i wake up in the very familiar room, i sit up and cross my legs, looking at either side of me to see them both asleep. i'm not that angry at them anymore like, but i still feel betrayed by them, why did they think it was a good idea to put a butt plug in me, i mean, if they didn't i would have been embarrassed and feel just as uncomfortable, but i also wouldn't be pregnant...sorry, possibly pregnant. i already have nine pups, all nearly two and walking, with them and the new pups too everything will just be a big mess and.....what if theres a repeat with my health, what if everything goes to shit? what if something bad happens and i can't do anything because i'm fat? it was so painful last time, so fucking painful.. imagine having another litter of nine, that's eighteen fucking pups to care for, eighteen kids, i'm gonna need so much help, guess it's a good thing to have two ma-

"Raden!" i snap my head up and see Jack looking at me worriedly, Aidan and Nathan are just sat there looking slightly pale, but also looking at me.

"sorry, what?" i ask and they hug me.

"positive!" he says, holding up the board with the marks on.

"oh!" i say casually and they look at me, more puppies, more cute fluffy puppies and they are all mine to care for look after and love and play with, oh the pups are going to love them, big brother and sisters, oh this is going to be so fun, they are going to be so kind and i'm going to teach them all to behave and play nice and everything i struggled with during the nine pups i'll know how to handle, oh this is going to be amazing....

"little red?" i snap out of my second daze, "you keep zoning out!" Aidan says and i smile a bit, but it's going to be so tiring, i'm going to become even fatter, what if theres more, it hell with nine one year olds, and now a bunch of new borns too...

i look up at yet again them saying my name, this time a cup of water waiting for me, i shake my head slowly, the pack is going to be so big and strong, they get to grow up with their older brother and sisters, oh, i can't wait for it all, i already feel a connection to the kit, Aidan and Nathan are going to be so good now that they know how to deal with naughty pups, they'll be so good with them...

i look around the room and see everyone just stood there waiting on me, i blink a few times...but it'll be so painful, the amount of gamon i ate last time, it was nice, but there was too much of it, i couldn't stop eating, i was a fucking wale and my dad even saw i was fat, i will be fat, i'll be so fat and i won't be able to stand up properly and Aidan and Nathan are going to struggle to do anything, i can't be pregnant...

"-do you think he's okay?" no? yes, i'm okay, they are my puppies, i could never hate or not want any of them, knowing how the nine went, these ones will be even better, they will play with the older pups, but what if they don't like them, what if they start fighting? what if they hurt each other? oh god, i'm freaking out again aren't i?

before anything i just stand up and walk out of the room, i turn towards the exit and just walk outside and sit in the garden for some fresh air, "little red?" i hear Nathan call and i just stare out into the open.

"i'm freaking out again!" i whisper as questions and theories and possibilities run through my head, "we've already got nine pups, what if there's another nine, that's eighteen fucking pups, the nine are going to be two when these are born, what if they don't like them? they'll get jealouse, what if everything just falls apart? eighteen pups, eighteen fucking pups, What the FUCK?!" my voice raises and they just sit there, "oh there going to be so adorable!" i smile, my eyes glistening as i bring my knees up and hug them to my chin, "i wonder how many theres going to be, if theres another nine, how the hell will we be able to look after eighteen pups is beyond me!" i take a deep breath knowing the twins are itching to hug me with how they keep attempting to come closer, "i'm going insane!" i say my eyes staring streight into space, "what if something really bad happens? what if there's another runt and we don't get to him quick enough, oh my god, what if a pup dies?!" i gasp, putting my hands to my head and at this they both growl and pull me to them.

"no pups will die, we have alot of people who will help-"

"what if we need more space? eighteen pups will want eighteen rooms, is there even enough room in this place?" i ask and they look at me, they sigh.

"i'll talk to dad about it, see if they can build another, bigger house for us!" Aidan says softly and i just slowly nod...

"but then you two will be becoming Alpha's and you'll be really really busy with that, what if i can't take care of them all by mys-" they cut me off with large growls.

"don't even say that!" Aidan growls.

"we don't care how busy we are, we will always put you and the pups first no matter what!" Nathan says strictly.

"people will have to be understanding, plus, there's Josh and Luke that don't mind helping and our allies!" and idea pops into my head.

"what if Josh will be Alpha?" i ask with a smile and they look at me with a dead look, growling possessivly over their rightful spot, i stop smileing, "nevermind!" i smile and they hug me close.

"we can't and won't let go of that spot, but we can make him our Beta, he's more then qualified for the position, don't forget he is rightfully an Alpha, that's his born position for being a first born, so he'll be more then happy about taking spot as our Beta, especially since we will need him close at all times in case we have an emergancy, with him already being trained for the Alpha position and with his Alpha blood and everything, he'll be able to take over and do the job as Alpha as good as us, if not better as he is older and has more experience!" Aidan rambles, thinking outloud more like.

"but we need to talk with dad about all of this, he is still the Alpha of this pack and will not react well if we decide o take the spot behind his back and act like the Alphas when we aren't!" Nathan says softly and i nod.

"oh my god-" i gasp and they both freak out slightly, "Maya can be my nani!" i clap my hands and they both look at me dead.

"well if Josh will be our beta, that's if he want to, she will be the Beta female, which means she'll be your Beta!" he says and i look at him.

"what about school?" i ask softly and they look at me, "i am NOT going!" i say sternly and they both groan.

"Raden, you have to go, your attendance is already one of the worst in the school!" Nathan says and i shrug.

"i litterally sleep through the lessons anyway!" i say like it's obvious....because it IS. "last time cased so much havok!" i pout, crossing my arms.

"yeah, but Luke is now friends and he knows not to be a prick or i'll bash his teeth in again!" Aidan says calmly and with a polite smile on his face like he is waiting for it to happen.

"i can't go!" i say, curling up tighter, the breaze brushing past me when something heavy and fluffy gets thrown onto me, i yelp in surprize and then see my bear getting lifted from me, my dad glaring and a smirking Derak.

"thoght you would apreciate if we brought Ted over here seems as you live here now!" Derak smiles and then sits down, "what's up with you lot?" Derak asks and dad sits down, putting Ted with me as i latch onto it as always when he is slowly given to me face to face, i look over his shoulder, Aidan and Nathan still holding me.

"did you go to Jack?" dad asks and i look away.

"yeah!" i mumble, hiding behind Ted.

"wait, are you pregnant?" Derak blurts out, "is that why your sad?" i glare at him and snarl, "geeze, sorry!" he leans back with his arms up.

"don't worry, Red, you did such a good job with the other pups and with everything that was going on, they should be coming back tomorrow, aparently they absolutely loved it!" he says and i hug the bear tighter, the want for my puppies back growing again as i miss them terrebly, Aidan and Nathan holding me tighter, "you'll do perfect with this litter, you'll be fine!" he reasures and moves closer, i move to him, he wraps his arms around me and i hug him around his chest, my head against his chest as he takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly, "i love you, Red!" he says and i smile.

"i love you too, dad!" i whisper, listening to his heart beat, he taps my back softly.

"anyway, other then the big mess, how was school?" he asks with a chuckle and i just let out a breath.

"i slept through it, not going back!" i say and he laughs.

"you really want to fight for that part?" he asks and i look up with a pleading look, "give me three reasons why you shouldn't go to school and being pregnant isn't one of them!" he says and i smile, it's a fake smile.

"well-" i think, "it could be dangerous, there are load of people there that don't like me, last time i got hit!" i say and he nods.

"2?" he asks and i look down.

"i don't need school, i get hundred percent on all of my exams and i sleep through it all!" he scoffs.

"no you don't!" he says and i pout.

"okay, english is shit and i have always struggled, i get 90 percent at least!" i say and he rolls his eyes.

"next!" he says and i sigh.

"what if-" my heart breaks a bit, my stomach tenses and i have to take a deep breath, "w-what if-" this is harder to say then last time, "what if lab rat comes back!" i say looking down at his chest and he just sighs.

"he's locked up!" Aidan and Nathan are growling, but my dad is kind of right, he is locked up.

"he's locked up, but we don't know if there are others who are working with him, so many people in that school hate me, you can't expect me to be comfortable with being there, anything could happen!" i say, getting slightly defencive.

"anything like what?" i growl.

"Anything could happen, i don't know what would happen, it's fucking nine month i got to be pregnant, and with this unusual streak of not getting a beating from one of my bullies, i won't be surprised if they catch me off guard, some time soon!" i growl, "i didn't start getting beaten when i found out i was Aidan and Nathan's mate, i've been beaten many times and even with them, they didn't stop!" i say and the twins are growling at the news they have been shown to.

"yes well, each time Aidan and Nathan have taken care of it, next?" he asks and i growl again.

"last time i practically couldn't move within two month of the pregnancy because of my health went completely down hill-"

"what did you eat?" he asks and i groan.

"they fed me loads and loads of raw gamon!" dad nods, "they made sure i ate plenty of veg-" he nods again, "there fucking werewolves, i'm a mesely little, under developed fox and i'm giving birth do there fucking pups, have you seen the size of them!" Derak found this funny, "shut up!" i snap and dad growls at me.

"stop getting nasty!" he says and i growl, going to get up when he pulls me back down, "you may be pregnant but that gives you no excuse to being nasty!" i growl at him and snatch my arm back.

"it is when i'm trying to protect my pups from ANY possibilities and all you lot are caring about are my fucking grades!" i say and walk away, if nothing happens, nothing happens, but the possibility that something does fucking happen is there and it could be as little as being tripped up to as bad as being beated to a pulp or taken even, i don't take chances with this, i said i'd go for a month and a half and it turned out to be around a month because of shit popping up, "i learned my fucking lesson from last time i was fucking pregnant and went to school for a month and a half, it was so fucking bad that i was sleeping in Nathan's school bag while in fox form because i didn't want to leave them that fucking bad, and even then there was people trying to piss me off!" i shout back and they just stand there while i slam the door shut, "this fucking day needs to get fucking burnt the fuck down!"

"Raden?" i turn and see Alpha and Alpha mum looking worried, "what's wrong?" she asks and i sigh.

"they are making me go to school while pregnant, i'm not doing it, you know how bad last time was, i'm not risking it!" i say and they both just look at me.

"Pregnant?" Alpha asks and i just look at him, he then goes angry, "what did they do?" he asks and i glare.

"what do you mean?" i ask and he rolls his eyes.

"they aren't allowed to do anything with you, they are still grounded!" he says and i nod.

"well, first we took a trip to get some food, the got be in the car, then they also got me in the school bathroom and decided it was a good idea to put a butt plug in me to stop it from looking like i pissed myself through the day, i got home and dad got me to go on a run, i was so pissed i didn't think about it, the twins did try to warn me, but i was so pissed at them!" i say casually and they just look at me, "i know, shit int it?" i say and they shake their heads.

"i'll go talk to them!" Alpha mum says and i look at her.

"with this school thing, you do need to go, Raden-" Alpha begins,

"i know i do, but i'm not risking anything, i risked enough last time and i ended up with a runt!" i say and he nods.

"i know, but, you still need to go, there will be good days and bad days, go on the good days, not on the bad days, but don't milk it, one of us, whoever you see first will check if your up for the day, if not we let you stay home, but other then that you go!" i let out a long breath.

"i'm not going in when i start to show!" i say and he shakes his head.

"you'll go in when we say go in!" he says and i growl at him, "don't growl at me, son, this is still my house and my pack!" he says and i turn around and walk away, this is so going to backfire.