"Or maybe I just don't wanna have a baby by another crazy ass, mentally fucked up ass nigga."

Genesis' words replayed over and over again in my head. I never thought that Gen would stoop that low. I understand that she was talking out of anger, but the truth comes out when people are angry. I was wrong for not telling her about my slip up sooner. She didn't have to say what she said though. I lost respect for her after that one. This shit has me looking at her differently.

I would never throw Genesis' insecurities in her face. I love her too much to do that to her. Maybe the feeling isn't mutual. Maybe she doesn't love me like I thought she did. It's all good though, I'm cool on her. Kaiser is the only reason why I'll be keeping in contact with her. I don't want somebody that's gonna silently judge me then throw shit in my face. I love every bit of Gen, and I just wanted that same energy in return.

My phone started ringing, knocking me out of my thoughts. I picked my phone up and seen that it was Lola. Letting out a loud sigh, I pressed the answer button then put the phone up to my ear.

"This better be about my fucking son."

Lola smacked her lips, "you don't even care about my baby. You didn't even crack a smile at the gender reveal, but you sure can smile when that bitch comes around. I hope you don't think she's gonna be around my son."

"Watch your fucking mouth. My son is gonna be around whoever I want him to be around. You don't run shit."

"Try me, I'll take you to court."

"The courts will humble yo ass REAL quick. You ain't talking to no broke ass, no stability having ass nigga. I can pay for the best lawyers in the state, so don't threaten me with no court shit. I'll fuck around and get full custody."

The line immediately got quiet.

"That's what the fuck I thought. Now, what the fuck do you want?"

Lola sighed before speaking up. "Can you take me to my mom's house? I lost my apartment, and the thirty day notice ended today."

"Lola stop fucking playing with me. You have a car. You mean to tell me that your notice coincidentally ended on New Year's? Nah, you on some sneaky shit."

"My car is having some issues right now, and it's not my fault that my notice ended on New Year's" Lola said.

"Look, I can do an uber. I'm not taking you no where though. You always have hidden motives. I don't trust you, and I don't wanna be around you."

"You don't trust me?! After I held you down for all those years? Wow East. I know enough about you to get you sent to prison, but I've kept my mouth shut this whole time. You really let that bitch get in your head" Lola said.

"I ain't finna let you call her too many more bitches. I said, watch your fucking mouth. You won't get me sent to prison because you know what'll happen to you. Get the fuck off my phone."

I ended the call then tossed my phone to the side. I can't believe I have to deal with this shit for the rest of my life. Karma is really a fucking bitch.

I woke up to the sound of loud banging. I quickly realized that somebody was banging on my front door. Rolling out of bed, I put my robe on then walked to the front door.

"Girl, I've been calling you all day" Kelis said.

I moved to the side, allowing her to walk into my apartment. "I'm sorry sis. I literally just woke up."

"Just woke up? It's 5 PM girl. Are you okay?" She asked as she sat Kaiser on the couch.

"I'm fine. I was just catching up on sleep" I lied.

The truth is that I practically drank myself to sleep last night.

"Did you have fun with auntie Lele?" I asked Kaiser.

He nodded then ran off to his room.

"Kareem wants a boy now. Him and Kaiser were play fighting all night, keeping me up and shit" Kelis said.

I didn't even have the strength to laugh. I was too busy to thinking about East.

"Are you sure you're okay? You don't seem like yourself pooh" Kelis said.

I sighed then fanned my eyes to keep the tears from falling. "I'm pregnant, and I don't know what to do."

Kelis gasped, "how far along? How long have you known?"

"I just found out last night. East and I got into a bad argument, and I said some things that I shouldn't have said. I was talking out of anger, but that shit hurt him. You should've seen the look on his face. That shit broke my heart into pieces." I shook my head then wiped my eyes.

"Awwww, my poor baby" Kelis said as she wrapped her arms around me.

"I don't know what to do. I feel so guilty because I drank so much alcohol last night. I wanted to numb my emotions."

"You don't want the baby?" Kelis asked.

I sighed, "I don't think we're ready for a baby right now. It's not the right time."

"To be honest, there's NEVER a right time to have a child Gen. It's gonna be hard whether you have one now or in ten years. My mom told me that, and she has four kids. East is already a great stepfather to Kaiser. I'm sure he'll be an amazing father to both of his unborn babies as well" Kelis said.

"I'm not worried about his ability to be a father. I'm worried about US. What if we break up? Then I'll be alone with TWO kids. I don't want that. We're still getting to know each other. What if we grow apart?"

"That man loves you Genesis. You are his WORLD! I can tell by the way he looks at you. Y'all had a friendship before any of this. I don't think he'll leave you hanging with two kids" Kelis said.

Kelis was speaking facts. I know that East loves me, but I feel like it's too late to fix things. It's obvious that I crossed the line with him. I'm not sure if he'll even want to fix things. I wish that I could take back what I said because lord knows I didn't mean it. I tend to go for the low blows when I feel attacked. That's ANOTHER toxic trait that I can't seem to fix.

"I'm tired as fuck. I ain't finna be out here all night with you" East said.

"Gen got my boy on a curfew" Zander said as he shook his head.

"It ain't even that. I'm just ready to go home" East said.

Zander decided to drag East to a New Year's party with him. Of course East agreed since he didn't want to spend New Year's alone. Genesis has been on his mind all night, and now he's ready to go home and drink himself to sleep. That's the only way to numb the pain that he was feeling.

"I'm staying. I'll catch a ride with one of the lil homies" Zander said.

"Heard ju. Be safe nigga" East said as he dapped Zander up.

"Always bro, hit me when you get home" Zander said.

East nodded before walking off to his car. He was thinking about pulling up on Genesis just to see Kaiser, but he decided not to. Instead, he headed straight home. He would soon regret that decision.

Pulling into the parking garage, East backed his car into a spot then turned it off. He got out, locking the door behind him. Getting into the elevator, he pressed his floor number then waited for the elevator to ascend. He was on the highest floor, so he decided to scroll through his Instagram while he waited.

Moments later the elevator dinged, indicating that he'd reached his floor. He stepped out of the elevator, walking towards his front door. His focus remained on his phone while he walked. When somebody called him by his government name, he looked up in confusion.

"What the fuck is this?" East asked.

"Jeremiah Wright, you're under arrest for the murder of Jayceon Taylor. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have the right to an attorney. If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be appointed for you" an officer said as he placed handcuffs on each of East's wrists.

East never saw this coming.

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