Hi.....everyone My birthday will start soon....so here is my small attempt for you all.......

I always wanted to write something like this so........here it is..........

The 25th birthday... missing you....

It's my 25th birthday........ it's my birthday Anupama.......after so many years I remembered my birthday........

Because this day was a horrible nightmare of mine....I lost my maa papa on this day after losing you....after that, I settled in the US to forget everything that happened in India ....

But I can't.......

Mere dil main aaj bhi teri tasveer hai.....

Mere dhadkan main aaj bhi tera zikr hai...

Dil Teri taraf to gaya

Lekin kismat ne tujse Milne ka rasta hi Moda diya..

Mera dil teri ibadat karta rahega......

Tu jaha rahe khush rahe yahi dua karta rahega.......

What if we were together.....if I had proposed on time.....you would have been mine and I'm yours.....

We would have been happy with each other.....after completing our studies......we will have been engaged.......

on my birthday.... celebrating my birthday in our some special and favorite place ..... spending some quality time with you....... taking you in an embrace and staying there forever.....

Feeling your breath on me and inhaling your scent by snuggling in you...taking every bit of your essence ..... your beauty...... lastly locking lips with you......

The 26th birthday......again without you.....

Phir kat liya ek aur saal tere bin.....

Agar na mile tu to.....na denge kisiko Tera haq.....jo hai muj pe.....

Chahe rahoon tanha taaumra.....tanha hi katega tere hisse ka vakt..... tere bin.....

Life is very unpredictable.......I understood last year...many ups and downs came in life.....

But just one thought came to mind

What if she had been in my life.......she had been consoled me.....she had been supported me...... loved me..... And my Mukku.....my life would have been fulfilled by her presence.........

One day we would have been married and would be lived a beautiful life with each other.........

Spending cold and breezy nights with her ....

Burying face in her bosom taking her warmth....and cuddling her like no one can hurt her.....harm her....touch her.....

Fulfilling her every desire..... seeing the same passion desire in her eyes.....making every night unique and new for her.......

And lastly seeing her content face......

The 27th birthday......with her new memories

2005 I came back to India.....to see you....if possible to talk with you......I was delighted

At the entrance of your house, I got some glimpse of yours..... wearing green saree you were looking like goddess floral jewelry complementing your whole look.....as my eyes fell on swollen feet....and next your eyes....with some joy and with unsung pain....as I saw your baby bump my breath hitched ...my world stopped there for a while .....I gulped down to digest that truth and once again looked at you now but with blurry eyes....filled with tears

You were feeding your children.....I consoled myself and made a promise that I'll come soon......and went from there thinking that you were happy in your life.......

What if we had been married.....

The symbol of our love would have been in your womb....we would have entered into a new phase of life

Messaging your swollen feet...... taking care of yours.... feeling baby's every moment placing a hand on your belly..... changing everything according to your mood swings

Making new dishes for your pregnancy cravings....... cuddling you like my baby.....

Feeling the first kick of baby placing a hand on your bump...... full filling your every silly demand.....taking you for morning and evening walk..... with locking our hands in each other...... wearing my oversized shirts you would have been looked too cute.....and your smiling baby bump......

The 30th birthday with some new mistakes

na doond Paya........

After seeing you like that I came back and tried to move on....unlike lover husband I became a man who changes girls every night......I am trying my best to keep any relationship genuinely but...they can fulfill me physically but no one can fulfill me emotionally.....

I'm now a well-known billionaire business tycoon......but I have nothing......

Everyone wants to know about my business and my lifestyle........but no one wants to know me.......

I met many girls in these years....some became friends some girlfriends......some shaam dalne se lekar subha tak ke saathi.....

But no one settled in my heart.....like you....

If you had with me in these days.....

Where I need someone..... emotionally and physically......... if you would have been here to fulfill my every new desire........Which I want to express.......want to share.......

Today How madly I want you with me.....

I'm with you....... in you........

You are blushing hard at my flirty gaze.......

I'm exploring your body........not leaving any part in your which is not explored by me.....

Kissing and sucking every part of your body leaving some my marks on you at some special parts........you are relishing every bit of that.......

How madly I want to make love to you on my bed where no one laid beside me till now....... every time I had sex with anyone I never brought them in my home in my room on my bed.....this belongs only one.....That one is you......and always will be you......

How madly I want we have some intimacy in kitchen counter of my house where you sit on counter dropping your head back in contentment which I'll give you in lower by my fingers......and exactly the time when you come clutching you tight......taking your lips in deep and wild kiss.........

How madly I want some intimate moments on my terrace when there will be raining.......and you with me......you will find me in you......taking pleasure from each other until rain stop and again ground will be filled with us......

How madly I want you in my bedroom.....on my bed...... you will go on your knees and take my whole length in your mouth sucking it....stroking with your hand......when your lips touch me there It will give me tremendous pleasure...... finally when I will enter in you while playing with your clit ramming you so hard and making your legs shake....you will moan my name.......like never before you called me...

That will be the best voice I will hear.........when you will come..... before you come to sense..... Without wasting any time I will go down there and taste you......taking you to another ride...... giving you tremendous pleasure with my tongue .....your continuously coming moans will encourage me to go further in.... burying my face in your juicy folds.......and you will once again come for me......

Whenever I had sex with any girl I imagined you there......I never filled anyone with my come...... because I only wanted you to be filled with my come..... only you...no one.......

The 35th Birthday.........I lost her...

It's my birthday Anu...... again without you....now it's not New.....but also without her....she left me...she left me Anu......

I have done unfair with her...I destroyed her life ..she left me.....

My Mukku left me.......after leaving me she never called me.....never came back...

Will she come back.....

I can't handle it Anu....again without any prospect....without any happiness in life......I want to die but I can't........I just can't......

What if you had in my life .........you would have been stayed with me.....not leaving me in any circumstance.....you would have been brought Mukku back to me......Only you can......do this.....

The 40th Birthday............. Waiting for you......

Dil sambal gaya.....vakt ne samabl liya...

Teri umeed to pehele se hi mit chuki....

Par tere intezaar ne mere hathon ke lakir ko aur gehra kar diya......

Dil sambal gaya...intezaar karna sikha diya....

I'm ok.... I'm fine.....these words are now a regular once......

I'm now stable.....digesting every bitter truth of my life.....that you are not in my life...

You can't be in my life.........

Mukku left me......5years ago......

But I'm waiting for you, my love.......

I'm waiting.......

Will always love you.........till my last breath...will always love you.........

What if we had been together..........

Enjoying evening tea with you made by me.........and cuddling you and resting on the couch of our balcony.... gazing at sky ..... feeling each other's heartbeat..........lazy and tired mornings cause of late night's activities.........with you......some special Sunday's some romantic adventures with you......when feeling not well.....you taking care of me....and I'm taking full advantage of that...... burying my face in your bosom and you cuddle me like your baby .....l will sleep till evening......and after that.....I will not allow to sleep you the whole night.....by my sweet torture on you .....My poor darling love......My one gaze and you won't dare to deny me.......

The 44th Birthday..... With you....yes with my love

Jo Kali si lagti thi vo raath dal gayi.....

Jo tune Janam din ki di badhai baat hi ban gayi .....

Jis ki tamanna barso se thi.....

Lagta hai tere kehne pe vo dua kabool ho gayi......

Tere aane se khushiya phir laut ke aa gayi....

You made a cake for me....you...my love ....You wished me.....For a long time, I waited for this moment.....

Thank you..... Thank you so much, my love........

Thank you Kanha Ji for doing this......I won't complain to you now.....never..... Thank you.....

Now I won't say that I wish you had with me...cause You are with me......not know for how long but you are with me.....

The 45th Birthday She is mine .......My Wife.... My love......My life .....

Aeeee raat jara tamb ke guzar.....

Today is the birthday I celebrated with her...

She is with me.....she is mine .......she is my Wife.....Thank you, kanaha Ji.... Thank you so much......

Is it for real....I can't believe it but she is mine she is mine ......she loves me....

Mrs.Anupama Anuj Kapadia..........

Just a while ago......we made love.....she slept peacefully with a smile on her content face....

How madly I wanted all this.............My love on my bed...with my marks all over her body.....just while ago she celebrated my birthday.........and after that having some special moments with her now she is sleeping in my embrace clutching me tight as her life depended on it....as my hands fondling her breast the smile coming on her face...that's all I wanted......I have no complaints now...

I got her in my life...... I'm happy very happy and the luckiest person in the whole world...

Thank you for making me....us....MaAn........

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