"I'm sorry, Y/N..."

Jungkook went into his car without even turning to look at you. No matter how loud your voice, shouting his name and asking him to stop but still he won't turn back to you. The tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down your face. He even didn't tell you why he needs to go there. Why Jungkook? Why he left you just like that? Without telling you why and how he ended up to be in prison soon?

You promised you wouldn't hurt me. You promised you wouldn't leave me and you promised me so many other things. So why am I alone now? Why Jungkook? Why did you leave me?

you yelled at Kino who still holds your hand.

Kino called the bodyguards who were outside to come into the house. His hand was still holding yours.

"Don't you ever letting Mrs. Jeon leave this place! That's an order from the President,"

The bodyguards nodded as soon they received Kino's command. He then turned back looking at you who still crying. He lets go of his hand slowly.

"I'm sorry Mrs. Jeon but believe me Mr. Jeon had done nothing wrong,"

"Then why he needs to go there?" you tried to move a step forward, wanting to chase Jungkook but got block by Kino once again.

"He won't..."

You heard Kino sighing.

"Y/N... Just believe whatever Jungkook will be doing later on it's just for your own good. He just wants to protect you... So just please believing in me if you still consider me as your brother... And I'm here will protect both of you too..."

"Ki- Kino..." you were dazed when he suddenly put off the honorific.

"Just listen to me... Please don't step out from this house for today..." he began to step away from you and went out from the house.

"At least tell me why!" Kino just ignored you and headed to his car.

You looked at four bodyguards who stood still at the front door. Why he did this to you? You really want to meet Jungkook now, asking for his explanation all of this. But how? How you gonna escaped from this house if he himself wants you to stay in.

What's exactly did he hide from you? What happened at the office lately? You went to the living room, feeling disappointed. No matter how long Jungkook will be home, you gonna wait for him and telling him what you're supposed to tell.

As you laid down your head on the couch, you looked up towards the ceiling in an effort to stop the tears from streaming down your face. Being alone with your feelings is the worst because you have nowhere to run. They're here, dancing in your mind and you can do is handle.

"I..."

A quivering sigh escaped from your throat.

"As much as I want it to be over, I'm terrified it actually is. I don't- he's been such a big part of my life and as much as he's hurt me he's still able to make me smile no matter what...

I don't know what to do or how to feel... all I know is that at the end of the day I need to focus on me and this baby..." you looked straight ahead as the tears fell, shaking your head slowly. Your voice cracked.

"... but I really don't want to lose him,"

While you lay here waiting to hear from him, you can't help thinking about what your life has become when he became a part of it. Waiting and wanting him has been the focus of your thoughts since you met him, knowing that one day, all that you have envisioned of you and Jungkook being together, will finally happen, even if it's just a moment. Is this your true feeling or just the emotional changes because of this pregnancy? Based on how he treated you last night, it makes your mood swings, making you felt a little bit of craving for his love.

He, who creates a poison, also has the cure. He, who sparks hate, also has the ability to transform it to love. He, who creates misery, also has the ability to destroy it with kindness. He, who creates sadness, also has the ability to convert it to happiness. He, who spreads fear, can also be shaken to spread comfort. He is Jeon Jungkook.

You can feel the cracks on the inside. The ones you've tried to hide, they are getting bigger than ever. You don't know how you ever could've let him in. You still can't grasp the fact that this has happened again. That someone you thought was so dear to you, and that you just wanna dear to him, could once again leave you. Just please come back to home safely, Jungkook.

You awake when you felt your body was moving by someone. Wait, since when you fell asleep? You opened your eyes and saw Jungkook's face was so close to you. But our eyes didn't meet as he seemed too struggle to climb the stair while lifting you. He lifted you up and held you close against him, your head was on his chest until you can hear his heartbeat. You stunned for a moment looking at him. His face, his eyes, his lips, his smile, his smell, his voice. You missed it all. When he puts you on the bed and starting to step away, you knew he won't sleep with you tonight. You grabbed his hand, stopping him from moving forward. He needs to know the truth of your feelings before you will lose him once again.

I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off without you, a part of me just won't let go.

"Can you sleep here tonight?"

ⓞ

After you getting back together with Jungkook, he was so excited to bring you out and didn't even go to the office today. You had a date with him at your most favorite garden where you both used to go. He brought you to The Garden of Morning Calm, the first date you had with him. There, you recalled back all the sweet memories that you and Jungkook shared together. He even carving our daughter name, Eva at the same exact tree that he used to write ours. Eva. Hmm, since when he did thinking about your daughter's name? Even you as her mother never gave a thought about it.

Both of you went back to his home in the evening after spending the whole day outside. But seems like happiness won't last a second when Kino showed you about Jennie went to the media and revealed her pregnancy of Jungkook's child. How about your future then? How about Eva's future, knowing that she will get another sibling? Would Jungkook divorce you like you had planned before and marrying Jennie later on? Entire South Korea knows about this controversy now and of course, people will think about you negatively after this.

You quickly took a step back when Jungkook denied that Jennie's baby was his. What a liar?! You saw him sleeping with Jennie on that day and now he doesn't want to be responsible. Maybe Jennie is a bitch but that baby definitely is innocent. There's no reason to blame that child because of his mother! You went to your room and followed by Jungkook behind. It's just embarrassing to argue in front of Kino and other employees.

"He's not my child, Y/N..." he tried to convince you once again.

"Don't be a scumbag, Jungkook! Just be responsible for that child too. He did nothing wrong..." you turned back from him, facing the window.

You just can't hold your feelings when you looked at him. Your eyes already drip with tears. A moment ago, you just felt like he will be yours forever. But now... It seems like the marriage agreement must be continued so that Jungkook can focus on his another child too. It's okay, Eva... Your mother is here to take care of you. You rubbed your belly softly while the tears keep falling down to your cheeks.

he suddenly shouted at you. You turned to him, surprised by his act. He looked so mad right now.

"Jungkook-ah..."

"I only have you and Eva. THAT'S IT!"

You sighed looking at him who is too stubborn and heartless.

"I guess our agreement still continue no matter what, Jungkook. Divorce me after one year like we planned,"

Jungkook surprised when you reminded him about that agreement. He walked closer to you and put both of his hands on your shaking shoulder.

"No, you can't! You just said that you love me and now? Did you ask me to divorce you? Am I a trash to you?"

You shouted at him and pulled off his hands from your shoulder. It's better to treat him like this so that he will follow your request.

I'm sorry Jungkook-ah. I have to do this...

"I guess I have to tell you the truth then..." he said with his weak voice. What truth now? What's he hiding from you? Is it the reason why he needs to go to prison later? You suddenly become worried about him.

"Do you know why I don't want to be a singer anymore?" he went to the couch at the corner of the room and sat himself down.

"Did you ever wonder why I don't go solo when the other members went to the military? And did you ever wonder why I didn't join BTS when they already back? And for the god sake, Y/N... did you ever wonder even a glance in your mind why I retired from that industry?" said him while smiling. His words make you speechless. What did he try to say to you?

"Being on stage is really my dream, Y/N... But it was before meeting you. Yes, Y/N... You are my dream since then but went to other countries every month, having concert tours were really exhausting and didn't see you every day was like crushing my passion... Didn't see you once were like losing my dream... So I'm thinking what the purpose of being a singer anymore?"

You still stood in front of him, freeze and surprised when he confessed his feelings.

"And you know what? I thought I'm gonna hide it from you because it's too embarrassing... But I guess this one might change your mind later..."

You felt your heart beats faster, agitated with what he will be saying next.

"I was so stupid back then, Y/N..." he lets out a small laugh, awkwardly. He looked at you while giving a warm smile.

"I know your relationship with Mark and I know Mark always have a crush on you. And I know you always hanging out with him when I'm not in Korea..."

"Jungkook-ah..."

You wanted to say that what he's talking right now was wrong. You never cheated on him with Mark.

"I know you never have feelings towards him. That's why I said I was so stupid. I get jealous so easily. But I can't be mad at you, Y/N because I was too in love with you. I love you so much until I done something that I really regret now..." he sighed after that.

"Yeah, it's true that I always ignoring you... Went to the nightclub... Treating you so bad when I was drunk... But that's happened right after someone told me that you spent a night at Mark's condo,"

You were surprised when Jungkook had revealed the truth behind of his bad behavior. You never slept at Mark's house. Never!

" you raised your voice, defensively and strictly to prove that you are innocent.

"Whoever he was, maybe he can't look us happy together. So one day, Jennie came to me and bringing a deal. She wanted to get revenge on Mark because she failed to win his heart and I agreed. I agreed because I also didn't want to see him with you anymore..."

"How could you, Jungkook?! Mark is my best friend! I know him first before you!"

"I'm so sorry Y/N. I loved you too much and afraid that I will lose you. But I already got paid what I had done to you. Guess what goes around comes around... I thought by giving 5 million to Jennie was enough but not for her. In order to break up with her, I should pay her more only to keep her mouth shut ..." he then stood up and came close to you.

"I never sleep with her, Y/N... We just put an act for you on that day... Because I was too mad at you for always winning Mark every time we argued... But I swear, I never sleep with her..."

"You are very childish Jungkook. Did you remember on that day? You pushed me off to the floor while I was still pregnant?! Because of your stupid jealousy?!"

You still remember what happened between you and Jungkook on that day clearly. What he had done to you was very unforgivable.

"I know and I'm truly sorry what I had done to you, Y/N..."

"I still can't believe it, Jungkook. It was too much for your jealousy..." he then was about to hug you, wanted to calm you down.

You crossed your arms and took a step back. You more hated him now after he told you the truth.

"Just please forgive me, Y/N... I know I was so stupid..."

"YOU ARE STUPID NOW TOO, JUNGKOOK!"

When you're in the middle of argument with Jungkook, suddenly the door knocked from the outside. You wiped your tears and Jungkook walked towards the door. You saw Kino in front of the door once Jungkook opened it.

"I have a bad news for you, Mr. and Mrs. Jeon..."

"Bad news? What it is?" Jungkook became serious out of sudden.

"Your mother is in the hospital right now, Mr. Jeon..."