"And a chocolate for good gal." Said Okaley as she passed me the fake bar of chocolate from her toys.

Days with Oakley are awesome so far. Last night when Oakley hugged Damien's leg, he didn't bother hugging her back. He picked her up from the ground and passed her to me before he left and didn't come back the whole night.

Today I called him to ask where he is and when will he be back. He told me he won't be back till Oakley is gone. I don't know what problems he has with her. She is just a kid, can't do much to him or perhaps my conspiracy is correct and Oakley is really his child.

But why is she living with Chris though.

Everything's quite complicated.

Earlier I called Xander, he was still upset that I ditched him that day and went out with my boss. I explained to him that Damien wanted me for work and we were going home when I pressured to stop for Ice Cream. I feel bad for lieing to him but I think it's not really the best timing to tell the truth.

I sat on the sofa while I waited for Xander. Oakley kept playing. Yes today I invited him in as Damien is not coming back so why not.

My phone rang indicating that Xander is already here.

I opened the door to a bouquet of rose, bags of chocolates and smiling Xander.

"Good Evening, princess." He said, taking me into hug. I hugged him back and greeted.

We got in and I remembered I didn't really tell him about Oakley.

"I'm babysitting a friend's daughter." I said to him.

"Oh?" He hummed.

We got in the living room, where Oakley sat playing with her toys. As soon as she noticed Xander, her expression changed into anger. Ok what's up with this kid.

"Who awe you?" She shouted at Xander.

I looked at him apologetically, raising my hand in defence that this is not my kid though.

"He's my friend, Oakley. Say hello." I smiled upto her, showing her the bag of Ferrero Rocher Xander brought.

Her eyes sparkled as she ran towards me to grab it but I hold it back and politely asked her to say hello to Xander which she denied. When I told her he brought them then only she greeted him but that too with a grumpy face.

"Winnie, I'm your only friend." She said, giving angry glare to Xander.

"'If it makes you happy, I'm not her friend." Spoke Xander.

"I'm here boyfriend." Added Xander, with a smiling tone earning a dead glare from me.

"What's a boyfriend?" Asked Oakley.

"Oakley, see you're my girl friend cause you're a girl, right?

He is a boy so he is my boy friend." I explained the puzzled child and Xander pouted.

"But I'm your boy and girl friend, Winnie." She whispered in her baby voice, getting sad.

"We can both be her friends." Offered Xander but Okaley huffed in a no.

"I'll bring you to eat Ice Cream out." And only that Oakley to pass him the biggest smile, she jumped towards him telling him how much she 'loves' him. Kids are crazy.

He picked her up and blew a kiss on her cheek.

"Xander, play with I?" Asked Oakley and he didn't deny.

"Oakley dear, but we are supposed to cook." I said.

"Oh yeah." She said excitingly, running towards the kitchen.

"And you too." I told Xander.

Soon we were all in kitchen, making mess out of it. Xander kept behaving like a child with Okaley. And not helping me a bit. I glared at both of them as they ate the chocolates and threw the wrapper in my direction while I made strawberry milkshake for Oakley.

"Xander, I need you to make a dessert." I said but he ignored me. I had to repeat to which he replied we'll go out for dessert and it's on him. I made quick pasta for us and chips and nuggets for Oakley.

As Xander was picking up Oakleys nuggets, I slapped his hands away. "They are for her." He pouted and nodded but then I felt bad and passed him a nugget at which he grinned. I mean there were around 10 nuggets, she can't eat all so I'll let him have 3 or more.

Xander picked Oakley in his arms and we set the table. Oakley is quiet small to sit on the chair and reach table so we put her on the table.

"Why only my momma lives in heaven?" My heart stooped at that. What made her thought all of that. I thought we were having a good time.

The kid really don't deserve to be this alone. I mentally told myself to ask Chris to do something for her, she needs a mommy. Can't let her have a childhood like I did.

"'We all look a family." She clapped her hands and pouted, it was true we did. "Winnie, will you be my new mommy?" My eyes widened and so Xander's, I just sat there not knowing what to answer her back. I can play the role of being her mommy but she needs her mommy and daddy together, at same house, loving eachother and living like a family. I can't do that with Chris. He's only a friend.

"So what Ice Cream do you like more, Oakley." Asked Xander changing the topic.

"Coffee Iceceam." I gulped my saliva.

Coffee.

"Is she even allowed to have that?" Xander asked me. Ofc she isn't.

"I love coffee." Said Oakley.

Like certain someone.

"We'll call daddy and ask if you can have coffee ice cream. Now eat up, young lady." I said in a strict motherly type tone.

Just at dinner table Oakley was asleep so we ended up not going to Ice Cream at all and instead me and Xander watched a movie. But Xander was a bit weird today he was cuddling alot into me.

I tried to maintain the distance but he came closer and hugged me, putting his arms just below my chest and his face on my neck. "Winnie, did you think about it?"

"About what?"

"Us."

"My life is complicated, Xander." I whispered. It is, it really is.

"I don't see any complications." I could notice the pain in his tone.

"Xander, you can get any girl out there." I said.

"But I don't want them, Winnie. I want you." I was feeling kinda awkward because the position we were in and discussing this.

"Atleast consider it?"

"I will." I said, while yawning. I was really sleepy.

"Promise?"

"Promise." I guess I was going to sleep like this with Xander on the couch cause I'm too tired to get up and move to bed.

...

Loud snores woke me up in the middle of night, also the arms that were encircling me, making it hard for me to breath. For a moment I thought I was on bed with Damien but as soon as I saw Xander's face, regret washed over me. I'm not close to any other men except Damien, even though he hates my guts but he is the only one I have been so close to. It's not even fair to Xander.

With my sleepy eyes, I tried to get away from the hold. Removing the big storng muscular arms of Xander from around my shoulders. He didn't even bulge, still sleeping and snoring.

I decided to experiment how much of a deep sleeper he is, I poked him on his arm and nothing. I poked again but nothing. I patted his cheek to waking him up but he was still asleep.

"Xander," I shouted out in his ears twice, making him jump up.

"What the fuck!"

"I think you should move to guest room." As I said that, I saw his eyes changed to disbelief and hurt before he blinked it away and raised his eyes at me.

"Do you not trust me, Winnie. I won't take advantage of your sleeping state." It's not even about that, my conscience won't let me do it. While I was sleeping I was feeling like I was doing something bad.

"I trust you, Xander. But.." I stopped in my middle sentence as I didn't know how to explain it to him.

"I know, Princess. Even if it takes forever, I'll wait."

"And just know I really had amazing sleep beside you." He winked at me before continuing. "When you're comfortable we should do it more often." He smiled, showing his perfect white teeth.

Just us sleeping together on a couch doesn't mean anything big to me but it will hurt him deeply if I say out loud. I cursed myself for falling asleep like that. I don't think I can ever do it again.

Why am I so complicated.

He's a sweetheart and I can't be a heartthrob. Why is he even attracted to me in the first place.

"I just want you to know that I'll give you the world." The world that I don't deserve.

"Okey, I think I'll leave now." He came forward to kiss my forehead, "Take care," He mumbled.

I only feel like I'm playing with him, giving him false hopes. I would really try this relationship with him but life isn't that simple and deep down I also feel like I can't because of Damien.

Something inside me was begging me to stop him and ask him to stay cause it's not good if he leaves like this in the middle of night. But I stayed muted. What is even there to utter. I should have just left without waking him up but now I ruined eveything. I hurt his lovely heart for which I'll feel forever bad.

"Stay please." I said.

"I have to leave for an interview video early in the morning tomorrow and I remember not bringing my clothes." But you were staying until I woke you up.

"Hey, don't feel bad. We'll meet soon." He smiled at me and left, leaving me feel like a cruel person that I am.

I can't believe I just made a big fuss out of nothing.