tw// mention of killing oneself

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Just how everything happened quickly, it also ended shortly. Nothing is really constant, no matter how many time you prayed, no matter how many times you wished, it will and will always change in just split seconds, minutes, hours, days, and weeks. Just how fast the night changes, as One Direction sang

The changes that Jimin feared finally happened, leaving her broken and clueless of the reason behind. The instructor that made her happy, that made her feel love and loved, was also the same instructor that pushes her away, and the reason why her heart was breaking into pieces.

Minjeong-ah

After one week of feeling down, Jimin finally made up her mind to seek answers from the instructor, and maybe finally put an end to her forsaken feelings.

Jimin standing infront of the door, hesitating to knock or leave, was a deja vu. She was having hesitations and fears that the instructor would push her away again without explaining anything. Her heart was afraid to feel pain again.

"what are you doing here?" Jimin looked up to the owner of the voice, and the person she was waiting for.

"Can we talk?" she asked, and hope that she'd finally agree

"I have important works to do, Miss Yu. Maybe some other time. Now, if you'll excuse me" but Jimin won't let her get away again, they needed to talk. If the woman would not agree, Jimin made up her mind to force a conversation with her.

"Why are you doing this, Minjeong-ah?" she said as tears threatened to fall. Jimin misses her so bad, she wanted to hug her, and kiss her again, but she does know that the woman won't let her.

"its Miss Kim" the woman corrected but Jimin did not care. All she wanted was her, and the answers from all of her questions.

"Minjeong-ah!" her voice raised, "please" and tears finally fell.

"Just please tell me why. Please tell me the reason. You cannot just leave me without explaining anything. Its just so unfair, Minjeong-ah. Its so unfair." She cried, Jimin could not help it. The pain she was feeling on her chest was unbearable, it was hurting her so bad.

Minjeong just stared at the woman, watching her tears fell from the eyes that she once loved looking at. The sight was also giving her pain, she hated to see her like that, she wanted to wipe those tears away, but Minjeong tried hard to stop herself from doing the act. She needs to stop. They need to stop.

"There are things that are better left unexplained, Miss Yu."

In life, we do not really need explanation in each and everything. Sometimes, it just better to appreciate and accept things without explanation that will only make things complicated. Sometimes, it is better to leave things unsaid, unexplained. Sure, it would cause confusion. Sure, it will give pain. But, it is better to keep it that way, and just let the heart decide whether to give its own meaning and explanation, or to just accept and finally forget those things.

"baby, please" Jimin begged, and Minjeong can already feel a lumped on her throat. She just prayed that she would be able to hold her tears just until she finish what she has to say.

"You and I both know that this is wrong, Miss Yu. We can't continue what we've started when we both know that we'll be against all the odds. I'm sorry, but I cannot fight for you. I'm choosing my license over the love that I know wouldn't last forever"

Another set of tears shed on her bed, it wouldn't just stop, it kept flowing out of her eyes. Sure, her eyes were already puffed and bloodshot. But who cares anyway? Her heart was aching so bad, it was suffocating her.

"M-minjeong-ah, it h-hurts so bad" jimin cried out as she stared at their only photo together. It was taken at the amusement park where their first date happened, and the place where Minjeong confessed that she likes her too. That day was probably one of Jimin's happiest days. But now, it was and it will remain a memory.

"jimin-ah?" she heard her mom knock on her door, immediately she wiped the tears off her face, and fixed herself. "yes, mom?"

"Can I come in?" Jimin hummed in response, then her mother rushed to her, giving her a tight hug. With that, Jimin found comfort that only her mother can give. It was one of the best feeling in the world, being hugged by your mother.

"What happened?" then again, her tears threatened to fall. There goes the pain again, banging her heart without mercy. She hugged her mother tightly as she sobbed on chest.

"she already b-broke up with me, Mom. it hurts. it hurts to bad"

"I'm sorry, sweetie" her mother said as she stroke down Jimin's hair, then rubbing her back to ease her.

"No, mom. I'm sorry, I didn't tell you I was in a r-relationship with her"

"with Minjeong?" she nodded, but she was also surprised that her mother knew about it. "I have always knew about that, sweetie. There is nothing you can hide from me.." she paused

"Ever since, the two of you were still in high school, you really suck at lying about your dates" her mother told causing Jimin to have her brows furrowed, and confusion was painted on her face.

"what are you saying, Mom?" she asked her completely baffled

"Jimin-ah, I'm sorry, I didn't tell you about this. Mom, got afraid, sweetie" tears were already falling from her mother's eyes. It just added to her confusion

"what are you saying?" she repeated, but her mother only stood up to open a locked drawer on her room which she didn't notice before. Jimin just watched her mother, and waited for her to continue.

And, when she get back on her bed, her mother brought a photo album, that was her first time seeing it. It was surely not hers. Her mother handed it to her, and flipped the cover

JiMinjeong Cross, words that were written on the first page of the album. Jimin's heart hammered to what she was about to discover

"You might not remember, but Minjeong and you were high school sweethearts, Jimin-ah." she has completely no idea about what her mother was talking about, not even a single thing.

"though you're a year older than her, Minjeong was five years academically ahead of you. That girl was a genius"

as her mother told her those things, Jimin was flipping through the pages of the album, scanning every picture inside. It was all pictures of her and Minjeong together. Their younger selves

"the two of you tried to hide your relationship to us, but we accidentally saw you kissing at your room" though nothing of that register on her mind, the idea of being caught kissing by your mother still gave Jimin a blush on her face. She just couldn't imagine how much embarrassment she would feel if ever

Upon scanning the album, a photo caught Jimin's attention. It was a photo of her and minjeong of course, but, to what it looks like, they were having so much fun.

They were caught laughing at the photo, with Minjeong laying on the floor, curled up, probably because Jimin was tickling her that time.

"when did this happen, mom?" she had a smile on her face as she asked her mom

"I don't really quite remember, but the two of you were really having so much fun there" her mother answered. And after so many stories, Jimin finally found the answers to her question. She finally found out Minjeong's reasons.

"... she became your instructor, Jimin-ah. Just like what happened now. But, the two of you got caught. Mainly because of the man that was obsessed with her.." she paused for a moment as she held Jimin's hand

"Minjeong had no choice but to resign and leave the country in order for you to graduate, and save her license from being revoked" Jimin stared at her mother, and chuckled

"guess, I was so stubborn that I chased her, then I got hit by a car? that was so lame of me, Mom" but her mother shook her head, there was a serious look her face, at the same time, Jimin could see fear.

"you tried to kill yourself by jumping off the building, Jimin-ah"