"Whatchu lookin at mama?"

"Looking at your bad ass daughter." I laughed.

I was currently watching Kehlani over the balcony stairs and Chico was chasing her.

It was literally like I had two children. Both bad as hell.

"Mama Chico bit me!" Kehlani whined from downstairs.

Taking a deep breathe, I tended to my dramatic ass daughter who was now 4.

Three years later my smart baby was in preschool and we were still living in L.A and August was still touring all around the world making music.

Jasmine and Them planned on moving up here next year and I was beyond excited. we got August nieces out of the home and now they live with Travis. Since they were old enough they were able to testify a lot of things their self.

And as for me My shop was successful still and I planned on opening up another one in a couple months.

And as for me and August we still arent married and we just haven't had the time to plan it with everything going on. It was now March so Lani just turned 4 and and we planned to get married around the day Our son Died. So we needed to get back planning soon.

Life has been amazing, I literally have no complaints all though our dog Chico has been shitting and biting up everything. You would think that mafucka would be trained by now but he was a spoiled brat.

"Go get dat dog baybeh, I'a beat his ass fa you." He said to Lani making her giggle.

"Stop being so ignorant." I laughed. "Lani go play okay. I have to talk to daddy."

"Kay." She said running away to where we couldn't see her.

"That little girl is gonna make me pull my hair out before I get 40."

"Facts. But whatchu needed ta talk about? I gotta get goin'."

"I just wanted to talk to you about the wedding. It can wait."

"You sho?"

"Yes." I fluttered my eyes.

"You So damn beautiful Man. Why you ain't pregnant yet?"

"Thanks babe. And you can't rush it. God will give us our blessing soon."

Since I had the abortion of course it would mess up my fertility, I didn't even think about it. So we've been trying for the past few years and of course nothing has happened. It was heartbreaking but as Lani got older and harder to watch, I wasn't complaining about not having another child.

"Now go before your late." I said as I quickly pecked his lips.

I went downstairs and started on dinner while Kash Doll "Ice me out" played through out the speakers.

On Sundays I made big dinner or just an expensive dinner for my soon to be husband just to show a small appreciation of all the hard work he did for the week.

"Mama!"

"Yes baby." I said running my fingers through my hair roughly.

"Can I have juice?"

"Didn't your daddy just give you juice?"

"Mmmm nope!"

"Yes he did. You can have Water though."

"I don't want water!"

"Well little girl I guess you aren't thirsty then."

She began one of her many tantrums. I tried to remain calm, that until she started throwing things around.

I loved my daughter, she was the sweetest little angel until she didn't get her way. Aug spoils her only because it's his first child and she's his princess. I get that because if We would of had our son, August would of been whooped his ass.

He basically gives her the benefit of the doubt but that shit doesn't fly with me. She wasn't going to be rude and disrespectful every time she didn't get her way.

I grabbed her and spanked her butt a few times Causing her screams to be louder.

"Now you go lay down Kehlani and if you keep crying, Ima give you something to really cry about."

She got on the couch and her cries eventually eased down as my phone began to ring from a unknown number from back home in Houston.

Turning the oven down I answered it while I took a seat on the stool.

"Hello?"

"Brooklyn, It's me. Your mom."

"Bye."

"No! Please." I heard her cry. "Please just hear me out."

"Mom what do you want? What do you want from me?"

"I-I need you."

"Did you need me when my son died? Or for all these birthdays you've missed of Lanis. You-"

"You fucking stop it! Stop acting like you don't have a restraining order against me, I can't do any of that!"

"My son died before I even filed that shit!" I yelled now crying too."then you want to talk to that bullshit ass man like I want any parts of that. No I don't."

"He's your father and that's my husband. Well was. How can you easily just shut your family out like that Brooklyn? Is it August? August has you doing this?"

"Are you serious?" I said letting out a bitter laugh. "August has been nothing but great to me in this situation and you want to talk about it's him. If anything it's far from him. It's you. Okay yeah my dad did that stuff but you weren't ever gonna tell me. On top of me finding out you decide to keep talking to this man behind my back. Why?"

"It's hard throwing away 20 plus years. You don't understand."

"I do, but one thing I know for certain is if August ever touched Kehlani in the wrong way even know I know he wouldn't ever do that, if he did I would kill him. It would be no other way around it. It's called sacrifices. You take those for your children."

"That was my sacrifice! If I didn't do it I would of got deported."

"So you rather a grown ass man pound into your little innocent ass daughter just so you wouldn't have to go back to that shitty ass place you call home."

"No, I did it because I didn't want to leave you!"

"What's your point of even calling me?"

"Your father is dying inside of jail Brooklyn. He has cancer."

"Okay."

"That's all you have to say?"

"What else is there to say?"

"Anyway, he left you 1 million at the old house. He put it in a safe and he told me only you knew where it was. So whenever your ready to get that, just let me know."

"Bye."

Hanging up I was wiping my tears when August walked in.

"Bae? You cryin'?"

"No." I lied.

"Yeah You is man. What happened?"

"I just got a call from my mom." I hiccuped. "I just want it to go away." I said now crying into his chest.

"Baybeh, it'll neva go away. Da shit dey did to you wasn't okay and it'll neva sit right witchu. Nun wrong wit you feelin' like this man. Alright?"

"Okay."

"Look at me." "You came dis far, don't let these mafuckas take what we got and ruin dat shit. We strong ight?"

"Okay."

"I luh you."

"I love you too. I'm sorry I just let that get the best of me."

"They yo parents man. They gon always have dat effect on you simply because dey supposed ta be hea and they not."

"Your right."

"I kno. Lani sleepin'?"

"Yup. She earned her self a little whooping."

"You hit my baybeh?"

"I spanked her butt like three times. She started throwing stuff around having a tantrum over juice. Juice August, that's not okay."

"Nah it ain't but you ain't gotta hit ha."

"So what should I have done August?"

"Shit somethin' otha then that."

"Oh shut up. You would of gave her juice even though she just had it and she needed more water before the day was over. You let that little girl control you."

"exactly cause dats my baybeh. It ain't gon be like dis when she olda."

"Your right, it's gonna be worse because your letting her do it now over the littlest things."

"Well we gonna have ta work sum out otha then that whoopin' shit."

"If she throws tantrums around me, she's getting a whooping. End of discussion. And please, only one two cups of juice a day. After that if she's thirsty then only water."

I closed the lid of the food and went upstairs to shower.

August was completely right though, but the only way to fully move past this, would be to get closure.

***

Tossing over in my sleep that same night I couldn't help but think about the money my mother said my father left me.

I'm guessing from the tape.

I was tired of this effecting my life even though I know what I'm feeling is completely normal, I still felt like maybe I was being way to dramatic about the situation. I mean it has been over four years.

Looking over, August in lani laid right beside me with pouts upon their face.

I grabbed my business bag and went downstairs to the dining room table.

I pulled out a few blank pieces of paper with A pin and I drunk some water from my bottle.

And I began to write.

"Dear Dad, I'm writing"

I crumbled up the paper grabbing a fresh sheet. I let my thoughts gather before I began writing again.

"Dear Marvin, I'm writing you to say a few things. I haven't talked to you since you publicly harassed me so I'm not sure how to actually approach this conversation. The fact you covered up for everything you did until you couldn't anymore was sickening. What was more sickening was you sexually touching me like I wasn't young or your daughter! You'll never know how disgusted I feel looking in the mirror at times, you'll never know how I feel when I look at my face. My fearful face. Yes I said it. I'm scared of you. I actually don't wanna see you in person ever again. I don't hate you, I just simply want nothing to do with you. I heard you were "dying" and I kind of find that hard to believe, I mean you and Mom were always lying anyway. If you are dying these are my last words to you. I don't hate you but I want nothing to do with you! You've shown me nothing but betrayal and hatred. So the next time you see my mother I want you to relay the message as well. Get well soon. Or don't."

Looking over the paper I let my tears fall. This was my first time reaching out to this man and I just felt like this was the only thing I could to get closure. To let him know I felt.

I put it in a Manila envelope and I licked before closing it shut.

Going up the stairs I got back in the bed.

"Bae? What time is it?"

"Um 4 in the morning."

"Whatchu doin' up mama? You good?" He turned towards me.

"I guess."

"Talk ta me."

"August, it's late. You wouldn't understand anyway." I sniffled. "I'm tired of being a bother to your life with this same played out situation."

"Hey Hey, you quit dat shit man. You kno how fuckin' livid I was ta hea he did dat shit to my baybeh? I was hurt to shit. I understand you maw, I see da pain behind dat pretty little smile of yours. Ight?"

"Mmhm."

"And don't eva think you botherin' me wit yo problems. Shit I be bothered when you don't tell me nothin'. I luh you man stop cryin."

He put lani on the other side of him before engulfing me in the biggest hug. I'm pretty sure he could feel my body shaking and trembling but he held me tighter in comfort. And I eventually fell asleep.

Wakin' up I got lani up and we want and made mommy breakfast.

Shit rubbed me the wrong way, da way my baybeh Been feelin'. Don't get me wrong, she strong as hell and she deal wit shit well but when bitches like ha mama call ha on some bullshit we get back ta square one.

Dat shit was annoyin' cause eveytime I got ha betta' that bitch come back tryna fuck her up again.

It hurt but at da same time I know for a fact it'll take time.

Otha then that shit life been great. Music comin' around good and my newest album drop next week. As for Travis and nem, they was moving down hea in a few mo months so dat was good.

And as for baybeh's I've been trying ta plant one in Brooke ass fa da longest. Ion know if she know or not but every time we fuck, I cum in ha.

So I was hopin, one of these months she a miss ha period or sum.

After making her breakfast I brought it to her upstairs while she was on her laptop shopping for little accessories for her shop. Something she did often.

"Look who up Lani."

"Is that my lani bani? Hi Lani baby." She cooed, putting her arms out.

I put Lani on the bed and she ran over to Brooke and Brooke attacked her face with kisses making me grin big as hell unintentionally.

"Ma thop."

"Thop? What's that?" She said tickling her some mo.

"Thoppppppppp." She screamed louder laughing.

My po baybeh was tryna say stop.

"Baby it's stop. Say Sssstop."

"Stop?"

"Yes baby. Not thop. You ain't got no lisp."

"Shut cho ass up man." I said cracking a laugh. "Hea."

"Thanks baby. You make you any?"

"Nah, I gotta get goin. I gotta go down to a radio station interview. Oh shit that reminds me, One of these YouTube pages wanna do a interview wit both of us tomorrow. You free?"

"YouTube? As in?"

"He got over 5 million subscribers so why not? I can promote my album, you can promote yo shops and we can let da world get ta know us."

"I'm down." She smiled.

"Coo. Ight I luh you."

"I love you too."

***

I decided on something really casual for the interview.

Candice had picked up lani earlier and she was going to keep her until we were done.

"You ready mama?"

"Bout time."

Mentally rolling my eyes we got in the car and we were on our way.

When we got there we did screen checks and stuff before we got in front of the camera.

"What's up you guys it's your boy Toby and I'm here with August Alsina and his lovely fiancé and they're gonna be doing a Q&A questions asked by you guys followed up by a little game. Y'all ready?"

"Yaasss." I said playfully and August chuckled and nodded.

"Okay first question, how old are you two?"

"I'm 25."

"And I'm 27."

"Okay and how'd you two meet?"

We looked at each other before smiling.

"I actually had a boyfriend when I met August but we were.. friends I guess you could say. we met at the grocery store and things went from there."

"And y'all have a kid right?"

"Yes she's four."

"She's beautiful by the way." One of Tobys workers said.

"Thank ya."

"Do you guys plan on having anymore is this it?"

"We've actually be Tryin' yaw." He said just ta get da fans hyped.

"Yeah but with everything going on we're trying to take it into consideration slowly."

"Your about to go on tour right?"

"Yup starting next week. It's called Pain and Pleasure. I'll be performing my newest album. If you come to the tour you'll get to hear the album befo I release it."

We talked more and played some games and promoted a few more things that we had going on.

We picked up lani and we went out to dinner just to spend family time before August left.

So I was really appreciating this time.

*****

HEYY BABIESSSS!!!

This is the sequel to satisfaction being!!

I hope y'all enjoy loves❤️