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i'm still in jungkook's arm. i won't deny it that his hug was really something else. it is so warm and comfy.

i felt safe.

i felt like i'm home.

and the most important is the sound of his heartbeat.

i could hear it.

i didn't think that he was like this either.

our hearts are beating so fast in each other's arm.

"sometimes i think i've gone mad. have i always had this animalistic side in me? feeling such passion after such small provocations." jungkook suddenly said, breaking the silence.

wh-what is he talking about?

"it almost feels shameful, you're the only one who makes me feel this way. what have you done to me?" he asked.

feel what way? i don't understand him.

"i-i haven't done anything.." it came out whispered as i said that.

and he let go of the hug, placing his hands on each side of my shoulder.

"that's what makes it even worse. you aren't doing anything, but i find myself endlessly seduced by you. so.."

he suddenly gently pushed me so that i lay under him, he was on top of me.

this is making me even more nervous.

what is he going to do?

"just for today, may i give in to my desires? while you might not find it fully satisfying, i won't go too hard-"

i stopped him from talking too much by covering his mouth.

i want him, too.

but he was too slow. is he trying to tease me?

he knows very well that he's also seducing me.

"jungkook, you..you don't have to say everything you're going to do." i said, still covering his mouth. i'm so shy when i'm saying this to him.

i could feel my face reddened.

he unbelievably looked at me.

but his action after that making me even more shocked. he grabbed my hand that was on his lips, kissing it with full of love.

"you have no idea what you do to me when you look at me like that." he said, moving my hand from his face.

he moved closer and flicked my long hair that stuck to my face.

"beautiful.."

he whispered before he leaned to kiss me on the lips.

tonight is going to be so long. i knew it.

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i just can't help myself to fall asleep when we're sleeping in this position.

it's not weird though.

but i was laying on one of his arm.

he should be uncomfortable, right?

so, i unintentionally kept moving until he was half-awake from his sleep.

"are you uncomfortable?" he asked, tiredly.

it's not me, it's you!

"no, i'm just worried your arm might hurt. we should just sleep comfortably." i said.

he suddenly pulled me closer to his bare chest, hugging me in his sleep.

"this is comfortable for me. i'm going to sleep with you in my arms. so relax."

"it's stifling for me to sleep like this." i argued.

it feels so weird to have someone by my side during my sleep, especially a man.

but this man beside me is my newlywed husband.

"this is how i want to sleep, so try and get comfortable."

"aren't you uncomfortable, too? i've never slept with someone, so i feel uncomfortable."

he looked down to me and said, "i'm going to try and get used to it, too."

see? i knew it. he was uncomfortable too.

"then instead of trying to get comfortable, why don't we just sleep with some space.." i suggested.

"i don't want to. maybe you'll just leave two fifty thousand won bills and run away again. i'd rather sleep like this." jungkook said, pulling me even more closer to his chest.

ah, i'm blushing right now, right?

"we're married now. so there's no reason for me to run." i said.

"you never know. but still, i guess this time i know your name and where you work. it'd be easier for me to find you."

what? he tried to find me?

"you looked for me?" i asked.

"yes, for an entire month."

"why? you didn't know i was pregnant with doo-jool at the time."

why would he find me when i'm nothing but a stranger he spent a night with?

"i wanted to ask you, why you left me one hundred thousand won. i wanted to know if that was all i meant to you. just one hundred thousand won?"

i was stunned.

"that's why you looked for me for a month? to ask me that?"

"if you knew how i felt when i saw those two bills, you would understand why." he said.

"i kept on seeing the woman who ran away without telling me her name in my bed. constantly. it was baffling. it was a blow to my pride, too. i kept on thinking about what i'd do when i found two bills." he added.

two bills.

so he even dreamt about me, too?

he must have feel so humiliated back then.

"i'm sorry...when i think about it now, i guess what i did was a bit strange, but there wasn't any meaning behind it. i just...it was all i had on me that day. because of that, i had to walk all the way to the subway station instead. it was cold and exhausting."

i laughed, remembering the day after we shared together.

i gave everything in my purse to him until i had no money left.

jungkook suddenly kissed my forehead, making me a little bit startled.

"so that means it was so good for you that you wanted to give me everything you had?" he asked.

"you can think of it however you like." i said, looking away from him.

he's always find a way just to make me blush hardly.

"so i'm right in that you liked it that much."

nah, he's trying to tease me now.

i hate to admit it, but it was good. it was so good even though it was my first time.

and his first time, too.

i turned around, laying while my back was facing him.

he was so all over of himself.

"i don't know. i'm going to sleep now, so let's stop talking." i said.

there's no point, i guess. i'm still laying on his arm.

so it's easier for him to pull me back into his arms, back-hugging me.

he kissed my nape.

"how could you not know? just admit it. you're like a dog with a bone about this.."

after hearing he said that, the room filled with a comfortable silence.

i could hear his soft snores.

i admit, this is the first best sleep by far i've ever get.

in his warm, comfy and home-like hug.

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my eyes snapped open as soon as i heard the alarm ringing.

i need to get work!

i'm going to be late for school.

"jennie, why didn't you wak-!"

oh, today's sunday. and yesterday was saturday.

that's right.

and i got married.

how silly of me.

the picture of jungkook and i kissed yesterday kept playing on my mind.

my heart is fluttering so much just by thinking about it.

a sudden knock killed my reverie and the door creaks open to let jungkook enters our bedroom.

"are you awake, chae? come out. let's eat breakfast. i heated up some porridge for you."

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the porridge was impressively amazing as soon as it melted in my mouth.

"this is so delicious! did you make this yourself?" i asked jungkook, mouth fulled of food.

why didn't he eat his porridge and kept staring at me?

do i look weird?

do i have something on my face?

never mind, just let me enjoy the food for now.

"no, my mother made it. i just heated it up." he said.

"oh, i see." i thought it is him who made this.

"what?"

"it made me think that you even knew how to cook." that would be so perfect of him.

"do you find men who can cook sexy?" he suddenly asked.

i laughed.

"no, nothing like that. but i think it's better to know how to cook than to not know at all."

"don't you think i would be too unfair to the world if a man like me knew how to cook, too?" he jokingly asked.

honestly, it is true though.

"suuure.." i agreed.

"but if it's what you want, i'll learn how to cook. what do you like to eat?"

i will not miss this opportunity. hm..what i want to eat?

"kimchi stew?" i said.

"i think i can manage that without having to learn. why don't i cook that for lunch today?"

"sounds good!" i smiled.

i continued eating when suddenly i saw a paper bag on a seat beside me.

i took the bag and took out two pair of a brand new pink apron.

"what is this?" i asked jungkook.

he looked so hesitant at first but he eventually said, "uh..it's from my aunts. they mentioned something about matching aprons.."

jungkook wearing an apron? that would be so adorable of him.

why did i even blush?

should i tease him about this? since he's the one who will cook today?

"why don't you put it on today? or will you put it on some other time?" i teased him.

he awkwardly laughed and looked away shyly.

"i'll think about it.."

haha, it's not so bad..starting off like this.