I feel like I deserve to die, like I deserve to be disowned by my family and never loved again. It was my fault. I did this. I'm the reason for it happening.

I didn't know what to say. He sat next to me in my car, as I drove us to the furthest hotel from our town. All I knew is that we had to get away. I was useless. Completely useless as his Dad abused him.

I sighed shaking my head. It was all my fault.

"I'm fine." He said quietly to me, reaching over and taking my free hand in his. He squeezed my hand tightly in reassurance but I didn't squeeze back. He'd been saying that this whole time and I know when he's lying to me. I hate it when he lies to me.

"I'm not." I admitted. My voice was barely above a whisper, but I knew he heard me. I pulled into the lot of the hotel. Taking the keys out the car I closed my eyes and took a breath, hoping to get a grasp on myself. On my stability.

Before I could open my eyes again a pair of soft lips met mine, kissing me sweetly. I brought my hand up to caress his cheek but quickly recoiled my hand and my lips as a hiss of pain left his lips.

"I-I'm sorry." I said watching him carefully as he brought his own hand up to run over his bruised face. He sighed shaking his head at me.

"Its okay, its nothing. It'll be gone by the weeks end." He assured me, leaning over to peck my lips lightly again before climbing out the car. I followed his lead. We went to the main building and booked a room for a few nights.

"I'm sorry." I said again when we were inside our hotel room. He was leaning against the headboard of the bed with an ice bag pressed to his cheek. I was sprawled out across the foot of the bed, as we just stared at each other.

He moved, placing the ice bag on the bedside table, before coming to hover over me. His hands were beside my head, holding himself off me as he studied my features carefully.

"You have nothing to be sorry for Steven. I did what I should've done a long time ago. And for the first time in a long time, they actually gave me more than five seconds of their time." He joked, laughing lightly.

I frowned at him, holding myself up on my elbows and forcing him to lean up a little. "That's not funny, Damien. None of this is. I'm sorry. My life was bad enough and now because of me yours is fucked up too!" I said. He pushed me back on the bed firmly. His own features becoming angry.

''No, it isn't! And never say that again,'' He let his hand gently caress my cheek. ''Steven as long as you're here with me, as long as we mean something to each other, my life isn't fucked up and it never will be.'' He leaned down and embraced me in the most passionate kiss we've ever shared.

His lips moved slowly over mine. I felt his hand snake its way under my shirt and glide over my abs. I shuddered at the sparks it emitted to me.

I hated the fact that I forgot his back was sore. He winced as I griped the side of his shoulder, pulling him closer to me. When he started to grind on me is about the moment that I think I lost a bit of my control.

The breathless pants slipped free from my lips as I arched my back, trying to get much more contact than he was giving me.

His lips left mine and started on my neck, slow tender kisses. Every where his lips touched left my skin tingling. He pulled back, causing me to open my shut eyes and look into his bright blue ones.

''I love you.'' He said, staring at me with a look that all but screamed I was the most important thing in the world to him. I felt the tears pooling in my eyes but I couldn't push them back.

''I love you too.'' I said feeling the water run from my eyes. He kissed my tears away, sitting up and pulling me into his lap. I moved forward and kissed him sweetly on the lips. ''Can we?'' I asked when I pulled back from the kiss.

I didn't elaborate on my question but I didn't have to because I knew that he knew what I meant. I knew that he knew what I wanted. He looked so hesitant as he stared into my eyes.

He opened his mouth as if he was about to say something but I cut him off before he could. ''Please don't ask if I'm sure, Damien. I love you, that's all I want you to think about,'' I said wrapping my arms around his neck and laying my head on his shoulder. ''We love each other.'' I whispered to him. ''So make love to me.''

I felt his arms tighten around me. He laid me back on the bed crawling on top of me and looking into my eyes. ''Slow?" He asked cautiously. I laughed actually enjoying his momentary uncertainty. Never once in our time together like this has he offered to go slow. But I guess that was a good thing, I knew that was a good thing.

''Slow.'' I agreed as he leaned up to pull his shirt off. I admired his built muscular body. He caught my eye as I was practically drooling over him.

''Stare all you want,'' He said lifting my shirt up and over my head. ''What's mine is yours, and what's yours,'' My breath was caught in my throat and a strangled groan left my lips as he cupped me roughly in his hand. ''Is mine.'' He breathed into my ear letting his tongue trace the shell. I shuddered under his touch.

''Damien.'' I whined out as his grip got tighter. Of course it wouldn't be normal with out some teasing. But with the way he was making me feel, I don't think I can handle any teasing.

I felt my nipple being enveloped in the warmth of his mouth and I let my hands rake through his brown hair. Oh god. I ended up pulling his hair as his teeth tugged at my nipple.

I sat up slightly causing him to lean back, giving me the chance to basically jump him as he fell back on the bed and I landed on top of him. ''I love it when you get rough.'' He said smirking at me.

''I hate it when you tease me.'' I scolded him. He simply smiled at me as I undid his pants button. I slid them off and started to hook my thumbs in the waist band of his briefs but his hand caught mines.

I let my hands slowly feel down the frame of his body. The feel of his smooth warm skin beneath my fingertips had my mouth watering. I looked up to see him biting his lips. I was tempted to lean down and take his soft pink lip into my mouth.

''Let me.'' I whispered to him as I started to pull his briefs down. Before he could stop me I leaned down and licked the tip of his member, causing a hiss like groan to leave his lips.

I started to suck on the underside, feeling his fingers entwine in my hair once I licked from top to base. I looked up to see his beautiful blue eyes watching me intently as his teeth marked into his lip harshly. It was nice to know I was finally the one making him lose his cool.

I took one last lust filled look at him before enveloping him in my mouth completely. The sexy groan that left his lips had my pants becoming even more uncomfortable.

I had him on edge for the longest before I removed my mouthed completely denying him release. I leaned up and kiss him. His hand traveled down my back, groping me roughly. ''You're amazing.'' He whispered pecking my lips again. I laughed.

''With sexy breathless compliments like that, I should suck you off all the time.'' I mused. I saw his eyes glint at the thought which caused me to laugh more. He climbed atop me, reaching between me to undo my pants. I helped, slipping my briefs and pants off together as we stared into each others eyes.

''I meant it.'' He said, taking my leg and placing it to his shoulder. I felt my breathing hitch. He noticed and gave me a small smile as he entwined our fingers. ''I love you.'' I'll never get tired of hearing him tell me that. I heard a cap pop. I swear I glared at him for just a mere second and he started laughing. He knew why.

''You were just hoping you were gonna get laid, weren't you?'' I said mocking him as I smiled. I gasped as I felt the coldness at my entrance. He leaned down and let his lips hover over mine.

''Maybe.'' He whispered before kissing me. His tongue glided into my mouth moving together with mine. I felt his free hand start to slowly rub my leg that rested on his shoulder.

He made me feel sparks with just his touch. I couldn't pinpoint the exact moment between him kissing me breathless with his intoxicating lips, and his hand on my leg rubbing gently, making me harder than I already am, but the most unpleasant pain spread through me.

I gripped his hand tightly as I squeezed my eyes shut repelling the tears. This hurts like hell. He made a sound like a groan and a hiss at the same time as I moved slightly trying to find some comfort.

He didn't rush me as I took my time getting used to it. After a while the pain wasn't as bad. I opened my eyes to be greeted by sparkling blue ones. ''Okay?" He asked in a husky voice.

''Okay.'' I answered, tilting my head up. He kissed my lips. When he started to move the pain I felt before was becoming practically nonexistent. This felt incredible; he felt incredible inside me.

I adored the way I got to see his muscle flex and grow taut in his shoulders every time he would pick up speed. I loved the way he would moan out my name like it was his favorite word in the world when he came; every time he came.

It seemed as though every time I clawed at his back or tugged roughly on his hair when I felt near climax he would go faster, harder even. Just that thought made me mentally smile. Of course he likes it rough.

He decorated me beautifully. Kissing, biting and sucking at my porcelain skin. I attributed my own share of marks as he went slower, deeper. His hand started to stroke me and I wrapped my arm around his neck, pulling him closer to me. It felt so astonishing I sunk my teeth into his shoulder to keep from screaming out in pleasure.

''You mean everything to me.'' He mumbled panting when we were finally spent. I rolled over staring into his alluring eyes, he wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me into his embrace.

''How much is everything?'' I asked after a while, I was gently running my hand over his cheek, being sure not to hurt him. He smiled at me, grabbing my hand from him face and placing it on his chest.

''Everything is all.'' He answered bringing my hand up to his lips and placing a gentle kiss. I could practically feel the blush take over my face. I tried to turn away, but he captured my lips first. ''Everything.'' He told me again before kissing me deeply.