❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|The past|

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After that kiss that we share I did not see him for the rest of the day. Food did come to me around three and then once again at seven. Some woman came with the food but she never said a word to me when she came into the room and she always locks the door behind her when she goes which I find annoying since the only places I can go is this room, the bathroom, the closet and the library which doesn't have a way out other than this door. I've looked so many times but never have I seen another door.

After Silas had kissed me like that I'm actually grateful that he did not come back, I'm not sure how I will be able to face him after that. It's far too embarrassing but with the time that I have had for myself I realized that I truly am falling for him like I had thought before but this time my feelings are running a bit deeper and with each time that we spend together I find myself falling even deeper and that only makes me feel so guilty.

I love Adam, and I want to marry him but I don't know why I feel this way with Silas. I don't know why or how I'm falling for him when I clearly love another and wish to marry him and spend the rest of my life with him. As I was about to walk to the window to watch the sunset the door opens and the woman walks inside but the clock is only eight in the evening and she doesn't have any food, I wonder what she is doing here with no food since she is the one that always comes with my food for me.

She walks over to me and hands me a note and then she walks out of the room but leaves the door open. I look at the note in my hand to see that there is only one word written on it but that word makes me understand what Silas wants now from me. He had written session on the note and I can tell that he wants to have another session with me so I take a deep breath and walk to the door. This is going to be much harder than I thought it was going to me.

We shared a kiss and he was is intimate with me and he had been right, the book had some things that I did not want to read so I did not finish it actually. I walk out of the room and down the hallways. Knowing that if I were to try to get out of the mansion and somewhere else, escape I mean I would not know where to go. We're in Spain and I don't even know this country nor even where we are so escaping would be highly difficult for me, even impossible.

I feel my heart begin to pound within my chest as I walk the hallways to the office where I have memorized where was so when I stand in front of the door I feel my heart want to leap out of my chest like never before and I'm not even sure if I will be able to calm it any time soon and I'm not sure if I want to. I close my eyes and take a deep breath once again before I open my eyes and let out the breath and open the door.

Silas is the first thing that my eyes but then next thing is a new gun that is his hand. It looks new and that worries me so much that I can barely breathe. He points the gun at me. "Sit!" He orders me and I gulp as I eye the gun and sit down, never taking my eyes from the gun as his finger is on the trigger and so close to shooting me that it's unreal. The smirk on his face as he has one of his leg crossed over the other one and leaning up against the chair.

"Now, it seems I've been far too easy on you to the point where you disobey me and now I'm done playing nice" He says to me as he still has his gun pointed at me and it doesn't look like he's going to take that gun from me any time soon and that is what has been worried. That he can shoot me at any given moment and there would be nothing that I can do about it but take it possibly die. "Is this going to be a session or...?" I trail off, not knowing what to say to him right now.

I need to watch what I say because of the gun and his wicked eyes that I'm sure are already thinking of ways to kill me or hurt me or plays with me more which makes me feel even worse about falling for him because I know that he's playing me, or is he? I'm so confused that I don't even know what is right and what is left any more from this and I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do now. "This is a session" He tells me and I pick up the folder.

"I have one of those of you as well. Want to know what it contains?" He asks me and I nod my head. I don't think I've ever been on someone's folder that isn't my teacher and the feeling is a strange one but I don't know why he would have a folder on me? Without letting go of the gun he picks up a folder and opens it with one hand and starts reading out loud to me what is inside of it. "Leanna Russell is the most childish insane person I have ever met. Why? Because she acts like a child. Why? Don't know... don't care" He says and slams the folder and throws it on the table.

I got startled by it and jump up which only makes him chuckle. "That isn't how a folder works" I tell him but he clicks his tongue and scoffs at me. "You have your folder and I have mine" He tells me and he does have a point there and he is allowed to have a folder but I'm afraid that it isn't going to do much for him since it won't even help him but there is nothing that I can do now. "Why did you make a folder of me?" I ask him.

I write down that he did make a folder of me and that he doesn't understand what these are for but that is his choice. He rolls his eyes. "Fighting fire with fire to win" He tells me but I raise an eyebrow at his words. "Fighting fire with fire is actually not that good. You only create a bigger flame and that isn't going to work. You should say fight water with fire instead since water is fire's enemy" I tell him with a soft smile on my face.

I'm starting to forget that there is even a gun pointed at me since I'm only now starting to enjoy seeing him grow angry and then smirk before saying something smart as he does now. "If I had a dollar for every stupid thing you say I would be richer than anyone in the world... oh, wait. I've already done that by doing the very thing that you hate. Murder" He tells me and chuckles but I only get confused at that. "That doesn't even make sense" I tell him and his face falls and he rolls his eyes.

It's clear that he doesn't know what to say and is saying things that don't make sense at all to be able to say something at least so the silence would not take over us. Which I don't think is working. "What does this mansion mean to you?" I suddenly ask since I had planned on asking him about it when I realized that this could possibly mean something to him. Silas looks stunned at my questions and only now he lowers his gun but only for a moment since he puts it up again and looks at me with a hardened look on his face.

The anger in his eyes as he glares at me but it softens when I give him a reassuring smile to let him know that it is all right to tell me about it. "Why do you ask?" He asks me and I know he's trying to distract me and avoid the question but not this time. "Don't we have a deal. That I ask you something and as soon as you have answered then I will answer a question that you ask" I remind him and he rolls his eyes as he clearly had forgotten about it.

He groans before he sighs and looks at me. "I grew up here. My mother owned this mansion. She inherited it but cared very little for it and if it were not for me this mansion would be in ruins" He tells me and I write down what he had said. Never has he spoken of his family, parents or his childhood and I feel like I've gotten somewhere with him here, this is a good step towards happiness, speaking about this and accepting the past which I can tell that he isn't happy about.

I nod my head while he had spoken and when he stops I look at him and I try to look into his eyes to see what he's feeling. I think I see water in his eyes and I can tell that this is hard to talk about and he doesn't want to but sometimes we have to do the things that are hard to get over them. "Go on" I speak so softly to him as he had stopped. "I loved everything about this mansion and how it has all these secret passageways that I used to love hiding in" He tells me.

Writing it down I know that I was right. I though that there would be some passageways when I was unable ti find the door to the library and he was always showing up there which means he had to have come from some place and it is a secret passageway. I'm sure he knows his way around the mansion even better now that he can go anywhere in them. I know that these passageways must lie everywhere and lead everywhere around the house. "She hated looking for me, my mother and I hated being found by her because when that happened... I was punished" He speaks.

He closes his mouth and I give him a look of sympathy. Knowing that he doesn't want to say any more than that but what he doesn't know that this is progress, even more than he realizes and the words that he spoken gives me a picture of his childhood. I can imagine a younger Silas running the hallways, laughing as he goes through a secret passageway and hides from everyone and though he can see and hear everyone, no one can see or hear him. It brings a soft smile to my face as I can see it so clearly in my head.

He moves the gun in his hand and I jump up when I realize that he still holds it. I was so lost in his story that I had even forgotten that he held the gun in the first place and it was much nicer when I had forgotten it because now I'm on edge more and I keep looking at the gun, eyeing it and making sure that it doesn't move or he pulls the trigger. This makes him chuckle which feels like the hundredth time this day.

"Relax, little doctor, if I wanted to shoot you, you'd be dead already" He tells me but that doesn't make me feel any better. Even makes me feel worse since he does have the power to end my life as if I had never been alive with only a move of his finger and it doesn't make me feel any better about this. "Now answer my question" He tells me and I nod my head. "I wanted to know because you seemed to familiar with this place like you had been here before and I figured out that you would've had to be here when you were a child" I tell him.

Silas gives me a look of shock when I say those words. "Also, you know how to get into the library when I've only found one door that leads to my bedroom and I thought that only a person that has spent a lot of time in the childhood would know that" I tell him and he nods his head as if he's trying to process the words that I had just spoken. "The room you're in is my old one and it is true. There is only one visible door and you have already found that one..." Silas says.

The smirk on his face tells me something else though. "But, what if I told you that there are twenty-seven doors in that library" He says and I drop the pencil that I'm holding on and gape at him. Twenty-seven doors? Did I hear him right? Or did I hear it wrong because that seems so much and far too high of a number for a library. Even as big as that one. Silas can only chuckle at me as he puts his gun in his holster.

"Don't believe me?" He asks and I nod my head. There is no way that there could even be twenty-seven doors. And I found none of them even when I had walked through the library a couple of times and never found a single door other than the one that I came through and it makes me wonder how people made twenty-seven doors without anyone knowing they were there. None of that makes any sense. It has to be a joke. "Want me to show you you?" He asks me and once again I find myself nodding my head at him.

He stands up and reaches out for me to take. "Come" He tells me and I put everything down and take his hand. His touch makes me feel so safe without knowing how that is possibly since he can kill me whenever he want but I do take his hand and I do allow him to lead me out of the office and into the hallways. They are much darker now sine the sun has gone down but they are still beautiful nonetheless. In silence we walk until he stops in the middle of the hallway.