I cant barely watch this man throwing and wasting himself. I don't know what to do either to help him. It was like since then every night passed he always asking me to come over to his home. I can see how his maids were so worried about him too. Maybe Tin can look so damn fine when he was in the school but actually when he was homed, Tin shutting himself alone in this room, drunk himself. It was just kinda relieve because he make me want to company him right in his situation.

His room were so messed up, I didn't know if he let his maids cleans his room or not.

"You had too much already" I've stopped him to make another round of the bottle. He glared at me.

"Why don't you drink instead?" he tries to take a shot but I refuse it because I don't want to be drunk for tonight. And also Ae will be mad at me.

"Tin your going to kill yourself if you keep doing this" he laid his eyes on me. He give me a quick smirk.

"Then be it" if this is all the result of protecting me, I just cant stand it. I felt so guilty seeing him in misery.

"Tin stop this and go back to Can already. This is the worst decision that you made" he laughed in bitter way. He throw me a glare.

"You are right, this is the worst decision that I made. Throwing Can and giving him to Dae. I endure the pain seeing him with Dae. Because I know it was all my fault, I maybe regretting it but for the sake of Can's safety I can accept it. Maybe this our fate"

Its hard to see your friend like this. I've know Tin since I transfer here, he was the one who approach and made friends with me even I have that trust issue with anyone, to all the trauma that I have been with Trump. He was the one who help me to complete my broken self. Without him I wouldn't meet a such a friends like Techno and Type of course I wouldn't also meet the guy who became my sunshine. Who will love me knowing my past was cruel and bitter.

Tin is one of those saddest people I know. He look so tough outside but he is weaker than inside. He was just simply snob and keeping his cold appearance to hide his true self. After meeting Can, he changed literally. He became brighter person than ever. He was smiling much often too. That make me feel so great, that finally the person who help me to cope up are now in processing to be a better person.

But now seeing him like this killing me. I know it was all my fault. I even hurt Can. He had go to all of this because of me. He doesn't deserve this. He loves Tin so much.

I took again a glance to Tin. He was now fell asleep. I pick his comforter from his bed and put it to cover him. I seated beside him and look to his peaceful face.

"You've done enough Tin. And I'm forever thankful for that. But now its time for me to sacrifice too. You don't deserve this Tin, you deserve to be finally happy with someone who truly loves you" I patted his head and smile at him.

Ae...I'm sorry but I made my decision.

Pete was right, it became more worst each in every day passed. I don't know how to move forward knowing I let go someone that I love. I'm stupid, yeah it sucks that I cant do anything anymore. That I was a big jerk in front of Can. I did that purposely to him for him to hate me. So that he had that reason to let go of me and move on. And yeah it works, also in the help of Dae. Now they were now a couple. I'm such a good match maker. But I'm such a loser though.

But I should accept it, I really should. Can is now happy and that's the important. And I don't know why the hell I'm in front of his house every night since we broke up. Yeah I keep coming here and silently looking to Can's window, I'm hiding in the back pole of light where he cant even see me. If the lights was on in his room it means Can was still awake but when it was off I'm surely that he was going to sleep and that's my cue to go back to my place and lifelessly self. And that's my day ended. I keep eyeing Can even I'm not there beside him. I don't know when I will going to stop doing this? Maybe if I get tired? Or I moved on already. But for now I still want to sure Can was okay and safe.

It was getting late but he didn't yet turning off his lights on his room. I wonder what he is doing tonight to still keep up.

Flashback

I got my sense back when I realized I really did a wrong with Can too. I should apologize to him and try to explain a little bit about it to make a clear for him. I was kinda harsh too, so I know I have to apologize too.

I tried to call him but my phone was running out of battery. I didn't make a call because it was off already. So I decided to go his house and there I plead his forgiveness.

I'm on my way to Can's house when some group of boys just blocking my way. I stop my car and horn at them to make them get out of my way. But no one of them move there way. Instead a familiar guy came out to those group of boys and make a step closer to my car.

"Trump?" seriously at this hour??!!

I have no choice but to get out of my car and faced them especially him.

"Nice car Tin" he praise my car but I don't give any damn of it. I furiously look at him.

"Can we do it next time, I'm in hurry" I have really no time for his business because I have really to talk with Can.

"Oh you look hurry for something and I felt sad. Is that really important more than me?" now he acted freaking ignorant at me. Tsk.

"What the fuck do you want?" I'm getting pissed already like I don't have a mood for throwing punch at him.

"Easy Tin. Easy. You don't have to be mad at me like that. I just have something to share with you" he really have that guts to tell me easy, seeing makes my blood boiled up.

I cant stand seeing him. He was really annoying.

"Such a waste of time" I just realize that I can make a other road to take on instead talking with him. If I realize that sooner maybe I was in Can's house already.

I turn my back at him because its no good to talk to him.

"I met your boyfriend today. And he seem didn't know me at all. I'm just upset that you didn't even tell anything about me at him" I jerk back at him.

"Who are you? And you don't have anything with our relationship either" I heard him chuckled.

Really? Whats funny of that?

"You really think its fair Tin?" he asked me that makes me confuse.

"What are you trying to say?" I arched my eyebrow at him.

"That you were so damn happy with your love ones and while me I don't have any lover" he fake sad that makes me more annoy at him.

"So what does that to me? Besides its your fault also that Pete leaves you. You were so damn asshole!!" don't he dare try to take that blame at me. But instead to be affected on what I've said, he just smiled at me but I felt something on his smile because its giving me a creep feeling.

"Do you remember the time that was Can sister were attacked by group of thug boys? Actually I thought you were hitting that girl so that I tried to kidnap that girl for me to beat you. But his brother came so that he was the one who hit so bad" I was stunned and makes my nerve cracking on my hand. What the hell is he talking about?

"Don't tell me Trump?!!" he chuckled again.

"Yes! I was the mastermind of that. I just found that you are liking that Can. Which I tried to make friend with him because he saved me from you last time but you just came so that I don't have that time to talk to him after that. The funny is that you guys really do well after all of that hahahahha" he laughed. But I was trying to hold on my fist at him. Knowing it was all his fault, Can almost died in that incident. And this fucking guy really have that guts to tell me those.

"Fuck you Trump!"

"Why don't we get an agreement? Look Tin I can make that happen again. Look at my boys in just one order they can go to Can's place and we might kill them both" Fuck!! I pull him by his collar and about to punch him but he just give me his devilish smile.

"Go hit me or Ill hit Can by them" my fist weaker when I heard Can's name.

He push me away from himself and wipe his shirt.

"So here's my deal Tin. I will stop threatening Can's life if you will get rid him in your life. Like you know I know Can was your weakness"

"Are you black mailing me?" he smirk at me.

"Well whatever you might think. Like I what I said earlier. Its really unfair to me that you were so happy while me, being misery because Pete leaves me. In short break up with him if you want me to stop picking up on him" he give me pat but I avoid my shoulder to him.

"He wasn't include in our mess. Fuck you Trump!!" he pass by me and he was touching my car with his fantasizing manner.

"Not unless if you agreed to my deal. See you Tin" this jerk before he leave me kicked my car. His gang followed him and giving me a silent treatment while passing by me.

My knees get weaken.

How dare him?!!! He was the one who to blame to Can's injury before. I have no fucking idea that he will do this far to get in me.

End of Flashback

Whenever I remember that incident. I cant help but to curse myself. Basically I wasn't that coward but that time I was. I felt so coward. And I choose to give up Can because of that stupid black mail that Trump give me. He has a lot of men in his gang what are we going to when we are just four in the group. We cant fight back against him and also I encountered their group sometimes but we end up hurt and injury also.

I'm almost an hour here in my place. Isn't he going to sleep? I'm just worried if he didn't get enough sleep, isn't he had a insomnia? Funny that I'm more worried to him than to myself.

"Tin??" this is too much. I know I miss him really bad. That sometimes I'm hearing my name by his voice. "Tin? What are you doing here?" I look finally at him. And even my imagination I can see him. He was standing in front of me, having those curious eyes.

I wipe my eyes to be able to sure that I am not here being delusional.

But he still there. He was real?!! But??

"I thought you were there" I pointed his window up there because the lights are still on. He look on it.

"I just getting homed" he replied. I try to compose my cold appearance. But how the heck I will walked out to this moment. I know he is been curious that why I'm being here right in front of his hours at this hour.

"Okay" I response and about to go. When he grabbed my arm to stop me.

"Wait.. hmm.. can you just come in first?" he eyed me with his full emotion eyes. I don't understand but I felt deep inside that I'm liking it and my heart just skip beat after it was now beating so fast.

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a/n : i hope u like it guys. hmm what do you think? i know some of you guys predict about Tin's situation. lemme know your reaction my lovely readers. thanks again 💙💚