I be with demons, and yeah, I admit it

Get too high, gotta flush my kidneys

Niggas be hoes, gotta mind my business

Call from the feds, they'll run up your minutes

Watch these hoes, they'll do it for a image

Fuck four hoes, tryna turn me to stripper

I don't trust niggas, so I ride with my nickel

Crushed up faces, bustdown emerald

Can't trust twice 'cause it ain't that simple

I hit my blunt and bobbed my head to the music. The club has been my second home for the past week. It's the only place that can keep my mind off of everything. Stressed out is an understatement for me right now.

I pulled my phone out then dialed Gen's number. It went straight to voicemail just like I expected to. Letting out a sigh, I locked my phone then slid it back into my pocket. I picked the bottle of D'Usse up then poured some into my cup. I needed something to numb my emotions.

A lot of shit has happened in this short amount of time. I got the DNA test results back a week ago, and it confirmed Lola's claims. I'm the father of her baby. It's funny how I strapped up everytime, but she still ended up getting pregnant. I guess this is karma.

Genesis was heartbroken when I told her about the results. She told me that she needed space, but now she's ignoring me. Gen's feelings towards the situation are understandable. I have to step up and be a father though. I'm hoping and praying that Gen will come around, but if she doesn't then I'll understand. I'll always love her and Kaiser, no matter what happens. They'll always be family to me.

My phone vibrated, indicating that I had a text message. I unlocked my phone and seen a text from Lola. She's been texting me nonstop lately. I ignore her most of time though. I really wish that I could block her ass, but she's carrying my child. I have to stay in contact with her.

Lola was already thirteen weeks pregnant when she revealed the news. She's almost sixteen weeks now, and she's been bugging me about a fucking gender reveal. I don't feel like it's necessary for me to be at the gender reveal. That's something that happy couples do, and I'm definitely not in a happy relationship with that bitch.

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"This bitch" I mumbled to myself as I shook my head.

I immediately stepped outside to call my mom. She had me fucked all the way up. She didn't discuss any of this shit with me. This is exactly why I feel like my mom doesn't have my back. She knows that I don't fuck with Lola like that, yet she's planning gender reveals and shit behind my back.

"Hello" my mom mumbled as she answered my call.

"What the fuck were you thinking? Why would you plan a gender reveal with Lola behind my back? You know I don't fuck with her like that."

"Watch your mouth when you're talking to me young man. I don't have to discuss anything with you. Lola is the mother of your child whether you like it or not. She's carrying my grandbaby, so I want to make every bit of her pregnancy memorable. Suck it up and stop acting like a child. You should be at the gender reveal because that's your baby too. Don't be an asshole. The girl didn't get herself pregnant" my mom said.

I didn't say anything else. I ended the call then walked back into the club. It's obvious that my mom isn't on my side in this situation. I really feel like it's me against the world right now. I need Gen.

It's been nearly a week since I've spoken to East. We've grown so close these past three months, and I'm not used to going this long without talking to him. I miss him so much. I'm not mad at him, but I just need time and space to think about how I want to move forward. This is a serious situation that requires a lot of thinking.

I was heartbroken when East told me about the results. I cried my eyes out for three days straight. I fell deeply in love with East. I wanted that man to be my husband, but now I'm not so sure. It has nothing to do with him or the way he treats me, but it has everything to do with Lola.

Lola has already been hitting me up from fake pages to rub the news in my face. I'm not gonna lie, her messages really get to me. If I move forward with East then I'll have to deal with her shenanigans FOREVER. I don't want that for myself. I love East so much, but I will never be miserable for a man EVER again.

The vibration from my phone snapped me out of my thoughts. I picked it up and seen a text message from Yasmine, East's mom. I didn't know why she was texting me. She was acting different towards me after the Thanksgiving dinner. I don't have time for weird energy.

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Tears started to cloud my vision, and a single stream fell down my face as I read the message. I wiped my eyes then threw my phone at the wall. Anger and sadness were the only two emotions that I felt in that moment. A gender reveal huh? He must be pretty excited. I can't even be mad at East because he SHOULD be excited to find out his child's gender.

I was in a deep sleep when I heard my phone ringing. Without looking at the caller ID, I answered the phone. A familiar voice boomed through the speaker. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss that voice. I just wasn't ready to talk.

"Gen, don't hang up on me" East said.

I could hear the stress in his voice.

"I miss you baby. I miss Kaiser too, and I know he misses me. I'm sorry about all of this shit. Don't punish me for something that happened before you though. I have no control over that shit Gen" he said.

The whole time I was silently crying. I felt bad for pushing him away, but I felt like I had to. His face and his voice remind me of the very situation that has been stressing me out for the past week. Only time can ease this stress.

"I just need time" I cried out.

"Stop crying Genesis. We're in this together. We're supposed to be a team. Stop doing me like this" East said.

"I can't deal with this right now. I'll call you another time."

"You better not ha-" before he could finish I ended the call.

I knew that he would keep calling, so I turned my phone off. I just wasn't ready to have that conversation with him. This situation is too fresh. The way I'm feeling right now, I don't think I'll ever get over this. Only time will tell.

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