I don't know how to answer Max' question. Should I tell the truth? Here goes nothing. "Well, honestly I don't know. I don't feel anything in my stomach or elsewhere when we kiss.", I say, shrugging my shoulders. Max' eyes wide. She has so clear, beautiful ocean eyes. I get lost in them...

"El..? Y-You're doing the starring-thing again..", Max tears me out of my trance. "W-What? Oh- sorry", I apologize. "You just have so beautiful eyes..", I add. "W-What?", Max stammers. Wait no- I didn't just say that out loud right? I look at Max with an ashamed face. She's all red. Almost like her hair. Me probably too. "Err... uhm", I mumble.

It's awkward silence now.

"Thanks.. I guess..?", Max breaks it and smiles awkwardly at me. "So uhm... d-do you want to talk about the mike-kiss-thingy?", she adds. "No... Yes.. Later. Maybe.", I stutter. "Okay", Max chuckles.

"Alright. Uhh truth or dare?", I ask Max this time. "Hmm... also truth", she smirks. I nod. Hmm.. I don't know what to ask.. Wait, how about this:

"Have you ever had a boyfriend?" "No.."

Max looks ashamed on the floor.

"Why?"

"B-Because ..."

Silence.

"Because I'm a lesbian."

She finally says.

"What does that mean?", I ask. I never heard of 'lesbian'. "Uh.. it.. it means, t-that I like girls.. not b-boys", she stutters. Wait.. she doesn't like boys? That exists? I..

"But you're a girl?", I ask confused. "C-Correct", she mumbles. Woah woah wait a second...

But before I can think further of it, I hear a sob. I immediately look at Max. She sits there, her arms wrapped around her knees, crying. This is so painful to look at. "Woah Max. I'm sorry, did I do something wrong?!", I'm overwhelmed.

- No answer.

I crawl over to her and try to stroke her. "Max .. what's up? Tell me please..", I say. I worry so much. Did I do something wrong again..? "I-It's nothing.", she says, wiping her tears away. "Max you will tell me what is up with you. Right. Now.", I tell her.

She looks at the floor for a while.

"Look I messed up again. I just told you, that I'm a lesbian. You will tell the whole school and people, plus you, will be disgusted by me.", she says.

I'm speechless. All I can do, is cry too.

"I could never, NEVER be disgusted by you", I whisper, after I catch myself again. Max looks surprised at me. "And I won't tell anyone, if you do not want to", I add. "But-" "NO BUTS", I cut her off.

Suddenly she hugs me. I hug her back. She's so soft and she smells like... like summer. It's so calming, to hug Max. I don't know why, but it gives me an awesome feeling. I close my eyes and dig my face into her fluffy, ginger hair.

-2 hours pass-

"Hey El, I have an idea."

"What's up?"

"In my backpack, there"

I point on my backpack.

"Yeah?"

"I brought Wonder Woman comics"

"What is Wonder Woman?"

"For real? You don't know her?"

"No, I'm sorry.."

I leave the bed and go to my backpack that I left beside El's desk. "Well then it's time for you to get to know her", I say, picking up the comics. I mute the music from the stereo, before I turn around and go back to the bed. "Come on, let's lay under the blanket", I suggest. "Sure", El answers. She gets up and we get under the blanket. I'm on the right, she's on the left side. We make ourselves comfortable and I open the comic. "Should.. should I read it out loud for you?", I ask. "That would be nice", Eleven smiles. "Alright. So......"

Eleven fell asleep on my shoulder. She looks so adorable, sleeping. I close the comic and put it, almost not moving, on El's bedside table. Her clock catches my eye. It's already 12.56am, so I quietly turn off the light. I try not to move a lot, while bringing myself in a laying position. El doesn't wake up. Okay good, I'm save. Her head is still on my shoulder, but I don't mind, so I leave it. I cover us both with the blanket and close my eyes.

That's the first time in months, that I fall sleep without crying.

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