I heard my alarm clock go off. I opened my eyes and looked at the ceiling. I don't feel like going to class, I'd rather stay under my comforter.

But I have to get up anyway! It's not worthy of a future star to be depressed in his room! Come on, get up!

I got up from my precious bed and opened the curtains. I was surprised to see snow, it's only the beginning of December.

I heard Saki knocking on the door:

"Big brother! You'll be late, hurry up!"

I looked at the time on my phone. I spent all this time to revise? Nooo! I just remembered that Rui and Nene were supposed to wait for me in front of Kamiyama Street! And I have a test first thing in the morning!

I quickly put on my uniform, checked to make sure I had my classes, grabbed my bentō and thanked my sister before running to the meeting point.

I arrived on time. Rui waved at me.

"Hi!" I said with a big smile.

"Hey."

We walked to the school together. I would be lying if I said I wasn't tired of my own self-centeredness. I force myself anyway, this wouldn't be the Tsukasa they know so well. A me who loses his big smile without even a clear reason is not me.

We arrived at class on time and I headed to my classroom. The groups of students had already formed to whisper incomprehensible things into my ears. I would have been sure to hear a ruckus coming from the classroom before I got there, though. Anyway, I didn't really care.

I sat down in my seat and the bell rang. The teacher arrived shortly after and handed out the topics before telling us to start. I didn't understand a thing. Aren't they tired of always looking for something more complicated? We don't give a damn about equations with multiple unknowns, it's useless. Especially to become a big star!

I wish I had the intelligence of Rui! And he knows all about science! No formula or program escapes him! I envy him!

The test ended, I had only filled a quarter of the sheet. Too bad, I'll do better next time.

The other classes of the morning went on normally. Then came the lunch break, where I took my things and went to join my friends.

We ate quietly, laughing about Rui's bullshit in his old school, while he took the opportunity to give us his vegetables. We were desperate and laughing at the same time.

"At what point do you say to yourself, I'm going to build a drone and send it into the teachers' lounge to photograph the subjects for the next tests-"

"Too bad my plan was screwed up!"

"Irredeemable."

"Gotta do it again!!!" I tossed.

"Are you suicidal?"

Rui is unusually cheerful today.

And it was time to go back to class. The same routine. And a few hours later, class was over. I quickly put away the stuff and ran to the amusement park. Rui and Nene had finished early, so I didn't have to wait for them.

I arrived at the Wonder Stage and we all started to rehearse for our next show. Rui has his head in the clouds, I wonder what he is thinking about. This one ends up taking me by the shoulders.

"Tsukasa, what's wrong with you today?"

"What? What do you mean?"

"You are not in your normal state.

"You're wrong! I'm fine! Why wouldn't I be? Everything is smiling on me!"

I admit that it hurts me to lie. But maybe if I just say that I'll get better, and all without them worrying. Especially since I don't think there's a specific reason.

"Tsukasa, I'm serious, stop acting tough."

I have a sudden urge to vomit. What should I do? I started to panic inside and ended up running to the nearest trash can to throw up. What's wrong with me?

I watched in the distance as Rui talked with Emu and Nene. They don't seem to be smiling. It's my fault they are not happy right now. It's my fault that Rui is so worried. It seems to me that he finally told them to go home, because he waved his hand and they left afterwards. He then started walking towards me. Damn, I feel like crying now. Well, I'll hold it in as best I can.

"Tsukasa. I know you're not well. We'll talk about it at my place."

"No need, I'm fine I tell you!"

He took me by the arm anyway to take me to his house. At first, I struggled like a child, but I ended up following him gently to his house.

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Heya!

I know, the anxiety comes quickly! And this is just the beginning!

I also plan to write a chapter from Saki's point of view. And I have some pretty dramatic events planned!

On that note, byyye!