i wake up to the familiar allarm, but not only the alarms, little laughter and words from the baby monitor, i look up and see Nathan and Aidan holding the baby monitor while they look into it with awe, "how many alarm clocks do you two actually have?" i ask and they look down to me.

they both give innocent smiles while Aidan grab it and throws it for me, "sorry!" he says and i shake my head with a small laugh before sitting up, i rub my hands down my face, feeling my small baby bump through the movement, i drop my hands to the bed and look at them both, both watching me with adoring smiles, "so cute!" Aidan whispers and Nathan just has a smile.

i cross my arms and i pout, "i'm not cute, i'm manly!" i say, my nose pointing up as they both laugh.

"yeah you are!" Nathan smiles as they both lean over and hug me, i hug them back, "how are you feeling this morning?" he asks and i shrug.

"alright i guess!" i say with a neutral expression.

"and how do you feel about today?" Aidan asks curiously and i think, listening to anything i could hear through the house, around the house, any feelings i felt but the only thing i felt was a small tug on my gut, and a whole lot of love in my stomach.......

"i don't know!" i say, purcing my lips to the side, i then shrug, "it's kind of confusing to be honest!" i say and they nod as they get ready. i jump up and go over to the closet, both of them smiling, i pull on some trousers and some other clothes before walking back out to them both hugging, i stand there for a second in awe, "Awww!" i say in a high pitched tone and they both visibly tense before glaring at me, walking over and hugging me instead.

i nuzzle my head against their warm chests and let out a long breath. they pull away and i let out a sharp breath of dissapointment but walk with them out of the room anyway.

i peek into the kid's room, hearing their words and laughs as they talk with eachother, they seem to be early birds which will probably annoy me in the morning. i see that someone has already set their bottles in their cots, they have an assigned colour to whos is whos, they picked their own and they are very possessive over their own bottles so they don't pinch eachothers luckily, i hope they grow out of that not sharing stage but with their bottles and heat packs i am happy for them to be possessive over them two items, oh, and their cots, they don't mind it too much if another sleeping in the same cot, but they never sleep in another bed for a really long period, however, Bow, Mikael and Nickos switch between each others beds and Jackson and Jason almost always sleep together, however Carlos throws a fit when someone tries to jump in his bed which i deffinatly hope he grows out of, but he doesn't mind other peoples beds too much but he MUST sleep in his bed unless he utterly can't, like if he feels a bit ill or scared for some reason he sleeps with us.

i skip down the corridor between Aidan and Nathan, "your joyful today!" Aidan chuckles happily while Nathan beams a smile at my joyfulness.

"because i want to be!" i say, turning around and walking backwards with a smile, dads stew in magical, he feeds me it almost allways and it's always the same as last, i look forwards to it everyday.

they take my arms and turn me back around, "i don't want you tripping up, little Red!" Nathan says with adoration glowing in his blue eyes, i reach up and kiss his nose before jumping up to Aidan's cheek, which he catches me, stopping me from landing like always, he gives me a peck on the lips before letting me down, i decide to skip again, hopping down the stairs and into the kitchen to hear humming, i peek around the corner and see Alpha mum and Alpha dad again dancing, with me peeking around the corner, Aidan and Nathan laugh a bit before walking into the kitchen, i follow on with a smile and see mum move to Aidan while dad goes to Nathan, dancing with them playfully, i go to get to the counter when mum and dad pull me to them and spin me around, i let out a yelp and laugh joyfully before being spun under dads arm, i laugh with a smile, listening to mum and dad hum that same song before Aidan and Nathan pull me into a hug.......i love these moments, i treasure them in my heart.

dad gives mum a peck on the cheek before wishing us all fair well, mum goes back to the counter and Aidan and Nathan to the usual corner as they have done every single school morning on routine. i wait for a bit, eyeing up the pan when mum walks over to the fridge, when she does i jump over and go to pinch a bit of bacon when both of my arms are pulled back, "ah!" my dad says and i pout, he then holds a box in front of me, i smell it and forget about the bacon, i go to open it when he snaps it shut again, "that is for your lunch!" he says and i let out a long breath, mum reaches the pan chuckling and ruffles my hair while i walk back to the counter, climbing up, i cross my legs and rest my hands around my warm bump comfortingly.

it's not big, big, but if you looked properly while i had my big hoodie on you might catch a glimps of it while i walked or something, but everythings been really well at school, my friends have been really supportive and with my good mood streak because of dads stew others have been happy to make friends with me, overall, every lesson there is a few people who are happy to talk, i also don't sleep through my lessons, so i have been treated better...

"-den?" i look up, "Raden?" they are all looking at me, all chuckling when i realise i now have a chunk of gamon, i glare at it and then to Nathan, he smiles, "Eat the gamon, not lick it to death!" Aidan laughs and i roll my eyes and chew the tastey flavour.

"what were you thinking about so strongly?" Nathan asks, both of them now walking over and i shrug.

"school!" i shrug and they put their heads in the crook of my neck, smelling my scent and running their faces up and down it while laying small kisses, i hum at the effection while taking another bite, i look up at the clock and see that it's already eight o'clock, "don't we need to go?" I ask them and they both grumble.

"yes, i guess so!" Nathan mumbles and i give a little giggle, with a wide smile and they both look at me with glistening eyes, i kiss their cheeks feeling very joyful and loving, i don't know why, i just feel like there is nothing to be upset or angry about, apart from the alarm clock, todays been good and it feels good too.

Aidan possessivly picks me up with Nathan holding my hand while i hold my arms over Aidan's shoulder, i am placed in the car and i curl up on Nathan's lap, "i like this you!" Nathan says softly and kisses my head, "your so joyful and adorable!" he says and i lick his nose playfully, he gives me a dead look and i laugh.

"i'm allowed to feel happy sometimes, i blame dads stew!" i say, my legs swinging and they both nod with a small laugh.

we pull up to school and i see that a car has taken Aidan and Nathan's space, they both let out a groan before getting out, leaving me in the car, i climb forwards curiously when i see Nathan go behind the car while Aidan goes infront, what on earth are they doing? i see Nathan bend his legs and lift the car up, they both begin to move the car and put it in a different spot before coming back, "how the hell did you do that?!" i gasp as they get in, they laugh a bit and Aidan flexes his arms and i roll my eyes while Nathan kisses my cheek.

i get out of the car and begin to walk through the school, seeing people look, but not too many and some even wave or smile, i smile back, the mad anxiety is still there, but i do my best to ignore it and consentrate on the good mood. we walk up to the group and Maya gives me a hug, i smile and hug her tightly back....i admit, i am getting quite girly, my joyful mood is very girly sometimes and i have found that i get along better with girls then boys as they are more understanding to me it feels, i am so thankful i don't get periods, they can be very grouchy when they have them.

i pull away and smile, "hi, Maya!" i smile and Nancy walks up with Sam.

"hi!" she beams and i hug her too, "awe, does this good mood mean i don't get to tease you today?" she asks, pouting and i roll my eyes and scoff.

"you, tease me?" i laugh and she does too.

"your a cry baby, everyone knows it!" she scoffs and i look her up at down.

"well your the only one who thinks so and i'm sorry to say, your not everyone, your no one!" i say lowly, and she laughs, so do i and Maya.

"so how's your morning been?" Maya says, looking between her and Sam and i wiggle my brows at her, she blushes and i gasp.

"you dog!" i say, and Sam looks to us all and i look at him.

"what?" he says and then looks at Nancy and then his cheeks go red, "oh-" he says and i and Maya laugh.

"aw, so adorable!" i say, hugging Maya's side while she hugs mine while we both coo. she glares at us.

"shut up, where's Josh these days?" Nancy asks and i smile at Maya, nudging her, looking behind Nancy to Josh who walks through with his brother just at the right time, Maya beams before moving past us and jumping into his arms like every time, i lean back, Aidan and Nathan wrapping their arms around me lovingly, pausing their conversation for a moment before continuing.

the bell goes and i'm with Aidan and Nathan in PE, i don't have to participate, but i'm supposed to do as much as i can so that's what i do.

we walk in and i'm greeted by a few people before i follow Aidan and Nathan to their usual lockers. i sit down and wait for them while they change, Aidan throws his hoodie at me and i glare at him but decide to put it on, he chuckles and so does Nathan, "mine now!" i stick my tongue out and he leans over and kisses me.

we walk outside and the teacher looks over at me, "how are you feeling?" he asks, looking me up and down, with a serious expression, he asks me this every PE lesson, a lot of people do, but sir is most serious about it as if i lie, he could push me too far to the point i could be injured.

"joyful!" i say and smile and which makes him smile, i jump to stop and he chuckles.

"energetic i see?" he asks and i nod, "take it your eating better then?" he says and i hum at the thought of my dads stews, "you do seem different from your usual self, Raden, you much more joyful!" he says and i nod, "well then, we'er playing tenis today so you'll be able to participate, as always, be careful!" i nod to him while Aidan and Nathan stay close to me, both holding my hands while i fiddle slightly with their hands.

John comes over and smiles, "thank's for waiting!" he says and we all laugh a bit, "what are we doing today?" he asks politely.

"Tenis!" i answer and he nods.

"can i join your team?" he asks and i nod.

"of course, as always!" i say and swing my arms, lifting them up and turning around to Aidan and Nathan as they smile, Nathan checks my temperature again, slight worry always in their eyes.

"i'm just being joyful for once, i'm not sick, maybe a little insane, but not ill!" i say and they chuckle, they lean down and kiss me.

"come on, love birds, get to your courts!" sir shouts over and the twins growl, "don't growl!" he says and i look over to him with a strict look, telling him to be patient, i turn back to the twins and kiss them and then make our way over.

i walk over to the tenis rakets and pick four up and a tenis ball, i stand up and see the boys looking at me with smiles, i dibs this job, my job. i jog back over and they take theirs, i hold the ball, "who's on who's team?" John asks and i look to Aidan and Nathan...

"hmm, Nathan on mine!" i say and Aidan looks at me slightly hurt, "i want a bit of a challenge!" Nathan nods, agreeing, he knows and accepts that Aidan is better at sports then him, he told me himself, Aidan humpfs.

"well, if we win, i get to go with Raden next!" he says, i slowly wrap my arms around him, pulling up to him so i can reach around his neck, i lean in and kiss him, "i love you, baby!" he says softly and i kiss him again.

"love you too!" i say and he puts me down, making his way round the other side with John. i look up to Nathan and he smirks, "i have a good feeling!" i say to him and he smiles with a nod.

"me too!" he says and we go to our places. John has the ball seems as last time they won, he drops it and hits it, Nathan skips forwards and hits it, i stay back a bit on my side as Aidan hits the ball, i dash forwards hitting it back and the game goes on.

after the first game i take my hoodies off, leaving on my shirt of course as i get a quick sip of water, the rest joining me...we won, of course. we go back and begin our first game. i'm joyful during the game, but i get a pang of anxiety that throws me off a bit and i miss the ball, Aidan and Nathan look to me a bit worried but i get the ball and throw it up, as i do i catch sight of people looking at me, a pang of embarrasment pricks through me and the ball drops, my mood taking a hit as i take a breath and go over to my hoodies and taking one, putting it on so that my body is fully covered, "you okay?" Nathan asks and i nod.

"yeah, just a bit warm, it's not fair!" i say disapointadly as i glimps us to see some others looking up, at this Nathan and Aidan look up to catch them, and they both growl loud enough for them to hear and they stop looking.

"it's okay, they are just curious!" Nathan roll his eyes, he takes a breath "theres no need to be ashamed over the way you look without your hoodie on, you don't need to stay hidden!" he says softly and i shrug.

"come on, let's win this game!" i say with a smile, pushing away my anxiety, it normally grows through the day anyway, the twins know when i've had enough, but my dads food cheers me up at lunch and sometimes i have actually gotten through the day. i hit the ball, feeling the sun burn my hoodie, which goes streight to my head, i'm going to win this game. i hit the ball harder and John misses it, i smile and give a small cheer, Nathan and Aidan smileing, but soon turning worried, i pout, "i'm okay!" i say and shoo them.

"take your hoodie off, my love!" Aidan instructs softly and worriedly and i shake my head.

"i'm okay!" i repeat, "come on, we'er gonna win this game!" i smile and get ready, at that they anxiously move back to the game, i still feel a few worried glances as they play which makes me feel bad, but we all continue.

we walk down the corridor and i'm still very warm from PE and i keep getting a few seconds of dizziness now and again, Aidan and Nathan hold my hands as we walk through the halls, they trail me to next lesson, only for them to turn into the nurses office, "why are we here?" i ask and they smile.

"for you to cool down a bit!" Aidan says and i pout.

"i don't need to!" i say, but i know fair well i deffinatly do.

"hello, is everything alright?" the nurse asks and she looks to my red face.

"PE, he got self concious again and wouldn't take off his hoodie!" Nathan explains and i pout, still feeling a bit out of breath, she nods.

"alright, well, there's no one in here but me so why don't you take off your hoodie and cuddle up with an ice pack!" she says with a polite smile and i let out a breath, looking to the door and she shuts it. i slowly take off my hoodie, you can see my baby bump better when i take my hoodie off, that's why i got really self concious. she passes me an ice pack and places her hand over my forehead, which i turn away, "you need to be careful, Raden!" she says softly and i hold tighter onto Aidan's and Nathan's arms, feeling my temperature rise a bit and my head go slightly dizzy, i feel Aidan pick me up and i let out a breath when he holds me to him, "home time!" she nods at her words, i shake my head.

"i'm okay!" i say, going to sit up but Aidan holds me tighter, Nathan placing an ice pack over my head and i hum at the coolness, "see, better!" i say, i hate being this morngey bitch, i enjoy joyful me and so does everyone else and if i keep going home i'm going to get nowhere.

"next PE lesson, if you feel too self concious to take your hoodie off, you sit down with water, lots of water!" she says and Nathan hand's me a bottle of water, i look at it and slowly take it, slumping down into Aidan's embrace as i down the water in one go. when i put the bottle down we are already at the car.

"i really am okay!" i say slightly annoyed as i cross my arms.

"we know!" Nathan says softly as he pulls me into the car, i curl up on his lap ever so thankful to be going home, but i won't admit that.

the next time i open my eyes i'm curled up on the sofa with a small rumble of music humming in the background, i look up to Aidan and Nathan and they both seem distracted, probably in deep conversation, i kiss their lips to wake them up and they both look down at me, "hay sleeping beauty!" Aidan smiles and i smile.

"i'm not the princess, i'm the knite in shining armour!" i say and they both snuggle up to me and growl deep in their throats.

"our sexy, sexy knite in shining armour!" Aidan says huskily and i purr.

"oh, home early?" we look up and see Alpha dad, i look back to Aidan and Nathan who seem a bit bothered by his appearance.

i look back up to him as he walks in with a few bags, "i didn't take my hoodie off during PE and took a bad effect to the heat, what's in the bag?" i ask swiftly and he looks at me.

he lets out a breath and walks away with them, which perks my curiosity, before Aidan and Nathan can go further with their seductive way i jump up and walk after him, i turn the corner to the kitchen, "you need to be more careful in PE, Raden!" he says and i sit down, really wanting to know what's in the bag, he pulls out a few bags and then throws a smaller one to me, i catch it and see some red and green squishy things in them covered in what looks like shuger, he throws another two and i pick them up.

"what are these?" i ask, and he looks to me with narrow eyes.

"Water melon sweets!" he says slightly shocked and i give a short hum.

"okay!" i say and stand up, i walk into the livingroom inspecting them, i give Aidan and Nathan one each and open mine, looking into the bag, Aidan and Nathan look at me curiously, i take one out and smile it, "he said there water melon sweets, but they don't look like water melon!" i say and their eyes widen slightly, "they look weird!" i say and pop it in my mouth, chewing it, my face crunches at the slightly sourness of them, the sweet sticking to my teeth and canines which i don't react good to, i give Nathan my bag and stand up walking away, hearing them follow me as my face stays scrunched up as the sourness lingers, while i try to get the sticky sweet off of my teeth which irritates me.

i walk in our room and then our bathroom and get my tooth brush, brushing my teeth, i see the twins sharing my bag, "how can you eat them?" i ask, my words muffled, i spit out the toothpaste and wash my mouth and the brush, "they stick to your teeth!" i say, running my tongue over my teeth to make sure i got everything off, "there so sour and they don't taste like water melon, very artificial!" i say and they chuckle.

"there sweets!" Aidan says as i walk back out and hug them.

"well they don't feel, taste, or look like skittles!" i say looking at them curiously and they just look down at me.

"is that the only sweets you've had?" Nathan asks, both of them shocked.