Getting home I was anxious to just try and get some sleep. It had been a long couple of days, and I was physically and emotionally drained. When I got home, I went to my room, kicked my shoes off, and tossed my coat on the chair by my desk. I placed Jen's engagement ring on my bedside table by her photo. Her hair was dark in this photo, but it was her headshot for her medium business and I still to this day think it's her most beautiful photo.

I smiled and kissed her photo.

"I love you J, nothing will ever change that..." I said softly. I sighed and grabbed some boxers and went into my bathroom to shower. I climbed into the shower, turning the water on and letting myself relax under it. The hot water was what I needed to relax and calm my nerves. I thought I was healing pretty well from all this, but Jen, even in death, knew me better than I knew myself.

Once I was clean I stepped out, dried myself off, and got into my boxers. It was about 4 am but I let myself go out and collapse onto my bed, sleep taking me in minutes.

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I woke to gentle kisses over my back.

"Wake up my love," a soft voice whispered. I was confused but opened my eyes to have them land on Jen's. A dream, everything I've experienced in the last however long was a dream, so weird, it felt so real.

"Hey, what time is it?" I asked, with a smile.

"Almost one," she giggled, swatting my backside, making me jump.

"Alright alright, I'm up...." I chuckled, sitting up to kiss her softly.

"Are you ready for today? It's gonna change our lives!!" she said getting up still in her underwear and my t-shirt.

"What do you mean?" I asked confused. She laughed and waved her hand at me.

"Today is the day you're gonna propose, remember? and then that guy is gonna try and take it! Have you forgotten our past already?" she asked. I glanced at my phone. November 13th, 2021. Was I reliving this? was this a dream? I was so confused.

"What is going on? is this a dream?" I asked.

"Of course it is silly, I'm dead remember?" she asked before turning to face me, her eyes dark and she was in black and grey.

"I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna go thru this again," I said aloud, "you're not real... you're not..."

"Again of course I'm not, but you gotta start getting past this, no other way but to live thru it over and over again before you become desensitized," she said, reaching for me. But her hand went thru me. I jumped out of bed and away from her.

"No, you wouldn't do this to me, you wouldn't! This is another spirit, I don't want you here, get out of my head!!!!" I sobbed.

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I bolted awake from my nightmare, in cold sweats screaming out her name. Sam came rushing in.

"Colbs! Colbs! I'm here I'm here," he said, coming over. I just latched onto him sobbing into his chest.

"Now it's in my dreams, over and over again, I can't keep reliving this..." I cried.

"I understand man, I don't know how to help... I am so sorry..." he said trying to console me. It was like I was back at stage one of my grief. Her spirit contacting us pushed me back about ten steps.

I was not okay right now. I didn't know how to deal. Maybe I had gone back to work too soon.

"Are you gonna be alright, man? I don't wanna leave you alone if you're not gonna be okay...." he said softly.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"Almost one," he said softly.

"No no its okay I am up..." I said, sitting up and wiping my eyes.

"Dude we gotta get you past this... I'm gonna get in touch with Amanda, she can help us...." he said.

"Okay, yes we need a medium. I need to figure out what I can do to help her cross over...." I said.

"Stay here, I'll go make a phone call," he said and got up to go do that. I got myself up and went to rummage thru my clothes. I found some jeans and a t-shirt to pull on and prepare myself for the day. We had to leave for Canada in three days for a haunt exploration. I had to pull myself together.

"Amanda is gonna come by tonight, she said to make sure you have Jen's ring handy...." Sam said as I came out of my room.

"Okay, Great... I am so glad she's willing to help, I know they were friends...." I said gently.

"Yeah she's more than happy to help out..." he said.

"Well, I definitely need some light shined on this, or at least help Jen pass on... or something...." I said, "I hate knowing she's suffering in death. I just wanted her to feel at peace. I got myself some breakfast quick and some coffee, before going back upstairs to retrieve Jen's ring. I slipped it over my head and tucked it under my hoodie and went to sit outside to have my breakfast and coffee.

Amanda: Hey Colby, so this is gonna sound insane, but I think it would be best to meet at the place we lost her. it'll be a much stronger connection there.

Colby: I dunno if I wanna do that Manda, it's too much..... Meet us here and we can discuss it.

Amanda: Alright, I'll be to you guys at about 8 pm.

Colby: thanks, Manda. I really appreciate you wanting to help us. The dreams and things are getting awful... I need relief and clearly, Jen needs release.

Amanda: of course..... I'll see you tonight. love you guys!

Colby: Thanks, we love ya too.

I set my phone aside and dug into my food. I was starving, and I needed the coffee for sure. But a monster right after was gonna be needed. Once I was done I got my dishes washed and then went to do a quick video for Instagram and Tik Tok!

"Hey everyone! This is your boy Colby here! So excited for you guys to see the footage from the Dead Factory. It was some crazy action and some personal connections! It'll be up in a couple of weeks!! We're heading to Canada in a few days to check out Fairmont Empress! We'll see about meeting up with some of our Xplr Club members, if you wanna join that, the link's in the bio! I'll see you all on the flipside!!" I said and blacked out the end with my hand as always.

I edited it a bit and made sure there was a good filter on it to hide that I'd been crying, and then posted it. I was glad things would be sorted and put to rest before we left. I just wanted to get lost in my work.