I'm so excited! Me and Marcus are going to collar Cole today, we told him we are going shopping and made him stay with Danielle who is feeling much better. He begged to come with us but this is supposed to be a surprise.

In bdsm, collaring a submissive can either be a kinky night or a true commitment. It's almost like marriage to a lot of members. Only couples who have been together for a while will collar the submissive, however some dominants like their sub to wear a collar for sexy reasons, like to feel more in control. We are getting Cole a collar to show we want him to be ours forever. We want to get a metal chain of some sort that we can padlock and let him wear 24/7. I hope he accepts to wear it, it's entirely his choice. He knows what it is and what it means because he's asked me about other subs who wear collars. I feel my leg start to bounce as I sit in the passenger seat of Marcus' car and my hands get sweaty.

"Calm down Nathan," Marcus says soothingly as we get to the shop. It looks like a normal jewellery shop but there is a back part that sells bdsm collars and similar accessories. The owner is a member of Club Sin and gives Marcus discounts on some things.

"What if he says no?" I ask as I feel myself get more and more worried. Marcus gets out of the driver's seat and opens my door, pulling me out of the car so he can hug me.

"Deep breaths, breathe with me," Marcus says when I start hyperventilating. I try to match my breathing with his and manage to reduce my heart rate a little.

"I'm sorry for panicking, I'm just a little nervous," I say quietly.

"Don't apologise, it is scary. But I'm one hundred percent sure Cole will say yes," Marcus says with a smile and I calm down more. "Should we go inside and pick?"

"Yeah, lets go." I hold his hand as we walk into the shop.

"Hello Marcus and Nathan, how can I help you?" Asks Demi, the small man who runs the shop. He's a sub who I have been with in the past but not very often.

"We're going to collar Cole," I say and I swear Demi bursts with excitement. He's a ball of energy as he shows us to the back room where there is a whole wall display for collars of all colours and designs.

"Are you thinking metal or leather?" Demi asks and shows us both sections.

"Metal I think, so it's discreet for everyday wear," Marcus says while looking at them all. I look at the chain collars and like a black titanium chain with a combination lock. That means it won't have a padlock or keys which will be more discreet and practical.

"What about this one?" I ask and Marcus comes over and smiles.

"It's amazing, can we get it shorter so it'll sit on his collar bones?" Marcus says and Demi takes it out of the case and shows us where he can take some of the links out to our desired length.

"It's black titanium and is fully waterproof and rust proof so you don't have to worry about getting it wet. It has a combination lock at the back which is easy to lock and unlock," Demi says to us.

"It's perfect for him," Marcus says with a huge smile.

"We'll get this one," I say and Demi goes behind the counter to take out the extra links. He puts it in a red velvet box and wraps it in a ribbon for us. Marcus pays for it after we argued last night about who would pay. His argument was that he's got more money and doesn't want me spending when I can't afford to. We decided to pay half each after Marcus threatened to spank me if I kept arguing.

"I'm still paying you half," I mumble. We thank Demi and leave to the car with the box in a small bag.

"I can't wait to give it to him," Marcus says as he drives the car. We plan to give it to him in the playroom when Danielle has gone to bed. The club is closed because it's Sunday but Marcus said he'd rather do it in the playroom where we can do a scene afterwards.

"I really want him to say yes," I sigh and Marcus holds my hand and kisses the back of it.

"He will, stop worrying about it," Marcus assures me. The rest of the drive Marcus rubs circles on my hand with his thumb.

We get home and Cole tackles me into a hug when I go through the door first. Minnie is quick to follow and jump up at Marcus.

"What did you buy?" He asks as I hold the bag away from him.

"It's a surprise for tonight, we're going to the playroom after tea," Marcus says. "So no snooping in the bag."

"I hate surprises," Cole groans and we go into the living room where Danielle is reading.

"That's my book," Marcus says and Danielle holds her hand up as she finishes what she's reading. Marcus raises his eyebrows at the sass she's giving him.

"I kept your place, don't worry," she says and shows him where his bookmark is. Marcus grumbles and lets her have the book.

Marcus makes stir fry for tea while Cole and Danielle stalk hot guys on Instagram. I sit next to them with Minnie on my lap and give my input when they ask.

"He's fit," she says and zooms in on a picture of a boy with abs.

"He's your age, dm him!" Cold says excitedly as she messages him with a flirty text.

"Nope!" Marcus says and takes her phone. "You're too young for boys."

"Marcus! I'm 16! I'm legally allowed to have sex!" Danielle argues and reaches for her phone back.

"That doesn't mean he's going to let you," I laugh.

"Please Marcus!" She begs and he holds the phone up above his head. Minnie starts to get excited and jumps around at all the commotion.

"I'm not letting you get with boys yet, you're my little sister," he says.

"Come on Marcus," Cole starts, "When I was 16 I was having sex with everyone!"

"That's not a good example Cole," Marcus groans. I intervene and take the phone off Marcus and give it to Danielle.

"Why don't you just give her the sex talk and then you know she'll be safe. You telling her no is only going to make her want to go against you," I tell Marcus and I see Danielle pale.

"I don't want the sex talk from my brother!" She whines and drops onto the couch with red cheeks.

"Who would you rather give you the talk?" Marcus asks with his arms across his chest. She thinks for a second and looks at Cole.

"Can Cole give me it?" She asks and Marcus says no straight away.

"Cole isn't a good example. Nathan had to give him the talk," Marcus tell Danielle and she pouts.

"Why can't Nathan give me the talk then?"

"Me?" I say and look at Marcus to save me. This will be very awkward.

"That's a good idea," Cole smirks and I glare at him.

"Fine, I'll give you the talk but let's have tea first."

We all eat the food without talking about sex and I mentally plan what I'll say. When we are done Cole and Marcus go upstairs to give us some privacy and I sit on the armchair while Danielle sits on the couch with Minnie.

"So, first things first, have you ever had sex?" I ask and she blushes like mad. I'm also close to blushing, I've gotten very close to her since she moved in, she's like a little sister to me too.

"No, I've only ever kissed boys," she says and covers her face in her hands. "This is so embarrassing."

"That's a good start. What do you already know about sex?"

"What do you mean? Like how to do it?"

I sigh and rethink. I'm just going to have to say it all and ask for questions at the end.

"Okay let me start again. Always use condoms, you don't want to get pregnant or get an STD. My oldest brother is living with HIV because he was young and stupid and didn't use a condom. I'll buy you some so you'll not have an excuse not to use them," I say and Danielle gets more and more red.

"And don't expect it to be perfect, your first time never goes as planned," I laugh.

"What was your first time like? Were you scared?" She asks.

"I was terrified. I was your age and had found the perfect boy. He was still in the closet so we snuck around during school. He invited me to his house and we started doing it, but he didn't know what he was doing and didn't use any lube or condoms. It hurt like a bitch," I say and she looks like she's thinking hard.

"Will it hurt for me?"

"I don't know, it's different for everyone. If you use plenty of lube and ease into it then it shouldn't be painful. But if it is painful you don't have to keep trying," I explain and she nods.

"You know I'm not going to be stupid, I don't want to have sex yet," she says quietly.

"I know you're not stupid, I'm just preparing you for when you do have sex. Don't let yourself get pressured into anything or Marcus will personally kill whoever pressures you," I wink and she laughs.

"I've got three big brother's now," she says with a smile and stands up to hug me. She looks at Minnie and hugs her. "And a little sister my cutie pie," she says in her puppy voice.

"That's right, you'll always have us to take care of you," I tell her. She sits back down and checks her phone with a smile. "So do you have any more questions about sex?"

"No I'm okay," she says and I tell her she can go get Cole and Marcus now. "It's probably best if you go get them, I don't want to walk in on anything." She pretends to gag and I laugh.

"We'll be down soon."

I go up the stairs expecting to walk in on something sexual but when I go into the bedroom, Cole is laying on the bed with his head hanging upside down and Marcus is reading.

"We're finished talking," I say and they both look to me.

"Was it embarrassing?" Cole snickers.

"Not really, it was at first but I told her about Aaron and she got serious about it," I explain and sit on the bed with them both. Marcus kisses me and then Cole straddles my waist and grabs my face so he can makeout with me forcefully. I groan as his hands run through my hair and tug gently.

"Calm down," I laugh and pull his face off me.

"Marcus wouldn't makeout and I'm horny," Cole whines.

"I'm reading," Marcus says without looking up from his book.

"Why don't we go to the playroom now?" I say to him and he says yes and gets off the bed.

"You go downstairs and wait in the playroom kneeling, we'll meet you there soon," Marcus says and Cole nods excitedly.

"What do I tell Danielle?" He asks. Danielle is becoming more curious about what goes on at the club because she knows we don't go normal clubbing every night.

"Just say we want to have loud sex in Marcus' office," I say and Marcus hits me with the book.

"Don't tell her that!" He says but Cole has already ran out of the room to go tell her. "I hate you."

"You love me really," I say and he smiles and kisses me.

"Lets give Cole some time to clean up and then we'll go down," Marcus says and I nod. After a while of waiting I get the box and we go down and see Danielle watching tv in the living room. Marcus tells her to be in bed decent time and then we go down to the playroom. Cole is kneeling naked for us and I stop to admire the view for a second.

"You can look up sweetheart," Marcus says and Cole looks up at us. His eyebrows raise when he sees the box.

"Cole, me and Marcus have been talking for a while now. We both love you very much and we want you to be our submissive for many more years. So to make you ours forever, we want you to wear this," I say and hand him the box. As he unwraps it I feel my breath catch and my body get tense. I hope he says yes. Please say yes.

"It's your choice if you accept it," Marcus says as Cole opens the box and sees the chain collar.

"You're offering me a collar?" He gasps. He's going to say no. He's going to say no.

"Yes! Of course I'll wear it!" He screams and jumps up to hug us both together. I let out a huge sigh and hug him back.

"Thank god you said yes," I smile and Cole peppers us with kisses.

"I love you both so fucking much," Cole says with his face buried between us.

"I love you too," Marcus says and kisses his head.

"Me too baby," I say. Marcus takes the collar out of the box and Cole turns around so he can fasten it around his neck. I set the combination and Marcus looks to make sure he knows what it is. Cole turns around with a huge grin and his hands fiddling with the metal.

"I love it," he whispers.

We go on to spend most of the night in bed making love. There's no dominant or submissive, just our bodies pressed together as we have the sweetest sex. Moans fill the room alongside whispered 'I love you's.

These are the men I'm going to marry in the future. I'm certain of it.