I am feeling like someone is choking me. Like someone is holding my neck really tightly and then asking me to whistle.

My intestines are in a tight knot. The butterflies in my stomach can escape any moment now.

My palms are sweaty.

My mouth is dry.

No. I am not ill.

I just told a guy I love him and he is looking at me with a baffled expression.

Seriously what am I supposed to understand with it?

He loves me?

He hates me?

He thinks I am insane or something?

What? Hunter? Say something?

I am just scared that he will laugh at my face and tell me how stupid I am to even think that a guy like him, would ever fall for a girl like me.

If this happens I swear I am going to move to Yamen or something.

"Um Hunter? Kind of feeling anxious here?" I said in a very questionable way.

This is my very first time doing this kind of stuff and I am not really sure of what to say or do in a situation like this.

Hunter is looking at me like I am a ghost or something. I am mentally preparing myself for the worst scenario.

Him laughing on my face and climbing out of my room.

I took a really deep breath because the current situation is making it hard for me to breathe properly.

"Hunter please say something." By now my lips have started shaking. If he didn't say anything in five minutes, I am pretty sure I will start crying.

He signed deeply. He looked down at his lap. I stare at him cautiously. He eyes are crystal like. His lashes are a bit wet. I think I know what he is going to say.

"Danny, I love you." What?

My mouth fell open. Like these were the only words I wanted to hear my entire life.

Danny, I love you. I as in Hunter, Love as in LOVE, You as in me, Me! Danny! Oh my-

"But" Oh god. There's a but? I know what but means?

Meaning of but: used to introduce a phrase or clause contrasting with what has already been mentioned.

No. I don't want a but. My mouth is open and I want to beg Hunter not to continue. But I know that I will have to listen and understand to what he is going to say.

"As a friend." Friendzoned.

The word that instantly came to my mind. The word that most of the people go through life, the word that I have gone through most of the time.

"I like you. You are so cute." I told a guy in the playground. We both played together everyday and he even helped and pushed my swing too. How could I not like him?

I was holding my blue flowy dress and was looking down. Blushing a little bit.

"I like you too." He said. He was wearing his cute little black t-shirt and white shorts. He looked at me with the cutest smile in the world. "You are my best friend." He said and ran away playing with his other friends. He didn't have to say back then, but I knew what he meant.

'I like you, as a friend.' The first encounter of me being friendzoned. I never thought I would encounter it again until,

"Harry?" I said his name as he turned around, His black eyes looked at me. He was my first boyfriend.

We kissed twice.

I loved it. I fell for him. I wanted to tell him, I loved him. I was about to say that. But he had other plans.

"Danny, this is not working out for me. May be we should stay friends." He said that and went out of the coffee shop.

He didn't even turn around to see me almost on the verge of crying. I was friendzoned again. By now I accepted the fact that guys always see me as their friend until I met Hunter. But I guess, I was so wrong. I felt a large hand on my hand. A little squeeze.

"Please say something?" Hunter whispered.

He eyes are still crystal like. He is looking straight at me. I could tell that he was in pain too. I am pain too. What do I say?

That I am still feeling the butterflies in my stomach as he is holding my hand? Or that I want to kiss him and tell him how much he means to me? What can I say ?

"Hunter, I" ,*sobs* "I" I signed. Tears finally fall down my cheek. My lips are shaking. My heart is racing like I ran a mile. But I know why I feel like this. I can't take the pain of knowing that he doesn't love me like I do.

What do I do now? One thing which was pretty clear in my head was that I wanted him In my life. No matter what.

Even if it means that I have to forget about my love and be his friend. And that's what I did.

I sucked in my tears which were about to fall. And took a deep breath and muster up the courage to talk without a shaky voice.

I looked up at Hunter. He was looking at me with fear and hope.

He was pleading to me with every passing second. I did something which was not like me at all. I scooted closer to him and hugged him real tight. He was taken by surprise at first but soon he was hugging me back.

"It's okay. We are still friends and we will always be friends." I told him and as soon as I said those words, he signed in relief. "Danny I really don't want to lose you. I-" "Shshs. It's okay. I am not going anywhere."

The irony of the situation, I just got my heart broken and here I am consoling the one who broke it.

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Today is the first match series of the international sports meet. I am trying my very best to stay busy so that Hunter's image do not pop in my head like it has been for the past week.

We haven't talked much since my 'proposal' and his 'rejection'. He has been busy with his practice schedule and even if we see each other, we don't talk much.

I seriously think it was bad decision telling him about my feelings. I could just hypnotise him and ask him if he is interested in me or not and non of this would have happened but no, I had to go with the old way.

Even though I told him that nothing will change and I am sticking to it, he is behaving totally distant with me.

This is more hurtful than my broken heart.

I am with Dave right now, going through the lists of the participating schools.

The old cardboard is back in my hands. The stress is real because a lot more number of schools are participating this year as compared to last year.

Yup, lucky me.

The boxing matches are about to start and I don't want to miss Des's or Brody's match. I looked at my watch 9:55.

5 minutes?

I looked over at Dave and gave him a nod. Both of us ran towards the gym.

We could hear the howling and claps getting louder. As soon as we entered we saw a lake of students with different banners in their hands. I jumped up to see Des in the boxing ring. I can't see the whole match hopping like this?

What do I do? I jumped up again as I heard the ring. The match started and I can't see anything without making my legs hurt. Dave was able to see the match and he was pretty into it already. I can't disturb him. What do I do? I am going to miss her match.

All of the sudden I felt hands on my feet, and before I could make of what was happening actually, I was in air.

"Woahhhh." I did screamed pretty loud but my sound was muffled by the claps and the howling of the gym. I looked down and saw Brody picking me and now I am sitting on his shoulder.

"Can you see Danny?" Brody asked me. I felt like my heart would just burst right there. Overly whelmed I screamed Yes! To Brody. I saw the entire match like this and Brody made it seem like I weigh only 10 pounds. This guy has a heart of gold.

Des gave her last punch winning the match. We all cheered for her. Brody was cheering rather boost fully which lead me to jump up and down on his shoulder. I just hope I am not hurting him or something. Des won the first round. I am so happy for her.

.......................................

"He did what?" Des, Brody and Dave asked in unison.

"He wants to be friends only." Believe me, how many times I say it, the pain is still fresh.

"I can't believe this, I thought he liked you back." Brody told me to which Dave and Des nodded with wide eyes.

"Let's just focus on the games. We need to be in the football game. It is starting in ten minutes." I told them dismissing the whole thing. Lately even thinking about the whole scene make me upset.

"Are you sure Danny? I mean we don't have to go if you want? We can hangout somewhere else." Brody asked me looking concerned. Des and Dave nodding again.

"No. I have to be there, cheer my brother." And I want to see Hunter.

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I don't want to see Hunter again.

I was running as hard as I could with Des following behind me, screaming my name.

I went outside the school and into the parking. I totally forgot I have no ride home and I don't want to run home so I stopped in the middle of the parking lot and cried there. I rubbed the tears that were streaming down my cheek with my white shirt sleeve, staining it with mascara. It's getting hard to breathe.

Des came right behind me and hugged me from behind.

"Danny please don't cry." That just made me cry even more.

"God this is crowdy in here." Kyle said as soon as we met up with him behind the bleachers.

We were all gathered there and were waiting for the football team to arrive on the ground. Suddenly loud cheering filled in air as soon as the cheerleaders and school's mascot white tiger arrived on the big ground. The mascot and cheerleaders were dancing around and then the other's school's mascot and cheerleading team arrived.

Suddenly I had the urge to pee. I had a lot of water before coming here.

"Hey Des, I need to pee. I'll just come." I told her and starting walking as she grabbed my hand and stopped me.

" Wait, I'll come with you. I need to wash the sweat off my face.' She told me and I nodded.

We were on our way back from the bathroom when we saw that the main entrance to the ground was shut already, so we took the other route.

It is the other gate from where all the teams enter in the ground. As soon as we were close to the gate and right at the entry my feet stop.

It got harder to breathe. Tears were already forming in my eyes. I saw there right in front of my eyes two people that I knew very well.

Hunter and Jasmine. They were not talking.

They were.

Kissing

Making out

They were making out just on the entrance. Hunter was pressed against the wall. His hands were just placed on Jasmine's waist. Jasmine was clutching Hunter's foot ball t-shirt. And they were sucking each other's faces.

I took a few steps back. A tear rolled down my eyes. I bumped into Des. She was holding me from behind and looking in front of her with wide eyes.

Hunter and JASMINE? Jasmine for god's sake?

Finally they stopped sucking each other's faces and looked at each other.

There were no emotions on Hunter's face. He was not smiling not happy. He was just looking at her.

His eyes looked to other sides but Jasmine's. He didn't make any eye contact with her while I was watching their every moment.

His eyes landed on me. I was looking at him with crystal eyes and open mouth and Des was holding my arms from behind as she was probably giving him a disgusted look.

He pushed Jasmine away very lightly as soon as she tried to kiss him again.

He was looking at me with guilt and sadness. He came forward and tried to put his hands on me.

"Danny I-"

And I ran.

I ran away from him, from his face, from his perfect body and lips, from the care he showed me, from his kisses, I ran before he could break my heart anymore.

I am going to Yemen.

So? Hunter kissed Jasmine. Anyone thinks why he did it?

Comment your guesses :)

Love you guys ❤

P.s Shoutout to all the F.R.I.E.N.D.S fan ❤ It made me smile on my worst days and I love Chandler Bing❤

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