❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|Fear doesn't mean weak|

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When I went home last night, Adam was so worried about me as he learned what had happened from Trina and he made it his mission to make sure that I was completely all right. He did everything for me, cooked for me dinner, made me eat it with my other hand and even massaged me. He was perfect and I can't ask for a better fiancée and soon to be husband which I can't wait for to happen. When I had told him that I was all right and he didn't need to worry like that, he just shook his head.

He told me that I got hurt and he was there to take care of me and he needed then practice since he would be taking care of me throughout the pregnancy when we do start our family. I could only have laughed at that and told him how much I love him. The next morning that I woke up my wrist was a bit worse. Bruises have started to form and I can see his fingerprints and his finer nails shape as they had dug their way into my skin.

Standing in the bathroom I look at my wrist. I've never had something like this before and when it does hurt, it also shows that I'm strong. I was attacked, the first time in my life and I survived. This is like my very own battle scar. Going out of the bathroom and into the kitchen where Adam has created breakfast for us. "Aw, you shouldn't have" I tell him as I sit down. He shakes his head. "I want to. Only the best for my future wife and now that you're hurting, I need to make sure your extra safe" He says to me as he sits down next to me.

He takes my hand and examines my wrist a bit. I can see a flash of hurt come across his eyes that he tries to hide but I see it. He can't hide that from me. Then he looks up at me and softly smiles. "I wish you wouldn't go to work today. It's just too soon and I can't allow you to get hurt again" He tells me. I put my hand over his one and smile brightly at him. "It will be all right. I've been assured that none of that will ever happen again" I tell him but I know that is not enough to convince him as he doesn't look convinced.

Not one bit and I let out a sigh. "Soon this will disappear and we'll be going on with our lives like before" I tell him and he nods. I don't know if that was enough to convince him but he does drop it, though I do get the feeling that we will talk about this again later tonight as he will see the bruises again. We eat our breakfast and then I go to our room and dress myself in clothes. I do wear a long sleeve sweater to cover my wrist as I don't want anyone to see it.

Yesterday there were so many asking me if I were all right and some of the guards said that they failed in protecting me, whatever that means but I suppose they just felt guilty for what happened. Somehow his chains were on correctly and that is the reason why he was able to come so close to me. However, since there are no cameras in my office and he had already been removed, there is very little someone can do to investigate it.

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Wednesdays are the ones that I'm most busy. I've made it through half of the day. Trina and Kaden sit with me eating lunch and I can feel some tension in the air. She doesn't like him and he doesn't like her for some reason that I don't know yet but they both stay there for me. Because neither of them want to leave me alone and they actually stood outside my office, watching through the window while I was in sessions to keep an eye on me and make sure I was safe.

I honestly found it rather funny when they started bickering outside the door and every so often hit one another when I would glance at the door. Right now they glare at each other like they want to hurt the other person while I sit here, trying to eat my lunch and not get in the middle. "Trina, aren't you hungry?" I ask as she hasn't touched her food. She's too busy glaring at Kaden who is eating his food without looking and is rather messy with it. "Nope" She answers without looking at me.

Something is up with them and I want to find out what that something is. "Look, I think the two of you got on the wrong foot. How about a fresh start?" I suggest but that only puts the two of them in an even more foul mood. Well, at least they have that in common. This is usually not what Trina is like and I don't know Kaden that much to know what he's like but I get the feeling he's not always like this. Seeing them this way doesn't help me at all, it only makes me think of things that I don't want to think of.

Like what happened yesterday. Trina told me that there might be something more to it than what it looked like but she's just worrying about me too much and this all shocked us as he was in chains. "Anyway, I need to get going now" I say as I stand up. They were too busy glaring at each other that they barely even notices me stand up as I had finished my lunch and I need to get to my office. I walk down the hallways and it feels nice not to have either Trina nor Kaden on my heel, making sure nothing would happen to me.

It seems that everyone is on edge right about now and I'm thankful that I could catch a breath because as much as I know they mean well, it makes me feel like I'm drowning. And I need everyone to back a bit up so that I can swim to the surface for hair. I walk into my office and prepare for the next session before I pick up my phone and text Adam that I'm all right and he doesn't need to worry.

He made me promise to text him when I can as he wants me make sure that I'm all right. I do get the feeling that he's also talking to Trina about this. Everyone is on edge with this and it doesn't make things better as everyone is treating me like I'm glass that is going to break if they aren't careful. I've survived this and they don't need to make such a big deal out of this, even when I know that this is just because they care for me and I truly care for them, all of them.

The silence in my office doesn't bother me most of the time but it does now. When I'm alone I keep thinking of what had happened here only a day ago. I look at the chair that he had sat in and I wonder how did it. He had his hands in handcuffs that were connected to chains and stuck to the chair and his feet that were stuck to the floor. It should have been impossible for him to have stand up from the chair but he did stand up and he did reach me and grab my hand.

I don't understand it but I've come to realize that the world doesn't want me to know so I won't question it further. All I can do is move on with my life and allow myself to forget that this ever took place. Like I told Adam, once this has healed it would be like none of this ever took place and life just goes on like it always does. I'm broken out of my thoughts when the door opens and guards enter, with Silas in chains? He isn't supposed to have session today as it's Wednesday. I'm fully booked all day.

"I think there has been a mistake, he isn't supposed to be here until tomorrow" I tell the guard that walked in first but he shakes his head. "No, ma'am. The warden said to bring him in now. If you believe there has been a mistake, take it up with him" The guard says before he and the rest of the guards leave. I find it odd that Kaden wasn't there but I don't get that much time to think about it as Silas walks over to me. For a moment he stands in front of me. His kohl black eyes running up and down my whole body.

Seeing of I am all right? I can't be sure of it. "I heard what happened. I had to see you" He simply says before he gently takes my hand and lifts it up. Then he moves my sleeve a bit up to see the bruises and wounds on my wrist. I see the look in his eyes harden when he sees it but he doesn't stop staring at it. "I'm all right. Really, I am. There is no need to worry about me" I tell him kindly. He lets go of my hand and goes to the window.

He doesn't say anything so I go to my desk to get his folder. "Now that you are here, would you explain the note that you left me?" I ask him and he turns to look at me with shock and surprise but also amusement. Silas smirks at me as his fingers run under the window. "I see that you found the note. Clever girl" He says but doesn't say anything more than that. I sit down on my chair that has been pushed a bit back for obvious reasons and I look at him.

"What is going to happen on Thursday that you want me to be ready for?" I ask him. I write down that he wants something from me but he doesn't want to say it and that is why he put a note for me. However, I have no idea how he did that nor why or even what he means in the note. "Time will reveal. Is that not something you would say?" He asks me as he chuckles and walks around my office. I smile as I let out a giggle. "I suppose that is something that I could possibly say" I speak.

"You're stalling. Why? Because there is something important you want to say but you're afraid" I tell him. He glares at m but I only smile. "Now you're angry at me because you think I called you weak but let me tell you, you are anything but weak. You're afraid of something but I don't know why and that is why you sent me a note. Because you weren't sure if you could trust me. Now, are you going to tell me what is going on or will I have to keep going?" I ask him with a smile.

Silas scoffs as he sits in the chair in front of me. A look of impressiveness is on his face. "And here I thought you were just another one of those pink girls that had no backbone" He says and I roll my eyes. "There is a lot you don't know about me, Silas. I may be into unicorns and well unicorns but that doesn't mean that I can't preform my job" I tell him and this time he rolls his eyes at me. He is still stalling and I don't like it. I know something is going to take place tomorrow, only I don't know what.

"It appears you are correct" He says as he leans back in the chair with one leg crossed over the other one. The smirk on his face brings shivers running down my entire body up and down. With everything going on I had forgotten how much Silas affects me. "I get the feeling you're not going to tell me" I speak and h sharply nods as the smirk becomes a wicked grin. "You are on fire" He says and I roll my eyes. He's hiding something big.

I just know it, I have this feeling. "Do you know why you came here on a Wednesday?" I ask him. The warden wouldn't have done this and not let Silas know as it doesn't seem like he's confused like me at why he's here in session with me right now. "Yes" He simply answers. "But, you're not going to tell me, are you?" I ask and he shakes his head, I figured as much. "You are a mystery, Silas" I speak without meaning to but it does make him look at me in the eyes with his kohl black ones.

My eyes run over to the tattoos on his hands but I'm quick to look away as I don't want to look like I'm trying to pry information out of him. "That is he beauty of it" He tells me. I furrow my eyebrows at him in confusion as I have no idea what he's talking about but I notice that he isn't going to answer if I were to ask what he meant by that. "How did you know that I got hurt?" I ask him. If he doesn't want to talk about anything else than I might as well ask that.

He only smirks at me. "Even in a prison, I have my ways" He tells me but doesn't go any deeper into it even when I can already tell there is more to it than this. Why is that he is always coming with these riddles that I can't seem to be able to solve? Sometimes he talks and I understand but there are times like now that he talks and it doesn't make any sense to me, as if he were talking in a foreign language and it are just sounds to me. It does leave me confused.

"And what does that mean?" I ask. Even when I know that he won't tell me, I felt the need to ask. Somehow for a strange reason I feel the need to keep him talking, not to get any information out of him but because I need to hear his voice. The rough voice that I've come to enjoy listening to. He moves his head to the side and studies me for a moment as he finally opens his mouth to answer my question which I found surprising. "It means the prison is under my control" He says and then wickedly chuckles.