"FUCK OFF", I yell. Eleven's eyes quickly slip to me and then back. "What do you want?!", she hisses. "I.. wanted to talk t-to you?", Mike slowly stutters. "I'll be out in a minute", El mutters. Mike just nods and closes the door behind him.

I look at El, she looks at me. We don't say anything.

I'm so overwhelmed. I almost kissed Max. Does it mean something? Did Mike see it? Am I .. in love with Maxine?

I quietly close the door of my room, leaving Max behind me. There's Mike, sitting on the floor and staring at the wall. He quickly stands up. "H-Hey", he starts. "We broke up what do you want?", I give him an answer. I'm kind of annoyed of Mike. He destroyed my kiss with Max and left me and her in such a weird situation. Ugh.

"W-Well... it was all of the sudden? Come on, what did I do?", he says. Oh he didn't just ask that. "You fucking lied to me without a reason", I slip. "Did you just say 'fucking'..?", Mike asks surprised. "YES I DID", I yell, because I'm sick of his behavior. Why doesn't he get it? I broke up with him and he's still so calm and asks so unnecessary questions?!

"Right sorry.. I'm sorry I lied. I just wanted ...", he tries, "Yeah you don't want to spend every day with me I get it. Just why did you lie?", I cut him off.

"B-Because... I didn't know how to tell you, that I .... don't love you anymore. I don't feel anything anymore when we kiss or I don't get excited to see you.", he commits.

I didn't know, that he feels the same as me. He looks really concerned.

"Me too", I finally say and Mike looks surprised and relieved at me.

"But why don't we?", he asks quietly and looks up to me.

I press my ear even harder against the door. "Maybe I ... love someone else", El finally says. My eyes wide and my heart beats faster. She.. she doesn't love him anymore? But someone else? My heart shutters, because it could be very likely some other boy than me. Oh god. "Who could know that we are so alike", Mike means. He too? But ... it all just doesn't make sense. "You like an other girl too?", El asks.

DID SHE JUST... ADMIT SHE LIKES A GIRL?!

"Err.. no", Mike snaps me out of my thoughts. My jaw drops as I realize. He's gay?! THIS SHIT IS MORE INTERESTING THAN ANY MOVIE.

"Y-You like boys?", El stutters. "Yeah, also. It's uhm.. it's called bisexuality..", Mike replies. "That exists too?", El says. "Yeah."

"I fully support you", she says softly.

I've heard enough. It's so private what they're talking about and actually nothing for my ears. I tip toe away from the door and sit back on El's bed. This is too much for me. I can't even really get my head clear - it's absolutely impossible. There are way too many thoughts; so I decide to not really think and just dress up.

After this, I pack all my comics and other stuff in my backpack, then I just sit on El's bed again and watch the rain (which started to dripple with thick drops down the sky), through the window. Wasn't it sunny today morning? Meh.. I like rain better anyway. Suddenly I hear the doorknob being pulled.

Heat is spreading all over my body, but I stand up, turn around and there's is standing (omg surprise) Eleven.

"Hi", she breaks the awkward silence. "H-Hey?", I mumble. She looks at my backpack. "Uhh.. I packed my things already.. since I should maybe .. go", I add quickly. She just nods. We don't say anything for a while and listen to the rain, that got really heavy. Eventually I just grab my backpack and put it on.

"So.. bye then", I say.

"Bye", El says quietly. I look one last time at her beautiful coffee-brown eyes and her perfectly slight curled hair and walk downstairs.

Outside I grab my skateboard and roll it to the middle of the road. The rain makes my hair wet as fuck, but I don't care.

I just want to stand on my board, but suddenly someone yells my name. I recognize the voice immediately: it's El's angelic voice. She sprints up to me. I'm overwhelmed, did I forget someth-

She presses her lips on mine and gives me a wet kiss. She steps back and looks up into my eyes. I hesitate no longer; I grab Eleven by her waist, press her against me and kiss back. I can taste her watermelon lip balm off her soft lips. I close my eyes and enjoy the scene. We kiss intensive and long. The load of butterflies in my stomach won't stop flattering and it's the most perfect moment in my whole life.

My heart and my stomach are exploding in sparkles. I lay my hands carefully on Max cheeks and notice, that they are really warm. She must be blushing and me probably too. I have my eyes closed and enjoy every single bit of this.

Our lips slightly detache and I look in Max' clear, frosty blue eyes. She actually blushes and it's adorable. I need to smile and I won't even stop myself. I take my hands down again, but don't look away.

But suddenly a horrible thought comes up. I can't, I just can't have something with her. It's just surreal. I'm a girl and she's a girl. It's not allowed. What would Joyce and Hopper or my friends think of me? I don't want to disappoint them...

But the kiss... it just feels so much more right than with Mike... No. I can't bring this. I have to cut my feelings off somehow. I look one last time into Max' beautiful eyes -I could stare at forever-, then turn around and run away home, tears in my eyes.