Damon

"D-Damon" I heard her whisper. I turned to see why is she stopping me from going after the man who pulled the trigger on my brother. If she hadn't pushed Ric at the right time Ric would have been dead. I turned to see why is she calling me and there she was lying on the ground surrounded by Ric and Caprice. Caprice was shaking her and screaming her name. Chuck came rushing towards her. I could see her bloody hand stretched towards me, her eyes on me. NO, NO NO, NO, I ran towards her. "Doll! No no no no, you can't leave me, listen to me." She was looking at me her eyes were filled with so much love. She touched my cheek "Da-Damon" she wanted to say something but she couldn't. She coughed out blood, "Get the car ready and call Zack, we need to take her to hospital now!" I yelled "I called already, we need to take her" he said and I lifted her up in my arms. She wanted to say something, I know. I could read her confession in her eyes, she is saying that she love me. I kissed her in my embrace "I know Doll, I love you too amore". She closed her eyes in my embrace "No, you are not leaving me Sophia. I will bring you back to me".

Here we are at the hospital, the best surgeon of New York is treating her, Zack too is in the operation theater. Of course the floor was sealed for any visitors. After all she is the wife of the Mafia Don. Ric made sure that no one could get to know. I asked Caprice and Alysia to go home but they insisted to be here. So everyone is here except Enzo, he is back at my house with that sick fuck in my dungeon dealing with him. I told him to not kill him. He is not going to get that freedom so soon. He will pay and I know who sent him, Russo, he will pay bigtime now. But right now my rage need to be sided. My Doll need to wake up first. C'mon Sophia come back to me, come back to me. I was pleading her.

"Don coffee?" Alysia gave me coffee but I shook my head. She sat beside me "She will be fine. It will take a lot more than a bullet to take Donna from you." She said holding my hands. I nodded "I know. I know" She can't leave me. She can't.

The moment when she closed her eyes in my arms it felt like I am the one dying. Like that bullet tore my heart into hundred pieces never could be assembled again. Why her? Why? I saw her name engraved on my hand and my mind went to that day. How she knelt and took the knife out. She knew what I was going to do and she was terrified yet she went through with it, for me. I know, for me. That's how much she loved me that she will give in to me no matter how psychotic I go on her because she is like me too. She belonged to me from her soul and now someone is taking my soul away. I have never felt more scared in my life like I am right now. I can't loose her. She needs to come back to me. Suddenly the door opened and the doctor came. Chuck reached him "Doctor, how is my sister, how is she?" he said all scared and sobbing ."We are trying young man, but its too early to say anything." I lunged on the doctor gripping his throat "What do you mean you are trying? You don't fucking try, you save her. Do you understand? Or I will burn this hospital with you inside it and will kill your family and cut them into pieces, do you hear me? Make sure nothing happens to her. If you want you and your kids see the fucking another day, do not try, DO." I was beyond angry when Ric and Zack separated me and that Doctor falls to the ground coughing. "Don! Catch a grip, will ya? I am here. I will save Donna. Just hold on to it" Zack said trying to bring me back to my senses. "You better". He nodded at Ric and Ric hold me which I jerked, I don't need to be held like a baby. I am not throwing a fucking tantrum, I want my girl alive. I punched the nearby wall in frustration.

I sat on the floor against the wall with my knees a bit closer to my chest and my hands resting on them. Tears came to surface of my eyes. I could see beautiful face in front of me, I could hear her laughter. The way she used to loose herself in my arms, the ways she sleeps snuggling into me. Her tears that came only for me. Her laughter, her playing, her fighting, her caring everything. All I could feel is this pain of loosing all this. Like I will never see her again, I never hear her voice again, I will never touch her again. It feels like a bleeding wound. The blood is just flowing. No matter how much I try it is not stopping and it is draining me out of life.

"Master, she will be fine" Caprice's voice reached my ears and I saw Ric all tensed and worn out, of course he is blaming himself. It was him she saved. After so long they came to terms, finally he started accepting her as family and now this. "Ric, come here" I called her and he sat beside me. "Its not your fault bud" I said side hugging him. "It was me who was supposed to be there fighting for life, not her". he said staring at the OT door. "No, it should have been no one. It should have been my bullet crossed in that bastards heart long before he could raised his snipper at my family" I said clenching my fist with gritted teeth in anger. It should have been me. Only if I would have turned to see where her eyes are as she broke our kiss and stepped back, this wouldn't have happened. Only if.

I looked at Chuck he was sobbing lightly I nodded him to come to me. He came and sat on my other side. "Nothing will happen to her. You know that, right?" I tried trying to convince me more than him, I guess. "Save her Don." he said. I closed my eyes and rested my head back "She said you are her home, her everything. She says you can do anything. If you can do anything then save her." he said to me. I wish. Oh how much I wish."I will give my life if that could save her. Don't worry Chuck she will not leave me, she know I will burn this fucking world if anything happened to her. She will not leave me. She will not leave me." I was murmuring more to myself than to Chuck

Its been three hours and nothing. I was loosing my patience. I was pacing around. I threw a stretcher kept and trailed my hands in my hair "What is taking so long?" I yelled and my voice echoed in the hallway. "Dammit" I said as I kicked on the wall.

Then the door opened and out came Zack "Say it" I said to him when he was all silent. "Don I-I" he was stuttering for God sakes now is the time he chose to stutter. "Say it for fuck's sake, or help me God I will take the words out of your throat". I was loosing my patience. "Don. We took the bullet out. She is fine. She is not conscious yet but out of danger." he said and I almost hugged him but he continued "But". "But? But What?" I asked."I am sorry Don, we couldn't save your child". My Child, she was pregnant? Why she didn't tell me. I stepped back.

"M-my ch-child?" I said almost in a whisper "Did she know?" I asked. "She was six weeks pregnant, she is unconscious right now so of course she doesn't know about the miscarriage. I am not sure whether she knew about the pregnancy or not." I closed my eyes. How will she take it? The only thing she longed for, is her mom and now she was about to be one, I remember her at the wood cabin with that kitten, muffin. I closed my eyes and backed up to the wall "I am sorry, Don" Zack said. "I need to see her" I said. "She hasn't woken up yet, there is no point." Zack said and I held him with his collar "Zack, I need to see her and I am not asking" I said to him, my voice though calm but it was enough warning for him to shut up. "Sure Don, let me shift her to the room" I nodded and he left.

"Brother" I felt Ric's hand on my shoulder."Did she tell either of you?" I asked Caprice and Alysia thinking maybe she wanted to share with her girlfriends. "No Don" they both said. I sat on the bench with my head in my palms "What will I tell her?" I said to myself.

"This will shatter her" I heard Alysia saying as she cried hugging Caprice. "She so much wanted a child". She does? She never said to me. "Remember how she used to play basket ball with the kids in the backyard and she even taught the girls to bake muffins in the easy bake oven". How I never witnessed this? Maybe I wasn't at home then. muffins. A lone tear travelled from my eyes to my jaw bone thinking of her with the kitten.

Soon enough Zack told us she is shifted to the room and we went to that floor. I could see her from the window of her room. She was lying there sleeping. Doctor was checking on her before we could meet her. Zack held my shoulder "She will be fine Don, soon you can take her home. She is strong and she fought good" I half smiled and put my hand on his shoulder. "Thank You Zack for saving her." He smiled. "I will be here if she needs anything. You figured out how would you tell her about loosing the child? Her abdomen will be painful due to abortion, she might ask questions. It will be an unusual pain" he said

"Why do you have tell her this?" Chuck said. "Don I am sure she doesn't know" he said "Yeah I guess so. She was drinking tonight. Had she known she wouldn't. And she would have told me". I said. I was sure of that. She would have told me. "Then why are you thinking about telling her. Why give her the pain she doesn't know that exists." I heard him. There is a point in his words but didn't she deserves to know something like this. I patted his shoulder and nodded.

It's strange how loosing someone you never had can hurt you so much.

"I am sorry brother" I heard Ric "You lost your child because of me". "Are you crazy, what are you saying? Do you really think that's what she wanted to hear from you when she jumped in front of you. Don't make it so petty kiddo. Its not your fault but that man will pay whose fault it is." I said holding him. "Oh he will pay sure and good enough" He said hugging me back. I know that tone, even God cannot save Russo now. He shouldn't have done this.

Not my brother, Not my wife, Not my fucking child.