❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|True love is a force unknown to all except the heart|

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Silas's face shows nothing but rage and anger, unlike anything I've ever seen in him (in the past two days that I've known him) or anyone this furious before. I think he needs the cup of tea that I'm holding a lot more than I do. He and some other man, who has way bigger muscles than he does but history has often proved that muscles aren't everything but it does give some advantages. They're circling each other as other inmates and saying something in anger but the yelling of the ones around them drowns that out.

The other man then moves in and without warning he punches Silas right in the jaw that sends him back but he keeps his footing. The action startles me and I drop the cup on the floor that is shatters into million pieces and tea spills everywhere. A scream echoes through the hallway, though it takes me a second to realize that it was me who screamed as my throat started to burn a bit. No one heard me as the yells were so loud in the cafeteria and guards were rushing in and it doesn't take them long before both Silas and the other one are in chains and being dragged out by the guards.

I just stands there as the guards are creating lines and take them to their cells. I just stand there, unsure of what I've seen. I've never seen such violence before in my life and somehow I knew that deep down I would see that soon because I do work in a prison but it still does make me horrified for I saw that. I know that violence is neither right nor wrong but hurting others has been something that I tend to not like for no one should feel the pain.

"Lea! Are you all right?" Trina asks me as she makes me turn around and look at her. I smile and nod my head but she shakes hers. "Don't smile at me, you just saw your first fight and that did shock you to the core" She speaks and she took the words right out of my brain. "Let's get you back to your office, don't worry about the tea, I will get you one and the janitors will clean that up" She says and she helps me walk down the hallway, back to the main one.

"I knew that there were fights but I did not know they were so violent..." I trail off as I stop right in my tracks. "I have to make sure that he's all right, he could be hurt and he already hurt himself and I don't want him to be paining like that, all by himself" I say as I head for the hospital wing but Trina goes in front of me and stops me. "Woah, hold your horses, what's going on? Who do you need to check up on?" She asks me and I only smile at her.

"Silas, he must be so hurt" I tell her as I move past her but she is far too strong and stops me. "Lea, do you even know who he is?" She asks me as she looks at me with worried eyes and a sad look. Giving Trina a reassuring look as I nod my head. "Of course I know who he is, he's my patient, of two days but still he doesn't deserve to me hurt like that and he must be so scared, all alone and hurt in the hospital wing" I tell but she is quick to tighten her grip and shake her head at me.

"Lea, that man is the most wanted criminal of all time, he's a murderer. He has hurt so many people and killed even more" She says and I gasp at her words. Silas doesn't look like that, he doesn't look like the kind of person that would hurt others, in fact he looks like a damaged person that only needs help but is afraid to ask. "I beg of you to not do this. I know that he's your patient but he doesn't deserve your kindness" She says and I nod.

Not knowing what else to do, I allow her to take me back to my office. Once I open the door, I see that my next patient is already sitting in the chair and I smile to him but inside my heart it's still beating faster than anything, I've never felt like this before. "Dr. Russell, are you feeling all right?" He asks me as I sit down and Trina leaves and closes the door, knowing that I am safe in here. My office is the safest place for me to be, that I do know.

"Yes, I am all right, don't worry about it" I tell him, I might've only known him for a weak but he is also a therapist so he knows how to read the signs and he knows that I am not all right because I am panicking deep inside after what I have seen. I never knew violence was so intense and horrible to watch, seeing people hurt, I can't handle that. "Thinking about something else, like flowers might help you" He says to me and I let out a giggle. Thinking about flowers? That is actually a good idea.

"What?" I ask him quietly through a small giggle. He nods his head. "To get the bad thoughts out you must push them out with the good ones and you told me the first session that I should think of something that makes me happy. Flowers" He tells me and I smile to him, I do remember that I told that to him but the reason for my confusion was because I did not know what his happy thoughts were but now I know. Flowers. "That is actually a nice thing to think about" I tell him as I turn around to look at the flowers that are on my desk.

Thinking of my fiancée. Flowers are good thoughts but the love of my life is also the best thought that I can have to forget all about the bad ones. Thinking about him makes my heart beat faster but this time for all the wrong reasons. "I think it's impossible for a Dr. to be a patient" I say to him and we both share a good laugh at that. It truly is impossible because when I'm trying to help him, he sees the signs and is trying to help me.

"It may be difficult but not impossible" He says and I smile to him. "Now, how about you tell me what is wrong and in return I will share something that I'm holding back" He suggests. Nodding my head I look outside to see the sun shining through the window. I shrug. "That sounds fair to me" I tell him and he nods. I start to explain to him what I saw, yet not the part where I know Silas and how I know him because I can't talk about my patients with other people, in return he did tell me things that he has never said out loud before.

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"Honey, it's going to be all right. Let's just watch a movie and eat your favorite, cake" Adam says as he hugs me. He had showed up at my work carrying chocolate cake and a rose. Trina had called him and told him about what I saw, which I know is not a big deal in a prison yet that really freaked me out as I have never seen a real fight before and it frightened me. "That sounds good to me" I tell him as we walk hand in hand out of the prison as my work day is done.

Going into his car and he drives off, I hold the cake and I wait to be able to eat it as all I want to do is eat chocolate cake. Adam knows exactly how to make me feel better and it is strange to think that he knows me better than I know myself. "I was thinking that we could watch Titanic because I know that you might have only seen that movie about a thousand times but still love it like seeing it for the first time" He says and I let out a giggle.

"Titanic is so romantic, you can never understand that and besides, finding love when on a boat that is sinking is true love" I tell him dreamily as I look outside the window to see the world go past the car. "Are you saying that I need to take you on a boat and let it sink for you to consider what we have true love?" He asks me but in a joking matter. I look over to him to see a big grin on his face.

Letting out a laugh I roll my eyes. "No, I don't want you to be in any danger" I tell him. My fingers trace the circle outline of the plastic cover of the cake and my mouth waters when I look at the cake itself. "You're special, don't forget that" Adam says as he stops at a red light and looks at me with only love in his eyes and I'm sure my eyes are showing the exact same emotion. "I know" I say with a half goofy smirk on my face.

My eyes return outside to see the world around us, so many people going on with their day and even more going home because the clock is about five in the afternoon and everyone need to prepare for dinner and the evening that is taking over the day. The shining hot sun is slowly going down but is still high on the sky. Barely any clouds to hide the beautiful soft baby blue on the sky itself and it makes me smile to see how pretty the sky actually is. "What are you thinking?" Adam asks me.

I've been so lost in my mind and thinking about the sky that I sort of forgot that we were in a car. "Just how much beauty this world holds" I tell him with a smile. Smiling is what I do best and it can solve so many problems. "Never change, Lea, never change" He mutters. I raise an eyebrow at him but then I see that he has stopped the car and I notice that we're in front of our house. Unbuckling my seat belt I lightly shake my head at his words before I get out of the car, holding the cake of course.

"You know that we're going to have that cake after dinner, right?" He asks me, and I roll my eyes. "Of course, but it shouldn't hurt to have one slice before dinner, I mean dinner isn't even for about two hours, that is just too long of a wait for me" I say and as we enter the house I put on my pleading face, the face that I know he will never be able to deny because it is just too adorable. "Don't make the face" He says band playfully frowns. "You're making the face" He says and pulls me into his arms after I've put the cake on the kitchen table.

Going on my toes I kiss him and he kisses me back. The kiss is sweet and gentle and just the best. After a short while we break from it and I raise an eyebrow at him as his strong arms lift me up bridal style. Letting out a squeal because of it, I wrap my arms around the back of his neck to support myself in case he tries to drop me which has happened, once. "Put me down" I say while laughing.

Adam sits down on the couch with me in his arms. "Never" He says as he kisses my cheek and I let out a laugh. "And I'm never letting you go" I say to him and I truly mean it. The love I feel for him is eternal and I know that it will last forever and I'm glad because I do love him. After all I am marrying him which I know will be the best day of my life. "I know" He says to me as he hugs me tightly but I like it.

"Now, can we watch the movie and eat cake, you did suggest it and besides you never said a time to watch a movie and eat cake which can mean that we can do that now" I tell him with a smirk on my face. I did catch up on that and I know that he didn't catch it. He sighs before he helps me sit on the couch. "Fine, find the movie and I'll put two slices on plates for us" Adam says and stands up to go to the kitchen while I just smile while I turn on the TV.

Finding the movie is not hard for me as I've watched it so many times that I know where to find it, it is actually in my favorites category along side some Star Wars movie that Adam loves to watch. "Can you also bring me a glass of orang-" I say but as soon as I look up to see him standing there holding a plate and a glass of orange juice and he sets it down in front of me. I let out a laugh when I see it. He truly does know me better than I know myself.

And I know him better than he knows himself because I know that right now he is also putting a slice on his plate but he is also getting whipped cream but he forgot one thing... "Where's the whipped cream?" He asks, calling from the kitchen as I would guess he's going through the fridge trying to find the whipped cream but he's unable to find it. "I know we had one, I had some yesterday" He calls and I laugh. "Yeah you did and you finished it. And you forgot to add it on the grocery store list on the fridge so when you went to the store today, you didn't buy it" I call after him as I hear him groan.

"Come on, let's watch the movie before we start dinner" I call out to him. Adam walks back into the living room with a plate of his slice of cake and sits down next to me. We get under the covers and cuddle as the movie starts and we eat the cake and I also drink the orange juice. This moment is perfect, just the two of us here together watching a movie and I can forget all about the things that I've seen and I can be happy. Then why do I feel like something's missing?