i sit in music, waiting to be able to go to our assigned groups and work on what we need to work on, "go, go, go!" she says enthusiastically while i just slug around, i walk into the room i'm supposed to be in and see Mary sitting down.

she turns and looks at me, she then looks me up and down, "putting on a bit of weight there, Raden!" she scoffs and i growl, Kyle walks in and i let out a breath, thankful for it, "don't you think, Kyle?" Kyle looks at me.

"what?" he asks, clueless.

"Raden's putting on a bit of weight!" she smirks and i glare at her, they both look down to my stomach and i turn around and walk out of the room, i am not staying in a room with that bitch, she could attack me again.

i walk up to the teacher and see she's sorting through some papers, "miss?" i call and she looks up, "can you please move Mary out of our group, she is being very disrespectful and saying i'm putting on weight!" i explain and she gives me a sypathetic smile.

"oh, dear, your not fat, it's because you-" i growl cutting her off, how do people even know?

i walk out of the room and see Josh sat, "Josh, we'er going!" i say and he jumps up.

"why and where?" he asks, following after me as i just walk out, making sure i don't go too far from him.

"how do people even know i'm pregnant, i've told no one?" i ask, putting my and to my forehead.

"your scent changes when your pregnant, it happens to everyone!" he says, "well not me, or anyother male werewolf, we can't get pregnant, i mean those who can get pregnant, like you obviously!" he says quickly and i let out a breath, openning the front doors, "are you okay?" he asks worriedly and i just shake my head, "want to talk about it?" he asks as we walk across the parking lot to the field on the otherside.

we sit down on a table with our feet on the bench and i let out a breath, "I just feel so insecure about it, i am constantly worried, thinking something's going to go wrong and no one sees it, no one understands!" i explain, he sits there and listens.

"what about your dad?" he asks and i shake my head.

"he was out of school when he had Derak, so he doesn't know!" i say, my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands, "there's too many people here that i don't trust, i mean you and Derak walk around the school freely and no one has ever even questioned it, not even the human teachers or students!" i say and he breaths a laugh and nods.

"kinda shit!" he says and i just let out a long breath, "well, i'll always be here, even around your mates and even after you give birth!" he says and it makes me feel a bit better, knowing i have him, he was there when i was kidnapped for the second time. i helped him with his mate, and he's going to be futur Beta, "what do you think it's gonna be? how many? how much is max for your kind?" he asks and i shrug.

"it feels different from last time, it's more uncomfortable!" i say honestly to him and he nods.

"isn't it the more uncomfortable it is the more pups you'll have?" he asks and i shurg, how am i supposed to know?

"i don't know, the max anyone has had naturaly is 12, but i will not have 12 pups, that's too much!" i chuckle and he laughs along.

"that'll be 21 pups!" i nod, "but if you have another nine, it'll be eighteen, that's still a lot!" he says and i agree, it is a lot, "but if it feels more uncomfortable, it might be more!" he says and i just let out a long breath, everything in me worrying about the futur and whats to come, what might happen, "but you have people, you have Alpha and Luna Codek, Aidan and Nathan, me and Maya, your mum and dad, Derak and the other pack members that don't mind helping out, plus, the nine you already have know how to walk and feed themselves now, so all you need to do is give them their bottles and watch them while feeding the others!" he has a point, as he talks about it it calms my nerves almost, it calms my worrying knowing theres people here to help, "you also need to know that there may be a lot of people who don't like you, but there are a hella lot more people, stronger people from all species that have your back, that's including two very strong and very large packs!" he says with a smile and places his hand on my shoulder, "you helped me when you didn't need to, i've got your back always, even if it's out of my reach, i've got your back!" he says and i nod.

"thanks!" he's so sweet sometimes, him saying that he has my back, this little speech he gave me hit me hard, i feel a pang at my heart and my eyes well up, "shit-" i breath a laugh and he smiles.

"it's alright!" he says and i wipe my eyes, "it's normal to be emotional when pregnant!" he smiles and i roll my eyes.

"yeah, well i sure as hell don't want to be crying like i did last time, i never fucking stopped!" i laugh and he laughs too.

"that's because your naturally sensetive to everything, so when your pregnant, it increases that facter!" he explains and i nod, understanding... way better then him, "i don't think anyone can complain about your emotions with how you are normally!" he says and looks away innocently and i punch his arm.

"hay, i'm not morngey-" i think for a second, "all the time!" i laugh and he laughs along with me, "how are you and Maya?" i ask and he stops laughing and just smiles.

"i love her so much!" he says, standing up on the table and climbing over it, "she's so adorable, she's shy, but she's so calm and funny and kind and loving, oh i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with her!" he says dreamily sitting back down, "imagine how beautiful she would look carrying my pups, i bet Aidan and Nathan think your gorgeous when you start to show, she'll glow, i just know and imagine our pups, they would have her eyes, my hair, her personality but my hyperactive behaviour because, it makes life so much more fun and there wont be anyone to tell them not to mess around and play around, i'll build them the best obsticle course known to man, one that me and Maya can go on too to play, oh, they are going to grow up to be big and strong and healthy-" he rambles on and on about her and their futur family while i just sit with my knees up watching how he beams while talking about his mate, she loves him so much, i'm not suprised at all, i couldn't love Aidan and Nathan more, i'm not going to lie, part of me loves them more than- more then my pups, but the other part loves my pups more then my mates, it depends on the moment i think, like now, i love my pups more, i get to see them today, they've been gone for two week on this holliday, im gonna scream at mum, Alpha mum had to come back for pack duties, i think she came back yestirday, Beta is also with my pups and a few pack guards, they should be getting closer and closer to home now.

i hear the bell ring and i look back to the school, hearing the movement, i really don't feel like going through, anxiety pools in my stomach and i hate it, "i guess we have to go back, right?" i ask and he nods.

"or i'll get fired!" he laughs and i smile.

i stand up and walk back to the school. i open the door slowly, seeing everyone start to take there places as it's lunch time, i walk through with Josh next to me, both of us noticing the eyes that turn to us. i look away from them, feeling so self concious, i'm already a scarred monster, now i'm going to be a fat one too and everyone here already knows it. i feel someone bardge past me, waking me up and i turn around, "hay, watch where your going dickhead!" i growl and continue walking Josh standing tall.

"sorry-"

"there no need, Josh, he just bardged me is alright, i'm okay!" i say quickly and he looks down, i look forwards and see Maya running up, i smile to her and she smiles back before jumping into Josh's arms.

"hi baby!" he hums happily, "we just went out, Raden needed some fresh air so i had to go with him, someone just bardged past him, but he said he's okay!" he says quickly and she smiles then looks to me.

"Hi, Red, hope you are okay!" she says politely and i nod.

"course i am!" i say with a smile to reasure her and she nods before turning back to her mate, he keeps holding her while we walk through the corridor.

we turn the corner and i stop right in my tracks when i nearly bump into someone, i look up and go slightly pale, "hi shorty!" he scoffs and Josh growls, "what you going to do?" he says, pushes my shoulder, waiting for Josh's reaction while i push his hand away, "what you going to do?" he says and laughs, he goes to push me again but i step out of the way, i go to walk past but he grabs my hair, Josh growls loudly.

"let go of him, Now!" Josh says in a way that makes me shiver out of fear.

but this prick doesn't move, "why, what you going to do? didn't you get benched from being Alpha becuase of how annoying you are?" he scoffs and i grip his hand for him to let go, but when he doesn't i twist a bit and kick him in the balls, "oh, you little shit!" he goes to punch me but i dodge, then feel someone grab my arms with a dead grip, Josh jumps in and hits the guy.

"Leave!" Josh demands, his eyes turning dark and the guy just scoffs.

i look down to his fist and see it turn grey, he throws it and i kick Josh's knees, causing him to fall while forgetting to dodge for myself so instead it hits me, my head spinning, but not enough for my to fall, but nealy fall, if it wasn't for Maya. there's a loud growl shooting through the hall as my jaw feels broken, i look up and see both Aidan and Nathan walking down quickly, the guy just laughs, "aww, you called for your little ma-" he gets punched to the ground, i look up and see it's Nathan who punched him, Nathan comes over to me while i'm trying to put my jaw back into place, Aidan punches him madly, he did promise to bash their teeth in. i lean into Nathan and he wraps his arms around me, i told them to just let me stay home and on the first day it backfires.

"come on!" he says and picks me up, Aidan and Josh following on.

"Raden, why the hell did you do that?" Josh asks, slightly annoyed with me, "i could have taken the punch, i would have been healed by now!" he has a point, but i shrug.

"i just did it, i didn't want you getting hurt because of a bully who's been hiding all this time!" i mumble because i can barely open my jaw. i keep masarging it until i click it back into place, hissing at the pain, i'm placed in the car and i just sit in it, thankful to go home.