well, i love every single one of you lovely human beings.. you are human, right? 0_o

I hovered over Ryder and lightly kissed his dry lips. "I'm sorry." I whispered before I got up and left the room.

Something didn't feel right. I had this odd feeling in my chest and something was telling me to call Ryder. I tried to ignore the feeling but the more I tried to ignore it, the louder the warning got. I, eventually, gave in and ran upstairs to get my phone. Dialing Ryder's number, I waited for him to answer. When he didn't answer the third time I called, I started to get worried.

"Mom, I'm going to borrow the car. I'll be right back." I yelled to my mom who was in the living room, knitting a sweater.

"Ok sweet heart, be careful." she called back. I grabbed the keys off the table, slipped my phone in my pocket, and right when I opened the door, Riley was already standing there.

"Hey, I was just about to head over to the pack house." I said casually as I stepped outside and closed the door. I noticed the worry and panic in his eyes. "What's wrong?" He gulped as he tried to search for the right words to say.

"It's Ryder." he finally said. I was about to say something before he cut me off. "No time for questions. Come on." He grabbed my arm and dragged me to his mustang. He lightly shoved me towards the passenger door and we got into the car.

I was already starting to panic and I didn't even know what happened. "What happened?" I asked, trying to sound calm but it just came out as a trembling whisper. When he didn't answer, I tried again. "What happened?" I asked more sternly. I was getting scared and his silence was not helping at all.

"He crashed." and that was all it took to bring me over the edge. I began to freak out.

"What do you mean he crashed? How?" I didn't give him time to answer as I continued to drill him with questions. "Is he ok? Where are you taking me? I need to see Ryder."

"Noah, shut up!" he yelled as he started to freak out as well. I could tell he was trying to stay strong but I was just making it worse. In the state he was now, I could tell Ryder was seriously injured. I decided to stay quiet the rest of the ride, even though I felt like I was going to be sick.

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We didn't go to a hospital. Instead, we went to the pack house infirmary, which was right next to the mansion. Once we were there, I ran out as fast as my legs could carry me. I barged through the doors and ran down the hall, letting my instincts take over since they seemed to know where Ryder was. I was only about a couple feet away from the door, when I was pulled back.

"No! Let me go! I need to see him!" I yelled as I tried to get out of the person's embrace. They hugged me to their chest with Impressive strength but I still tried to break free. "No, I need to see him." I continuously tried pushing against the person but it was no use.

"I know. Its okay. Everything is going to be okay." Riley said as he held me. I stopped resisting and gave in. Tears were falling from my eyes as I focused on the comforting words Riley had said. I knew Ryder wasn't dead but something told me, he was close to it.

Riley picked me up as if I weighed nothing and sat me down on a couch. "I'll get you some water." he suggested. I quickly grabbed his wrist and stopped me, causing him to look at me with a puzzled look.

My heart beat was still very audible in my ears, mixing with the pure dread that burdened my heart. I just needed someone to stay and comfort me.

"Please stay." I sniffled. He let out a sigh before nodding his head and sitting down on the couch. I knew what I was about to ask him was going to seem wrong but I didn't really care. We both needed comfort and I didn't want to be alone. "Lay down, please?" He looked confused but did it anyway.

I laid down next to him and cuddle into his side, my fists holding onto his shirt. He seemed surprised and unsure at first but figuring I wasn't going to take no as an answer, he wrapped his arm around me. He wasn't as warm and comforting as Ryder but he still offered the comfort that I needed. I would sniffle and occasionally wipe my nose with my sleeve as we just lied there.

"Riley?"

"Yeah?"

"I don't get it."

"Don't get what?" I shifted a little and looked up at him.

"If Ryder is a werewolf, can't he heal himself?" He glanced down at me before we both looked away.

"There's too much damage. His bod- He'll be fine." He was leaving out a small detail and I could tell he didn't particically want to tell me.

"What is it?"

"Noah, leave it alone." I sat up and looked down at him.

"Riley, tell me." He shook his head and averted his gaze. "Riley, don't make me cry." He glanced at me before looking away again. I pouted as I made my lip quiver, sniffling every now and then and trying my best to look as sad as possible.

"Ugh ok fine. But don't get mad at me when you cry for real." He sat up a little and looked me in the eye. "Basically, his body completely shut down. He's sort of in a coma because there is so much damage that his body, sort of, went to sleep while he heals." A lump formed in my throat but I forced it down. Just the thought of him being gone for a long time caused my eyes to water a bit.

"Do you know how long he will be out?" He shook his head and looked at me, waiting for me to react. I didn't want to cry. I always cried and it made me feel pathetic. I focused on my hands, trying my best not to let the tears fall.

It's like, we can never get a break. Something always happened. When will Ryder and I be able to have a normal and happy life? "It's okay to cry, Noah." and I did. I cried until my eyes burned from the salty tears, without a shred of shame.

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I woke up by someone violently shaking me. I hadn't even realized that I had fallen asleep. "What?" I snapped at Riley as he look down at me with hopeful eyes.

"We can see him." he stated. He helped me up and we walked down the hall together. When we made it to the door, Riley opened it and motioned for me to go in. Walking In, the first thing I saw was Ryder laying on a hospital bed, tubes hanging off almost every visible part of his pale and bruised body. I hated seeing him like this, it almost made me cry again.

I took a deep breath and went to stand next to his bed. I lightly placed my hand on his. His hand was cold and it pained me that I didn't feel the warmth that he always offered.

All of a sudden, pain shot through my leg and caused me to collapse to the floor. Riley yelled my name and came to help me. Pain was coursing through my whole body but I didn't know why. It didn't feel like it was my pain. It felt like I was feeling someone else's pain - Ryder's pain. It became too much for me to handle and I blacked out. Last thing I remembered was Riley and the worry in his eyes.

The next time I opened my eyes, I regretted it. I was hurting mentally and physically. It's like I could feel how sad someone else was and I could feel their pain physically. Judging by how bad they felt, I could tell they weren't in good condition.

"Noah, you're awake!" Riley exclaimed as he ran to my side. I looked around me and noticed I was in an infirmary room. "How are you feeling?"

"It hurts." I breathed out. The pain wasn't as bad but it was still noticeable. "What's happening?"

"I think you're just feeling Ryder's pain, like he does with you. Usually wolves don't have a human mate so we don't have to worry about anything like this happening." he said with a sad smile. "Don't worry, you'll some what get used to it but when you become a werewolf, it won't hurt as much as it does now."

"Can I go see Ryder?" I asked. He nodded his head and helped me up, leading me to Ryder's room. Once I was inside, he left us alone. I took a glance at Ryder's now fragile body and had to force myself not to cry. I had to be strong. I had to be strong for Ryder.

I sat down on the chair next to the bed and stared at Ryder for a long time. What I didn't fully understand was why Ryder was so sad? I couldn't help but think that I caused him to be this way. What if he was upset because I kept attracting bad stuff. I probably just stressed him out.

I hovered over Ryder and lightly kissed his dry lips. "I'm sorry." I whispered before I got up and left the room.