❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|A new friend|

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Walking outside into the cold bitterness of the night. Once the sun goes down the heat disappears and we're left alone with the coldness and I'm not wearing that much to keep myself warm. Though, the world is rather beautiful. It's so quiet and the soft breeze flows my hair all over my face and it's a constant struggle to keep my hair out of my face as I don't have a hair tie to put my hair up or do something with it. I smile out into the world and look up the star lit sky.

It blesses us with the stalking lights that hold so much beauty. It is so beautiful to look up at the sky and just dream of being there, dream of everything in the world. Silas and I don't speak that much as he is a bit ahead of me as he takes larger steps than me and I think he's in a hurry. Unlike me, he doesn't appreciate this beauty that is being presented to us on a silver platter, literally since the moon is silver and it's in the shape of platter. The moon is so majestic and beautiful.

Sometimes I just stare through the window out into the world and dream of things that I wish could happen. "If you don't hurry, we're going to be late" Silas says and I roll my eyes as I giggle. "It's already late, and you wanted to go now, when I wanted to go tomorrow but your refused" I tell him and I can already see him rolling his eyes at my words and say that I'm far too silly and strange for his liking but he won't even tell me what is his liking since he doesn't speak that much personal.

He doesn't even want to tell me what his favorite flavor of ice cream is, he said that I would find out soon when we get to the ice cream place which is not that far but we've already been walking for ten minutes in this cold. I'm not sure if an ice cream is a good idea since it's freezing out here and it will only make us colder. However, changing his mind is not something that I'm good at and mostly he won't let anything change his mind. I've never found anything or anyone that can change his mind once it has been made up, though I wish that could be me.

Is it bad that I want him to love me in the same way that I love him? I want him to care and love me the same way that I do him but I don't think he does. He does have emotions and he does have a heart, I know because I've seen it (not his actual heart) and I've seen how he can be gentle. Every so often he would kiss me on the lips and he would be so gentle but I think he would want more but he doesn't go any further than that.

Soon we stop in front of an ice cream shop. It's a rather small one but it's decorated in so many colors. This place is amazing. I gasp as I see a unicorn painted on the ice cream shop. This is a place that is for me, that is for sure. There isn't any line so we are first. "Waffle cone with two flavors, the bottom one strawberry the top salted caramel for her and another with only raspberry" Silas speaks to the man that smiles sweetly to us.

The man starts to make the ice cream. "Leanna, you sit down over there. I shall wait here for the ice cream" Silas tells me and his voice is dark so I know that I need to do that before he gets angry and I don't like him when he's angry. He's so scary and cruel when he's angry and I don't want that. "All right" I tell him with a smile as I find a bench and sit down. I see a pond that is so still that I can see my reflection in it.

It looks beautiful and I look down to see myself. I smile to myself. I wait for a couple of minutes and I'm getting a bit bored at waiting so I look behind me at the ice cream shop and Silas still stands in the same place as he had been before but he's talking to the man. They look like they're deep in conversation and by the look of his face, it's not a conversation that he likes since he's growing angry at the man. I don't want him to be angry at the man since he was so sweet to us.

He did not even speak to all but he smiled and a smile that is true and real is the best thing that you can offer to someone. Siting here for some time more I notice that Silas walks over to me with the ice cream in his hands and he hands me mine with two flavors and I smile at him when I get the ice cream. "Thank you" I tell him and start eating mine. I shiver when I eat it but the flavors are so good that I can't stop eating them.

It has been so long since I've had ice cream and I've truly missed it. Besides it also feels good to be out of that mansion, despite it being the most beautiful mansion I've ever seen. "Why were you angry at the ice cream man?" I ask him suddenly as we sit together on the bench. Silas is eating his raspberry which I'm guessing is his favorite flavor of ice cream while I eat mine with strawberry and salted caramel. "He isn't an ice cream man" Silas says and I turn to look at him with a puzzled look on my face but I also eat the ice cream.

"He's a weapon smuggler that hides his weapons inside a innocent looking ice cream shop" He tells me and I gasp as I look behind me at the shop. It doesn't look like it has any weapons in it but I think it's supposed to be like that. "But, why were you angry at him?" I ask him. Silas is someone that is always angry at people but there has to be a reason. There is always reason for people's behaviors and once you find that reason you see them in another light.

"He owes me weapons since he gave me faulty ones last time and I just gave him a quick little warning" He says and I know what that means. "You threatened to kill him?" I ask him. He doesn't need to say the words but that doesn't mean that I don't know what he meant by a warning. Over the weeks I've learned that he always gives these warnings to everyone that he doesn't like but that is just a cover for threatening their lives. "Nonsense. I'm not that cruel" He tells me and I sigh. Perhaps I was wrong.

That actually makes me feel much better that he did not threaten to kill him, is that a step in the better direction? Perhaps I can't be sure when it comes to Silas since everything seems like a step in the right direction while other things that he does are a step back. "I only told him that I would hand him his daughter's head and his wife's heart. It was enough for him to order a new shipment for me, the best that is out there" Silas says and I gasp as I stand up and look at him in horror.

"How can you be so cruel?" I ask him with tears streaming down my face. I can't believe that Silas would do something like that and speak like that and threaten people like that. It's horrible and cruel and he should not be doing this. This is a step back to the beginning. "It's not cruel when you get what you deserve, even when some lives will be lost" He tells me as if I was supposed to know that. In shock I throw at him the rest of my ice cream and run away from him in some random direction.

I can't be around him right now, I thought he was getting better but have I been blood this entire time? Have I not seen how cruel he is? Has the love that I feel for him made it impossible for me to see that he is still the same that he was when we first met each other? In the cold I walk off somewhere and far away from him. I can't be with him after he had said that. And he said it like he meant it. I know very well that he has killed people before.

But, doing something like that to get weapons is such evil and cruel and so wicked but all of those words can describe Silas as well so perhaps I was wrong about him this entire time. I'm just so confused and scared and alone for some reason. I walk off somewhere and then I sit down on a bench that I find and tremble in pure fear and from the cold. Someone speaks in front of me in Spanish but I don't understand what they're saying. A man walks over to me and says it again as he stands in front of me.

He looks young, perhaps a bit younger than me or the same age. I give him a confused look as he sits down next to me. "I don't understand you" I softly speak as I let out the tears that fall down from my face. "English. I can do" He tells me and it feels actually nice to talk to him. "You hurt? I can help" He asks me and I shake my head. "I'm all right, just... hurt" I say and we both laugh at that. "Honestly, I-I..."I trail off.

Not knowing what I can say to this man. It's not like I can tell him that I've been with the most waned criminal in the world. That thought is like a kick in the stomach as I should've expected Silas to do something like that. He can't help it. It's who he is. It doesn't mean that he should do this but he doesn't know better and I should show to him what is best to do. "I'm Diego" He speaks as he puts his hand for me to take and I shake it. "Leanna" I tell him with a smile.

He uses his fingers to wipe away the tears from my face. "Beautiful" He whispers to me as he looks at me and I feel a blush rise. "Thank you" I whisper. "Tell me what hurt you" He says and I smile softly. I don't know what I can tell him. Explaining what happened with Silas is something that I can't do but I have to tell him something. "I can't say" I simply say to him. It is the truth. I can't tell him about Silas even when I want to tell the world that I love him but I can't.

Having this deep inside me is hurting me. "You want silence?" He asks me and I nod my head. Having Diego here makes me feel a bit better and like I'm not as alone as I was before and I feel a bit safe. Knowing that he isn't a man that carries a gun and kills people for the living and can kill me if I say the wrong things. No. Diego is normal and he's not someone that I need to be afraid of. I don't even have to be afraid for my own life now.

I smile as I feel myself calm down. "What are you doing this late at night?" I ask him and he laughs. "A story" He tells me. "My mother's birthday. A celebration today" He tells me and points to a restaurant nearby and by the window I can see people fining by a table but he's not here, he's out there. "Why aren't you in there with all the others?" I ask him and look at him once again. He picks up a cigarette from his pocked and shows me. "Oh" I say softly as I understand that he went out to smoke.

"You know, these things aren't healthy for you. There is a better way of taking things" I tell him without trying to hurt his feelings. People who are suffering from this don't need to be reminded that what they're doing can kill them, they just need someone to understand and be there for them. That is all they need and perhaps what everyone needs in life. "I know" He tells me. He puts the cigarette into his pocket and stands up. "I shall go" He tells me and just like that he leaves me alone and I sit there in the silence but then I notice that while he's walking he's always looking at me or what is behind me.

I turn my head to see that Silas is standing there with a murderous look on his face that is honestly quiet frighting and I wonder if Diego knows who he is. I stand up and walk towards Silas. His eyes soften but he still looks angry and I gulp as I look down at the ground in fear. I shake in both fear and cold but he doesn't know that. He doesn't even speak so I look up at him.

Silas is getting out of the jacket that he's wearing so he's left in his t-shirt that has ice cream on it still and then before I could react he puts the jacket around my shoulders. Instantly I can feel the warmth that comes from his jacket and I can smell his heavily smell that I've come to love. "Come!" He harshly orders me and then he just walks and in shame I follow right behind him. I don't know what will happen next and I don't want to find out but I will have to face, face him.

Though, I'm a bit angry at him that he would threaten that man like that and I wish I could apologize to him and let him know that things are all right and Silas is not going to do those things but how would I know? How do I know that Silas isn't going to kill them? We walk to the mansion and then I walk straight to the bedroom without saying a word and close the door which I know will be locked later on and I throw myself on the bed and I'm welcomed into the dreamland.