I didn't know what comes to my mind why did I agreed to come in to his house. I was just out of my mind, maybe because I'm missing him. Even just for awhile I can be whatever Ill be even just for awhile. Can was candid smiling at me when he let me enter to their house. He let me sit to their couch.

"By the way Tin, Lei wasn't here. She line me that she had to sleepover to Chompoo's house. I don't know why but the important is she let me know about it" I just nod. I just realize that he handed a plastic bag. Where I guess he buy something from a store. He is still wearing his school uniform. He goes to the kitchen and disappear for a moment.

I have a lot things on my mind. I was damn confuse of what is happening. Like why did he let me in? Why do I feel something wrong?

Its really definitely so random.

"Tin do you want something to eat or drink?" I didn't notice that he was already back. I just want to get out of here. I just don't know how to exit myself.

"No need" damn Tin. Go do something.

"Hmm. Then.." I didn't let him finish when I stand up. I was literally don't know how to act so normal.

"I need to go" this is so wrong. I shouldn't been here. He look shock but he remain silent. When I was about to go and step out to his house..

"Tin, can you just stay.. for tonight" he sound.. needy. Or is it just me.

But I get startled when he just back hug me. What is happening? Why did he doing this? I couldn't move my feet at all. And all I can feel is my heartbeat beating so fast.

We stay that for almost minute when he finally release me. I turn back at him and face him. I don't understand why he was acting like this. But a part of me liking it. I do fucking miss him that's why I'm still visiting him secretly even I look horrible stalker of him.

When he tip toe and lean closer to me. Faster than my blink, his lips brushing mine. I felt his both arms clings on my neck and starting moving his lips on mine. At first I didn't know what to do, I was too shock but then I just cant help myself to close my eyes. And I raised my both hands and cupping his both cheeks to guide myself to kiss him back.

"Sleep with me Tin" he said when he pulled himself off from kissing me. I look intently to his eyes. Mesmerizing by those. And I cant keep my eyes away from his.

I once again claiming his lips again. I just don't care anymore, I just want to taste his lips again.

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I'm towering him on his bed. I didn't take off my eyes on him. Maybe this is the best closure I will give for the both of us. Until now I'm so confused to myself why I'm still here, I really want to get out of here but when he say he wants to sleep with me. I was dumbfounded.

"Are you sure of this?" I don't why I feel awkward of this. As if it was my first time doing this. He should be the one who felt this but I was freaking trembling here.

He slowly. I cant read his facial expression like it was blank. Or it was just me? Then suddenly teared up. I felt hurt. This is not the first time I saw him cry. I rub his tears gently of my thumbs.

"We don't have to do this if you do--" I was stunned when he grab my head and he intact his lips to mine. He kissed me so aggressively that left me again dumbfounded again. Why??

I felt his hot liquid tears in my cheeks while kissing me. I kissed him back and pull his hair to eager my lips crashing to his lips. I press my tongue to make enter to his whole mouth that made him moan.

He push me softly away and he look at me again with his eyes. Now his eyes made me go deeper to my feelings.

"I miss you Tin" catching his breaths. It left me speechless. Why the hell I'm here? It made me realize I am going to hurt him even more.. Why did I let my feelings over powering my consciousness.

But back of my mind.. I wanted to reply that I missing him.. so bad. That I want to take back my actions and even what I've said. But.. yeah it was said and done. The damage was done. This man that I've kissed earlier wasn't mine anymore.

"Own me Tin.. please" with that he position himself and taking off his shirt, pants and his garments. I couldn't just speak anymore. He is way bolder than I thought. Whats with you Can? Why are you doing this to drive me so crazy. I was just staring or even drooling to his naked body. His not actually perfect but a little slim body. His fair skin, his fine legs and those between his legs.. Its my first time..

He pulled me right away and start sucking my lips and jerking his naked body against mine.

It was just it. We sucked, we bit our lips, we leaving each other hickeys each and every where in our bodies. That night fills of our moans and cursing words. We make love like there's no tomorrow. Every trails, kissed and touch that I did is not only desirable but I put all my emotions there and that is my love for him. Maybe it was just that night, I own him but that's not because he was the one who owns me, I couldn't love somebody else like how I love him. And this night I wanted him to feel that he is the only person that I love the most. And give the most of it because this is the only chance that I can do this. And that tomorrow that I don't want to come. Tomorrow, if our mind were sane, we will go back to our places should be.

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Its still fresh on me I can totally smell his scent, his sweat and his.. wait.. my eyes just open and I rubbed my eyes again to clarify where I am. I'm really here in Can's room. And.. I'm naked beneath in his comforter.

"Shit" I thought it was a dream. A dream that I wanted to be true were actually true. I snap my head thinking how should I face him. But I look to my side, he wasn't here. I bet he wake up earlier than me.

Shit. I can still hearing his gasps and moans. Ah fuck.

I slap myself to wake myself. Tin get yourself together.

I started to pick my clothes was on the floor and wear it as fast as I can.

I shouldn't look so weird and awkward in front of him. I should control myself. You just have to say goodbye and get yourself out of his house. That's really simple Tin.

I compose myself before I go step down in the staircase. I'm now smelling nice and I bet it came from the kitchen. When I was about to walk to their kitchen, I saw him from a far wearing a peach apron. He looks so adorable today compare last night, he look so hot when he suck-- aish not again with your daydreaming Tin its not necessary at this moment.

But he saw me first coming to him. He wide smile at me. Aww I look to his fluffy hair that I want to ruffle but last night I pulling it so drastically-- Tin!!

"Good morning!!" I look to their table it was full foods that he prepared. Why do I feel we are in the honeymoon and we just got married last day?

"Ah" okay Tin you can do it. Don't be so stupid. Act as Tin!

His eyes wondering me and waiting for what I'm about to say.

"You know just sit down and enjoy the breakfast" am I still dreaming?? If it was a dream I don't wanna wake up anymore.

"What is going on here??" I was stunned and realize that it was her sister's voice. I look back and confirm it was her. She look confused and shocked to us.

"You just came?" Can was just acting so fine like hello your ex boyfriend was in your house and your sister just found you out!!

"Yeah??! And why the hell is Tin here??" as I expected. She look fierce at me.

"Why? We just go back together" then he clings on me. That made me more shocked.

What?

Lei rolled eyes on us.

"Whatever" she sighed. Then she go up stairs and leave us there.

I jerk back to Can who still clings on my arm. I put of his hands softly away from it.

"Its a big mistake Can. I'm sorry" I bowed my head and felt so sorry. "That thing happen between us last night is--" he cut me off my pressing his index finger to my lips.

"Tin. I'm serious okay. I know what I did last night" I hold firmly his finger from lips and look to his eyes intently.

"I have to go. Just forget that already" he just pulled me closer to him and he hugged me.

"Don't you dare leave me again like you did before Tin! I will never allow you anymore" why??

"Can" why he make me feel hard?

"Tin I know everything, I know why you did that to me? I know you did that because you love me. And I will never ever let you do that again today. Tin, I love you" he knows? What else did he know??

He hug me more tight. "Can.. I'm sorry--"

"No!! Do you know how unfair you are to me? Why you didn't let me know all of that Tin. I hate myself again for hating you again. Little I didn't know that you did that for me. How could you be so cruel to me?!!" I heard him sobs. He buried his face to my chest and cried.

I don't know but I just hug him back. It was hard for me. To pretend and avoid him. Its killing me inside. I give up, I don't want to lose Can anymore.

"I'm sorry" I don't know what to say to him. Sorry isn't enough to ease and to erase all the bad things I've done to him.

"Don't say sorry Tin!!" he punch my arms and glaring at me. I find it so cute then I chuckled.

"Can.." I pulled him and kissed his forehead. "I miss you" I whisper to his ear. He just pout at me.

"So are we good?" he asked me so obviously. This boy..

"Hmm what you think?" I sarcastically asked him back.

"Tin!!! What do you thi---" I cut him off by shutting my lips to his lips. I just peck it and smile at him. His cheek turn into red and I bet he was flattered.

We continue to cuddling and poking our cheeks that time when Can just stop..

"Lei!!! Stop taking photos of us!!!!" Can rushing to her sister who laughing while trying to escape to his brother anger. I'm just laughing to this two siblings.

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a/n : okay.. bare me please im not good in writing smut so i just did like wholesome. tho i really wanted to write it but i just cant make it sorry guys but i wish you liked this chapter. anyways our tincan back to each other arms. 💙💚