Three days......well to be specific two and a half but still......embarrassing

I should be out there showing everyone how not affected I am, being a bad bitch but no I'm here, in my woman cave.....soda drunk.

I guess the whole reason I'm still here is not only because of Damon but also cause if school. Like the professors are evil to think they wanted to pair me up with a random person, I mean sure I don't have friends in that class but getting forced to talk with someone is not okay so me staying means I don't get a partner....

I think I'm still feeling the after effects of my soda drunkness-ness

Is that a word? I think it's a word, okay it's now a word.

My phone was constantly getting notifications the first few hours I was cooped up in here until I finally just switched it off.

It was probably the guys saying ‘oh you should go talk to him’

‘figure this shit out’

Or even‘where the hell are you’

They can all go fuck off......especially Damon

Like seriously though what the fuck was I even thinking, of course Damon won't want me. To think I got on the pill for that guy. He's known for loving one night stands and I wasn't planning on being that.

I haven't even had sex with him yet.....maybe that's a good thing I managed to get away now.

I need to get out of here, it's not healthy. Wow I'm talking about staying healthy.

Camilla has infected me

What's a place you can go to.......to just forget, get wasted and probably laid?

A party

Do I want to go there....no

But hey free booze, it sure does beat the crap I'm drinking at the moment and plus it's been quite a while since I've gotten drunk.

I stand up and stretch, I guess I'm lucky since I have a sink where I can brush my teeth.

More like I open up the small circular window and wait for the right time for a random person to walk by then I spit out the......shit? I get out of my woman cave and go down the stairs.

No one's in sight as I lock the door and place the key back into the book. I'm pretty sure my face is all red and swollen from all the crying I did. Why am I wasting my tears? I have no fucking idea, I mean right now he probably doesn't even fucking where I am.

I head to Camilla's room. They are all most probably in my room waiting. They are going to wait for a long time.

I knock on her door hoping it's her and not her roommate that answers it. When the door opens and I see her tired eyes meet my own I immediately regret coming when she starts screaming or in her case talking.

“For fucksakes Vanessa! Where were you? Are you okay? Wait don't answer that.....of course you're not okay. Do you want to plan a murder though? I mean I can help,” she says quickly while pulling me into a hug that makes me grimace.

Not from being uncomfortable but from how tight she was holding me.

“I need to use your shower,” is all I say as I pull away and start walking past her immediately coming face to face with Josh.....a half naked Josh.

I blink at him and he blinks back then I turn to Camilla blinking at her aswell with my mouth slightly open now.

I slowly nod my head looking downwards,“hmm,”

Oh wow

“Don't tell Damon I'm going to the party and I won't tell Drew you guys are fucking,” I say collapsing onto the couch.

“We are n—wait you're going to the party? And just so you know it was a one time thing,” she says Josh looking at her funny when she says it was a one time thing

It definitely won't be a one time thing.

“You didn't answer the question, where were you?” Josh asks sitting next to me now wearing jeans

“Neverlands,” I answer closing my eyes

“Okay then who were you with?” Camilla asks

She's trying to figure out if I was with a boy or not, fucking my problems away. You know I should've done that though, I'm pretty sure Damon was doing it, is doing it.

“No one,” I respond

“Did Damon actually fuck that girl?” I ask, I'm curious.....maybe I'm doing all of this out of insecurity? Or just generally from misunderstanding.

“Ask him yourself,” that sounded rehearsed

I huff standing up again,“Which door is it I'm not in the mood to come across condoms at the moment” even when I try to make a joke it doesn't necessarily sound right. It sounds so forced.

“First door on your right, there's an extra towel there you can use and I'll bring you clothes,” I thank her before looking between her and Josh again......wow.

It's a shocking pair given one is so organized, a health freak and fucking scary when she wants something then the other is carefree, loves living in the moment and makes jokes out of everything. They'll have beautiful babies if Drew doesn't kill Josh first.

*******

“Remember you can't tell any of the others I'll be there,” I say to the both of them from the backseat of Camilla's car.

We had to leave earlier since this place was apparently quite far away, it better be worth it.

“That would be hard given they all are going to be there,”

Damon's going to be there, shit

Wait what the fuck is he doin— I shouldn't care.....I shouldn't give a fuck, okay I can do that.

Camilla and Josh look at each other as if knowing something I don't.

“If you don't feel up to it I can definitely go back and maybe you can eat your troubles away,”Camilla suggests not looking at me but now focusing on the road ahead.

“I’m not always eating!” I grumble,“And no we're going, I'm going,” I feel like I'm trying to convince myself that this is a good idea

Josh turns towards me scanning through my outfit before looking back ahead, he wants to say something or maybe comment on something.

I'm wearing a really revealing outfit, it has a top that's open infront showing my boobs a little bit and a black skirt which is very short finishing it off with heels that I'm questioning if I'll come out with a broken leg.

“What is it?”

“Nothing,”

Sure

“How long till we get there?” I question now tired of sitting and doing nothing, I should've brought food.

“Less than thirty minutes,”

I sit back closing my eyes even though I'm not sleeping. Camilla got my cozzy from my room, apparently it's a pool party. I don't want to swim though.

Maybe I'll sit and look pretty then a random hot guy would whisk me awa— oh for fucks sakes!

I sound desperate.

“We’re now there,”

This is a stupid idea, of course I'm going to see them but it's too late now since I'm already getting out of the car.

I follow them inside the beautiful and rather large house. Fuck damnit there are some rich motherfuckers out there.

“Okay stay close yeah?”

“Yeah,” I agree walking towards the small bar in the kitchen

“That’s not staying close!” I hear Josh say behind me

I grab a solo cup and start adding different beverages inside. I'm trying to make my own punch which I feel like I'm doing a very job at.

I take a sip and immediately spit it back into my cup, what in the shit is this? I guess I should cancel out being a bartender as a career.

I'll just drink the punch that was already made. As I'm stretching my hand out to it I'm stopped by another hand.

I frown at it then meet the eyes of the person who stopped me. Malcolm.

“You shouldn't drink that, it's spiked,”

Oh....

“Thanks uhm what are you doing here anyway you don't really strike as a person who likes parties,” I ask trying to keep from getting awkward.

“I’d say the same thing about you,” he answers cracking a smile,“Let me just make you one,” he mumbles and grabs another solo cup and starts making a drink for me.

I pay close attention to his movements right up to the point he hands me the cup, I won't lie I don't trust him yet.

“Thanks,” I murmur taking a sip,“holy shit that's good,”

“You’re welcome...uhh see you around?” he doesn't wait for my response as he walks away

I walk around a bit watching people dance, making out and playing beer pong like a creep until I have this desire to just go upstairs.

They are many doors and I go to open the first one I come across,“Oh Damon!”

Wait what

I peek through the creek a bit and before I could clearly see who it was someone starts talking right next to my ear,“Who are you spying on?”

“Oh shit,” I yell out of fright and turn to see who it was

Damon

“Oh shit,” this time I say with disgust

Oh so there's another guy whose name is Damon, makes sense I guess.

I start walking past him not saying anything else but he quickly grabs my wrist stopping me,“We need to talk about what you saw,”

“No we actually don't,” I say glaring at him and pulling my hand out of his grip.

“You can't be pissed at me for stupid shit!” I hear him say from behind me

I ignore him and keep walking

“Vanessa!” he was too late as I already disappeared into the crowd.

I head to the beer pong table then mistakenly bump into someone and right as I was about to apologize I see who it is,“Drew,”

“Judging by that face you saw Damon, fuck I should've been there,” he mutters the last part to himself,

“You seem to be enjoying this,” I grit out

“Seeing Damon walk around as if having no clue on what to do? Yes I'm enjoying it very much,” he says then goes to the other side of the table,“Wanna play?”

I look down at the cup, I could get drunk quicker so why not.

“Sure,”

“Lets add a bet on it aswell,” I nod my head gesturing for him continue,“If I win you go talk to Damon and actually listen to him—,”

“Thats out of th—,”

“Let me finish yeah? If you win I beat his ass for you,”

Okay not that I think he's capable of doing that but I like that idea, it seems fair enough....why would he want me to talk to him though how would that benefit him.

“Fine but I'll have you know I'm a master at this shit,” I say getting into position

I'm terrible at this, like seriously bad but I will beat him though baby using a secret weapon......cheating

******

Okay so there's no way of cheating in that game, or it's maybe cause I don't know how to cheat in that game.

Like seriously how do you cheat in that game?!

My aiming was shit and after I drank the first cup I was already seeing double. Now I have to look for Damon. Maybe I'll lie and say I did talk to him when I didn't actually do it.

But I guess a part of me wants to talk to him, to actually find out if he did go on that date and give her flowers.

And book that hotel room.

I wiggle my way through the crowd of dancing, loud, happy people trying to locate where Damon is......until I see him leaning against the wall talking to the same girl with her laughing and blushing.

Like bitch why the fuck are you blushing.

Okay I'm being mean but still,“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,”