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It's a time where werewolves and humans coexist but humans know nothing of their existence. Laken and his family are werewolves in a wolfpack. All wolfpacks are named after their Alpha so when an Alpha dies, the name dies with him. Laken lives in the wolfcamp with his family and the rest of the pack.The camp is situated far from any town, however the camp looks like a normal neighbourhood so that if any human was to stumble across it they wouldn't think twice about it. He goes to school just like a normal human would and all the other werewolves in the pack live normal lives in human society, the only time they are able to truly be themselves is in the wolfcamp. Homosexuality is prohibited in all wolf packs because it is expected that each member should one day find a mate and procreate so that the packs can grow, thereby becoming stronger. This brief bit is just to clear up any misunderstandings you may have.

I had deliberately chosen to stand at the back, far behind the rest of the pack as we gathered for the meeting, but somehow his eyes still managed find me, they bore into mine from where he stood on the platform, a blush crept up my cheeks and I shifted uncomfortably, from foot to foot. It had been a month since Jonah's death and his only son had been sworn in yesterday as the pack's new Alpha.

This was his first official task as the new Alpha and just as his father before him,Carson executed it well. No one had doubted him...he was born to lead and he had proved his capabilities long before his father's untimely demise. I broke eye contact with him and looked at the ground. You'd think I would be used to his stares by now; he'd been giving me those looks for as long as I could remember but these past few weeks they had seemed to grow more intense for some reason and that scared me.

Some of the other pack members had noticed as well, the guys constantly teased me about it, they thought the new alpha hated me and I had to admit, I thought so too.It was no secret that I was the runt of the pack, yes there were wolves younger than me but I was small for my age and I was bullied for it by the others.

Maybe he thought I was a disgrace to the pack because I couldn't keep up with everyone else. I tried, I really did but I just couldn't match up. My parents said I shouldn't push myself so hard, that I would get better with time, but they didn't understand.They had no idea how I felt every time we went out to hunt, I was always the last one to get to the hunting ground and I never caught a thing, unless you counted that rabbit I caught once-I didn't.

I was sixteen! I should be bringing home deer not a puny ass rabbit. They also didn't know how it felt to be scared all the time, I was bullied constantly by the guys my age, beaten, ridiculed and teased for my size and my ineptitude. My parents didn't know of course, I would never tell them.They thought my bruises came from playing soccer at school and I hoped they never found out that I didn't play soccer, I didnt play anything I mean look at me did it look like I was equipped to do sports?!

I was no coward mind you, I always tried to fight back despite my fear...tried being the operative word here.

Things weren't all bad though, I had friends at school and the pack wasn't so terrible either, I got along with most of the members and at least for all the years I had known him Carson had never bullied me, something I was thankful for considering his size... he was two years my senior but he had the body of a full grown man.

There I went thinking about his body again! A blush crept up my cheeks at the thought and my eyes flashed up to his face, he was no longer looking at me and so I was free to stare at him; short black curls framed his angular face, which housed intelligent hazel eyes and his lips! indescribable. He was beautiful, I'd always thought so.

Too many times he had caught me staring at him and I had to wonder if he was on to me. I'd been crushing on him for so long it was pathetic and while I had once hoped that his stares meant he felt the same, I long ago accepted the fact that he didn't. I mean look at him! Nobody who looked like that could be gay! and the fact that we never uttered a single word to each other, even after all these years told me everything I needed to know,he hated me... a sad prospect but I just had to deal with it.

No one knew I was gay except my best friend Lyla and I wanted to keep it that way.I would be kicked from the pack if they found out, I was sure of it!

I was dragged out of my trance when it dawned on me that the meeting had ended minutes before and most of the crowd had dispersed. I turned to go but before I could take a step I felt a hand snake around the back of my neck pulling me to a stop...

"Where ya going runt?" Daryl snarled. I swiped at his hand trying to pull it from my neck which was now surely bruised.

Rather than let me go he shoved me roughly to the ground and the guys around him began to snicker. Anger bubbled up within me at the sound and I pushed myself up off the dirt planning to tackle him but of course he immediately pulled me into a head lock. No surprise there ... I gasped trying desperately to get him to let me go I was losing air fast-

"Enough!" I heard a voice boom...I was immediately released where I fell unceremoniously to the dirt once more. I looked up to see Carson, the Alpha standing there, arms crossed, eyes narrowed as he glared at the others.

"Don't you guys have anything better to do?" his voice was dangerously low . I shivered at the sound.

"Help him up" Carson ordered Daryl who immediately went to do his bidding, however I wanted no part in it so I slapped his outstretched hand out of my way before pulling myself off the dirt and dusting myself off.

I then looked up at the Alpha,surprised to see a glint of admiration in his eyes but that was gone as soon as it came and I had to wonder briefly if I had imagined it.

"We do not tolerate division in this pack, but since you clearly don't agree none of you are allowed to hunt with the pack tonight you will stay behind. He declared adamantly.

From the corner of my eye I saw Daryl give me a look of pure hatred and I shrank away from him, I was so gonna get it tonight and it was all the dumb Alpha's fault, why couldn't he just leave us be?! That little scuffle had been nothing, now tonight when the pack was gone Daryl and his cronies would beat me to a pulp!

"Dumb ass punishment." I mumbled under my breath. At that moment several heads whipped around to look at me and I looked up in astonishment, they'd heard?

Oh shit. I looked past the evil smile now plastered on Daryl's face and brought my eyes up to meet that of the the Alpha's who was glaring down at me...I felt my heart constrict painfully in my chest and I looked to my feet, trembling with fear.

"I want you guys out of my sight, everyone but you." He said indicating I should remain. I gulped...no one disrespected the Alpha and got away unscathed, a member could be killed for such disrespect and I had done it not only on his first day on the 'job' but in front of fellow pack members.

My heart skipped a beat when I felt him grab my arm, roughly dragging me across the compound and into his quarters. I had never been inside the alpha's quarters before and didn't dare to look around as he shoved me inside slamming the door behind us. I backed away in fear as he approached me but stopped the moment he growled at me to stay put.

"Do you think I tolerate disrespect?" he asked his voice dangerously soft.

I opened my mouth but no words came.

"Do you?!" he roared and I felt my body clench, this was it... he was gonna kill me for sure

"N...No s...sir... I'm sorry it was...I didn't mean to-" I started

"I don't need your excuses" he spat. I couldn't believe this was happening to me, I had to deal with bullying from the pack, I was a constant disappointment to my peers and to myself, the Alpha hated me and now I had pissed him off...I felt the tears gather in my eyes and fought with everything I had not to let them fall...

I'm not a coward I chanted over and over again in my head I would not cry in front of the alpha I wouldn't!

"Look at me" he ordered and I swallowed the lump which had formed in my throat, looking up at him, the tears I had tried desperately to keep in spilled and I quickly brought my hand up to wipe them away. Disgust burned in me at my cowardice... I was a failure.

I prayed he'd just end it now; I didn't deserve to continue breathing after this.There was a moment of silence where I continued to wipe the tears that couldn't seem to stop. I just wanted him to get on with it , I felt so humiliated but instead of delivering the fatal blow I was shocked when I felt his hand cup my cheek gently. He tilted my face up to his, using the pad of his thumb to wipe away a stray tear drop.

My heart pounded in my chest and my throat became dry, what was going on? Why was he looking at me like that? As if I hadn't just insulted him in front of the pack? My eyes widened as I looked into his eyes, which were as gentle as his hand on my cheek. I swallowed,I had never seen him look like this before. My breathing ceased all together as his face came closer to mine, his eyes drifted close.

So many thoughts flew through my mind; this had to be a test! It had to be! The alpha would never try to kiss me and a guy at that. I quickly turned my head away before his lips could touch mine. His hand still held my cheek but I couldn't look at him, I couldn't let him see the desire in my eyes, because then he would have no doubts as to what I was and then he would kill me for sure.

The room was silent. I don't know how long we stood there before I heard him straighten up. His hand dropped from my cheek and I instantly missed its warmth.

"Just go" I heard him whisper and my eyes flew to his face, I watched as he dragged his hand through his hair sighing, seemingly in frustration, before he turned and proceeded down the hall, disappearing from sight.

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