April opened the sewer cover to the city surface, she climbed out and soon after followed Donnie. Donnie took a deep breath, appreciating the fresh air... well as fresh as city air can get, He closed the sewer cover

"Cmon D!, the new cafe is just around the corner, and after that we could go shopin!, or maybe just a stroll in the park" April rushed out, it sounded like she was nervous or trying to hide something, Don really didnt mind, he just assumed she was just extremly exited to hang out with him. or this was totally related to his brothers chatting in the other room whilst he was in the shower.

"Alright, im right behind yo-" Donnie was interrupted while April grabbed Donnie's hand and they both walked out of the alley way and turned left toward the new cafe

The small building gave an autumn themed aesthetic, it looked warm and cozy kind of like a cottage but yet filled with signs, window decals, and surrounded by tall New York buildings. As April dragged Donnie in, there was already a large line, how perfect so much for 'getting a clear mind' in this crowded space that they'll have to stand in for what seems like hours. Donnie let out an exausted sigh at the sight

"awh what?!, these stupid lines! it just opened why is it already a huge hit?" April's words escaped with an anoyed grunt at the end

"I ain't gonna wait in this mess all day!" she scoffed

"Maybe we could just.... go somehwere else?" Donnie mummbled out

"Man, but this place is brand new! i kinda wanna see what they have... b-but! we could go a little downtown and get some ice cream!" April hesitantly changed her answer trying to make sure the mood stayed positive with Donnie alone, she knew how he was acting this whole time, Raph MIkey and Leo filled her in

Donnie liked the thought of ice cream at the moment he perked up a little bit. "Sure, I'm in the mood for a cold snack" Donnie gleamed

"Alright!, Ice cream sounds delicious right now, i think there's a cart near the park"

for the first time in a while, donnie gave a quick, small smirk-it gave april a warm hearted feeling and she smiled back

They both walked over to the park, nothing could ruin this day for Donnie... nothing...

But no matter how much he was showing off being happy, Donnie CAN'T stop thinking about what happened. it played in his head repeatedly... he tried not to think about it, he tried pushing it far back into his thoughts and trying to show at least a little happiness, he just wanted today to go well, i mean how often did he get to hang out with just April and himself? answer, not very often

April looked over at Donnie, he looked down at the ground and he just looked so sad... she wanted to find out what happened to him. Mikey talked to her about the 'bruises', and what happened that day, as long as it started and... who the culprit is..

The whole thing seemed... Fishy... but April couldn't stand to see one of here turtle friends upset in any way.

"Hey! theres the ice cream stand!, what kind of flavor do you want?" April tried to lighten the mood and Donnie snapped out of his mindly trance

"oh!.... uhm.... vanilla" Donnie adored vanilla icecream, he didn't like eating anything too complicated, sometimes a complicated guy loves simple things

"alright!, you can sit down, I'll go get the ice cream!" April walked off to the cart and Donnie sat down at the bench infront of the water fountain, he stared intensely at the faded sky filled with clouds thinking to himself...

'Should I tell her?.....'

'No, she won't wanna hear it '

'but maybe she can help?'

'help with what? April will think you're weak for not fighting back enough. For letting him win.'

Donatello sighed and looked down at his hands, the small, slightly noticable bruises that had a ring all around his wrists

The horrifying memories flashed at him everytime he closed his eyes. The pain. The tears. His painful, painful torcher that was forced upon him... His arms ached and throbbed for no reason at all... Donnie's arms weren't in any pain... But they felt as if... They wanted to be.

He caressed his right forearm with his left hand, rubbing his wrist with his thumb up and down... He turned his thumb over and started slowly digging his nails into his pale green skin.

He heard a muffled voice that slowly became noticable...

"Donnie?"....... "Donnie!" April's voice cleared through the fuzziness

He looked up and his best friend was staring at him with a blank face and her eyebrows giving a concerned turn.

"Don are you okay?, Why are you digging your nails into your skin?!"

"....I.... I had an itch it's fine..."

April looked incredibly frightened and sat right next to the purple softshell. "Donnie...?"

Her voice was soothing and sweet, and waited for a reply.

"Yeah April?..." Donnie looked the other way, his eyes got a shimmer of disparity and felt a tear trying to roll down his cheek. He knew that April had atleast some sort of knowledge on what was going on with him

"Are you alright?... And don't you dare lie to me! I want to know what's going on with you, your brothers are worried, IM worried about you... You can tell me anything! And if you don't want me to share it, I won't it could just be between you and me if you like" April's mouth felt a shiver of concernment, she held out the ice cream cone out to Donnie for him to take

Donnie gave a glance over and slowly grabbed and licked it... He was thinking... Trying to figure out what to say, not wanting April to think he was a weak fool. His thoughts again were interrupted.

"Donnie... Please answer me"

".... I'm fine April... Don't worry about me, I just came for a good time." His voice cracked at the end, tears were slowly streaming down like a small river of sorrow and dripping onto his hoodie leaving the purple fabric having small puddles of damp dark spots... He sniffled lightly trying not to be heard

"Oh Donnie....." April looked at deep concern at the sight of the purple clad turtle wiping his tears swiftly and slowly giving small groans of emotional pain, she scooted closer twords him and hugged him tightly from the back.

Donnie jumped at the movements... He started breathing heavily... "No... Don't please...!" He was having a panic attack... His words just reapeted over and over... He squirmed out of April's right arms and threw his arms over his head covering his ears... He squatted down and squeezed his eyes shut...

"No.... Don't please..!"

"No.... Don't please...!"

"Leave me alone!"

"It hurts.. it hurts!!!"

His heavy breaths turned into sobs

"...D... Donnie?!" April's was flabbergasted at the sight she looked around and people were staring at them... A few had their phones out and a lot we're pointing and whispering

April did the only instinct she thought was necessary, "MIND Y'ALL DAMN BISNUSS!, CANT YOU SEE THIS IS A CRISIS?? SCATTER!" she shouted out

People's faces were shocked and they all looked away and minded their own things, she took off her jacket and threw it over her and Donnie's head, he was still talking to himself and tears streaming down his face..

April grabbed his cheeks and lifted his head up to face him eye to eye, she wiped his tears and softly spoke.."hey, hey!.... It's okay Donnie... You're okay... Everythings fine..."

Donnie's eyes slowly opened, and looked up carefully into April's eyes and stopped mumbling

"April?... I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to do this!" Donnie's voice was shaking and panicked, he lept forward into April for the returned hug "I... I didn't know what happened! I didn't mean to-." "Shhhh.... Sh sh shhhh, it's okay Donnie you didn't do anything..." April stood up and pulled Donnie twords her, and went back to sitting on the bench 'what happened to him to make him seem so traumatized...'

.... "Hate this..." Donnie mumbled out, "hate... What?" April spoke curiously. "FEELING! I HATE IT SO MUCH!... It... Hurts..."

April let out a loathly sigh, "yep... Feelings will hurt A LOT... But... Not all of em, some are pretty nice too"

"But I'm not used to this!... I just usually feel like a robot! But everything fell apart for me after!-......" Donnie's sentence cut off and he went dead silent, his eyes were shot open and his pupils were shaking unable to focus right, his mouth slightly hung open... As if he had a sudden realization...

"I can't do anything right anymore. I can't do my work!, I can't sleep!"

April stuck out her hand for a moment and hesitated then slowly placed it onto Donnie shoulder, it sent a chill down his spine but then he didn't mind it. "D, I know everything seems stressful right now, but you can always ask for help!, You can ask me, or your brothers, and also your father! The point is that there is always someone there for you, you just gotta look, if you don't then you won't see it."

"And.... What happened to you before all this started?... What happened to you Donnie?...."

"If I told you.... Would you think I'm weak in anyway?....." Donnie voice spoke after a few minutes of silence

"I would never Donnie... You are my best friend, I would never looked own on you!"

Donnie took a deep breath in... And sighed

"I..... W-was... Raped..... On my last mission...."

~ TO BE CONTINUED ~

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Hey there my friends! Thank you again so much for reading my story! And so sorry that I had to be absent for a few days, anyways to the point,

I was wondering if I should do a 2012 tmnt story? If I do I might have to extend my waiting list of the chapters, but then I will also have another reading option! Reply if you'd love to try to see me make another book!