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Tsukishima and Yamaguchi were your long time best friends. Tsukki scared off the bullies and Yamaguchi comforted you. But then you three became older, and Yamaguchi was practically your personal therapist. He would talk with you about your anxieties, no matter the time. He would always visit you when you didn't go to school because you just couldn't get up in the morning. Yamaguchi even helped push you to talk to your parents and start going to professional therapy.

Then came high school, Yamaguchi and Tsukki had always done volleyball together. But, high school volleyball was when it got serious. Much of your friends' time was occupied with practice and homework. Yamaguchi became busy and had troubke making time for you.

"Hey Tadashi, what're you up to?" You called him.

"Oh hey (Y/N), sorry I'm a bit busy right now. Can I call you back later?" He replied.

"Oh y-yeah, just call me whenever and I'll probably answer." You happy attitude faltered a bit.

Yamaguchi said a few more things before hanging up. You dropped your phone, bad thought beginning to swarm your head.

"He's probably tired of me by now. Why would I still be talking to him if I'm seeing a therapist. I annoy him. I shouldn't talk to him anymore. He would be better off not dealing with me, everyone would." Your thoughts spiraled deeper and deeper, only being interrupted by a loud knock at your door.

"Probably just some delivery guy." You walked downstairs to answer the door. Once you did, you were greeted by someone unexpected.

"Hey, Tsukki! What are you doing here?" You opened the door, seeing the skinny and tall blonde.

"Yamaguchi told me to come check on you." Tsukishima said.

"Why would I need to be checked on? I'm not some kid." You replied, trying to get him to leave.

"You overreact easily. He didn't want you getting depressed over hanging up on you." Tsukishima rolled his eyes. His actions and statement was a stab to your self-esteem.

"W-well, I'm fine. So you can go now and not waste your time here." You began to close the door.

He placed his foot in the way so that you wouldn't, "Stop that, I'm supposed to talk to you or Yamaguchi will get mad. So you better let me in."

You opened the door, allowing him to come in. He took off his shoes and followed you over to your couch, where you two sat down.

"This is usually what Tada-kun and I do." You shrugged. There was an awkward silence for way to long.

"Do you usually just sit in silence or do you actually talk?" Tsukishima filled the silence with his rude comment.

"Why do you even care Tsukki. Its not like you bothered all the other times. I've been worse." You said, looking away from him. It was silent once again.

"Shit, I scared him off. He's going to hate me and leave. I always ruin things around Tsukishima. I shouldn't have let him in. Why am I such an idiot." You thought, tears beginning to prick you eyes. You felt hands gently on your shoulders, causing you to look up at him.

"I don't like comforting people. Other people's emotions are annoying. Yamaguchi can do that. He told me what was going on since middle school, so I try to be nicer to you then some other idiots." He replied.

"I am a bit of an idiot sometimes." You quietly said, trying to laugh. The tears were already coming down your cheeks.

"Just admit you're crying already. It's not the first time you've cried around me." Tsukishima opened his arms, seeming to offer you a hug.

You were a bit surprised. Well, more than just a bit. Tsukishima never offered hugs to anyone. If he was hugged it was mostly forced or given to a family member. You had never once gotten a hug from Tsukishima before. You didn't hesitate to take the chance and burry your face in his chest. His long arms secured your body close to him, while yours could just about wrap around his slim torso.

"I-I'm sorry." You sobbed into his chest, soaking his shirt.

"I'm s-so— so annoying to y-you and Ta-Tadashi. I sh-shouldn't b-be still bothering y-you two." You continued.

Tsukishima awkwardly rubbed circles on your back, unsure of how else he should sooth you.

"You're definitely annoying. But— talking about your problems isn't what annoys me. You acting like no one cares about you is annoying. You have us and all those friends you pretend like you don't have. They the and talk to you about you're feelings. Even I can see that." He attempted to comfort you.

You sniffled a bit, calming down enough to talk properly. You wiped stray tears from your eyes with the back of your hands.

"Thanks Tsukki, that was actually a bit helpful." You snarkily replied. He rolled his eyes at you.

"You can leave if you don't want to be here any longer." You nervously said, still yet to pull away fron the hug.

"You want me to stay. I can tell." Tsukishima smirked.

You blushed and shoved him a bit, "Whatever, I'll go get tea. You can choose a show or something."

You turned on the TV with the nearby remote then throwing the remote at him. As you walked off to the kitchen, a smile graced your lips at the thought of your moments with the annoying blonde.

- · -

After your last breakdown, Tsukishima began to more regularly come over to comfort you. He lived a lot closer to you than Yamaguchi and finished his homework quick enough to spend a lot of time with you.

Tsukishima was spending a lot more time with you than he ever has, and he's treated you much nicer than you've ever seen him. It was sort of inevitable when you began to gain feelings for him. You began acting much more nervous around him, and confiding in him a bit less than usual.

You didn't want to tell him about your feelings. He's told you many times before about how stupid he believed love was and didn't listen to any of your attempts to change his mind. So the only person you could talk about this with was Yamaguchi.

"It's been awhile since you've come over!" Yamaguchi led you up to his room.

"Yeah, I guess high school has left us pretty busy." You said.

"Tsukki is doing a pretty good job taking care of you, right?" Yamaguchi asks with a suggestive wink.

Your face flushed, "Speaking of that, I want to talk about something."

"What is it?" He asked, with a curious expression.

"I-it's about Tsukishima. I think I like him like a crush." You admitted, sitting down on his bed.

"There's nothing wrong with that, (Y/N)! Having crushes on people is normal!" Yamaguchi said.

"I know, but Tsukishima— he's talked before about how he thinks love is stupid and how all the couples at school are stupid. I don't think he'll feel the same, and I don't think I could handle rejection." You replied. Yamaguchi was quiet for a bit, thinking of his reply.

"Tsukki sometimes says mean things he doesn't mean. I wouldn't really worry about what he says about love and couples that much." Yamaguchi explained.

"Has he ever talked about that stuff with you?" You asked.

"No, he's pretty private about what he talks about. Only he can tell you about his feelings." Yamaguchi replied.

"What if he says he doesn't like me and he never talks to me again." You said.

"Hey, its not going to be that bad! Even if Tsukki doesn't feel the same, he seems to care for you and wouldn't start hating you or stop talking to you for no reason. And if he does, then he'll never hear the end of it from me." Yamaguchi said.

You chuckled at his response, "Yeah, I went a bit far there."

"Lets do something else for now. Do you want to eat? I'm getting hungry." He said.

"Yes! Your mom's food is amazing!" You exclaimed, following Yamaguchi to the kitchen.

- · -

You were sitting nervously next to Tsukishima on your couch. The two of you were watching a Jurassic Park movie, but you could care less what was going on with the adrenaline pumping through your veins. You believed Yamaguchi's words and decided to confess to the blonde. The words you were going to say kept going through your head as you grew more visibly nervous. The movie quickly ended, and you were barely mentally prepared to confess to Tsukishima.

"I can do this another time. I don't have to tell him now." You thought.

"You're shaking a lot." Tsukishima pointed out.

"Oh- sorry." You apologized quietly.

"What happened? You only act this stupid when something is wrong." Tsukki said.

"I— theres been something on my mind, but I don't know how to say it." You explained.

"Then just— break it down for me. That makes it easy, right?" He said, unsure of his attmepts to help you.

"W-well theres this person I like." You began. All three of your brain cells were screaming at you not to do this, the fourth one already dying from fear.

"Like a crush." He clarified.

You looked up at him and nodded in response. His expression changed a bit. It wasn't disgust like you thought he'd react to you talking about this. But it seemed to be more like jealously or hurt almost. The feelings only showed in his eyes,which you had leatned to read due to his facial expressions basically no existent.

"A-and I don't know how to confess to them. But, I don't think I could keep my feelings from them much longer." You continued.

"Then tell them. You know them better than I do." Tsukishina crossed his arms.

"I-I think you would know them better." You blushed looking down at your hands on the couch.

"Is it Yamaguchi?" He tried to guess.

"No! I-it's someone who— fuck it. Kei, its you. I like you. You'll say its stupid, I know. But, you're so uncharacteristically nice to me, a-and it makes me feel safe and cared for and-" You were stopped short by soft lips against. You could tell the blonde used chapstick.

"Sorry. Thats the easiest way I could think of to shut you up." He said after pulling away.

"I-is that a yes, then?" You quietly asked.

"Of course it is, dipshit. I like you too." He replied, getting a bit quieter near the end.

You smiled and used your new found confidence to kiss him on the cheek.