani said to you really making you almost dumbstruck. Why he went to your office? As long as you could remember, JK Group never engage with Communication Korea before.

"Why he came anyways? Is it related to JK Group?" You asked but after a moment, you realized why you keep asking about him to Hani. It's making you did look care about him. Why you're so dumb, Y/N!

"No. It's not a business matter. Well, she's looking for you." Hani told you, making your eyes even wider. No, he's not! Has he lost his mind?

"WHAT?"

"Surprise, huh? I don't know either why he came for you. But looking how he was, he must already break up with Jennie at that time. Seems like the media get a late catch about their relationship."

Your mind still cannot digest what you just heard. Why Jungkook came to your office and looking for you? Is he already know about this child? Somehow, it makes you felt uneasy and terrified. What happened if he does know? What if he will take this child away from you? He no longer had feelings towards you and obviously, he was looking for you not because of what happened three months ago. And it makes you more wonder what the reason he did that is. You wanted to deny that this child is the reason for it but your heart keep has this kind of uneasy feeling. That he knows about this child too.

"So what did you say? Did you tell him I went back to my hometown?" You asked Hani, in a rush. You need to know if Jungkook already knows where you are right now. If he ever coming to your country, it's better for you to leave this place as soon as possible. Seeing him once again while still pregnant, you totally will be dead. He doesn't know about you having his child now. And you tried every way just to keep this child existence away from him.

"Hey, c'mon'! What is best friend for, huh? I promised you that I won't spill anything to someone like him. And he doesn't deserve you anymore! Get back again?! Kiss my ass!"

After hearing what Hani just told you, you immediately release a sigh of relief. "Oh thank god, Hani! Thank you so much for not telling him!"

"Don't stress too much about this. Just enjoy your holiday and I can't wait to see you in the office again!" Hani reassured you once again. But when she told you that she will be going to see you again in the office making you gasped in guiltiness. Hani doesn't know yet about your plan to leave Communication Korea too once you give birth to your child. It just too dangerous to be in Korea anymore. What if Jungkook saw you with this child later? How will he react? Will he think this child is his or someone else?

To be exact is, nobody knows except your family about your pregnancy. Not even your best friend Eun Ha. They just thought about your runaway from Korea because of Jungkook leaving you for another woman. Maybe Hani would also be surprised if you tell her about your plan to stop working there and might thinking the biggest reason of it is you still can't get over of Jungkook and the break-up.

You took a deep breath before exhaling it slowly. You're felt extremely nervous to tell Hani the truth of it. "About that... I think I couldn't work there anymore. I'm planning to resign after handling Park Legacy."

What you heard next is a scream Hani make with a few curse words coming from her mouth. "Seriously?! You don't want to come back to Korea again? Is it because you don't want to see Jungkook anymore"

"No, it's not because of him-

When you about to continue your words, you heard a knock on your door and you saw your sister in front of your room. With her usual disgusting annoying face.

"Y/N! Your friend is in front our home right now," she told you.

You put your phone away from your ear for a moment. "Who?"

"I don't know..." she shrugged, didn't care much who was it and leaving the room right before you could ask her.

You have been wondering who that person is. As long as you could remember since you back here, you never met even one of your friends so it's kinda weird to know someone who claims as your friend is at your house right now.

You put your phone back to your ear. "Hani, we'll talk later, alright. I have a guest."

"Hey, we still not done here..."

"Later, okay! I promise. Bye!" and just like that, you hung up the call.

With an uneasy feeling, you went to the front door and noticed it left hanging open with no one right there. Where that person goes? You thought there's someone to see you. Did your sister just lie to you? You walked closer to the door and was about to close it when you saw a man appeared in front of you.

You looked at that person, unblinkingly. No way! Are you dreaming right now? Why the person you tried not to see again came showing himself at your house. And after three months of falling apart, why he did coming to see you?

"Y/N..." he spoke low and the way he gasped when you saw him lowering his eyes onto your stomach, you're busted for sure. He saw it! He saw this child! You quickly grab your loose cardigan to the upfront of your stomach, awkwardly. "Why you didn't tell me you're pregnant, Y/N?" he asked while coming closer to you.

But then you give him a signal not to. You forbid him from entering your house because he's very unwelcome here. What if your parents know about him being a real father of this child? Both of you and Jungkook will be dead if it ever exposed today.

You spat out in furious. "It's not an important thing to tell you!"

"Well, it's very important to me! This is my child too!" You looked at him when he admits this is his child too. Well, it's not! This child ain't his. For a million times, this child will never be his!

"Why don't you ask Jennie to give you a child then?!" Like seriously if a child if he really wanted then, why just he didn't ask other women for it. He was a pro baby maker before so it's not too difficult to make another one. You already swear to yourself that you won't ever give this child to Jungkook because he doesn't deserve this child. And this child too doesn't deserve to have a father like him.

He unexpectedly grabbed your arms and took you closer to him. You looked at him along with his sad eyes while staring at you which you found it was completely unfair. How will you ever win if he did this? The one who deserving to blame is he! But why he acted like he was the one who innocent?!

He spoke weakly and by that time his eyes were glassy as if he was about to cry. "I'm so sorry, Y/N. I was a jerk to you before and I'm very regretting what I had done to you..." he apologized which you found it so pressure-able. Does he think by apologizing just like that could let you give this child to him? Never!

"I don't want to hear it Jungkook. You and I are over now!" you told him heartlessly and was about to close the door when you heard your mother's voice. You realized your mother had been staring at us from behind.

"Who is he, Y/N?" She asked you while looking at Jungkook with her serious face. You totally will be dead if she knows the truth about Jungkook.

"He... he is my friend, mom..." you stuttered with fear and keep your head low. It's too scary to look at her reaction when Jungkook came here out of sudden and almost ruining your plan.

"No, I'm her boyfriend..." But then Jungkook denied himself as your friend and telling the truth to your mother which leaving you in complete shock. No, he does not! Is he just saying he is your boyfriend? Well, he's not now!

"Ex-boyfriend..." you fixed his statement and glaring at him madly. He continued looking at your mother with the respectful attitude. "And I'm also the father of this baby. I am willing to take Y/N back to Korea again ma'am. I want her to give birth to our child there..."

You became more frustrated when Jungkook suddenly exposing himself as the real father of your child. And what did he just say? Is he planning to take you back to Korea? Did he ever feel ashamed at least on what he had done before? Why he bothered to pick up back the trash he had already thrown away?

"NO! I WILL NOT STEP THERE EVEN IN MY NEXT LIFE!" you shouted at him, feeling mad and disgusted with this useless man in front of you right now. You rather die with your child than back again to dump place. Living with him one more time? It will never be going to happen not after we already put an end for this crazy relationship.

"Just take her. I don't want Y/N to be here. It just a shame for our family..." your mother declared which making you turned to her right away. What kind of mother she is when she easily giving up her daughter to someone else. Someone who she never met before.