“We can stop and have a quickie,” I suggest wiggling my eyebrows whilst placing my hand over his own which is on my thigh. He tightens his grip on it raising his hand slightly higher up.

We were on our way back....sadly. I was totally fine with staying there forever but apparently that receptionist lady was so jealous of me for having a guy like Damon that she kicked us out.

Okay that's not entirely true but still, she was so pissed with how Damon and Josh seemed as if they didn't know she existed.

“Could you not do that shit while I'm in here,”

“I honestly forgot you were here,” I mutter truthfully, we were going with Drew apparently, I think he said something in the lines of Josh is so fucking annoying but what he doesn't know is that he just gave Josh and Camilla an opportunity to fuck, so lucky.

“Music anyone?” I say already starting to connect my phone

“Why ask if you're not going to wait for our answers,” Drew murmurs audibly

“Do you have to comment on every little shit I do,”

“Well it will be stupid so someon—,” I don't let him finish as I'm already reaching for him from the passenger seat with him backing up next to the window so he can get away from me

“Vanessa sit down,”

“But he—”

“Now,”

“I hate you,” I say glaring at Drew before huffing and sitting down properly

“Yes Vanessa sit yo—bro what the fuck!” Drew screams after Damon hits the brakes causing his head to come in contact with the roof of the car

“It was an accident,” Damon lies trying to hide his smirk

“That was no fucking—,”

“Drew dear shut up my song's starting,”

“First you dump cereal on me the—,”

“You still remember that?” I almost forgot that happened

“Of course I do,” he mutters looking away from me

I nod at him giving him a weirded out look before starting to sing along with the song. I scream out the lyrics making both boys stare at me one with amusement and the other looking horrified.

I place both my hands on the dashboard moving my hair back and forth. It's only when I attempt to twerk while sitted do I get a cramp and immediately stop,“Oh shit,”

Drew breaks out laughing and I narrow my eyes at him,“Just know Damon won't be there to save you when we get out of this car,”

“As if you can hurt me,” he scoffs

“Oh you're begging for an ass whooping now,” I say reaching for him yet again only for Damon to break it up again

“We’re now here,” I look out the window and see the old burnt down amusement park, I turn back to Damon with a confused look

“What are we doing here?” I ask looking between him and Drew

“You said you wanted to know everything, this is the start of it,”

I get out of the car right at the same time two cars pull up next to us. Camila, Josh and Conner get out of one car then Tyler and Adam get out of another.

I follow behind all of them with only Camilla beside me, they all looked....serious even Josh

What the fuck happened here.

This place looked creepy, like something you'll see in a horror movie. I feel like something is just going to pop out of no where and eat us all then I will be the lone survivor who writes a book about it then gets super famous but also depressed and dies lonely and sad.

But since I already have depressi— nevermind that I have to focus, this is what I wanted, for them to open up to me...to tell me the truth.

They stop simultaneously infront of an almost fully burned down circus tent causing me to bump into Tyler back.

Everyone is silent as they stare at it, it's as if memories in their heads if what happened here.

“I’m guessing Damon told you that my parents died?” Connor finally says breaking the silence

“Yeah, he did” I mumble

He sighs deeply, his eyes slightly narrowed and biting his lip. It must be hard for him and now I feel like an insensitive bitch, I wanted to know stuff but it results in him feeling like shit so there's no point

“Look you d—,”

“Josh’s mom was best friends with my dad and my mom, she didn't know what happened inside our family walls and my parents being so good at pretending she didn't suspect anything leaving only Josh knowing partially of what was going on, so uhhm when his mom forced my family and I to go to the carnival one night shit happened. By shit I mean they started the fire so they could burn me but lucky for me they got trapped and ended up dieing, killing not only them but also Josh's dad,” he says a single tear falling down his face, shit.

I walk up to him and pull him into a tight embrace, I couldn't say sorry I mean I hated it when people said that to me so....

His arms go around me aswell as he silently cried on my shoulder.

“Then my mom took Connor in and continued raising him as her own, making my bond with him stronger as if were brothers. A few months in the whole new living together thing I introduced him with these people and after a few bumps here and there we became somewhat family,” Josh says continuing the story

That's so sweet, I wish I had met these guys earlier it would have saved me from all the shitty people I've had in my life.

“The rest you'll find out next week,” Drew says, he doesn't seem to have the usual scowl on his face but instead this sorrowful expression

“It still hurts doesn't it?” I mean to ask but it comes out more of a statement, Connor still answers with a slight nod of his head.

We stay there silent for a while before Damon is the first one to turn around and leave then we all follow suit.

I get into Damon's car along with Drew before Damon drives off with the rest of them following right behind us. question where we're going because this is definitely not the way back to the university but receive no answer.

I stay silent just staring out the window, and out of curiosity I stick out my tongue like a dog. I wonder why they enjoy doing that cause I taste nothing, only thing I git from it was a bug trying to choke me.

When the car finally stops and we walk for what I feel a long time cause my legs cause we're already hurting before we even started but everyone else except for Camilla seemed alright. Camilla and I were both panting by the time we got to a cliff while the guys looked completely unaffected. Fucking unfairity.

That's a word now, I should get hired and become those people who make up words and gives them meanings before putting them into a dictionary. There's a job for that though right? I very much think there is.

I look down to the water and see that it's not that far down actually. It's a nice place how come whenever I just wander around I never come across such places only a dumpster area, okay that one was memorable cause this I think he was drunk,so he fell into some shit and me knowing it will happen I took a video. That makes it seem as if I'm the bad but in my defense that thing was just too funny a video had to be made.

I tried helping him, worst mistake ever cause he thought I was some cop so he pulled me into the shit with him. Let me just say I was so dirty that I had to wash those clothes before burning them.

We all sit down with me dangling my legs over the edge. I've never hung out with these guys and they've been this quiet, I don't like it

“Okay get up,” I say to Connor as I stand up myself

“Why?”

“Just do it,” he mutters to himself about how he's so tired but gets up either way.

“Okay whenever I felt like shit I like going to a certain place where no one hears or sees me and I scream,”

“You scream?”

“You know s-c-r-e-a-m which is a long, loud piercing cry expressing emotion or pain,” I elaborate

“I know what scream means I'm asking why should I do that,” he grumbles

“Its uhm helped when I've felt so fucking low and know that there's no legal way I could deal with my situation, so you'll be just shouting your problems out,” I've thought of murdering a lot of people in my life,“Let me demonstrate,”

“You don't have to do that, you'll be just exposing yourself in the process,” he mutters audibly, he's right if I show him how to do it I'll be telling all of them a part of me that was kept a secret, the part of me that's always been sad.

“I want to,” I say taking a deep breath and looking ahead at calming waters

“I hate that I don't feel the need to love my family!”

I feel like saying your problems out loud helps. To me it makes me see that the problems won't be something to be stressing about or rather fighting for, it be like that for some of my problems.

With a more quieter voice this time I say,“Now it's your turn,” I don't dare to look at everyone knowing very well that they are all staring at me.

“I could stop feeling as if it was my fault!!”

Now that must hurt, whenever people wrong me I have grown to know that it's them not me I have never really gone through the feeling of blaming myself for their issues.

I wonder what he must be going through everyday, carrying this weight over his shoulders every day just because of assholes he was forced to call parents.

“Did it help?”

“Yeah it actually did, thanks so much V” I smile widely at him

“Okay now the rest of you fuckers can stand up and do this,” I say looking at everyone else

“Do we ha—”

“No excuses,”

Slowly they stood up and Tyler decides to be the first one to start it off,“I wish I could just tell her how I feel!”

I wonder who he's talking about......

“I hate the shit I do for the ones I love!” Drew yells, they all stare at him as if knowing what he's referring to

“I wish I could tell my best friend the truth!”Josh shouts, only three people here know who he's talking about

“I hate how I am not appreciated by what I've fucking done for people,” she's talking about the eat healthy thing, after trying so hard to prevent another person dieing at the end no one seems to care even the school board seemed to have brushed the matter off as if it didn't matter.

I did that and I regret it after finding out the reason behind it all.

“I wish I could just forget about Isabella!” love can be shitty, Adam is exhibit A of that. After putting in his full heart into a relationship only for that bitch to just rip it to shreds

It was now Damon's turn and he's been awfully quiet. I stare at him and notice how he's jaw is clenched and he's fist is clenched.

“I can't do it,” he finally mutters

I walk towards him before wrapping my arms around his torso. I nod against his chest then stay like that for a few more seconds before pulling away from him and staring at the sky filled with stars

“Okay so we're definitely not bringing this shit up again,” I say looking down at the inviting water

“Of course,”

“Already forgotten,”

“What shit?”

I laugh at that before looking back at ten water, “Can you like swim in there?”

“Well yeah bu—”

“Wait you're not actually planning on jumping?”

“Maybe,”

“Va—,”

“Lets do it” Camilla says agreeing with me

We both start stripping down to our underwear before Camilla does a flip getting in so I feel the need to do a front flip.....but since I'm not blessed with that certain skill set I just do a cannonball.

“Do you think the guys will jump in?” I ask as I try to make my head stay above the water

“Not at all,” it's then that I get an idea and look at her with a mischievous smile

“Whatever it is you're thinking of my answer’s no,”

“Oh yes,”

“I fucking hate you,”

“I love me too,”

Five minutes later

“Arghhhhhh! Vanessa!”

“Something’s pulling me under!”

It didn't even take that long for splashes of people getting in to be heard, so gullible.

When they are all looking at us with worry written all over their faces it's then that we burst out laughing like hyenas.

“You two got to be fucking shitting me!”

“I ruined my fucking shirt for this!” Adam groans, ofcourse he's worried about that.

I turn to Damon who was already by my side holding me close to him, how does he effortlessly keep his head above water and yet still holds onto me. This is the unfairity I was talking about.

“You two will pay for that,” Drew mutters, somehow I knew he wasn't joking

***********

“Has anyone ever told you how amazing you are?” Damon asks his breath fanning my neck as he continues drawing circles on my arm with his fingers

“Uhh no, not really” I say breathlessly, when I say Damon's a beast in bed I won't be sugarcoating it, like seriously I very much think the reason it was hard for me to climb the that small hill or even swim was because my legs were fucking hurting.

“Well you are and no one can tell anything different,” he mumbles kissing my cheek

“Thanks,” I say back suddenly feeling sleepy

I snuggle into him more putting a leg over his own before I slowly drifted off to sleep but not before I heard Damon say something

“You are way more than just a friend to me, that's for sure,”