When I got to Master Windu's room I was surprised to find that he wasn't there. It was strange, he's never missed our meetings before. I waited there for almost 15 minutes before I got tired of waiting for him.

I walked aimlessly around the halls, contemplating what I saw in my meditated state. I ended up by my room and decided to go in instead of my aimlessness. I laid down on my bed. I daydreamed briefly about being the kind of General I want to be. If the council does advance me they'll see that whatever squad they give me will be able to do amazing things. Even the things I do with Master Windu's unit is always successful. I am not afraid of being a knight. I don't need anyone to look at me like I'm less than worthy. Like I am not a threat. I want Anakin and I to be on the same level, so we can be together more.

I begin thinking of Anakin. I miss him. It's only been maybe 4 or 5 days, but the fact that he's still here, in Coruscant, maybe 2 floors above me, mad at me, bothers me. All I've ever wanted was to make sure he's okay. That he's happy and safe. He does the same for me. I just wish I did a better job of explaining myself. I just didn't want to put my Jedi career at risk now, especially when Obi-Wan was so suspicious so recently. I thought maybe time apart would be good. But WOW this sucks.

There was a knock on my door, so I got out of bed to answer. When I opened the door Obi-Wan was there.

"Oh, hello." I greeted him.

"Hello, (Y/N). Master Windu sent me. The council requests your presence at our meeting tonight." He told me.

"Oh, okay. Thank you." I said.

"Are you alright? You seem conflicted." He said.

"I'm alright. Just not excited to have the council turn me away again." I rolled my eyes.

"You've worked very hard. I cannot speak for the rest of the council but I'm on your side." He smiled. "Walk with me." he said. I followed him out the door and closed it behind me. We walked outside and began our talk.

"Thank you, Master Kenobi." I said. He nodded in response. It was nice to have company.

"What is it that's troubling you?" He asked.

"Don't get me wrong, I trust the council's decisions, but to be tossed aside all the time is so frustrating." I said, "Not just in this knight situation. But also before, when Master Unduli passed I had no real guidance for half of a year, despite the fact that Master Unduli and I always went on difficult tasks always coming out victorious. It's begun to feel like my abilities aren't enough anymore. Like they don't trust me. Why do they not see that I've grown so much stronger than any of my peers?"

"No one on the council has questioned your strength. You are very strong in the force, (Y/N), stronger than we know. We just don't want to make any mistakes. I assure you, it will be made up to you in time. Your training will pay off." He told me.

"I know. It still troubles me." I tell him. We walk to the garden.

"The council is not the only thing troubling you, is it?" He says. I shake my head.

"Anakin is not talking to me. He is my best friend. I feel as though I am in the wrong, but he won't allow me to fix it." I spill.

"Anakin is a stubborn man. He seems to be going through a similar deal." He said. When we were in a far part of the garden, away from anyone, he stopped me. "Anakin told me." he said. I blinked a few times, I felt my heart stop.

"He t-told you? Told you what?" I asked, trying to remain calm.

"The relationship you two have is much stronger than a friendship. He told me the whole thing. I understand it. I may not completely agree, but you two are excellent at what you do despite the attachment you've made for each other. As long as you both agree that duty comes first, I won't tell a soul. I'll help you as much as I can." He told me. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I was blown away. There was no way he told Obi-Wan, how could he have been that brave to put both of us at risk. I didn't know what to say, what if this was a trap?

"I can tell by your face, you don't believe me. I, too, was surprised he told me. Your nervous if I'm telling the truth. I assure you, I am. He told me of your days traveling back on Naboo was where he first told you he had strong feelings for you. And you turned him down, very forcefully." He laughed. I believed him then. No one in the galaxy beside the two of us would know that.

"What can I say? I didn't want to do anything against the code." I laughed very nervously.

"You've become a remarkable young woman. I understand why he would fall in love with you. Anakin is a stubborn, but good young man himself. Your attachment to each other is dangerous, but not lethal if kept under control. I trust you both." He tells me. I smile, and hug him. It's so nice to hear that someone is on our side.

"Thank you so much." I whispered.

"You need to talk to him. He's upset I sided with you on your last argument. Do not let your emotions cloud your judgment. Do what you feel is right." He said.

"He wants to marry, to ensure our commitment. But how can that be kept a secret from the Republic?" I asked,

"I don't know. Perhaps if you never file the legal papers." He pointed out. "Anakin knows many people in our government. If he needed to he could most likely find his way in there to hide it in the archive. He's a very dedicated man, he'd find a way."

"I suppose. But even then, how can we keep from the rest of the Order? If we raise suspicion now, if we're married how does that help at all?" I asked.

"I was the only one in suspicion, mainly because I'm around the two of you the most. It's okay to just merely act as though you're best friends. It's normal to have good friends in the order. Just make sure to be careful when there's any kind of a risk of another Jedi, or anyone for that matter, of seeing you." he tells me. I think about it for a moment. I guess it might not hurt at all. Whether we're married or not we'll receive roughly the same punishment.

"I suppose there's a point in that. I still stand by my decision to wait until after I become a knight, at least." I said. He nodded.

"That is something I respect. Your studies are what is most important. Don't allow Anakin to sway you there, you're young. You have time." He pats my back.

"Thank you for understanding. It means so much to us." I smiled. This really meant the world to me. To know I'm not crazy.

"You're a wise and promising knight. I will do all I can to help you." he smiles, I bow to him.

"If you'll excuse me, Obi-Wan. I think I need to find Anakin now." I said turning, but he held my arm.

"Not yet, it'll only result in him trying to sway you further before you're ready. Not now. Besides, you'll be late for the council meeting if you talked to him now." He said. I nodded,

"You're probably right." I said, "I'm glad you're here to guide me in this. I'm afraid these are things I cannot talk to Master Windu about."

"Many Jedi think about these rules differently. Anakin was lucky I'm one of forgiveness. It's hard to tell, if you want to stay in the order, it's best to keep things a secret." he says.

"I will. I promise you, my studies will always come first." I promise. He smiled,

"I know. I trust you." He says, "Just look out for Anakin for me."

We both laughed. Eventually he had to leave for the council. I said I had to do something else, in reality I was just too nervous to go. I strolled behind as slow as possible. I put my hood on to avoid any eye contact with people. Even though my talk with Obi-Wan helped greatly, I still felt conflicted in further areas than Anakin and my training. I looked at my light sabers. I thought I knew everything before, Master Windu has proven to me I knew nothing. I might know so much now but I know it's only such a small portion it seems. I needed more time, a longer lifespan to learn everything more.

Obi-Wan said I was stronger than we knew, what might that mean? I can't let myself think about it too much, but I wanted to. I felt the need to ask questions of what do I have to left to learn. It was a question with no answer, but I still wanted to ask it.Master Windu is one of, if not the best duelist in the Order, I learned from the best beside Yoda. But dueling and strategy isn't the only thing that makes a knight. I'm failing terribly in the attachment area, but hopefully they see I am trying in the others. I need to advance. I don't care how young I am, it's better to base it on skill than age.

Master Windu once told me that ambition may be my folly. But I can't help it. I will reach my potential. This is the one thing in my life that I will make sure goes right.