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Sorry this chapter may be alittle out of your comfort zone . Not what you might be thinking but it's not that weird it was just weird for me to write it but I don't want to spoil it for you so just keep reading.

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Chapter 8

*Zayn POV*

It was the middle of the night and the devil had taken over my body. I couldn't sleep. My mind kept on having flashbacks of the other journal pages that I had read.

I was afraid something would happen that I was afraid that would happen.....

Reading her personal journal would become a habit..

I really didn't want It to be that way but I couldn't take it anymore! I honestly couldn't!! I didn't want this to happen...

I rolled off of the bed Camila and I were sharing and snuck under the bed. I crawled to the other side which was Camilas side at the moment. I realized that that was the night stand.... The one she keeps her journal in..

I put my hand up to the handle of the familiar drawer. I was about to pull the drawer open when suddenly..

"Zaaaayyynnnn your soooo cuuutte mwah mwah mwah mwah."Camila said and I kind of realized that she was sleep talking. I chuckled quietly at her actions. But I had some unfinished business.

I pulled the drawer open to see the journal. This was my time to act like a ninja.

*BEWARE NINJA ACTION NEXT*

I grabbed the journal, closed the drawer, did a backwards summersault and rolled back from her side to my side of the bed. I snuck under the blanket with the journal in my hands with tight grip.

*NINJA ACTION OVER*

I realized that she would probably wake up if she saw my iPhone light, so I slid from the top of the bed to the floor just like a snail.

I crawled under the bed and turned on the light on my iPhone. I opened to a rando page of the journal ....

13/2/12

Well, today was cold .. Freezing cold. I wanted winter to be over and spring to come in its spot.

I decided that I would go outside with my little sister and Zayn. Yes ..... Zayn, the Zayn that I've had a crush on for the past 3 years. Anyways, we went out to a little café to warm up because of the cold weather. That's kind of like a tradition for us now, everytime we meet up , we either go to a little café by my house or to Starbucks.

The whole time I was out with him, I would doze off on his beautiful face every now and than and he would see me everytime. It's not my fault I would stare at him ... He's just so charming.

(end of journal page)

Well that boosted up my ego . She said I was charming. I think that that was enough reading for today.

I went back to her night stand and put the journal back quietly so she wouldn't wake up.

Right when I was all comfortable and back under the blankets, I felt the blanket shift over alittle, I saw that Camila was getting out of her bed. I watched for alittle longer when she got out of sight, I'm guessing she went to get a glass of water.

After a couple of comfy minutes as I almost fell asleep again, I heard the door creek open. I saw Camila with a glass if water as she drank it all in one gulp. Wow I've never seen that side of her. She rested her empty cup on the familiar nightstand and went back under the blankets.

I closed my eyes so she wouldn't think that I was awake. That's when I felt her hand playing with my hair and she started talking.

"Zayn... I know you can't hear me right now but I.... I have very strong feelings for you. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand you not being around me. I'm afraid that once I get all the courage to ask you to be my boyfriend *sob* than you will say the sad 2 letter word... No. I'm not sure if you feel the same way or if you will ever feel the same way, but no matter what, I'll always feel that way. I hope you don't mind but I'm gonna do something .. I can't control myself anymore!"she said truthfully while sobbing every now and then.

That was the last thing I heard her say when all of a sudden I felt her lips on mine. I was shocked! I didn't know what to do. Should I kiss back? Should I push her away?

Her lips were still there and I decided to kiss back, but only for 3 seconds just to figure out how it feels to kiss Camila. She would obviously think that I'm just doing it in my sleep.

I kissed back.. I said I would only kiss back for only 3 seconds but it may have gotten a little heated. At first, she was a bit shocked but she decided to take advantage of what i was doing, thinking i was asleep.

She licked my bottom lip begging for entrance as I opened my mouth and she explored every corner of it. I honestly couldn't control myself, she was an amazing kisser.

I stopped kissing back cause I didn't want to loose control or anything like that. I was catching my breathe, still not getting over the fact of how good of a kisser she was. This made me realize that I had little feelings for her, just not a lot. I could still feel the taste of her lips lingering on mine.

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*Camila POV*

I woke up from a night mare that I was in a desert. My mouth was really dry, I was so thirsty.

Turns out that I was actually very thirsty. I got up from my bed and walked all the way down stairs to the kitchen. I grabbed a random cup from the cabinet cause I honestly couldn't care less.

I was in my room and I had finished up all of my water. Then I took a quick glance at Zayn. He looked so hot when he was asleep, oh who am I kidding , he always looks hot.

I was all cuddled up under my blanket. I couldn't get my eyes off of Zayn. I can't believe I'm cuddling with my crush of 3 years right now. At the same time I feel ashamed of myself that I haven't asked him out in those 3 years, it would be amazing if we were dating.

I guess the best time I can express my feelings that I have for him is when he can't hear me and he's off into his own world. This is the perfect time for that because he's asleep. This will be directly to him but he won't hear it

I decided that I would spill out all of my feelings for him right here right now.

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1. Favourite part of a country song

2. Favourite part of a rap song

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1. Cuz when your 15 and somebody tell you they love you ! Your gonna believe them!

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