"You are still carrying that letter??" I immediately fold the letter and kept it in my pocket. I didn't know that Pond and Cha-am are already here. They contact me to schedule them for planning to their upcoming wedding. Yes these two lasted even after we graduated in college. And this two finally settling down to each other. They seated in front of me as a professional I don't want to fight back to Cha-am to nose in my business earlier. I smiled at them like they are just only ordinary customer.

"So I'm Can Kirakorn" acting like formal to them but they just look at me like I was weird.

"We know duh?! Were friends for a long time" Pond rolled his eyes and Cha-am nods at him while pouting her lips.

"Yeah so drop that off" Cha-am added. I sighed as I tucked my tongue out and lick my lips while scratching my nape.

"Fine. What is your motive for your wedding anyway?" they look excited to each other. I just shake my head to this couple. I've been witnessing their sweetness sometimes a cruelness to each other especially how Cha-am roasted his boyfriend. But I highly respected their relationship even tho they are like that but still they still love each other genuinely. Loving someone is really complex thing. You are not just physically attracted but also you are there falling for each weaknesses and flaws.

I cant forget how Tin was before we ended dating each other. I used to hate his attitude because he was kinda rude and full of himself. And he like to beat some asses and break girls hearts. So how can I not hate him. But then when I meet him deeply. He is not that certain person that you should hate in first judgement. And that made me more falling for him. Basically when you liked someone you don't have a certain reason. Maybe you like them because they are them. And I like Tin because he is Tin.

Pond and Cha-am sign an agreement to our team for their upcoming wedding. Pond went out first and Cha-am stay seated to her seat. I look at her. She is genuinely smiling at me. I wonder if she still here to talk her matter to her wedding to me.

"How are you by the way Can?" she suddenly asked me. I just shrugged.

"I'm okay?" I answer sarcastically. We both laugh that's so silly question.

"I know but I want to know more here" she pointed her left side chest. My eyebrow arched at her.

"Your heart??" she rolled her eyes like she was being impatiently at me.

"You heart. Aish its been years but you still stupid Can" I pouted here we go again she's picking up on me.

"You know what leave already! Your boyfriend-- I mean your fiance were waiting for you outside" I fake sulk at her. I thought she changed but she still Cha-am who was mean to me before.

"Tsk. I was kidding Can. But sometimes jokes are half meant" then she laughed again that made me more annoyed. "But seriously I just want to say something before anything else"

"Hmm" I organize my stuff in my table while talking at her.

"I saw it was a letter from Tin a years ago right?" that made me stop and stare at her. She throw me a meaningful smile. "You know what happen to me and Pond last year right?" I nod. I cant forget how much Cha-am felt so hurt and also saw her face swollen for many nights she keep up crying. "Pond and I decided to break up to find ourselves, sound so stupid but we had a through a lot of arguing and sometimes we don't understand each other. That love is not enough to make stay to each others arm" I nodded. I saw their dark moments and I've been for her comforting her. "But you know what? Love can also heal the pain and heartache that we made cause to each other. Sometimes you just need to take a break and breath first if you felt suffocate. And also if you love someone you have to set them free" she paused and whipped her own tears. I nod again because she was right. "Just like Tin he set you free because he loves you even though it will going to hurt him" my eyes widen. Because this the first time he mention Tin and her phrases having something to tell me.

"What do you mean by that?" she patted me.

"You keep waiting on him right? I think destiny will do his part" again she tapped me as he fix herself. She waved at me and left me here clueless to her last words.

"Weird" then I shake my head and continue what Im doing right now.

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I went out early in my work to take some air foe a bit. My feet takes me to the place whenever I miss him. I visit my old almamater everytime I want to regain my memories here. Wouldnt thought that this campus didnt even change even after of all this year. Yet cant help to smile whenever he flashes to my mind. After I roamed the campus and saw those all students having their own world like we used to be before.

Little I didn't know I'm already here in the hiding out place of Tin. Its still abandon building not so far away in the campus. And as I visit here often, no one takes this place either. But it giving me a relief, so it means there are no thug groups here anymore from my old school. I think it was peacefully for me. As I heard about Trump. He is still paying his sins that he did. Its still hunting me at night on how his groups tortured me that night. It grew a forever trauma at me.

I went inside and seated to the couch that remain same of the place. I sighed as I remember what I overheard from Good and his wife Dae last night.

Good was right I'm still stuck in the past and neglecting the present especially my future. I know he was worried at me because all this years that we've been through. He knows how I feel inside. And I understand as his best friend I know he was just concern. So I am thinking of it all night.

I fish out the letter he left me and once again I read every single of the words and phrases of it. My eyes heat up and about to cry. Cha-am was right. I love him so much but I have to let him go. Our love will always in the past why I must kept him and hold him. Letting him go was the best for all of us especially to myself. I need to move on and to look for a brighter future.

"Woah they were right, this place didn't change after all this years" I was back on my senses and shocked when someone just spoke out. But I'm afraid to turn my sight of it. The voice was familiar. This cant be. I maybe lack of sleep so that's why I'm hearing weird things.

I stand up from couch and breath deeply. I'm calming myself. I need to get out of here.

"Are you just going to leave without saying hi to me?" no. A big no. This is not true. I slowly switch my back at him. My eyes widen as I see him. I cant believe that I'm really seeing him. Am I not dreaming again?

My tongue tied up as I freeze in my place and staring at him. Luring myself that he was my imagination.

He walked towards at me. He was smiling at me. I want to smile back but even my lips I cant move it.

"T-tin?" I manage to say even though I almost choke up. Am I dreaming? Being delusional? I'm seeing him? He waved at me. He was wearing a simple green printed polo. He is still look same. His eyes almost close while smiling perfectly at me. I'm sweating real damn hard and my heart beat abnormally. I swear if its imagination. I'm really going to see a doctor now.

"Can" he called me? So he was really here? And also he called my name?

"Are you real??" my dumb self has that guts to ask him that silly question.

He sneered then he nod.

"You still remember me?" if it is. Then I feel relief because he finally remember me. The guy once loved me remember me is enough for me. I understand that we cant go back to the past. I'm okay with that.

"Of course, how can I forget you?" my eyes getting heavier again. As my heart cant contain my feels right now. "Do you remember this is where we first met and talked. Though I saw you often in the campus but this is where you punch me and threatened to kill me" how can I forget that? That time we provoked each other.

I was mesmerizing and remembering things when he just hugged me. At first I was shocked and I cant even moved my hands to hug him back. I felt his warm breath to my nape. This is really good to be true. I didn't think neither imagine that I would hug him like this again.

"I'm sorry I was too late. I'm sorry that I keep you long Can" I was stunned by those words. I don't understand, my mind right now isn't function well.

"Tin?" I was about to push him away but he place his hands to my waist and pull me even closer to him. I can feel he is sniffing my nape.

"I miss you" damn. My eyes were really hot right now. Anytime my tears going to drip from my eyes.

"But.. you are getting married right?" he faced me and cupping my both cheeks. While my eyes looking all over his face makes me shy. I don't know why?

"Yeah but I didn't asked you yet?" my dumb mind didn't get that.

"Huh?" He rolled his eyes.

"I mean I didn't asked you to marry me yet" he emphasized the word marry. And I just got almost choke.

"Marry you??" I'm still confused of his sudden appear and hugging me like this. Its not that I don't like it but it was really confusing.

"Yes I wanted to spend my whole and rest of my life with you" my tears began to flow from my eyes. He is now rubbing it.

"I know its been 6 years, there so many things might happen and changes between those years. But I still do love you. I'm sorry because I came this late. I do broke my promise to stay with you but this time I will fulfil my promise and make the best things that I missed for six years that we are apart. Even going up back to square up for you."

Shit. Everything happen six years ago flashing back to my mind. How we met, that I used to hate him but afterwards I fell in love with him crazy. And those bad things that made our love strong keeping us to be apart. Also a lot of things that stopped our relationship but we still face it and telling the whole world how much we love each other. Now even its too risky, without any assurance and nor hearing about him. I still wait him, no matter how much my friends bickering me for being stupid. But look its all worth it. He is finally here in my arms. I wont let him go away again. I wont.

I punch him lightly to his face that made him taken a back. He look shocked at me.

"What was that for?" I smirk at him.

"For leaving me in six damn years. I want to tell you that I wont let you go away easily from me okay? Don't even try or think to leave me again or else Ill kill you" instead he look threaten to me he just giddy in front of him. Did he think I'm just joking around?

I was about to add something when he pull me by my collars and shut me up by his lips.

- the end

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