❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|Guess what I am thinking|

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"Hey! Therapist lady!" A voice calls out to me and I turn around to see the janitor woman that I had asked yesterday but she did know the answer. I smile to her as I walk over to her. "Good morning, was there something that you need?" I ask her kindly as she rolls her eyes. "How are you not tired?" She asks me and I furrow my eyebrows. Tired? I do not understand why I would be tired, I slept all night. She shakes her head. "Never mind, anyway you still on that window thing?" She asks me and I nod.

Since this morning I've not thought about it once until now, it somehow got forgotten in my mind but then again Adam kind of distracted me from thinking of that and one of my patients. "All right, I asked around and I have the answer" She says. Happiness soars through me as I had thought I would have to tell him that I did not know the answer, though I did try. "And how many are they?" I ask her kindly, holding she would tell me. I might be about half an hour early but that doesn't mean that I have things to do.

She tells me the right number which truly did shock me as I did not know there were so many windows in this one prison building. "Thank you so much" I tell her and she smiles, it seems she can smile at all. She almost has been growing this entire time, almost. The two of us then go on with our day and I went to the staff lounge to put my stuff into my locker before I walk to my office to make everything ready. Once I enter I see that the flowers are almost dead.

Picking them up and feeling sorrow when I put them into the trash but they aren't going to last any longer and the smell won't be here any longer. I did enjoy it while it lasted though. "Knock, knock" A familiar voice speaks by the door and I look over to see Trina standing there. She hasn't put on her guard uniform yet and it seems that she just got here. I smile as I walk over to her. "Good morning, Trina" I say happily and she groans. "It's too early to be happy" She says as she walks into my office and sits down on the chair by my desk.

"Don't be ridiculous, happiness always has a place at any time of the day" I tell her and she lets out a laugh. "See, you're laughing which means happiness which also means that it is not too early to be happy" I say to her with a small grin on my face. Trina rolls her eyes as I pick up a pencil and just fidget with it for a moment. Sighing she looks at me. "Of course you are happy at six in the morning" She says, though she says it in a sarcastic tone.

Smiling I sit down on my brown leather chair. "I heard that you were asking about windows, what was that all about?" She asks me and I feel the blush appear on my cheeks, does everyone know that I asked the janitors that? That is a bit embarrassing. "I can't tell you" I only say, speaking of what patients and I talk about in session is something that I can't do and it would break their respect for they trust me and they put their absolute trust in me and I in them.

Sighing she raises an eyebrow at me. "Not even to your best friend?" She asks and I shake my head, the things that I am told in sessions are only for me and in some cases other therapists yet only if the patients allows it. "You know I can't" I say and playfully frown and she stands up and walks over to me. "Yes, but it would be nice to know why you wanted to know how many windows are here, because that is a red flag" Trina says with a worried tone.

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"There are about seven thousand windows in the prison" I tell Silas with a soft smile on my face. Nodding he smirks and for some reason it brings shivers down my whole body. His kohl black eyes stare deep into my eyes and it brings me fight but also comfort. "I believe we had a deal of some sort, if I told you how many windows are here, you would tell me why my smiling annoys you" I remind him. His face doesn't change at all but in his eyes something flickers, though I can't be sure what that is.

I may have studied human behaviors but everything that he does is something that I can't predict and I don't know if that frightens me more than he himself. "Of course, how cruel of me to forget. A deal is a deal after all" He speaks, his husky voice goes slow as he is testing the suspense. I wait eagerly for his answer and when he does pause his testing for the suspense is working for I feel my heart beat faster, and my mind hanging on his every word. His smirking does something to me without me knowing exactly what.

"Your smiling reminds me of all things happy and disgusting in the world and it brings me memories that I would rather forget and smiling is just gross" He says, my mind sinks in the information that he told me and while I might not understand it, I don't question it further than this as I know that it is not good to push him. "Thank you for answering my question" I tell him and I try not to smile but that only makes him chuckle and a look of amusement comes across his handsome face... wait... what?

He groans and I raise an eyebrow at him. "You honestly believed that?" He asks as if he were surprised. Why would I not believe it? Silas is a rather confusing to me. "What do you mean?" I ask him as I write down his answer from before and what he said now and then I look up at him with a raised eyebrow. "What a Dr. that you are..." He trails off as he shakes his head and smirks at me. I'm not sure what is happening here and it would be nice to get some explanation for this.

Silas doesn't say anything after that and I believe that means that we should move on. "Is there anything at all that you wish to discuss, you can talk about anything that you want, this is a safe place" I tell him. Rolling his eyes he adjusts himself on the chair but I see that he finds that rather difficult because of the chains and handcuffs that he is in that hold him in place in the brown leather chair. My heart feels towards him because of it, it hurts to see people in chains like this but this is how things are even if I find don't find them just.

"A safe place" He says as he scoffs. It seems that he is not in the best mood today and I don't think I'm going to be able to lift his mood because everything that I've tried that usually does work isn't working with him. "How about we play a little game?" I ask him and he gives me an odd look. "Yes, a game and it is a rather fun one too" I tell him and smile even when I try not to, something inside me just has to smile all the time. Groaning he waits for my explanation of it.

"You think of an animal and ask you questions about it and you can only answer in 'yes' or 'no' answers. And I try to figure out what animal you did think of. Sound all right?" I ask him and his odd look only grows odder as he looks at me longer yet his kohl black eyes show something else, boredom perhaps, though I can't be sure yet I want to know and I am trying to do something with him so he won't be bored and just something to get him talk. He then nods after a pause or two of thinking.

I've thought an animal, now guess" He orders me and his rough voice sends shivers down my spine. I smile when he actually agreed on playing this game. "Is your animal a mammal?" I ask him happily. This game is fun, I used to play this game all the time with Adam and Trina. "No" He answers and then I think again. "Is your animal a bird?" I ask him and once again I get a no from him. "Is your animal a insect?" I ask.

When I get a no again I've narrowed it down pretty much and I'm not sure what to ask next. "Does your animal have wings?" I ask and he lightly says no but it is clear that he doesn't seem to be having a good time, it will come soon, I know that. "Is it a lizard of any kind?" I ask. "No" He answers quickly. This is getting pretty hard for me to do. "Is your animal a spider of any kind?" I then ask. Sighing, he chuckles. "Yes" Silas answers.

Giggling when I've finally gotten a yes from him, this took some time and it will take even longer until I have guessed correctly yet now that I know it is a spider, it will not be long yet then again there are many spider species that exist and I tend to not like them that much. "Is the spider venomous?" I ask him and he slowly nods his head. Minutes pass as I continue to ask him questions about spiders until I finally guessed correctly. And his spider was the Black Widow because of how dangerous it is and how much he likes to use the poison to kill his victims.

Writing that down I don't think of if that much. I smile. "My turn to think of an animal" I tell him and it doesn't take that long before I've found the animal that I want to choose. "You can guess now" I tell him and he chuckles as he smirks at me and there is something in his smirk that makes me want tick be closer to him yet so far away at the same time that it leaves me rather confused and puzzled yet I'm getting used to that by now.

"Is your animal a unicorn?" He asks and my eyes widen when he asks me that. How did he...? "Yes, how did you know that?" I ask him surprised that he managed to guess the animal that I had chosen in his first try when I took about fifteen minutes to guess. He winks at me and his smirk only grows. "Thinking of the... purest and most ridiculously childish animal to ever exist and it was not hard knowing you and trust me, it brings me no pleasure knowing you" He says. "I take that as an compliment" I tell him, even when I know that he's not trying to be nice, yet I choose to ignore that.

"You are rather predictable" He then says and I suppose that is the truth. "While you are not" I say and he chuckles once more, it seems he likes to chuckle. "Yes, when playing chess you can do the same moves each game and loose over and over again or always do different moves and a different strategy to win each time" Silas speaks. Writing down what he says he does have a great point. "I assume you like winning then?" I ask and he nods as I write that down.

"I don't like winning, it is my desire" He says to me and his eyes are looking straight into mine. I break the eye contact to look at the clock to see that we have three minutes left of the session. "In the end do you have anything you wish to discuss or tell me about?" I ask him and he rolls his eyes then he looks at me. "I want you to tell me how many guards this prison has" He says and I get a pang in my chest.

Knowing that I can't tell him that even when I don't need to ask around for the answer as my best friend is a guard and she has told me how many guards there are since I like Silas had gotten curious to know how many guards there truly where but telling Silas that, I don't think I should be doing that. "I promise I won't tell anyone" He says to me and I nod, he did promise and you can't break a promise. I nod and half smile as he only smirks at me which he seems to never stop doing but I find myself enjoying it a bit.

"There are four thousand guards in the prison but not all of them are working at the same time, in day time there are about two thousand and at nighttime there are two thousand so some take the night shift while others take the day shift" I tell him. It did shock me when I heard that there were actually four thousand guards working in this prison eat then again this is a prison and it does need many guards and all of these guards are never working at the same time.

Silas chuckles at me. "Thank you for this information" He speaks and he does open his mouth to say something more than what he did but the doors open which cuts him off and he closes it right away. "Until next time" He says cruelly to me and I think he's doing it for the show or something. Smiling as he is opening up to me. I truly thought it would take longer than that but he is speaking to me this time and he is enjoying himself or at least a little bit yet he is opening up and soon he will open up even more.

Sighing I put his folder back in its rightful place. Even when Silas is gone he is still on my brain, like a riddle that I'm unable to solve yet perhaps that is the fun of it and I should not try to crack this riddle. Thinking of him makes me warm inside for a reason that is unknown to me and I find myself unable to answer so many questions. I know that I should stop thinking about him all the time but I can't, I can't stop thinking about Silas and perhaps I don't want to stop thinking about him.