I woke up and could hear my alarm going off so i got up and turned it off walking into the bathroom and using the toilet and then i started to feel sick and was sick in the toilet. After i flyshed the toilet i took my clothes off and got into the shower and i put my hands on my stomach as the water fell onto my body and over my face I looked down at my stomach "Mummy's going to look after you baby" i said as i stroked my belly which was still flat. I knew i was doing whats best and even know Trent may never forgive me I had to do it for both me and this baby.

I was finished and got out the shower wrapping the towel around my waist and tieing my hair up out of the way and I looked in the mirror and looked down at my stomach and in that very moment i couldn't believe I was growing a human being inside of me.

I started to cry but pulled myself together grabbing my toothbrush and brushing my teeth and then putting my moisturiser on and then walking out the bathroom and putting both my toothbrush and Moisturiser into my suitcase. I walked into my office and got dressed into my converse and grey joggers and picked up a hoodie which I knew i had seen before i smelt it and I knew it was Trent's. I thought in that moment to mail it back but then I knew i couldn't so I out it on. Knowing I'll have a bit of trent with me wherever I go.

I looked at the time and knew i had to go so i called for a taxi and got my passport, bag with my laptop and chargers in and my suitcase and locked everywhere up and locked the flat up and made my way downstairs to wait for the taxi. I felt very emotional, even though people would be ok with me being pregnant i didn't want to be held a count for trents career going downhill.

I went on my phone scrolling through the pictures of me and trent. I knew i had to eventually delete them but I couldn't not yet. I wasn't trying to forget abiut him because I loved him so much but I didn't want to ruin his life and thats why me moving away was the best thing I could do.

The taxi pulled up and i walked our putting my suitcase in the boot of the car and getting in doing my seatbelt up and the car started moving and I turned around to see the building including my flat getting smaller and smaller as i got further away.

We arrived at the airport with me paying the driver and getting out with my bag and getting my suitcase out. To say it was early in the morning the airport was packed with lots of people. I stood on the pavement and watched as the car drove away. It hit me i was actually doing it, i was leaving the city since i was three behind and I was going to Cyprus to get away from Liverpool. I pulled myself together and walked into the airport. I went straight to checking in and they took my suitcase and then told me that I would need to wait until the announcement comes on and so i carried my bag on my shoulder and went to the cafe and got myself a water and a muffin and sat on a nearby table. I felt terrible ignoring the calls and messages from trent asking if I was ok but I knew if i message him back or call him he would try and persuade me to stay and I needed to do this for me as well as the baby. I decided to take the sim out and then the announcement came that the plane had arrived and so i got up with my muffin and water and my bag on my shoulder and threw away my sim in the bin. It was for the best. I walked to the door and they checked my booking and passport and here i found myself walking down the hallway and onto the Plane. I went and sat down in my seat and i looked out the window to see John lennon airport, the airport that I had been to many times with Liverpool. I was going to miss the boys and Trent and my friends but me moving away was for the best.

The plane arrived after a five and a half hour plane journey and I put my headphones in and listened to my music and looked out the window the whole time as the plane flew away from Liverpool to Cyprus. During the journey my mum messaged saying she would be waiting at the airport for me. I hadn't forgiven her for not trusting trent and letting me live my life but I knew when I seen her and told her why I had to move away she would say that she told me so but anyway I got off the plane and stood waiting for my suitcase to come out. I felt quite nervous at the facy of seeing my mum after months of not seeing one another.

My suitcase came and I walked to the shop in the airport and brought a new phone sim and walked outside to looking to see if i could see my mum. Me personally I didn't know what to expect, how would she be? How would she act? I didn't know but their was only one way to find out and that's when i seen a car pull up and she got out.

She waved and I walked over and instantly fell into her arms and she hugged me kissing my head "Oh sweetie" she said as she squeezed me a little harder. "Now come on, let's go home" she picked up her suitcase and put it in the boot and i walked round and got in the car fastening my seatbelt and putting my bag on my knee. I was expecting her to be a little different so I was taken back with how she was seeming that we hadn't seen eachother in months. She got in the car and smiled as she looked at me "Do you want the radio on?" I nodded and she put it on with a song I didn't know playing and she started the car up and we were on our way.

It was 2pm in the afternoon in Cyprus and the beach that we happened to drive by was full with children and adults. The atmosphere was something else and I could see myself living here for how long that might be. I wasn't sure of when or if I wanted to go back to Liverpool but at the moment i was certain I couldn't be in Liverpool.

We pulled up outside a house that was pretty big from the outside, it had a garden and it was not that long of a walk from the beach. My mum stopped the car and undid her seatbelt and got out and i just sat there for a minute. She got my suitcase out of the boot and tapped on the window "Come on you" i smiled and unlocked my seatbelt and got out putting my bag on my shoulder as I closed the car door and started walking up the pathway. I walked into the house and it was beautiful it really was, something that my house growing up never looked like. Mum came up to me smiling "You like it?" I nodded and walked through the house looking at the kitchen, living room and the dining room that looked out onto the back garden which was so colourful and bright. I felt mum put her arm on my shoulder "Let me make you a drink and then we can talk" i nodded and sat down at the table.

I had been looking around the garden thinking about everything when mum came walking out from the house with a jug and two glasses. She sat down and poured me a glass handing it to me and i smiled and carried on looking around the garden. "So what happened in Liverpool that you've had to come over here?" She said as she took a drink. I looked at her "I'm pregnant" she looked at me and rested her glass on the table "Right ok and does he know" i shook my head "no and he's not going to find out" she looked at me "Maia sweetie, he deserves to know" i shook my head "If he knows it's going to ruin his career" mum shook her head "No it won't. Darling you need to tell him. Call him explain" i shook my head and got up from the table "I need time to think, is it ok if I stay here?" She nodded "Your always welcome, just promise me you'll let him know" i nodded. "I can't believe that I'm going to be a Grandma" i smiled "I'm keeping the baby" she smiled and got up from the table and walked over to me hugging me "Darling your going to make a beautiful mother" i smiled. "So you've done this all by yourself?" She nodded "Yeah it's took a long time but you know it's looking good" i smiled "Mum I don't know when your if I'll ever go back to Liverpool but I need to get a job" she nodded "Darling we'll get you a job" i smiled "Thank you" she let go off me and walked back into the house leaving me stood looking at the colours of the flowers thinking about making a life over here.

I walked into the house and got my suitcase and headed upstairs and mum followed me up showing me my room, it was bare with it only having a bed, side table and a wardrobe but with time I could turn it into something nice. She smiled as she walked into the room "is this ok for you?" I nodded "Yeah it is. Thank you for letting me stay" she smiled and rubbed my back "I'll be here for you and the baby" i smiled and she closed the door leaving me to start unpacking all my belongings and clothes into the wardrobe.

I had packed everything away and put my suitcase underneath the bed and was now sat on my bed with my phone and i put the new sim in and made a new Instagram but in a complete different name where no one could find me. I didn't want to be found at that very moment, I needed time to think things through and be the best person I could be for my little boy or girl. I agree with my mum Trent deserves to know that I'm expecting his baby but at this moment I needed to time to think and it just be me for the moment and in time I will definitely get in touch with him and tell him.

I got changed into a dress and walked downstairs and into the kitchen and mum had made spaghetti and sauce, i sat down at the table "Do you need me to get anything?" She smiled "No you rest" i smiled and sat back in the chair. I felt as if even though i missed Liverpool and trent and the boys and my friends i could make a life here. She came walking over with two plates and a bowl of the spaghetti and put them on the table and walked back to the counter and got a jug and glasses and put them down on the table when she came back. I filled my plate full and started to eat "How many weeks are you then?" I shrugged "Not sure just know that I'm in my early stages" she nodded "We'll get you booked in" i nodded and be both sat and ate while catching up on what the both of us had been doing over these past few months.

After dinner mum went next door to visit her friend and i packed my sunglasses and phone in my bag and got my sandals on and went for a walk and just look around the town that i would be living in. As i said I wasn't sure of when I wanted to go back or if i would ever go back to Liverpool but i felt I needed to have some time to myself and experience this pregnancy without the stress of the public finding out I was carrying Trent Alexander Arnold's baby and have the press writing stories about me trapping him into something when that was never ever the case. I went walking through the town and got my phone out taking a photo and posting it on my new Instagram.

It was getting late and so i Decided to make my way back to mum's. I arrived back and it looked as if mum was still next door and so i went upstairs and got changed into some shorts and a vest and got in bed because I wad tired and eventually i fell to sleep.

I knew me leaving Liverpool was the best thing for me to do at this moment in time.