Almost...almost..almost...

''Dammit Carter!'' I yelled as I threw the game controller to the floor. He erupted in laughter. Same as Jackson and Damien.

''You lost prep boy, don't take it out on my game controller.'' Jackson said. I sighed shaking my head. I did'nt lose, Carter cheated.

''Whatever, I'm going to get something to drink.'' I said getting up and tossing Jackson the controller. Let's see how much fun he has losing to the cheating Carter. I walked out of the main room and into the kitchen. I would much rather be relaxing at Damiens house, cuddled up with him as we watched Netflix all day, but no we just had to hangout with Jackson and Carter today.

I was'nt complaining because I did'nt like them. They were my friends just as much as they were Damiens, but I'd just rather be anywhere but here. Well that's a lie, because honestly I'd rather be anywhere but at my house.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to see Damien looking at me with the same worried expression he's had since last night.

''I'm fine.'' I repeated to him for the fifth time today. It may have been a lie but he couldn't help me with what I was going through. My family was my problem, and if I told him what was going on then he'd feel bad, and I did'nt want that.

''Don't lie to me Steven, I know you.'' Damien said. His hand left my shoulder and moved to my waist as he pulled me in close to him for a hug. I wrapped my arms around his neck, clinging more tightly to him than I wanted to be. I fought back the tears that threatened to spill from my eyes. I have to hold it in, it'll all blow over quickly, I know it will.

The tears won the battle, and soon they were staining my face. I held my sobs in as they ran relentlessly down my face.

''Aye Damien get in here! It's your turn to get your ass kicked!'' Carter yelled from the main room. I heard Damien sigh before he moved his hands from my waist, and with me refusing to let him go, he had to basically pry my arms from around his neck.

He took a step back, looking at me. His expression still never changed, only now he looked as worried as ever. I should'nt have just broke down, I probably ruined his entire day, because I know now he'll suggest that we go home. And even though I'll assure him that he can stay and hang with our friends he'll refuse easily. It's such a played out routine.

He lifted his hand to my face, wiping the fallen tears away. I sighed and turned my head away from him. I was never this bad at keeping my emotions in check. I turned my head back to face him, and was caught in a kiss. I went to put my hands on his cheeks but his hands caught mine, entwining our fingers and squeezing tightly.

He pulled away and I was'nt ready to set him free just yet, but I knew that it was beyond dangerous for him to have even hugged me in the first place. He released my hands and rested his forehead against mine.

''Your public face is horrible.'' He whispered out to me laughing quietly. He was referring to the way we had to act with each other when we were'nt alone or in private. I smiled pulling back from him and looking into his light blue eyes.

''Stay'' I suggested. ''I'll only be moping in my own problems all day, and besides you really wanted to hang with them.'' He shook his head smiling back at me.

''We both know how this argument is going to end, so should we skip the meaningless conversation? Because either way I'm coming, and dude I'm your ride idiot, I'm leaving either way.'' He said, shaking his head like he was surprised at my sudden lack of common sense. Actually I was a bit shocked at that as well.

We said bye to Jackson and Carter, then climbed into Damiens car and made our way over to his house. The ride was silent, but I guess he did'nt yet notice that I had in fact noticed him stealing glances at me every three minutes. Jocks, there so creepy I swear.

''Stop it.'' I murmured, feeling a blush sneak its way onto my cheek after he just looked at me and smiled.

''I can't help it.'' He admitted, stopping at a red light. ''You have that look on your face again, the one where I can tell your over thinking something, and you look so damn sexy.'' He stated smiling at me.

I knew my face was probably bright red right now. I hated it when he said things like that, it made me blush repeatedly. ''Give me a kiss.'' He said. I laughed, shaking my head no. ''Please babe.'' He said fluttering his eyes and poking out his bottom lip.

I just stared at him frozen. Did he just call me babe? Oh god no. What was happening, I did'nt need this not now at least. He caught on to his mistake as well, I'm hoping it was a mistake, he turned his gaze from me looking down at his hand that rested on his lap.

''Um. Green light.'' I choked out quietly in the awkward silence. He continued to drive and when we pulled into his parking lot neither of us bothered to get out of the car. I was'nt going to move until he moved.

''I did'nt mean anything by it. It just sort of slipped out.'' He said turning to look at me. I wish this was'nt on my mind right now. I was'nt mad that he had called me babe, but I could'nt be happy about it either even though I honestly wanted to be. I knew I had to tell him why I was upset sooner or later. I mean he would start to come to a conclusion when I begin to repeatedly crash at his house for the rest of my life.

I couldn't go home. Not after what happened.

''Look we don't have to talk about this. It was just a slip up and-'' I unbuckled my seat belt and basically threw myself into his lap, as I captured his lips with mine. He did'nt get a chance to ask me for entrance before my tongue had already invaded his mouth taking control. His hands were at my back and they trailed down to roughly grope my butt. I let a groan escape from between our lips as I ran my fingers through his hair.

I captured his bottom lip in between my teeth. Pulling playfully before letting go and resting my head on his forehead. I leaned down to gently kiss his lips again before pulling back and smiling.

''Call me what ever you want.'' I whispered to him.

''Give me the remote Damien.'' I said angrily as he held it above his head, out of my reach smiling. He thought this was a joke, well I did'nt! God he knows just how to ruin a perfect moment. Not even five minutes ago we were laying peacefully on his bed kissing each others faces off while The Walking Dead played loudly in the background.

''No, no way. Not until you tell me.'' He said in a serious tone. I sighed moving over to his bed where I layed down and basically tried to smother myself with a pillow. I did'nt get that far before then pillow was pulled from my face and a pair of soft lips slammed into mine.

''Now tell me.'' Damien said, pulling back from the unexpected kiss. I sighed again and turned on my side facing away from him. I did'nt want to tell him even though I had too. He should'nt have to worry. If he knew, I know he was going to through his own neck out on the line for me. And that's exactly what I did'nt want.

I felt him wrap his arm around my waist pulling me back and into his warm chest. He rested his head on the side of my neck, and I held onto the hand that he had wrapped around me. He was spooning me, I never in my life thought that I'd be the little spoon. I did'nt feel like complaining, I knew he was only trying to make me feel better, and it was working.

His embrace had me feeling so safe. ''It's about your parents, is'nt it?'' He asked, I felt his warm breath hit my neck. I mentally sighed. I was about to tell him everything, it would'nt help to lie to him any longer. He'd guess it sooner or later.

''My Mom walked into my room when I had just taken a shower, so all I had was a towel wrapped around my waist. She saw the hickeys on my chest and shoulder, then rushed over to me like I was dying or something. Of course I got in trouble for them, but we still had to discuss it with my Dad. She picked diner later that day to bring it up, and my Dad was furious with me, you know how religiously strict my parents are. But what made it worse was that my sister had to choose that moment of all times to make a stupid joke about me being gay.'' I said to him, forcing my self to restrain the tears. I guess he could sense I was on the verge of crying because he tightened his hold around me and placed a gentle kiss on my neck.

''Everyone at the table thought it was funny except me because I was the only one not laughing. When they finished I replied to her with a simple 'Yeah, and?' I swear it looked like they were different people the way the were staring incredulously at me. Then my Dad broke the silence by asking me if I was homosexual. I could'nt answer him, but I'm pretty sure the way I stormed out of the house after that gave them all the answer that they feared most.'' By the time I had got all that out my eyes had watered and spilled over.

''Shh it's okay. We can fix this if you want we can make it all go away.'' He said turning me in his arms so that I was facing him. He had me beneath him as he climbed on top me letting his weight rest on me. He kissed my lips lightly and I let my hand gently caress his cheek. ''Or we can accept it. I like you Steven, much more than an experiment or a free hookup every other day.'' He said separating our lips.

''I don't want to have to play public face anymore, and I don't want you to have to suffer through this alone. You should've told me sooner that, that's what made you so upset. I'm going to come out to my parents, this is all my fault anyway. I kissed you first that night.'' He said looking guilty and ashamed.

I pulled him closer to me pecking his lips gently, before pulling back. ''No Damien-''

''You can't change my mind. I'm doing it...for you.'' He said cutting me off and placing a kiss to my cheek before we got back into our previous positions. What had I done? I'm fine with my life being over, but now he was just going to give his up for me.

All for me.