i walk into the house holding my jaw as my dad walks up, "why aren't you at school?" he asks and i just walk past him.

"got punched by a gargoyal!"i murmer and he pulls me to a stop.

"explain!" he says but Aidan and Nathan sweep me up and walk me to the infermary, dad following on, which annoys me because this is his fault.

"he's a bully, nothing more, nothing less, i'm fine, it just needs to heal!" i was feeling down before school and always since i had to go here, but now i just feel like i want to sleep and sleep forever, he lets out a sigh and nods. i lean against Aidan's chest as we walk. i look up and see Jack, when he sees me he lets out a breath and lets us follow him to a room.

"look up!" he says when i am put down and i do, his fingers run over my jaw, he then goes away and brings back an ice pack and some gamon, i look at the gamon, not feeling at all hungry, "it just needs some time to heal, i'll take an x-ray of it to see if theres anything i can't feel or anything!" he says and looks down to my gamon that i haven't even attempted to pick up then back up to me, "are you feeling okay?" he asks and i nod, "no, i don't mean health wise i mean mentally? emotionally?" i nod again, not saying anything, he puts his hand to my head and i move his hand away.

"i'm okay!" i snap at him and he lets out a breath.

"i want you to talk to Jane again, is that alright?" he asks and i go slightly pale.

"why?" i ask and my mates and dad just look so worried.

"your acting different-"

"what do you expect?"

"your reacting different to everything!" he says and i just stop, i look away and down.

"that's no reason to talk to a therapist over!" i mumble and he shakes his head.

"i want you to talk to Jane about how you feel through all of this, you were kidnapped from the very place your forced to go when your instincts are telling you to stay away from any place that could possibly put your pups at risk!" he says and i just look to the ground, tell the parents that, they are making me go, "what precautions are being put in place for him?" he asks and dad speaks, telling him about the good day, bad day thing, "it's not a matter of him feeling good or bad about the day, because he could feel good about the day on the morning, but through the day he could get worse and if he feels like the day is bad, it could get better throughout the day, you have to remember he's a very sensetive person to everything from how he feels to all six of his senses!" Jack says and Jack is one of my new favourite people, "so i will give Jane a call and you can talk to her when she comes!" i shrug.

"i don't even need to talk to her!" i grumble quietly and he sighs.

"want and need musn't be mixed up, Raden!" he says as he walks out, i stand up and look up to them.

"what?" i ask and they just look upset, "what?" i ask softer and politer and they just shake there heads, my dad walks out while the twins walk up to me and hugs me, i lean into the hug, embracing it, so nice and warm.

"why didn't you tell us your feeling down?" Nathan asks softly and i shrug.

"it doesn't bother me that much!" i simply say, Aidan lifts me up and carries me out of the room, they take me to the kitchen and sit me down, Nathan gives me the gamon again and i raise a brow, "i'm not hungry!" i say and he looks me dead in the eye, "i'm not anarexic either!" i say and he lets out a long breath, i take the gamon and he watches, i bite into it, the flaver gripping me whole as i cotinue to eat it quick until its done and then i just look at Nathan like a dear caught in headlights, "i said i'm not hungry!" i pout and cross my arms.

he kisses the side of my head, before walking over to where Aidan is, i look them both up and down, enjoying the sight of them, looking down to their asses, "oof!" i breath out, and they both turn and look at me, i sit up and look away with an amused look, i turn back to them and they are both looking at me, "hi!" i wave and stand up, "bye!" i say and walk out the room, only for four arms to pull me back, i turn around and wrap my arms around them both, they both have their noses against my neck, "i love you!" i say with a content smile and they both let out a long breath.

"i love you too!" they both say and i smile.

i hear the door open so i look over their shoulders to see Jane walk through, "hi!" she says with a smile and i give a small smile, the twins standing back up and looking to her.

"Ah, Jane-" we turn around and see Jack walk through, "so where do you wanna go to talk?" he asks and i look to Jane and then to the twins, i look to Jack and just look away from everyone, i can't believe they think my mental state has taken a dramatic turn just because i wasn't crying over a broken jaw.

"well how about we go to the kitchen and then we can all have a tea!" she suggests and i nod, we walk in and i sit on the counter while Nathan and Aidan go to make the teas, "so, how have you been?" she asks, sitting on the other side and i shrug.

"alright!" i simply say and she nods, how the fuck am i supposed to answer this question, i don't even know why she's here.

"why do you think Jack decided to call me?" she asks and i scoff.

"because i wasn't crying over peing punched by a gargoyal!" i say as the boys put cups in front of us and then sit down on the closest chairs to where i'm sat.

"okay, so why don't you tell me about today? what happened through out the day and how did you feel about it all?" she asks and i shrug, slouching.

"first day at school being pregnant init, i'm obviously going to worried and nervous-" i say and she nods, i shrug again, "i don't really know, we walked in, obviously everyone had to look to watch us walk in for fucks sake, first lesson i just slept through, same with the rest, each lesson i was just-" i take a breath, thinking of my words, "waiting!" i say and she narrows her brows.

"for what?" she asks and i just play with the hot cup.

"for something bad to happen, for me to trip and fall, embarras myself, for someone to piss me off, for someone to come up and just, pester me!" i answer.

"and did they?" she asks and i just look at the tea.

"we went to music, me and Josh and nothing happened until we had to go to our assigned rooms, Mary was there and kept making comments, asking if i've put on weight, she kept- she kept looking at my stomach and it's not- it's not something i take to comfortably, i asked the teacher and told her what Mary kept saying and she told me-"i breath a laugh, "she told me something like i'm not fat, i'm just pregnant-" i'm sensing a theme here, "so i left the class and went over the road to the little field with Josh and had a talk with him about everything!" i explain.

"and did it help?" she asks and i shrug.

"well he made me cry so, good sign, not bad sign!" i say and she nods.

"and what did you talk about?" she asks and i let out a breath, thinking back to it.

"well, i first asked how people knew i was pregnant when i told no one and he said your scent changes, then i told him about how i felt during school, how i felt about being made to go to school-" i take a large breath, "just talked, then i asked him about him and Maya!" i smile, breathing a small laugh at how he reacted to that question.

"and what do you think about Josh?" she asks and i look at her.

i once again shrug, "he's fun, bubbly, really kind, but it's also like he always knows what to say, or what i need to feel better-" i give a small smile, "i can talk to him and he doesn't judge at all!" i say and she nods.

"Josh sounds like a good friend!" she says and i nod.

"he is!" i simply say and she smiles.

"what happened next?" she asks and i let out a breath

"the bell went and i didn't want to go, but i did and when i walked in people just kept fucking looking, like what's their problem" i glare at the tea, "Maya ran up and jumped into Josh's arms, that was adorable, made me miss Aidan and Nathan a bunch, we kept walking and that prick nearly bumped into me, fucking prick!" i grumble and she nods, "he pushed me about a few, but when i tried to get past he grabbed the back of my hair so i kicked him in the crotch, he let go, but when i tried to continue walking his friend grabed me, Josh punched them, told them to get go and then the prick went to punch Josh with his hand turned to stone, so i kicked the back of his knee and all thought about my self dodging the shot hit too late and- got hit!" i shrug.

"you don't seem to be that bothered by this!" she says and i breath a laugh.

"the amount of times i've been hit by that prick is- is a large number!" Aidan and Nathan growl, pulling me back slowly while i stay in my same position before they pull me off of the table onto their laps while i innocently look at Jane.

"and why do you think he bullies you?" she asks and i scoff.

"because he saw how my mum tret me, heard about my dad and hit a soft spot when he was bugging me that i didn't react too kindly to!" i simply say and she nods.

"and how did your mum treat you?" she asks and i just lay my head against Nathan's chest.

"after that, Aidan and Nathan came and took me home and i just- for me to go home i need to get punched in the face and that's what it takes to be sent home?" i ask and then just shake my head.

"why don't you want to go to school?" she asks and i look at her.

"why?" i repeat, "why? back to the place i was bullied, treat like shit, attacked THRICE now while pregnant, um, where i was kidnapped, where i was judged, underestimated, Why?"i repeat and she just listens, "last time i knew what i did wrong, i made a deal to go for a month and a half and it turned into what, half a month because of shit that happened and my heath!" i say and she nods, i let out a long breath, "there's to many people-" i say, mumble even, "theres to many people who don't like me or i just don't know!" i add and she nods.

"and are you afraid of these people?" she asks and i shrug.

"depends on the situation, i'm afraid of the different possibilities going to school could lead to!" i admit and she nods, "i'm afraid of being taken, loosing something i love, i'm scared of not know what to do when something bad does happen!" i admit once again and she nods, writing everything down, "i think everything just hit me in one big blow and i just don't know what to do with everything-" i explain and she looks up to me from her notes, "i was so pissed when i shifted into my fox, i wasn't thinking, dad realised before me what just happened and when i did i wasn't upset i was so fucking pissed off, i went streight to Jack after getting dressed, i didn't even feel or notice he gave me a shot of whatever the fuck that shot is to 'calm your nerves' and when i woke up i wasn't angry, i just didn't know what to do, i didn't know if i was happy or angry that i'm pregnant and it's annoying!" i say, curling up, "i can't hate them, i could never hate them, but i'm eighteen and if they are another nine then i'm an eighteen year old with eighteen pups!" i say and she nods, "then Josh said while we were talking, maybe the more uncomfortable it feels the more pups there is and that's shit me up!" i say and she nods, "it doesn't feel the same as last time, everything is just different, different feelings, different wants, i know what i need to do but i don't know!" i say to her and she nods.

"your tea's getting cold!" she says and smiles, the spontaneous action catching me quite of guard to which i just sit there with a blank expression, no thoughts, no feelings....."it's normal, Raden, wether this is the second time round or not, it's a different pregnancy, there different pups, different sircumstances, you feel different because it is different-" she got a point, she looks down at my tea and so do i, seeing the little bit of smoke, i smile and breath a small laugh, i pick the tea up and take a sip of it, the warmth so soothing, "i think you just need to relax, don't think too much about it, spend some time with your family, as in, your mates and your pups, take it carefully, one step at a time, you'll be fine, you did an amazing job with the others, these are going to be just as good!" i smile and she does too when the door bursts open.

"JACK!" i stand up and turn around, fear flooding through me at the sound of my mothers voice, Aidan and Nathan join, we walk out and see Bow laying limply in my mums arms and i scream, i slap my hand over my mouth and mum looks at me with panic written all over her, "he won't wake up!" she says and i just fall, my vision going blury and arms catching me.