Things aren't good now and I'm now down in solace. I feel stabbed thousands of times knowing Can will never be mine. How good Can and Dae are together. How can he even like me when from the start he hated me so much that he want me to kill me?

Techno, Type, and Pete weren't around here in our place. Only Ae and I were here, I'm busy scrolling my Facebook feeds while Ae was busy strumming his guitar.

I'm just listening to his strumming when I just get up from laying down on the couch. I turn off my cellphone because it can't help me too either.

"How did you know that you are falling to Pete?" Ae just stop his strumming to his guitar and get focused on me.

"Why are you falling for Pete again??" my little smile curved to my lips, looks Ae get pressed to my question. It was just random and I'm finding some clues and advice also.

"Let's just rest that in the past, okay? Pete is yours now. Why are you being tense just like that?" he is now glaring at me which makes me laugh.

"I just want to make sure," Ae said in a threatening tone.

"So what now? Answer it Ae!!" before we go to another topic I want him to answer this.

"Why did you ask?" I look bored at him and struck my eyes on him. I'm getting impatience already.

"Just do what I say" I demanding said. Ae just rolled his eyes at me and sighed. I know he doesn't want me to be angry at him.

"Actually Tin, I don't know exactly where on when it happens. I know it's cliche but I wake up one day that I realize I like him already" it makes me think. I just found out that I like Can already even tho we are always fighting and threatening each other. I damn fall for him already. I'm whipped. "You know liking someone is really hard to explain. It comes that fast in one blink and you didn't notice that you are already falling. Just like me to Pete, I'm just curious at him, those times that I'm curious at him, thinking of him, is that I'm on my way liking him and wanting him to be mine" Ae's eyes sparkling while he is saying those to me. Maybe that eyes are really in love. Pete is lucky to have Ae in his life. I bet Ae loves him so much as I did before to Pete. And Pete also loves him as much as he does.

"So that's how it is," I said nodding at him. While caressing my chin.

"Are you liking someone else? Is that a girl? Did we know her?" Ae continuously asks me, and I just shrug. I don't want to spill tea for now. I just want to make sure all these things and sort this feeling already.

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I'm on campus, I'm going to the library to give back the books I borrow last time I went there. It didn't cross to my mind that I will run to Can again this time, I don't have that urge to talk to him. I'm still freaking hurt if that's the call of what I'm feeling right now.

Can be looking at me so innocently unlike those times that we are running to each other. This time is different, he is looking at me so soulfully. I know he see me that night. I'm hoping I didn't see that too.

I want to run towards him and grab him again. Drag him somewhere else that It can be me and him alone.

I want that. But who am I to do that?

So I come up with the decision to avoid him. I know that is the only thing I can do in my life. Seeing him makes me want to own him but I know I freaking can't.

Why is life is hopeless?

But he called my name. My name became more beautiful because he called me.

"What is it?" I'm trying to compose myself to being cold again, just like before.

Then out of the things he goes to say or ask is.. that night I saw him. Is he bragging or what? Why did he want to make it show off to me?

"And so?" If he wants to tell me that they are dating or what? I'm done with this, I don't what will I'm gonna do.

"If you had nothing to say, cut this shit out and get out of my face" I'm damn hurt Can. I don't want to hear anything like that.

I saw him smirking at me. I felt offended. That's it? I lose? But I didn't expect that I will hear that from him.

"So are you really jealous because I'm with Dae last night? Why are you regretting that you let her go?" what the fuck? Is he mad or insane?

That's the fucking bullshit I ever heard in my life.

"What?" like seriously? I don't even like Dae even at once, only if he knew that I'm head over heels at him. He is the only guy that I like this much.

I heard a 'lose' word from him. And I can't control my feelings anymore, a mix of anger, frustration, sadness, and being stupid I've done that.

I grab his head and lean him on the kiss. I don't know what comes to my mind. I only know I want him to shut up. This thing can solve it.

I close my eyes when I start to become passionate but I stop it before it gets deep.

I saw his reaction after I parted my lips to his. He went blank after that, don't know if he still processing in his mind that I kissed him.

"You should learn to shut up your mouth or else I would do the honor to make you shut up" then I smirked before I leave him there.

I can't help but touch my lips while I'm walking, I don't care if someone saw me right now and called me stupid. I'll be even happier when I heard that, even though tho that's the stupidest thing I have ever done, I'm not going to regret that I did that.

I can still smell his breath, it was really good. I think I'm going to be addicted to that. And of all things, his lips are so soft that I want to claim them again.

"Hey, something happens?" I don't even notice that I'm already here in our place, Pete, Type, and Techno was already there. I just smiled at them.

"He looks so extra happy," Ae said.

"Yeah, he is smiling like his mouth is going rip apart" Techno commented.

"Did he really bring back books to a library or he did do something aside from that?" Type is wondering too.

"I guess" looking at Pete looks like he knew it already.

I didn't bother to reply to them and chit-chat with them, I'm still savoring the moment.

"Why are you keep touching your lips as you've just kissed someone else?" here's Techno who is nosing around at me. I look at him with my mischievous eyes. He gives me those weird glances.

"Yeah, I kissed someone" still pressing and touching my lips.

"Kissed? Who?"

"Can"

"Whaaat??"

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a/n: so yeah im really sorry if i didnt update, im having a defense tomorrow so my mind being occupied and i cant focus on writing but still after i watch some aepete/meanplann moment on yt makes me inspired and wrire a short chapter. hmm tin must be on the cloud9 after he kissed can, what about can?? well lets see.. thank you for always keeping reading my story.

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