"I need to go now. I need to leave. Because we're going to ruin each other."

If nothing else, I hope you know that I love you so much, Jungkook, with every ounce of my being. I hope you realize your importance not only to me, but to everyone who has been lucky to know you. I hope you know that when you're feeling down, I only ever strive for your happiness. I hope you remember that no matter what, I'm here for you and I fully intended of saying this for quite some time. I hope you recognize the fact that I appreciate and adore you without restraints, and that will never ever change.

Jeon Jungkook.

He has the most adorable eyes you could ever fall for and the cutest smile that takes your breath away. He has the ability to make you laugh every time he speaks and whenever you look into his eyes it's so hard to turn away.

But that was Jeon Jungkook seven years ago...

He's still own his adorable eyes and a warm stare whenever you look at him. Unfortunately, his smile has disappeared and he started to be a deeply unhappy person-because of you. He stopped making you happy and his expression every time you with him were cold.

He changed.

"I change for you!"

"How it feels like when you know the one who you love keep hanging around with someone's richer than you?"

"You love being with Mark Tuan because he's richer than me? Is that it? Because I can't give anything you want?"

"Just wait for it, Y/N. I will give more than Mark could ever give to you. I will own this world just for you!"

Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad. He was sad. He was jealous. His emotion overtakes his soul and he was not Jeon Jungkook you once knew anymore. No matter how long you've been together with him, there's a time one of us will becomes doubtful and shattering the relationship we had built.

He became greedy after that. He wanted wealth. He wanted power and because of that he built JK Group. Everybody had an addiction, his just happens to be disease that makes him too selfish to see the havoc he created or care about the people who lives he has shattered. You can't expect loyalty from people who would do anything for money.

You are not rich until you have a rich heart, Jungkook.

It is the heart makes a man rich. He is rich according to what he is, not according to what he has. Little did he knows, greed makes man blind and foolish because you know as long as greed is stronger than compassion, there will always be suffering. Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the one person who you thought would never hurt you.

There comes a time in every relationship when you realized that love just isn't enough. You need more than that. When you caught him cheating on you, you didn't want to back down. You stood up and fight. You can't just give up on someone because the situation's not ideal.

Great relationships aren't great because they have no problems. They're great because both people care enough about the other person to find a way to make it work. In the right time of your desperation, Eva came. You're pregnant with his child.

But who knows when God gives you a new beginning, it starts with an ending. You and Jungkook broke up, forcing you to hide the news about his child from him. It was the hardest thing to do but seeing him happy with someone else-sharing his smile you once received before; you thought maybe it was the right decision.

He looked so happy. He started to smile again and you don't want to ruin him any longer. He didn't want to see you anymore so you left along with his child. You're trying really hard not to cry over him because you have to be strong. You have to be strong for your child because she will grow up without a father.

She will grows up with full of envious in her heart. She will be watching her friends with their dad and she started asking you whereabouts her father is. For that kind of future waiting for her ahead, you got to be strong as her mother. Both of us will be aching inside just because the absence of one important person. Without him, there will be no such a complete happy family.

Yes, you hurt me. Yes, you cheated on me. Yes, you left me. Yes, I cared. Yes, I cried... but No, I haven't stopped loving you.

You remember crying over him and you didn't mean a couple of tears and you're blue. You're talking about collapsing and screaming at the moon. You acted like it wasn't a big deal. But in reality, your heart was being shattered into a million pieces. You told yourself you didn't mind-as long as he's happy.

Three months later, he stood at your doorstep. His sad eyes along with arisen anxiety, he's coming back to you-asking for your forgiveness. He knew about his child. He wanted her. He wanted you again. He wanted to make up all his mistakes to you and to his child.

But it was too late. Your heart went cold; your eyes didn't light up when you see him. You admit that you still love him but your heart strongly denies it. Your heart was too broken, it was damaged terribly and there's no way to heal real quick. You wanted him to suffer because his wrongdoings to you, you wanted a revenge.

So you chose to break his heart. You treated him rude and cold because you thought he deserved it. You separated his child from him because you thought he will never change. You secretly knew about Mark's plan with Jennie against Jungkook, but you keep it silence. When Jennie came to see you, there's only anger and hatred inside you, making you make a wrong step. You became just like him.

You became selfish. What you see is only revenge. You used Mark. You knew Mark really head over heels to you, and with Jungkook and Mark's rivalry will going help you too so you planned to destroy Jungkook by using Mark. Even though you still love Jungkook, you didn't believe his heart was still for you. You thought he married you because he wanted an heir for JK Group, not because of you, so you lied to him. You told him you still seeing him as a man you love. He believed you but you stabbed him-left him broken alone for years.

I loved him, I really did, I used to think that nothing could come between us, that nothing, no matter how big or strong, it couldn't break us. The sad thing is that the slightest shake on the ground tore us apart, and you chose to never looked back, no matter how hurt we both were, there was no turning back on what we were, or at least that's what I said to him left him broke.

You left Korea with Mark and Eva. For two years, you started to realize your mistakes upon Jungkook. You are all need to blame for this whole situation. Just because your damn feelings and anger. Your madness flipped everything down even the innocent Mark. He won't turn selfish too if you didn't use him for Jungkook.

You didn't expect he was going to be just like Jungkook. Jealousy already overtook him. Although your love is for Jungkook, you never planned to get back to him. The efforts Mark had sacrificed to you making you realize; it's better to choose a man who loves you more than you love him. You thought Mark will forever appreciate you, will forever loving you-just you.

Unfortunately, he slowly changed. He shown you the real him, the hot-tempered Mark Tuan. He was no longer soft, he's unapproachable. He started to become possessive of you and jealousy blinded him no matter how much you tried to tell him the truth. He became just like Jungkook but more worse. Until this moment, you had not realized that someone could break your heart twice, along the very same fault lines.

But you can't simply left him. You were pregnant of his child and no matter how much he tried to deny it; this baby is the symbol of your love with Mark. He deserves to know about his real father, and Mark deserves to know the truth about his child; because you were the one who guilty here. If only anger and madness did not overpower your soul, you won't make two men suffering because of your stupid revenge; and the worst part is, you won't make Eva separated with her own father.

And now look, the whole situation is in a mess! Mark had lost faith in you, you lose Eva's custody to Jungkook, Jennie & Chan wanted to kill Jungkook and Jungkook still have a high hope on you; to get back to his arms again. Yes, you still love him and no matter how bad he treated you before, you heart always belong to Jungkook.

Just one thing haunted you right now. Regret. You were regret of leaving Jungkook at times he needs you the most. You were regret making Mark as your puppet just to make Jungkook suffer. And you were regret of not stopping Mark and Jennie when they both planning to throw Jungkook into prison.

Because of your sin, you knew God is punishing you right now. You were about to come an end. You will be dying soon but it didn't matter as long as you could protect this baby-your child with Mark.

"Congratulations, you will be having a baby boy..."

Your pregnancy is already turning seven months now and only God knows how much you were suffering alone; trying to endure the pain inside. You didn't choose the surgery because it will harm your baby and the mother's instinct in you were stronger-just like other mother, you also love your children; both Eva and this baby.

"So have you given a thought about the baby's name?" a female doctor asked you.

You nodded while smiling at her. "Ji Sung."

"Really? What makes you chose that name, Miss Y/N?"

"It means a complete intellectual. I wanted him to be a wise person just like his name..."

I wanted you to become a wise and clever person, my dear Ji Sung. No matter how hard your battle is, or how broken are you at last... and no matter the situation you will face later, please never let your emotion overpower your intelligence. Don't be like your mother, Ji Sung who only knows to follow her heart instead of using logical thinking to destroy someone.

Goesan-gu, North Chungcheong Province is a small rural town with almost of the residence is senior citizens. In period of seven months, you keep changing your place from the urban city of Seoul until you ended up here; you quite sure of yourself that Jungkook and Mark will never find you in this kind of place.

You cut off all your connection and decided to live alone by yourself. You even didn't back to your hometown since you divorced with Jungkook two years ago-well maybe people been seeing you as ungrateful daughter but they chose to throw you away since you had Eva in you. So there's no point of going back there. You are an independent woman and you know how to take care of yourself and the baby alone. You don't need Jungkook. You don't need Mark too because you know how much Mark hated you now.

"Y/N... Look, it's the same car again in front of your house." told an old lady who also your neighbor.

You turned your head and see the same black BMW car parking not far from your house. You read the number plat, 2572-yeah, it was the same car over and over again and you noticed it's the forth times you saw this car by only this week.

Strange isn't? Who is the owner of that car? You didn't get to see people in that car because the windows already tinted to black. It's creeping you out to be honest because your safety might be on the line with no one will going to help you soon. Well, that's disadvantage of living alone. No one would come to help you if something happened!

Somehow, it makes you remember of Chan. How was he since you left his house on that day? He seemed hurt when you told him you never had feeling to him; you only see him as a friend. A kind friend who is always lent his ears whenever you had hard times as a middle person between Jungkook and Mark's argument.

For you, Chan was different. There was something about him that made him the one star to shine in a sky with a million that went unnoticed. It was the way he carried his heart in his eyes, that's what you noticed in him since only got to see his eyes but it enough for you to realize he's really a kind person. You once wondered to see his face that he's been hiding behind the mask, but he keeps rejecting your request with the same answer-I'm a low class person to been seen by a beautiful person like you.

You didn't want to force him too many times, maybe he's not ready yet you thought. But it makes you more comfortable every time you with him. His appearance is somehow calming your heart down. And thanks to him, your job in Park Legacy didn't troubling you like your other workplaces. Being a Jungkook's girlfriend, there's a lot of pros and cons you had to meet; one of them was fans. Although Jungkook is no longer an idol, some of his fans still went checking on his personal life-his life with you and somehow you found it bothersome.

You didn't know how Chan had done it on the first place but now everything already revealed. He lied to you, telling he was a cleaner and you didn't expect at all he was some kind of guy who-you know- had everything, own everything even the President of South Korea himself. Park Legacy is the biggest public company in South Korea under six generations' commands, making them one of longest company that ever ran, and making them the most powerful than other company.

So Chan is not just an ordinary man, you thought. And it's making you more afraid to keep friends with him; because you knew how it looks like to be closer with someone rich. You had enough with Jungkook and Mark-you don't want the same mistakes to keep coming back to you if you ever accepting Chan. When he confessed to you he likes you, it didn't flutter your heart but more to goose bumps. It's more to a nightmare for you.

You didn't want greediness and selfishness overtake Chan as well-if it ever happen to him at least you were really wanted to never let yourself witnessing it again. You were done, you were tired and you learnt your mistakes; to not keep interfering in their lives-all three of them.

Jeon Jungkook, Mark Tuan and Park Chanyeol

∞

Wednesday, 22th January 2020, 7.30AM

You were sleeping when a knock lay on your door forcing you to wake up. You looked at your phone-7.30 am- it's still early though if your neighbor coming to your place just to have a chitchat. Any delivery? But as long as you could remember you didn't order anything.

"Is there someone in this house?" You heard a male voice outside the house followed by another knock on your door. Who is he? You never heard that voice before. You went up from your bed and lazily walk toward the door. You sighed, thinking who just bothering your sleep. You're in needy right now. Being pregnant at the last stage, it's making you insomnia at night and sleepy in the morning.

You opened the door and look at a man who probably in 30s wearing a black shirt. He seems tough with a wide chest and fierce look in his eyes. "Are you Miss Y/N?" he asked you.

You nodded, responding to his answer. Who is this unfamiliar guy? Why you have different feelings when you looked at him. You smell a danger was about to coming. "Wh- what do you want?" you stuttered in fear.

He smirked. "Do you know Mr. Jeon?"

Mr. Jeon? Did he mean Jeon Jungkook? Why Jungkook's name appeared out of sudden after seven months.

You quickly shook your head, being in denial. "I don't know him."

"Mr. Jeon from JK Group. Are you sure you don't know him?"

"I don't know him and I don't know you too. So please stop disturbing my area." you said in a stern voice yet shaky. Your hands quickly grabbed the door knob and was about to close it right before he-

"Well that's too bad you don't know about him. Cause you know, his life is about to end today." He pushed the door back, making you stumbled and fell on the floor. You winched trying to endure the pain you just get. You took your hand onto your stomach and your eyes squeezed. It was so damn hurt than other days.

"Get in!" he turned back and shouted to someone else. You saw another two guys entered your house and coming closer to you.

"Stop! What do you want to do? Please don't try to harm my child!" you begged them with tears. One of them lifted you up when you tried to push them away and planning to run away. They were so strong, there's no way you could defeat them.

"We're not going to touch you and your child, Miss Y/N." they have an evil smirk plastered on their face. "We're just going to use you to bait Mr. Jeon today."

Your eyes narrowed when you heard about Jungkook. They wanted to catch him by using you? What's happening right now? Why they wanted Jungkook? Oh my god! How about Eva?

"What do you want to do with Jungkook?!" you yelled at him.

"This is the last chance you will see him when he's still alive,"

What does it mean by that? Your last chance? Why it become your last chance-wait a minute-is that really mean...

"You wanted to kill Jungkook?" you shouted at him so loud while you tried to loosen your hand from his tight grip.

Why they wanted to kill him? It's must be Jennie's plan; or maybe Mark since he thought you are pregnant with Jungkook's child. Why they wanted to kill Jungkook so badly? He has done nothing wrong! Jungkook is got nothing to do with this matter. This is your own fault. People will not try to kill him if you didn't start your evil plan to get a revenge on him.

You went around with a broken heart, and you weren't sure who'd broken it. Jungkook? Mark? Or maybe it because of yourself? Your tears started to blurry your vision when you keep thinking how bad person you had turned to be. This is so wrong; you never expected it will turn out like this. You need to save Jungkook right now! No matter what will happen today or what kind of future you will turn to be, Jungkook must survive in the end. You will make sure of it!

∞

It was a junk place somewhere in Seoul. You were scared. There were a lot of eyes; creepy ones were watching over you. You heard them talking about their boss was on his way here. You don't know who's behind it, but you have to see with your eyes who wanted to kill him. Who is him? Is he Jungkook's enemy too?

That was a perk of being a businessman; they were competing with each other which mean, beside JK Group people, other people are enemies to Jungkook. That's why you hated him to dirt himself into business because you knew how they played. You knew how much he loves car but no matter how you tried to oppose his will, both of us ended up fighting and he's going to blame you; saying that you just tried to block his way for an excuse leaving him and go to Mark instead-which you're tired to listen to every day. He with his endless jealousy.